Inside Kimmy’s Mind

I am not gonna write about school, and the stress that I am feeling because of it. (Minus this first sentence that is.) So this entry is going to be part Dave McKean, Linger, and cats.

So I just finished reading Linger, the Sequel to Shiver. And again I am left with that empty feeling I get when I finish a book. And I don’t have a book to immediately start reading to fill this void. But not only do I have this empty feeling, I’m also sad because the 3rd book of this trilogy entitled Forever will not be out until July of next year. O.o WHAT? How am I supposed to wait until July? I hate having this feeling. This is the only bad thing about a book series. Its like waiting for the new season of a favorite show to return. T-T But I just remembered that the 5th book of the Immortal series is coming out on November 16th. So that makes me a bit happy. Of course I still don’t have a book to read at the moment and that annoys me. -.-

Ok next topic. Dave McKean. I have mentioned him before in my blogs, because he goes hand to hand with the great Neil Gaiman. I adore them both so much. They are my heroes, so inspiring, so absolutely amazing. They are just…amazing.  Anyway so I was at some of Dave McKean’s artwork and I really really want his tarot Cards. They are so pretty. Anyway, so I found some videos that he made and I really love this short video McKean made for Shakespeare’s Sonnet 138. It of course made me think of Mirror Mask. But this is obviously McKean’s style of art. His artwork is so magical. I really want to watch the new movie Luna. But I have no idea when it will come out because there really isn’t any information about it. Come on Dave, I really want to watch it. This movie poster sort of reminded me of the movie Pan’s Labyrinth. If you haven’t seen that movie along with Mirror Mask I highly recommend it. So go watch it…NOW. :3

So after watching McKean’s vids on youtube and being let down when I couldn’t find anything on Luna. I noticed this vid called The Cat with Hands. Neil talked about this creepy short film on his blog after someone suggested it to him. If you dislike cats in anyway then this will only make you hate them more. And maybe even fear them.  I however still love cats. :3

Today’s song is Just the way you are by Keith and Renee. I heard this song on an episode of Degrassi. lol I also couldn’t find this song anywhere. So I had to buy it off Amazon for 99 cents. >.<

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Words of advice, never trust a cat with hands.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIJA!!!! Today my older sister turns 25! She is so old. hahaha

Ok so I’ve learned that not all counselors are there to help you. I am transferring and I have a lot of questions that I need answered before I register for classes. And I’m not even allowed to register for classes anyway because I have this TSI hold.

STUPID MATH YOU RUIN MY LIFE!

-.- (ahem) So I decided to email the head adviser at the Uscholars center. I replaced important information with blah blah.

Hello,
My name is Kim Vera and I am transferring to UH in Aug. But I have been having trouble with registering for classes, and the advisers I have been dealing with have not answered my questions. I realize that U of H is a large university and with all incoming freshmen and transfer students it must be difficult to handle each students problems. But the semester is drawing near and I still have yet to register for classes. I am fully aware that I have a TSI hold. During ART I met with blah blah (a counselor) and she had said that she didn’t have my THEA scores. I was confused as to why this information wasn’t included in the transcripts I sent over. But these scores were too low anyway and didn’t help me in anyway. But still she said that she needed these scores and to fax them over as soon as possible. I explained to her that I am currently taking math 0408 but this class doesn’t end until August 18th and classes start the 23rd. This doesn’t give me enough time to enroll a week before classes start. I then went to talk to my Counselors at Brazosport Community College and they showed me my official transcript with the THEA scores listed. So I faxed my scores last week and I still couldn’t register. I was under the impression that once I faxed those scores the hold would be lifted. I tried calling blah blah at her office since she hasn’t replied to my last email. But she wasn’t there so I called the Uscholar center. I am then told information that I directly told blah blah  during ART, that my THEA scores weren’t high enough. I was then told that I would have to meet with an adviser and they would help me with this situation. But I am confused because if that is all I needed to do then why wasn’t this addressed during ART? I explained my scores weren’t high enough and that I was taking a math class yet still the hold wasn’t lifted. I don’t mean to sound rude, but I am just concerned that the classes I have selected will close and I will not have a schedule for the upcoming fall semester. If you could call me at blah blah  I would like to discuss this further or if you can meet with me I would really appreciate it.

Hope to hear from you soon,
Kim Vera

She replied quickly saying that the counselor I was emailing was no longer part of the Uscholars program and that is why I didn’t hear back from her. -.- How difficult is it to send me an email telling me that? Is it difficult to give me another adviser to work with? I’m so frustrated. Anyway she said that she has their records specialist working on a solution. And that she will reply to me soon. I really hope they get back to me as soon as possible. I’m just worried, what if they don’t find a solution? >.< That scares me.

Anyway so enough about frustrating things. For the past two weekends Mija and Jody(sis’s boyfriend) came and stayed with us. He bought this game Munchkin and now we play all the time. We are so nerdy I love it.  And I have fun playing the game. Its how I bonded with my future brother-in-law. During this game we were in a dungeon where you were switched to the opposite sex and have to change your name. If any player called you by your real name they lost a level.  lol  Mija was the one who said our names the most. Also my best friend Missy just had her first ultra sound. She sent me a picture and I was like oh wow. This is so surreal. She is going to have a baby! XD And I feel so special that she keeps me updated. I love her so much. I keep calling her baby sea monkey. I probably shouldn’t call her/him that anymore. Especially when it does have a sex.

Sea Monkey!!!!

I updated Mind-Speaks.

So I went to Oni-con this past weekend. And got to see the Jrock band Born, and the solo artist Satsuki. Their performances were the only ones I was awake for. The two other opening acts were really unnecessary.

Which sucks because Tomo from echostream is adorable and an excellent guitarist. He should be in a band with other hot talented Japanese men. Not weird Americans minus the female singer. I think she is Japanese. Anyway, I didn’t like their songs at all. So I sat to the side of the mob of people and slept. Yes slept. How does one sleep during a concert? Well since you asked. For me it was quite easy. These concerts don’t always have a lot of people. So it wasn’t like the whole room was packed. Like I said I sat off to the side and just put my hood over my head a fell asleep during the boring performances. Simple. But I was immediately awoken by Born’s performance. They scream a lot. But I didn’t rejoin the mob. I’m one of those lazy people at concerts. I don’t always get into the head banging. Normally I stay in the crowd for a while. But since I stayed up making the Halloween bags for the band I wasn’t in the moshing mood. Nor was I in the mood to be drenched in the singers spit. He would occasionally take gulps of water and spray the audience. He also occasionally touched himself or would slide the mic down his throat for an awkward dirty reference. What would a Jrock concert be without fanservice? The singer would kiss his band mates which I find hilarious. This is the first band I’ve seen live that did that much fanservice. Phantasmagoria didn’t really do that, 12012 not so much, Sugar and Dio I don’t remember either of them partaking in fanservice. But anyway it was really fun. I was tired as hell but I still had fun.

I got a Cure Magazine which Born signed and a cute Panda bento. I love bento boxes they are so cute. This is my second one. It was one of the cheaper ones yet still expensive. In Japan this bento would cost like 10 bucks. But here in America it is 20. >_< Not fair. Kat got one as well except hers is a pig. I found a frog and bear one online. So I might buy them the next time I get money. Whenever that is…anyway I only went Friday for the concert and Saturday for the Q&A and photo/autograph sessions. Since they did that all on one day I just slept in on Sunday. The hotel they had it at this year was too small. They should have it at the George Brown Convention Center again, because although they were unorganized with it you had room to move around and breathe. And another thing I hate about conventions is that older people should dress in proper attire. Like cover up. I mean really did some of these women feel comfortable wearing nothing? I mean even chicks that have the bodies to wear nothing wore more clothing than this certain lady. I turn the corner and hello cellulite. I mean I don’t mean to be rude. But for the love of chocolate cover up. I mean dress your age. And underwear is not an outfit. Nor can it be used when cosplaying as a character. It should be worn under clothing, or over if you wish. But never by itself. GAHhhh The memory is reburning my retinas. >_< So aside for the venue being too small, and old people not covering up and people getting in my way, it went well. The lines weren’t as bad as they were for Phantasmagoria. So thats was cool. And I got to meet interesting Japanese artists and get their autographs.

So that pretty much sums up my weekend. I am now being slapped by reality now. But on the plus side I made a 92 on my Web Design test that I didn’t really study for. All I did was skim through the power points before my class. I do not suggest you to make this a permanent study habit…or in my case having no study habit at all. On the minus side, I haven’t finished my Web Design assignments so I need to finish those asap. Another minus, because there is always more minuses than pluses. MY CELL PHONE IS BREAKING. I didn’t even drop it. Both my mom and sister’s cell have the same problem. But theirs is due to dropping their cell with great force. And theirs are in worse condition than my own. But its not a coincidence that they are all cracked in the same spot. How is that even possible? Anyway, I have to wait til January until I can get a new cell. And I am one of the world’s most impatient inhabitants. So waiting is like excruciating pain to me. Ok so I’m exaggerating I know its not that long until January. But still. So it doesn’t really cause me physical pain. But it does cause me emotional pain. My cell is an extension of me, and I have become the type of person that communicates via text messaging all the time. I never thought I was that type of person (theres absolutely nothing wrong with cell people) I just never thought I would have to have my cell with me every time I left the house in order to function right. And thats exactly how it is for me. So I can still use my cell right now, but its cracked and pretty soon its death is likely to happen sooner rather than later. Before you know it the screen will no longer be attached to the number pad. I doubt it will still work after that happens. So I must be careful with my dying cell phone. T-T I hope it can last until January. I can’t wait until I get a new cell. Its time for a new one. Minus number 3 I believe? I have no idea what to paint for art. It can be anything. And I am having trouble? Sucks. Must think creatively and artistically. Hopefully I can dreamstorm (Garrett’s term) tonight.

Ok night world. I need motivation!

At this exact moment I am watching the show Lie to Me and I can’t help but wish I was able to tell when others were lying by hand movements and facial expressions. That would be nice.

I am in a little predicament. I have a test later today in Web Design. I haven’t studied. At all. I also have a painting due tomorrow before my test. And now what am I doing at the moment? Well Lie to Me just finished, and I am updating my blog now stopping every now and then to straighten my hair. -_- I really do need to learn how to use my time wisely. Because if I don’t I will keep getting myself into these situations with my classes. Bleh I mean I already stay up half the night reading so its not like I would get more sleep if I did use my time wisely. >_< But I felt like I should take time to update my blog right now because I haven’t updated a lot this month and I felt like something was missing because of it. So here I am updating about procrastinating. Among the other things I keep putting off are sending my best friend her care package. Sorry about that Missy. I keep putting it off because truth be told I haven’t quite finished stuffing it with enough things to make you smile. I mean I know I can send multiple packages at different times but I want the first package to be epically awesome. ^_^ So just know it will get to you as soon as I deem it worthy.

Ok so I am extremely pissed at the idiot that is my cousin Gabby. But she is no longer my cousin, yup I disown her as a member of my family. I no longer want anything to do with her nor do I care what happens to her in the future. I am passed caring. As children we didn’t always see each other and when we did we never got along. She was usually busy conning me out of something I owned. Thankfully, as I got older I started using the complex organ known as my brain; and when she and her family moved into my home, (after a number of years of not seeing each other) I got smart. Which is more than I can say for her. Now I’m sure you’re thinking, “Gosh what a harsh bitch.” But you see I’m not being harsh. I am merely speaking the truth. Now I am aware that it is pretty bitchy sounding but true nonetheless. Also you have no idea what type of person she is. I have updated about her before. Except in my previous entries she remained nameless. I had some common decency. However, now any sympathy I had for her is long gone. I don’t really want to get into explaining the idiocy that is Gabby so I wont. I just felt the need to vent the anger I have towards her. I am tired of being related to an idiotic narcissist. In her small not fully developed brain, lies nothing but thoughts concerning herself. Yes I know duh a person thinks of themselves often because…well we can’t help that. But when it comes to family and friends? No only Gabby herself has pain. No one else in the world exist or feels anything. I have also had it up to here with how she treats her mother. Her mother is my mom’s twin sister. And she just so happens to be my favorite Aunt. And I don’t like it when my family is being mistreated. Especially if its by another family member. (But she no longer a member of my family) Now some of you might think, (not implying that there are a ton of people that read my blog) ” Aren’t you afraid of Gabby reading this entry?” Now that thought has crossed my mind but not in fear. No I hope she does read it. So she knows not to call me or IM or any other form of communication. But of course she won’t read this entry because even though it is about her she has too many other “important” things in her life to worry about. Like moving in with an older man to live the life of luxury. You see, Gabby is still stuck with the idea that happiness is only measured by having someone to f***. (Pardon my language. Normally I would just type out the word. But some common decency remains.) So instead of helping her mother, she plans to move in with a guy she ( for all I know) barely knows. Who is in fact her rebound guy. And thinks tra la la la everything will be fine. What she doesn’t see is that people get bored easily. Most of those people happen to be men.(Knock on wood when I say this. Damn you decency) And when rebound guy gets bored he is is gonna want someone else to measure his happiness. (corny I know sorry about that) Meaning he will no longer desire her taking up space in his apartment. IT IS THE 21st CENTURY DAMMIT! Women do not require men to live a happy life. I mean yes falling in love is what most women dream about. And I’m not saying I don’t wish to find that but I’m not going to fret about it now. Plus Gabby is confusing love with sex so she doesn’t fall under the sane women category.

So here is a message to my no longer cousin Gabby: Do not talk to me. Ever. I think you are past redeeming yourself. I find your selfishness tiresome and I want nothing more to do with you. I hope moving in with your current lay is worth it. And I’m not really sorry if this hurts your feelings, but lets face it we both know my words have hurt you before. But thats when I was holding back. I know this is somewhat immature and new levels of bitchy for me. But I have held my tongue too long. Judging isn’t a good thing to do. But I am merely human and I can’t help that. I just usually kept what I thought of you to myself. Well and among a few others. I really did hope you would somehow change your perspective on life and for the love of chocolate put someone else before yourself. Because f.y.i. there are other things in your life, besides guys and sex. Which to me is all you seem to care about. This isn’t to start a high school dramatic war, it was merely my last attempt to get through to you. And the last words you will hear from me. Even though I do wish to tell you so much more in person. Only I can’t handle the thought of you let alone the sight of you. Do try to take care of your health. (Theres that decency again. Damn.)

Well I should finish my hair and my painting. I let my rant exceed its limit. And I must say I feel better. Blogging about my anger has a nice after taste. (That sounds weird.) It leaves me feeling refresh. I want to take this time to apologies to my aunt if she for some reason finds and reads this entry. I’m sorry I wrote horrible things about your daughter. But I mean every word of it. And I want you to know, I love you unconditionally and expect nothing in return.

In my art class the next assignment is to paint two self portraits. One should be painted from life and the other can be more surreal or abstract.

I lack the skills to paint from life. I suck at drawing from life with a pencil let alone paint. And with that sort of medium you have more control over it and I am still horrible at it. How the hell am I supposed to paint from life? And I’m painting myself. I don’t like looking at myself in a mirror for very long. I’m just not sure how to start this. And I’m still not used to using acrylic paint. I don’t really like acrylic paint to begin with. I am a watercolor person. Anyway, so I need to start thinking of how to paint from life and and be happy with it. And not just keep using gesso over it. Bleh.

Moving on to clothes. I am loving putting different outfits together for class. Yay for finally dressing like a girl! I mix match different tops and bottoms to create totally different outfits. My classes are block schedule. So I am trying not to wear the same thing on the same day in the same class. I need to alternate and so I take a picture of my outfit every day before I go to class so I know what I wore on what day. Brilliant no? lol And also very vain. On top of the outfits is a nice hair style. I love trying different things with my hair. I really want to master the fish tail braid. But its more difficult than I thought it would be. And because of the Wear Pallet Blog that my sister talked about in an earlier blog entry. It made me want to pick out the colors in my outfits.

Then it started making me think of the meanings behind colors. Which again goes back to Mija’s same blog entry where she linked the Colorstrology site. Interesting things if you ask me. Next thing on my list of things to talk about is the book I’m currently reading. Sloppy Firsts by Megan McCafferty. I am loving the character Jessica Darling. Her personality is close to mine minus the fact that she is a track star. lol But the random things she thinks and says remind me of myself. And isn’t that what a good book does? You are supposed to feel a connection with the characters of a book. Otherwise you don’t feel the need to continue reading on. And this book is the first one in a five book series. So thats good that I have books to read lined up. But I never have a problem finding a book to read. But this will fill the void until November and I can get the next book of The Immortal series. And until the next book of the Sookie Stackhouse books is made into paperback.

I have web design homework to finish as well as self portraits to start and a Gov. test to take this weekend online. Pretty busy. I hope next weekend I can start that Catering job a friend offered me. Heres hoping.

*COUGH COUGH SNIFF SNIFF!*

Government class is ok.

Math is so so.

Painting looks fun.

Spanish class is…A NIGHTMARE!

Oh and I’m sick. -_-

I am so lost in that class. Apparently I didn’t understand what INT SPANISH I meant. I misread it as Intro to Spanish 1. But it actually means Intermediate Spanish aka Spanish 3! And I am in college? Sigh but in my defense the paper that listed the requirements for my major said nothing about taking a Spanish 1 and Spanish 2. It only said I had to take 2311 and 2312 Spanish courses. Which 2311 is Spanish 3. So wtf? Color me confused. I was so lost. The last time I took a Spanish class was what? Four years ago. I don’t remember the basic crap I should know to pass this class. I felt so sick just being in that class hoping it would end as soon as possible. I mean the teacher was really nice. And there were only 8 other students in the class which is an awesome number. See I have no problem reading Spanish. But I have no knowledge of basic sentence structure. So it would be insane for me to try to stick it out and risk failing the class. I have no idea how all of my exchange student friends were able to accomplish another language so fast. All of the exchange students that I met in High School had to deal with not  only one class in another language but more than one class. I feel so lame. -_- Anyway, so this nightmare lasted for three hours. I would catch a few things but most of the time I remained lost. I wish I was one of those people that could learn another language at the blink of an eye. But no. I mean really both of my parents speak Spanish. I have family that speak nothing but Spanish and I still never learned? This is seriously wrong on so many levels. So the entire three hours I kept thinking,”Shit I need to transfer into Beginning Spanish.” Yeah that is the course I should be in. So as soon as I got home I checked on the course availability list. The nightmare class is only on Tuesdays from 6pm to 9pm. So I needed a class to take its place. They only offered Beginning Spanish on Monday and Wednesdays and I have no open slots on those days. So I checked for another English class to take its place. (Stick to something I’m good at.) I mean eventually I will take Spanish but not this semester. There weren’t any English classes at the right time. So instead I will be taking Web Design (Mija will be proud) at the correct time only on Tuesdays from 6pm to 9pm. It seems perfect. I only hope it is. Another horrible part of this nightmare is that I don’t think I can sell back my 2311 Spanish books. Because I think they are getting a new edition. I hope I will be able to transfer to the web design class and not have any problems. So as soon as my Gov. class is over tomorrow I am heading to a counselor to change my class. Please let it go well. >_<

Painting seems like it is going to be fun. My cousin Ethan is in this class, so I will have someone to talk to. He gave me a ride home today. He always has such a nice vibe about him. I’m not exactly close with my extended family (and he is really my dad’s second cousin) But anyway I didn’t really grow up knowing him. To tell you the truth I met him my junior year. lol Anyway every time I do see him he always has a smile on his face and waves to me. He is so sweet. It makes me happy to know I do have nice people in my family. They aren’t all snobs.

Ok I just finished straightening my hair. I should get some sleep. Again please let things go great tomorrow. >_<

I am trying to make a purse. But it isn’t coming out the way I want it to. I for the love of chocolate cannot draw/cut a straight line. I’m not sure why. But isn’t that something you learn in like the first grade?

The night before I made Kat a Japanese knot purse. It came out better than I thought it would. Now I am trying to make myself a sling purse. Lets just say things aren’t working out. But I will not give up. I am using Beatles fabric and I can’t just waste this fabric unless I intend to use it. So its too late to go back now. I must continue on. I know I said that would try to update every day this month, but maybe I should just try every day this week or something? lol I will still try every day this month though.

TrueBlood should be coming on tonight so I’m going to watch that and hope it will get me in a more positive mood. I finished making my sling purse. I think I did a two steps wrong.  But oh well you can only learn from your mistakes right? Its reversible, unless I decide to put pockets in it.

Well first off, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIJA! Congrats on turning 24, you old lady. I kid I kid. You know I love you. Duh I made Stein for you. Thats love. So I’m still waiting for Sims 3. Yup.

Anyway, has anyone seen this trailer for the new movie 500 Days of Summer? It looks so good. It comes out on the 17th I believe. Click on the poster to make your own. I like overlapping pictures for some odd reason.  Zooey Deschanel And Joseph Gordon-Levitt are so adorable.  I’m excited and can’t wait to see this movie. I hope it has a happy ending.

Warning movie spoilers!!!!

I watched the movie Little Ashes starring Robert Pattinson and Javier Beltran. It was interesting. I’m not really sure how to describe it. As Dali, Pattinson was in many intimate scenes with Frederico aka Beltran. The characters never fully took their relationship to the stage of lovers. But they came close. Not really a disappointment with its boy on boy action. There was very limited nudity from either of the leading roles. You do see Pattinson’s pubes in two scenes but thats about it. lol And of course you see boobs, because it wouldn’t be a movie without some straight sex and nude chests. (That was sarcasm, if you couldn’t tell) Of course this movie is about Dali so it is very artistic, the romantic scene with Frederico and Dali in the ocean is shot very beautifully. Which is why while watching this movie (mainly this scene) I immediately wanted to paint something. I couldn’t resist. But all I drew was hands.

Sidetracked: To me I think that the clavicle bone is one of the most seductive bones of the human anatomy. Next to that are hands. I find hands to be equally as beautiful. No matter how they look. Hands have so many joints and muscles and parts to it that most of the time it doesn’t even occur to us how interesting hands are. Not to mention important. Then of course thinking about hands made me think about whether your right-handed or left. And then that made me think about the brain. And which side I use more. And thats basically how my brain works. I start off on one thing then end up on another entirely different topic. Sigh. So which side do you use?

Getting back to the movie, it course ends sad. Federico is kidnapped and then killed. And Dali is of course affected by his death. But remains Dali and continues on. I he died at the age of 84 in 1989. I find that so bizarre for some reason.

“Drawing is the honesty of the art. There is no possibility of cheating. It is either good or bad.” – Salvador Dali