Inside Kimmy’s Mind

I have a headache, I want to be lazy and sleep, I need to write lots of things, I want to read lots of books, I want to make a video!!! I need to study! I want/need/don’t/have to a lot of things and all at the same time!!!!!! Oh if only I could freeze time for a bit. I would do everything I needed to do before they were due. I know that would have its consequences. I have watched way too many movies.

My English class is over with, I just need to finish my last essay which I’m just about done with. Its about whats real and whats not: Sex dolls. We watched the movie Lars and the real girl. But it made me think of a documentary I watched a while back. Oh and an article I read here.

I need to finish my chapter for my SciFi class. And then I need to write an essay for my scholarship which is due next week. I keep wanting to make a vlog, I haven’t made one that wasn’t apart of the KimCateKat videos. And the last time I made one was in January. How sad is that?This weekend my family and I are going to the Japanese festival. I hope the weather is nice this weekend. I don’t want it to be too hot when we go because then I will be extremely cranky.

Anyway, math class is stressing me out so bad at the moment. I’m afraid I will fail it, I don’t want to have to repeat this class over. My final is next week and I don’t think I’m prepared for it. I mean no matter how much I study I wouldn’t be prepared/ think I can ever be prepared for it. Math isn’t just memorizing facts, and its not based on your opinion, its finding the right answer. And I can’t do that if I have no clue how to solve the problem. And there are so many rules and laws. If I forget even one step the whole problem is wrong. sigh. Its a multiple choice test which might be good. I can always guess if worse comes to worse. But I still am afraid. The final is over what I learned over the entire semester. Its not like in my History class which is just over Unit three. My English class is just an essay and my SciFi class is take home questions plus an essay. All of them I can do, except for stupid math. I hate worrying about shit like this. Because then I get in a sort of frenzy and I end up making myself sick and such. BLEH!!!!

I should finish my essays that will get my mind off potentially becoming a failure. Well I’m off to write a story and an essay.

Moments like this call for a smile. I can’t help it no self discipline.

I came across something that I just  had to mention. There are these instructional videos that my school offers to students for studying purposes. Different math teachers take turns in being in them. But while I was watching one on Quadratic expressions, I noticed something…. a spelling error! *GASP* I was taken aback. lol No not really I was just amused. Anyway, I would write down what I heard from the video but when I went back to actually watch what the teacher was writing, thats when I noticed that she had used the wrong principle. She had written principal instead. lol I love when math teachers mess up. Heck I love when any teacher messes up. lol I mean its not life threatening so I can laugh about it. Right?

As you can see, I have written the correct one in my notes. I am so smart. I know this isn’t worth a blog entry. But I’m avoiding another boring book. T_T

Ever since my sisters and I were young, we have loved matching. We basically try to match as much as possible. Of course we didn’t get this way on our own. I think it started with our mom. She used to dress us in matching outfits when we were kids. Then it somehow was programed into Mija’s mind that matching was necessary. Now that we are older it hasn’t changed a bit. I think its gotten stronger.

We like to match each other. Because we like most of the same things so its not hard to match. One of the most recent items we are currently matching is bentos. Mija just got hers in the mail Monday and we just had to take pictures of them all together. We now each have an actual bento and silverware to go with it. YAY! I know you are probably thinking wow you three are weird. Although that part is true, I think we are awesome. >_< When we match stuff we usually match by our favorite colors. Mija is blue, Kat is red, and I am green. We intend to match according to colors and personality. I don’t see matching as a bad thing. I like that we like similar things. It makes us brings us closer as sisters. Well anyway Kat made our lunches for today, I usually just eat whatever we have. But today I actually had something waiting for me. I felt so special today.

Anyway I am applying for a job at my school. I want to work in the library I hope I get the job. I am afraid that they will want someone more qualified. I don’t really have job experience besides sitting for my neighbors cat. But anyway I am hoping to get accepted and have the job for however long they let me. I mean I’m not just looking for a summer job. I want it even when I start full time classes in the fall. I will only take like one or two classes during the summer. Today I took my laptop to English. I made a sleeve for it so it wouldn’t be as obvious that I was carrying a laptop. It matches my external hard drive case with some Beatles fabric to keep it closed. I got really annoyed when making this sleeve. I am still learning on how to make things with my sewing machine. But I am so glad that I have it. You have no idea how many times its come in handy. Plus it is a nice new hobby, no matter how frustrated I get.

Papers to write:

• Drama essay for English class
• Story essay for SciFi class
• Essay for Scholarship
• Bio for Gulf volunteer stuff (this one also needs a picture of me attached)

Books to read:

• The Moon is a harsh Mistress (for class)
• All Together Dead (for me)
• Graveyard Book (for me)
• Sunshine (for me)
• From Dead to Worse (for me)

Lets just say that my “for me” list is rather long and leave it at that. I know I should be reading the book I have to read for class. But it is boring. -_- Ok so I’m not giving it a fair chance, but I’d rather be reading a book about vampires or ghosts. Sigh ok ok I will try to force myself to read this book for the sake of my grade. Gosh being a good student is tough work. >_<

Ok I thought my new friend was ignoring me because she had stopped texting me. It turns out she is grounded due to some stuff. Her parents have taken pretty much every form of communication and transportation and entertainment device from her. Why are all parents just perfect at giving the,”I am so disappointed at you,” look. I mean like grounding isn’t enough they also have to make you feel more like shit. Why do that? And the answer to that question is usually, “You will understand when you have children of your own.” But what if I don’t have children? Huh? Parents don’t think of that do they? They answer questions like that not expecting to have an answer to give you. Right? I think thats how parents see it. But I wouldn’t know since I don’t have children of my own. I really hate when parents overreact, however this also makes me appreciate my parents more. They are overprotective and they can overreact at times, but they are awesome.

Could this entry be any longer? lol I better get some sleep, I think I have to discuss my document tomorrow. I hate having to speak out loud in class. I don’t have to say much, but I never got over the shaky voice, sweaty hands syndrome when involving speaking aloud. Plus I think its because is in that class. Because when I have to speak out loud in English, I’m fine. But I guess thats because its my opinion and in History its not. lol Ok enough blogging.

And to think this entry could just keep going and going. I might never have stopped. lol jk Have fun reading this entry. If you read the entire entry then comment with this —> *-* Hopefully you don’t just read the ending and then comment. But people don’t comment any way so whats the point right? Ok good night world. In Neil Gaiman’s words, “Dream dangerously.” Whatever that means.

We all have an inner critic just waiting to be heard.

But who am I kidding my inner critic is not so much as inner, but more like worn on the outside so it can shout at everyone in its path. (Like my critic is its own person or something) Anyway, I’m going to criticize Disney’s Demi Lovato’s song Don’t forget.

Yes I watch Disney Channel! So what!

(I do not mean to offend those who love this song. To each its own.) Anyway, I thought this Disney Pop Princess would be much better than Miley Cyrus. But I was wrong. They both annoy me. I do however admit that Demi can sing, its just this song “Don’t Forget” is horrible. It is just a song with a million rhyming words. Plus the music video was horrible as well. No one looks good with rain hair, so why shoot a video with it. This is a stereotypical girl song, about relationships and blah blah. Shes like what 14? How many relationships could she possibly have had? My point is that I found this song so appalling that I had to update my blog about it. Wow, that is in no way sad. Demi Lovato isn’t as annoying as Miley Cyrus, but she is well on her way to becoming just another pain in the ass.

I can’t believe I have an opinion about this song. Damn Disney Channel.

This car was parked near my school. I thought it was cool, so I took a picture of it on my way home yesterday. I’m not too sure why it was parked there. It was still there today. And I still don’t know why. lol Anyway, I am really sleepy. I know know you are probably thinking, “You are always sleepy.” This is true, however I’m also always hungry as well. My stomach kept growling today in English. But I was too tired to care if my monster of a stomach interrupted class. I am hungry still my tummy keeps yelling at me.

(FOOD BREAK) Mommy made banana pudding its so yummy. ^_^

Ok now that my stomach is somewhat full (it never really ever is) I can now have coherent thoughts. Math today was interesting and not because of math. I can’t wait to hang out with Missy tomorrow! She is going to pick me up from class tomorrow and we are going out to lunch. I can’t wait. I miss hanging out with her. That is probably the only thing I miss about high school. Friends. I miss seeing friends in between classes and just talking. Ok well I am debating whether or not I should bring my laptop to history later today. I have a case but now I sort of want just a sleeve for it so I can put it in my purse. But I think my bag will be too heavy so I’m going to have to carry it its case anyway. I really wish I had a car. Anyway I find taking my laptop to class interesting. I took it to my SciFi class on Monday but I didn’t really use it in that class. I might use it more in History but I can’t use the power point for some reason. I have power point on my new laptop. So I don’t know whats the deal. But it might be annoying for me to carry my laptop while I walk to my first class. I could always just not pack my plug to make the case less heavy. I mean my lappy is smaller than my last computer but its still pretty heavy. I’m not sure what to do. I’m so bad when it comes to deciding between things. Well I will see how I feel when I get up tomorrow.

I better go to sleep now. I have a headache. Bye

A brand new Toshiba laptop!

Part one: My old TOSHIBA laptop finally kicked the bucket. I’m not exactly sure why it died, I guess it was age. Its going on 4 years already. And computers don’t last very long. A sad truth. I am excited and happy and any number of words with the same meaning. I am so excited that I can’t describe how excited I am. My mom bought me a new TOSHIBA laptop! And its an inch smaller than my first laptop. So if I am daring enough I can take it to school and use it there. It comes with a webcam. Besides that I like the switch between windows option. I find this option amazing. I know I am weird. I can’t wait to get the new photoshop so I can make myself a new wallpaper. Not that there is anything wrong with the wallpaper I currently have. Its just I want to make one. I got this one from this site. But its just until I can make my own. Plus with the web cam I can make videos in a different way which I will experiment with later. lol. I am just so happy with it.

Part two: On a not so happy note. I am angry with eBay. My sister ordered a bento from a person two weeks ago and we still haven’t gotten it. So we emailed them and their reply was, “Oh this item is currently out of stock.” Umm hello if it was out of stock then why did they sell it to us? If its out of stock shouldn’t it be taken off the site? I am annoyed by this. So we want our money back asap, so we can order from a different person. Plus I am really impatient when it comes to stuff like this. Well I guess I’m impatient when it comes to being patient. Yeah that makes sense. Anyway I hope we can order another snap bento for my sister as soon as possible.

Part three: I had some pictures I was going to update with but I think I lost them when my lappy crashed. So here is some pictures of what I wore on Monday!!!! I love wearing these cute stockings, my mom bought us(sisters) so many different pairs. My favorite ones are the gray ones. Along with lost pictures, I also lost my SciFi essay. I had some of it saved on my seagate, but I lost like 3 or 4 pages of it. Oh well. I just need to start writing it again its due at the end of the month. I should get on that. I also need to study for history this weekend I have a test on Monday. Bleh.

Part four: Oh I made a new friend in my math class. She hates math almost as much as me! Now thats pretty hard to find, because no one hates math as much as I do. lol I am incredibly shy so its hard for me to make friends sometimes, and to find a friend who has stuff in common with you is even harder to find. The only thing that bothers me about new friends is that they don’t know how weird I am. They only know a bit of my personality and I hate explaining my weirdness. But I think she will understand my humor and everything. I took care of Spicy this week, today was my last day. And my neighbor came to pick up the keys. She gave me $80 for taking care of her cat. Spicy is old, she is dying says my neighbor. I was scared that I would find her dead, but she is still alive and well. I love that cat. I’ve known her for about 11 years I think. Well anyway, I gave my mom the money since she just bought me a laptop. I plan to get a job during the summer so I can help out my parents. I like how my mom always tries to give me the money back by saying, “Its your money, you earned it.” I know she is trying to be nice. But she knows I’m just going to end up giving it back. lol Silly mom. I was surprised that she posed in a dailybooth with me. She hates pictures. I also love that my mom uses twitter. Ever since she got herself a laptop she checks her email and uses msn now.

Amazing what laptops can do to a person.