Inside Kimmy’s Mind

I don’t know about you but I had a wonderful Christmas holiday.

I got to see Missy last week! She came down for the holidays. Oh and we both cried as soon as we saw each other. I missed her a lot and seeing her just made me so happy. So we talked and talked about anything and everything. We stayed downstairs in the dinning room because Kat had over a friend. A guy friend that annoys the hell out of me. (Sorry Kat, but he is annoying!) Anyway, we stayed downstairs and kept an eye on him the little punk. She should be here for a whole month. I’m so glad!

This year I was more excited for my parents to open their presents then I was to open mine. You see when you’re younger your parents try to make sure you are filled with the anticipation of Christmas morning. And they hope to Bob that you fall asleep while waiting for Santa. My parents always went above and beyond to get us the things we asked for. And would surprise us with more than we asked for at times. But before Christmas was always about us. Mom never really expected anything under the tree for her. So this year we made sure that there were presents for both mom and dad from us. And I couldn’t wait until they opened their gifts. It was like I was waiting to open my own. We wanted to wait until Dad came home from work. They had called him in for over time on Christmas eve and he didn’t get home until 5 am. But that’s a normal time for us to be awake.

So finally we were able to open presents when he got home. So mom and dad opened their gifts from each other. Mom bought dad a TomTom. Dad bought mom the shape up shoes shes been wanting. Then they opened their gifts from us. We bought my dad…get this, we bought him a wii zapper and Call of duty. lol I think its so cool that my parents play video games. We bought my mom NDSL as an early present. Then for her to open on Christmas we bought her a decorative rooster tray. She loves roosters for some reason. lol Then I made my mom a DS pouch, it came out so pretty. I’ll post pictures of it later. Then I made my dad a TomTom case. But I kept messing up on it so it sort of resembled a beer coozie. But he uses it so I’m happy.

So since Christmas I slept late and in and practically laid in front of the fireplace playing with my Ds. I’ve done absolutely nothing since I finished the semester. I’M SO LAZY! Right now I’m at my sister’s apartment spending the week with her. Oh and I will be getting my new cell phone soon! I cannot believe I waited this long? I actually made it? Its surprising. But my prehistoric stand in cells did help a little. Having a cell is better than having no cell at all and its not like I make or receive a lot of calls/texts. But still once you have something in your life its hard to get rid of it. I guess that applies to a lot of things in life.

I’m going to play a bit of Kingdom Hearts before attempting to go to sleep. I will post pictures of things when I get a chance.

I’m finally done with finals. I finished Wednesday. A glorious day.

I was ready for this semester to be over with. I mean not as much as I wanted spring semester to be over with but a close second. I mean the only thing that sucks about this semester be over with is that I probably won’t see my crush. But thats ok because it has morphed into a school girl crush that will absolutely go nowhere. Of course I’m the lazy type that doesn’t mind that it will go nowhere. Sad really. But its cool because I made an awesome friend. He is a really interesting type of person. That I wish I could be more like. He has a nice personality. Wow that sounds cheesy. >_< But its true. In my opinion.

But besides that I’m extremely happy that this semester is over and done with. I can now relax until the next stressful semester. I just need to make sure that I have the correct math because low and behold I passed math this semester! Holy fuck I know. Its crazy. I thought I would be lucky if I made a low c. But nope I ended up with a “B”. So this semester I have an A, and two B’s. Now I’m just waiting for my government grade. I hope I passed that class. -_- Back off negativity. I need a negativity shield because I’m a downer. >_<

Change of subject You know what I hate? Besides math. Walking contradictions: people that just continue to spout of nonsense that contradicts what they said before or someone other time. Like Do they change their opinions and beliefs depending on who they are talking to? Can you even do that? I mean even if you met them for the first time? Do these type of people just say what they think you would agree with? Is it that important to agree with someone? I mean for me I like to meet people that have the same interests as me, you some common ground. But they don’t have to agree with me 1oo%. Different is good at times. I just annoyed when one time they say this and then the next they say something completely different. Why can’t they just say what they themselves believe? Is it really that hard to be yourself? And I do not see this as a defense mechanism. Because when people up their guard they either talk a lot and babble or they can’t manage to mumble a single word. Which I’m both at times. If I have nothing to say I keep quiet. If I have an opinion to express I babble it.

Also another type of person I dislike are the people that have no idea how to end a conversation. Last week a friend of mine was getting hit on in a creepy like way. The guy would talk and then leave with out properly ending the conversation. He just left. And then came back hoping to continue. Hey buddy I’m sorry but the time has passed and there is no going back. Well anyway he did that at least two more times. It annoyed the hell out of me. We had no idea that he would return and when he did it was some what awkward. Which is something you want to avoid when you are coming on to someone. And his pick up line of choice,”Hey, why don’t ever you say hi to me?” Very clever. You see my friend has greeted him before. Along with shared the oh so subtle smile and wave tag game. But I believe this was their first sort of “long” conversation. We then joked and said her reply to his come on should have been,” Why don’t you ever say bye?” If only we knew of his inability to end a conversation. But now we have one heck of a inside joke.

Next Are you prone to word vomit? Word vomit is when you say something you didn’t mean to say. No not like turrets. This happens when you don’t think before talking, or you think too much before talking. The reason I ask is I’m aware that there are socially awkward people in the world. And I might ( ok I know I’m socially awkward)be a type of socially awkward but I’m not as bad as they come. I mean I know for a fact that I freak out and blow things way out of proportion. Especially dealing with the opposite sex. I mean its one of the most embarrassing interactions people have to deal with. Aside from class speeches and singing in public. I word vomit a lot and after I freak out I then try to brush it aside. Pretend like it never happened. I know not the best approach. But remember I’m socially awkward. I can’t help it. Ok well I’m going to play a bit more BAM(I’m addicted) and then hopefully fall asleep. I shouldn’t have taken that nap. But I was so sleepy. ~_~

Good night/morning.

I had my first torn decision between my tumblr blog and my main blog.

I didn’t think I would have to choose between them because I have always known which blog I would use to update depending on the event. I would update my tumblr with small tidbits and my main blog with the larger events that can make me go on forever. So I had a little dilemma, which I’m sure to you might not seem like that much of a dilemma. But I am insane so naturally this makes sense to me. But because I felt this way, I solved my own dilemma without really doing anything but updating my blog. Well as you can see I chose my main blog. Meaning this involved something more than a quick description and a photo.

Mija bought me a NDS game to call my very own. Until now I have been playing whatever games Kat had. Which reminds me I missed a BrainAge today. Damn And I was doing so well too. I was keeping up with it and because I got so distracted by my new toy I forgot about it. -_- My new game is a classic. Are you familiar with Bust-A-Move? AKA Puzzle Bobble. Well the one I played growing up was Bust-A-Move ’99 on Nintendo 64.

But now I have the chance to play Space Bust-A-Move on NDS. I am extremely happy that this is my first DS game. Because not only is it challenging but once you do manage to beat it you can still play it over and over again. I love this game. So anyway, mom decided she wanted to use keep Kat’s original Ds, so we found the arcade game classic combo pack for DS. Her favorite game is none other than PAC-MAN. Who doesn’t like PAC-MAN? I mean its amazing. lol So she was playing that while I was playing BAM and Mija was playing this game called Theresia. Which is this scary game that should entertain Mija for quite some time. All three of us were being nerds and playing with a hand held gaming device. Good times.

Besides being a nerd and playing video games and instead of studying I went to see The Princess and The Frog. Oh it was so adorable and funny. The animation was so pretty and the songs were so catchy and cute. It was just a movie worth watching. I’m glad Disney can still make the animations that made the name Disney famous in the first place. I can’t wait until this movie comes out on DVD. The theater was filled with children and laughter. I noticed that its been awhile since I’ve seen a children’s movie at the theaters. And I’m not really a kid person but hearing the kids laugh just made me laugh even more. I guess kids have the ability to be somewhat cute. Minus the crying babies. Who brings a baby to the theater? If its the type of baby that sleeps a lot then ok. But if its the toddler kind that cries every few seconds then do not bring him/her to a movie theater. There were a few crying babies at the theater. Annoying little things.  Ok well its 5:33 am and I just wanted to update about my new DS game because I was so excited. But later today I must spend my time studying for my math final because I didn’t study at all on Saturday. *Bust-A-Move*

Ok  good night/morning. Hopefully I can study for this stupid math final and I hope I pass math class. I can’t afford to fail this class. Please please let me pass this class. >_<

Ok I hope this doesn’t make me a hypocrite but I must say it. I don’t mean to offend people. But when people start off with that, it usually means they are being offensive.

Outrageous: I have been browsing other people’s blogs on Globe of Blogs. I have submitted my blog to be listed there I’m not sure how long it will take for it to show up or even if it will. But I submitted it nonetheless. Like I was saying I have been browsing other blogs. And I must say I am nothing but disappointed. I know not everyone can purchase a domain, thats why there are free blog accounts like blogger and wordpress. (My sister pays for mine so I’m one to talk) And I realize not everyone is a master web designer. But what shocks me is the bloggers that do use free blogging accounts and say that they are a web designer but use the free layouts that most Blogger users use. Where is their sense of individualism? Bloggers are supposed to be different. (Ok so again I’m one to talk- my sister created my layout. But I am learning HTML coding and going to try to make my next layout) But in my defense I’m not a web designer nor a graphic designer. But I have a sister who is and she has paved the path for me to enjoy my blog. If your blog isn’t in a sense you, you aren’t going to feel like updating it very often. Which brings me to my next point, after finding displeasing layouts I also found out of date blogs and not found urls. Did the out of date people forget about their own blogs and just decided to ignore it? Did the not found owners just decide to cancel purchasing their (poor choice in name) domain? I just can’t imagine ignoring my blog. I mean, when I was younger and used livejournal and greatestjournal I did ignore them/forget about updating them. But that was way before the internet became my life.(pathetic I know) But I’m a NERD! Blogging and vlogging is what I do. The internet allows me to vent,communicate, and be vain. I can be me without shielding myself from judging glares. I mean I’m sure I’m judged online as well. But I don’t have to worry about them. But why can’t those that made their blog accounts stay true? Especially those that proclaim their lives are nothing but the internet. I understand that life gets in the way, family and work. But don’t you see that your blog is an escape from that. Its the place where you can vent. This day and age allows us to do so many things that can be 100 percent you. No two people share the same life, you might have the same experience but everyones are different. Whether its a blog entry, or a vlog, or a layout for a website. This is the blogging generation. Don’t care if others don’t want to read what you have to say. Because odds are there is always someone that will find and like what you have to say. Your opinnion is yours. It may change now and then but its still yours and yours alone. And I love reading what others have to say. Blogging is a trend you want to follow. And I’m embracing it.

I just wish a lot of other people would too. I mean why aren’t there more people blogging? You talk about yourself, and who doesn’t like talking about themselves? If you hate writing there are many different substitutes. Like, a photo blog- you take pictures and post them with a tiny description if you wish. Or there is vlogging-video blog. You film what you have to say instead of writing it down. Or if you don’t wish your face to be seen there are podcasting. Which I have been meaning to give a try. Podcasting allows you to talk and say what you want to say with neither been seen or having to type out a single word. The trendy thing right now is to be nerdy and artsy. Two things you shouldn’t mind being. I’ve been nerdy and artsy my entire life and I say welcome. I just think that there should be a lot more bloggers. I just want to meet someone that blogs about their life. Not celebrity lives or anything to due with that world. Just real life. Creative people living life the only way they know how. I hope to find people like this when I move in with my sister.

Me me me.

Yup. I might be moving out next fall. Its just a thought right now, but I think its time to start the next chapter of my life and get serious. I’ll be 21 next fall and I think its time to move out my parents house. Damn I better have my license before I turn 21. That is my goal for the summer to learn how to drive the Youkon. Its huge and I can barely see over the wheel but its all I have to practice on. I have only driven my sisters Cavalier and Cobalt. I wish I had the Cavalier to drive. But there’s no use worrying about the past. Its in the past and I can’t do anything about it. But any way I think even if I don’t have my license by then I think I will still move in the fall. But I’m hoping to be able to drive for awhile in my small town before moving to the city and having to drive in a hectic scary place. That part terrifies me. But so does having to take the bus at night. During the day it wouldn’t bother me so much. But I’m not a morning person. But I have a feeling once I move I will have to change a lot things. Not just my address. -_- At least I already know my roommate. Shes crazy but at least I won’t have to worry about her stealing my stuff, I’ll probably be stealing I mean borrowing her things. I’ll just have to worry about her freaky cat Tomo. Because he hates me. (And don’t say he doesn’t Mija because he so pushed me for no reason.)

Oh shit its 8:11 am. Damn Mija was right I was going to end up staying this late. I slept the entire day Friday and woke up around 7:30 at night and that is why I am still up now. WTF? Seriously I need to study today but I won’t be able to do that if I’m spending my time sleeping. Time is valuable and I need it for this coming week if I want to past math and Gov. and Webd. My main focus is math, then Web design, followed by Government (which is open book). After Wednesday I am free for the rest of December. This time last year, finals went by so quick. It was like they didn’t even happen. This year they seem to be taking there time. Yet I’m losing time. Sucks.

I should go to sleep. I am clearly tired and the dark circles under my eyes are starting to sink in making me look dead so I should sleep. Of course the dark circles aren’t from irregular sleeping habits. But from staring at my laptop with only my lantern lights on. tsk tsk Kim. Sigh I am such a nerd.

It was crazy. This was the first time I was up for Black Friday sales. We went to Walmart because of mom’s discount. And because Walmart has better prices.

Day One 11-27-09 : So we bought a mixer, a printer, and mom got us each a DS lite. I really wanted the green one. But hell I was happy. Plus the green one wasn’t on sale like the others because it was a bundle pack. And I can just buy a green case. I think I only have like two more weeks of classes. Then I’m done for the semester. I’m so ready for that.

Day Two-12-6-09:Right now I’m watching SyFy’s Alice. I love watching these types of movies. Plus hello Alice in Wonderland is one of those stories that you can never get tired of. Its been told over and over in many different ways but with similarities. I’m liking Alice so far. Can’t wait to watch it Monday night. Today is Hyun’s birthday! He is 21. So a happy birthday to the little booger.

Day Three-12-7-09: Typed out that first bit the other day. Now it is Monday. Just finished watching Alice. It was so good. I loved it. Hatter and Alice ended up together. Oops sorry gave away the ending didn’t I? My bad.

Spaced out.

Day Four-12-8-09: It is now 5:24 a.m. I kept getting distracted from finishing this entry. -_- First it was Alice then washing clothes followed by showering and then lastly what took me forever to finish…straightening my hair. It has gotten so long that it takes longer to straighten now. I want to cut it short. Just above my shoulders short. I’ve had it that short before but thats when I didn’t have bangs. I think having it short with bangs would look odd on me. Oh and how unfair is the weather right now. It is now just icky and rainy outside. So unfair. Damn I’m not going to be able to publish this entry quite yet. I’m not done. But I have to get some sleep before its light out. >_<; My poor corrupted sleeping patterns.

Remembering John Lennon.  Not many people in my generation like classic rock. So there are a number of people that have no idea who The Fab Four were/still are. I have often heard people referring to The Beatles as, “old people music.” But they will never get old for me or my sisters. Twenty-nine yrs ago today John Lennon was murdered. He was taken away for no reason at all. John was such an amazing musician. And although I didn’t know him personally many generations know him through his music. He will always be remembered.

John Lennon-Imagine

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Day Five- 12-9-09: It is 12:52 am. Holy crap. Look how long it is taking me to write out this blog entry. I kept adding to this post but instead of publishing it I just kept saving it until I finished it. Why do things keep getting in the way? lol Ok well I need to be strong this weekend and study big time for my math, web design and government finals next week. And after Wednesday next week I will be officially done for the semester. I cannot wait for January. I get my new cell phone. Gaaaaaaaaah I’m such a tech brat. Thankfully my NDS has done its job well and has kept me distracted. However, it is also a distraction from the things I need to finish. And that is not good. Like prepping for finals. -_- I hate the week of finals because it sometimes feels like there is never enough time. And I lack sleep. I really need the Christmas break to rejuvenate. (I know a 20 yr old has no right to say that) I finally learned how to make my Vimeo videos into wmv format using Adobe Premiere. Yay! I already uploaded a video this week but I didn’t know what I know now (that sounds confusing) so I must wait until next to upload another video. But I think I’ll wait until finals are over. Good thinking right?

Good night/morning world.