Inside Kimmy's Mind

I read a the manga Koukou Debut (High School Debut) the other day. Its the sort of love story that makes you feel so many different emotions all at once. The kind of love story you wish would never end. And then I started thinking of this feeling I got while reading this story, or with any story whether its a movie or novel. And I wrote a poem, that hopefully explains what I’m talking about.

You know that feeling when you are incandescently happy? When he speaks your name and you can barely keep yourself from floating off the ground? You can sometimes catch a glimpse of that feeling, from a movie, song or story. Tales of hopeless romantics that are “destined” to meet, and for some reason make your heart flutter and agonize how you wish you were them. Just for a moment. Just to remember what it was like. You beam with delight when the girl finally gets the right guy. No harm can be done now, because she has him. Your heart leaps and you cannot help but feel that joy, that flutter and blush. The excitement of wanting that consumes you. You want to experience this cloud nine feeling. You want your thoughts to be consumed by him, and him alone. You want to experience the love that can only happen in a story.Just for a moment. Just to remember what it was like.

Sorry my sleeping pattern is screwed beyond mending. I hope I can get back on a regular sleeping schedule instead of being this vampire like thing that sleeps during the day.

REALITY!

Well my first job interview was the other day. And I’m not exactly sure how it went. I can’t remember the exact questions I was asked. And at the end of it, she was verifying my number and all I remember is answering yes. I don’t even remember if it was in fact my number. What the hell is wrong with me? It will be my down fall if the only reason I don’t get the job is because I wasn’t listening to the lady recite my number. I mean its my number. I know my number. But why can’t I remember if what she recited was my number? For the love of chocolate I wish I had a rewind button! I mean am I the only one who starts thinking rambles when a person is asking something of importance; and all you end up hearing is your own dumb thoughts dancing around in your head? Sigh. If I don’t hear back from them by Thursday then I know I didn’t get the job. Sigh. She said the HR person would call me to schedule a second interview with the manager and what not. And the manager is supposed to be here on Thursday. So if they don’t call me to schedule a second interview, my mind will be left to think that either A) she didn’t have my number, and that is all my fault for having goo for brains. Or B) They are not interested in hiring me. -_- How depressing. tsk. So I just have to apply for more jobs. I think I applied for most of the online applications. Now its time to start the embarrassing, “Hi are you by any chance hiring?” Sucks.

MOVIES!

Ok you know how in romantic comedies, the main roles most of the time experience downright embarrassing moments. Just like in our lives (reality) we experience day to day humiliating experiences too. Am I right? Yet in the movies these moments are created by a play write. I mean they could very well be based on truth, but I’m assuming they were created for the enjoyment of an audience. Anyway I recently just watched the romantic comedy Its a Boy/Girl Thing. I watched it on Youtube. It was pretty hilarious. And not the, “Oh my gosh this is so stupid” kind of way. But the,”This is actually a pretty good movie” kind of way. Its sort of a twist on Freaky Friday. But instead of family members its enemies (that are of the opposite sex) that fall in love. I mean the saying , “opposites attract” actually applies here. And it has nothing to do with science.  Magic maybe? Anyway, back to the embarrassing moments, I wish life could be a romantic comedy where these moments could be forgotten just like that. I mean of course in reality these moments are forgotten with time and what not. But sometimes they follow us for all eternity. lol Ok maybe not that dramatic. But again I wouldn’t mind my life having its movie moments. You know those scenes that can only happen in a movie? A romantic encounter that wouldn’t be logical let alone possible in my reality. Bleh  >_< There. You see what movies do to you me? They end up putting all of these thoughts into my head. Sucks.  Back to movies. I watched  Table for Three. Hot Brandon Routh stars in it. He played Superman in Superman Returns. In this movie I would have gotten so tired of those roommates. I doubt I will even be able to have roommates in the future. I mean you don’t know who comes to roommate ads. They could be psycho killers, or crazy couples as you see in this movie.  Is this movie worth it? It was funny, and it was an ok to watch. But not a life changing. Brandon is a hottie so thats why I watched it. >_< Watch the trailer and judge for yourself.

Books!

I order the book Shrimp by Rachel Cohn. Its the second book in the series and I couldn’t find this book at any book store. Seriously it was out of stock everywhere. I kid you not. The other two were at the store, so why wouldn’t this one be as well? It makes me think, “This one must be the best one out of the three. I must find and read this book.” And then I turn into this crazy book person. Where I don’t want to read any other book until I read this one.  And I’m really hoping its the cover I want. I get pissed if its the wrong cover. I have the new cover of the first and last one so the second one has to match as well. Its says it should arrive by the 23rd. But I’m hoping it comes sooner than that. Again I am incredibly impatient. I hate not being able to concentrate. And this just adds to my screwed up sleeping patterns.

NEW SEASON OF TRUE BLOOD IS FUCKING AWESOME! Just saying. I cannot wait for the second episode on Sunday!

Thursday night I went to see Angels and Demons with my cousin Gabby. (I know shocking right?) My cousin and I haven’t always gotten along. Most of the time we just annoyed each other. But after graduating from high school we don’t see each other as often, so its nice to get together and do things. Anyway, the movie was pretty interesting. Much better than the first one I think. And Ewan McGregor is incredibly hot. >_< But anyway I recommend this movie if you find religion interesting, even if you don’t have a religion.

Anyway, I’m at Mija’s apartment again but only for the weekend. Kat spent a week with her and because Mija couldn’t make it home this weekend we had to come and pick up Kat. And dad is visiting his parents in the valley and he has been sending us pictures of my grandpa. Its been a while since I have seen him. And I miss him so much. He is so adorable.

So Saturday we went to the Galleria and then we ate at Panda Express for lunch, and then to Berrypop for some frozen yogurt.

And its taking me so long to write this entry because I have been watching the Degrassi Marathon. Sigh. Its been on all day and my sisters and I have been watching it. >_<

I mean, there is really a lot of drama in these characters lives. Death, rape,pregnancy, bullies, eating disorders, abusive parents/boyfriends. I mean its serious problems but they are repetitive, I mean there is only so many problems they can give these kids. But I have to admit its an addictive show. tsk. And now I am watching Once Upon a Forest. One of the greatest cartoons next to The Secret of N.I.M.H., Ferngully, A Troll in Central Park, and Thumbelina. I remember watching these movies when I was younger, awww memories. lol

Music to mention.I bought The Hush Sound cd, Goodbye Blues. I love it! Of course now I found out that there is a version with two bonus tracks out there. And of course my version isn’t that one. I was lucky to even find this cd at Barnes and Noble. There was only one copy there and I was able to get it. ^_^ And there aren’t many cds out there that I can listen to all the way through with the minor exception of Fleetwood Mac’s album Rumours and now this one. The Hush Sound is a great band they have been around since 2004. And I just heard of them now, but they have three albums out already. You should give them a listen.

Well it is 6 o’clock in the morning now so I should get some sleep. tsk. We are going home tomorrow and I have still have a job interview on Tuesday. I am still nervous. I hope I get the job, I really need money. But I can only do my best and hope they like me. >_<

“I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naive or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman.”- Anais Nin

After watching the mini series Lost in Austen. I just had to watch Pride and Prejudice. First the 1995 version which took awhile( it’s five hours long plus extras-I have the three disc edition) then the 2005 remake. I have decided that I like them both. Of course Colin Firth is a much better Darcy I think. But for some reason I find him more attractive older than when he was younger. Just like David Bowie-hotter with age. >_< Moving on, while watching these movies it made me think of the differences between the men in the 1800’s and the men in the present. Dating without a chaperon was out of the question and displays of affection were simply frowned upon. I’m sure even hand holding was scandalous. The men of of the 1800’s aren’t really better than the men of our time, because of course back then women were merely objects. Put on this earth to make a man look good, and to carry on his name. Pfffft! I cannot and will not agree with that. At least today, the male sex realize that there are women out there that are smarter and stronger than they are. They might not want to admit it but, in the corner of their minds they are fully aware of this fact. Even though we do things the past might find horrific, the past is not without its own shocking ways. Not only were women objects, but women were sold as wives at the young age of 15. Maybe even younger depending on the parents. Ok so in our time girls younger than that are having babies. -_-;

I find Jane Austen’s time romantic, of course that might just be her novels. I shouldn’t confuse reality with fiction correct? Although it may have its charms, I wouldn’t leave my own time to live a life there. Not even in my dreams. I am way too spoiled with my life the way it is. However, it would be nice to be wooed and courted and doted upon with sweet words by a man that is mature and knows exactly what to say. Sigh. That would be nice. Instead in 2009 we have men who shout at us from afar and then mock our appearance as a way of flirting.

How romantic indeed.

OK. If you are the sort of person that hates when other people ruin movies you have yet to see, then I am warning you DO NOT continue reading this entry. I am known for telling the endings of movies sometimes not on purpose. But thats just the way I am. Watching movies with me (that I have already seen) is sometimes annoying for others. My bad. >_<;

Anyway the movie that I am about to rip to shreds is…..Drag Me to Hell. I have so many words for this movie and just off the top of my head- horrible, lame, annoying, stupid, corny, mundane….yada yada yada. Anyway, I’m sorry if you liked this movie but I did not. The main character Christine Brown played by Alison Lohman (which I love her) gets so much fake shit thrown in her face and mouth. She consumes the saliva of a crazy woman, blood, eye balls of a dead crazy woman, a fly, maggots, and embalming fluid of a dead crazy woman. Yes she does.

Now the story line of someone cursing another person or family blood line has been done many times, and if done right then it could be an interesting movie idea. Now the entire movie was horrible. But there was once scene that was the most horrible. (And here is me attempting to describe the scene as best I can.) Its where the character Christine is leaving her job right after denying the crazy woman’s request for a loan extension. She gets attacked by this crazy woman and throughout the entire scene I’m thinking, “Is this seriously part of the movie?” The crazy lady’s false teeth fall out during the struggle and she then proceeds to suck the chin of Alison’s character. I kid you not. She actually puts her toothless mouth on the chin of the actress. It bothered the shit out of me for some reason. Death by saliva and gums should be one of the worse ways to go. And the lady just keeps on fighting. One of the most worse scenes in a movie. This movie seemed like a spoof that was making fun of something else. It was so predictable, I knew she was going to be (not to be cheesy) dragged to hell. Only watch this movie if you are in the mood to laugh at the train wreck that is this movie. Sigh. Sorry to ruin the hopes of those who thought this movie looked good.

The past few weeks have flown by extremely quickly. Time is not its normal self, too much fun I guess. Damn time for knowing when I am having fun in order to speed up. Cheeky bastard, is what time is.

This is my third week with Mija and I have done nothing but sleep late and play around with Tomo. Oh and read. Tons of reading has taken place since I have been out of school. Since I have decided not to take classes this coming month I am able to relax and not worry about the upcoming semester. Granted I will most likely have to worry about it in July, and if not then in August when I have no choice but to take classes. Sigh. I rather like not having to worry about assignments and getting to class on time and walking to class. I know these things are difficult and I have it easy compared to others and I do not have the right to complain. But I’m sorry, bitching is one of the main things I am known for. o.O I know, and this isn’t something I am proud of. Its just something I have a hard time controlling. lol Anyway, the other day Mija took me for frozen yogurt at Berripop. It was so yummy, I had the chance to get three toppings, and I must say there was unusual choices. After picking the Acai Berry flavor I of course chose the common toppings of granola and strawberries to follow. However, choice number three was… cheesecake bits. I have never had cheesecake bits as a topping before. But it was delicious. Mija picked the Berripop original flavor which was like a vanilla sort of flavor. Followed by granola and blueberries and strawberries to top it all off. I hope the next time to get a larger cup. >_<

Mija also took me to Potbelly for dinner the day before. And I must say the sandwich that I devoured that evening was extremely delicious. I ate a chicken salad sandwich and she ate a ham and cheese. I have never enjoyed a chicken salad sandwich as much as this one before. It was so good that there is no point in even attempting to describe how good it was. Yes it was that good. Just take my word for it. After coming eating we came back to the apartment to call mom and dad. However calling isn’t enough, so we decided to video call mom. Dad was a little hyper (aka drunk) he wouldn’t sit down and have a normal conversation with us. Instead he would get extremely close to the camera or get distracted by himself in the screen. lol I love my dad. And what you are about to see as you scroll down is something I could possibly get grounded for all eternity for posting on the internet. But resistance is futile. So here are two pictures that I screened cap from the video conversation with my family back at home. Just click on it to get the full picture. I swear my dad is so funny. He is also extremely ADD but you got to love him.

I have stayed up all night and have yet gone to sleep. What have I been doing? Well if you must know I am attempting to make a layout. I hopefully will have it finished soon so Mija can code it and it will be for all to see. It is a layout for this site. And what is going to happen to it is, I am going to have all the links to all of my social networking sites all in one spot. For example: Facebook, Youtube, Dailybooth, Twitter, and of course my blog. So instead of giving people individual links I can give them the url to this page and they will be able to find everything I do on the internet with the slightest of ease. Pretty clever I think. Hopefully it will be done soon. I am also working on a layout for my live journal because it is time for a change. Along with making layouts in the dark of night, well in the early morning really I also had the chance to watch the mini series Lost in Austen. It was so funny.

I wonder what Jane Austen would have thought of it if she had the chance to watch it. Would she laugh? Or be offended by what they did to her story? In my opinion it was good. But thats just me.

I remain creatively stumped. I have no idea what to paint on my Munny, I want to go on a book overload, and I need to make a vlog as well using what I filmed at Domy Books. But in the mean time here are some pictures of the store that I have yet to share.

I don’t want to talk too much about this store because then I won’t leave anything for my vlog. Just know it is a kick ass store made of awesome. With the minor exception its awesomeness is fucking expensive. But oh well I still find it amazing.Ok so I spent the past two weeks with my sister Mija and I had fun. She wants me to come back for a third week. Awww I must be so awesome that she just can’t ever get tired of me. So I said why not. I changed my mind about going to classes this month. So I now have an actual summer vacation. Sigh. I’m such a bad student. I might go to classes during the Summer II semester. Anyway, I think I spoiled her by staying for the second week and now she doesn’t want to be alone at her place. lol I don’t mind staying at her place, I mean I’m not bored or anything. I’m just homesick. At least I know that when the time comes for me to actually move in with her we will be able to actually live under the same roof together. Well the other day she bought some sushi for us and we made chow mein. It was so yummy. Of course Tomo (her pet cat) was a curious weirdo and wanted to investigate the sushi. Like he would like it, he is a weird cat. Not at all like my cat Mister. He would eat anything. A regular walking, breathing, eating machine.

Speaking of noodles mom rented the movie The Ramen Girl starring Brittany Murphy the other day. And so we watched it when we came home on Saturday while eating ramen. The movie was cute, I’m just glad they took out a bunch of unnecessary scenes. It would have changed my opinion of the movie. And her love interest? Sohee Park? Is such a cutie.

I wish Kathy would update more often without me having to tell her. I might as well go and bother her right now seeing as I will be gone for another week. hehehe ^_^

I have been keeping a journal for as long as I can remember. However, before I started keeping a blog I managed to completely fill 3 journals. And for some odd reason after discussing this issue with my younger sister Kat; I have recently pulled these journals out. I have discovered that my younger self was an idiot.

These completed journals are from ages 14 to 18 I believe. Because when I turned 19 I started keeping my blog and I didn’t write in a journal as much. Updating my blog was much more entertaining for me. Of course blogs are journals that you can share with friends. Whereas a written journal isn’t available for the eyes of others. I mean I have the ability to keep the entries I would like private but what fun would that be? And when I feel like writing stuff I don’t want others to know thats when I can return to old fashion journal writing. The reason I only have three completely filled journals is because I couldn’t concentrate on writing in one journal. I was always getting new ones and I would immediately start writing in them forgetting the journal I had already began writing in. So I have tons of journals not even half filled. (Thats pretty sad) So when I turned 14 I was able to actually keep writing in a journal until it was completely filled. Of course as I reread words from my younger years I couldn’t help but mock myself. They are filled with ridiculous arguments with the friends I no longer see nor talk to. It was weird to reread pages I haven’t seen in awhile. Even though these entries were written years ago, I can read them and remember the events that took place like it was yesterday. Weird right? Well anyway, whats the point in reading about the past? You are supposed to look to the future right?

Anyway I spent money this past week. I had text book money still and I received late late graduation money. So I couldn’t resist. I bought a Keroppi wallet and clothes. I love Keroppi and he is being replaced by another fucking frog. They don’t look that much different from each other. But for some odd reason I only love Keroppi. Buying clothes is weird for me I don’t always like trying on clothes. But there are times when I actually enjoy buying new clothes and of course layer. >_< My first week with Mija went smoothly. We didn’t fight so that was good, I’m going back with her for the second week hopefully this one goes just as smoothly. The only thing is I hate that she works so late. By the time she gets home she is so tired that she goes to sleep early sometimes. Pffft And I’m not helping by distracting her. Well besides taking me to the Galleria three times last week she also took me to Domy Books. Oh it was a wonderful store (expensive) but amazing. I’m glad she took me there. I planned to spend the last of my money on a Munny for Hyun but I decided to buy the wallet. Sorry Hyun. >_<

Ok wow. A night filled with cheesy horror flicks. I love when I can laugh at movies that were supposed to scare you. And this is what I get for watching the movies on the Fearnet.com channel.

Ok one out of the three “Scary” movies I watched the other night this one actually had me on the edge of my seat. The movie If I die Before I wake. Now I don’t usually ever like watching scary movies, its only sometimes and most of those times I am with Mija. Well anyway, this movie made me anxious and nervous and pissed at the same time. I have no idea what I would do in that situation and movies like this always make me think, would I be able fend for myself? This movie was sad and scary in a “this could really happen” sort of way. I hate not having any muscle or fighting skills. Tsk. Of course when I ask these questions, I always receive the answer, “Yeah if its for your life or a life of a loved one you would be able to fight back.” Now even though I’m sure I would fight for my life or the life of a loved one I’m not so sure I could. I have no strength. Seriously when we would have piñatas at parties I would never hit it with enough force. Ok granted I was a kid, and that wasn’t for life but hey that was for candy you would think I would break it to pieces. Oh and when I was a sophomore during cpr classes the plastic dummy would push me up instead of me pushing down on it. Now thats sad. But no joke I have no body strength. Its pathetic really. I’m just going hope I’m never in a situation where fighting and strength is a must.

Moving on to the next movie is The Toxic Avenger. Now I couldn’t even finish this movie. It was beyond ridiculous, really it is. So I’m not going to really elaborate any more than that.

Next is the movie entitled Dance of The Dead. Sigh I’m not really sure what to say about this one. It was cheesy. But sometimes cheesy is nice. It was a good laugh. But movies like this always make me wonder what about their families? You know just once I would like to watch a zombie movie that wasn’t so stereotypical. I mean everyone knows to kill a zombie you shoot it in the head. And you avoid getting bitten. Sigh duh. I’m sorry but I just think zombie movies need to be planned out more. sigh. But like I said this movie made me laugh. >_<

Now to the news that I am so excited about. Next month season 2 of True Blood starts. I’m so excited, this show is so amazing. I’m still reading the novels by Charlaine Harris, I’m on All Together Dead at the moment. And then I have two more to read until I’ve read all of the ones that are published. I’m not sure how many more she has to write. She said in a Q&A once that she would keep writing as much as they want her to write to continue the series. Of course there are many differences between the novels and the tv series but I enjoy them both. All I know is that I cannot wait for the season 2 to start. I missed this show. I hate when seasons end because then you have to wait until the next season starts and if there is another season. Damn tv shows for running my life.

I wore this on Monday. I love dressing in layers. No matter what season it is. -_- I know in the summer that’s not the best idea because well…its hot. But I see layering as comfortable. I know some times its really unnecessary to have certain layers but to me I like them. Sometimes I dress like a kid and not like a 19 year old. But I mean how do 19 year girls dress? I don’t wear makeup, I’m not even sure I know how to apply the stuff. But I what you see is what you get. I don’t wear a mask to hide my imperfections. O.o I don’t know how to look mature and grownup because I still look childish. Oh well I guess I should enjoy that while I’m young right?

In other news: I just watched a commercial for a special of the show John and Kate plus 8 and I think they discuss his cheating on Kate. I still can’t believe that he would do that. He is supposed to be a family man, not a typical testosterone filled male. I mean really? His kids are going to realize what he did when they are older and just be filled with embarrassment, anger and disappointment . It makes me think why do men who cheat even get married? I mean if they are filled with some doubt then why even start a family if you are just going to cheat later on? I mean from watching the show I would get annoyed by Kate’s never ending demands and bossy attitude. But he knew how she was when he married her so he had to have known what he was getting himself into. I mean he says in the trailer that that he can’t be just John. Well sorry John you signed up for a show and this is what you get when you exploit your family. sigh. I just thought I’d like to discuss this matter.

I should really get a life huh?