Inside Kimmy's Mind

Ok wow. A night filled with cheesy horror flicks. I love when I can laugh at movies that were supposed to scare you. And this is what I get for watching the movies on the Fearnet.com channel.

Ok one out of the three “Scary” movies I watched the other night this one actually had me on the edge of my seat. The movie If I die Before I wake. Now I don’t usually ever like watching scary movies, its only sometimes and most of those times I am with Mija. Well anyway, this movie made me anxious and nervous and pissed at the same time. I have no idea what I would do in that situation and movies like this always make me think, would I be able fend for myself? This movie was sad and scary in a “this could really happen” sort of way. I hate not having any muscle or fighting skills. Tsk. Of course when I ask these questions, I always receive the answer, “Yeah if its for your life or a life of a loved one you would be able to fight back.” Now even though I’m sure I would fight for my life or the life of a loved one I’m not so sure I could. I have no strength. Seriously when we would have piñatas at parties I would never hit it with enough force. Ok granted I was a kid, and that wasn’t for life but hey that was for candy you would think I would break it to pieces. Oh and when I was a sophomore during cpr classes the plastic dummy would push me up instead of me pushing down on it. Now thats sad. But no joke I have no body strength. Its pathetic really. I’m just going hope I’m never in a situation where fighting and strength is a must.

Moving on to the next movie is The Toxic Avenger. Now I couldn’t even finish this movie. It was beyond ridiculous, really it is. So I’m not going to really elaborate any more than that.

Next is the movie entitled Dance of The Dead. Sigh I’m not really sure what to say about this one. It was cheesy. But sometimes cheesy is nice. It was a good laugh. But movies like this always make me wonder what about their families? You know just once I would like to watch a zombie movie that wasn’t so stereotypical. I mean everyone knows to kill a zombie you shoot it in the head. And you avoid getting bitten. Sigh duh. I’m sorry but I just think zombie movies need to be planned out more. sigh. But like I said this movie made me laugh. >_<

Now to the news that I am so excited about. Next month season 2 of True Blood starts. I’m so excited, this show is so amazing. I’m still reading the novels by Charlaine Harris, I’m on All Together Dead at the moment. And then I have two more to read until I’ve read all of the ones that are published. I’m not sure how many more she has to write. She said in a Q&A once that she would keep writing as much as they want her to write to continue the series. Of course there are many differences between the novels and the tv series but I enjoy them both. All I know is that I cannot wait for the season 2 to start. I missed this show. I hate when seasons end because then you have to wait until the next season starts and if there is another season. Damn tv shows for running my life.

Classes are over!….For now anyway.

This is what happens when I don’t have homework or classes to worry about: My sleep patterns worsens.

Well classes maybe over, but I have horrible news. I didn’t do too well in math class. I will have to retake the class in the summer. I don’t know what happened, I guess I wasn’t concentrating on it like I should have been. But I will not let this happen again. I am so disappointed in myself. I have never failed a class before. The next time I take this class I will ace it. I have always had troubled in math ever since I started school. I can’t believe time is moving so fast. I think when I was in high school it went by slower. Not sure why. Sigh. I hope I get the job in the Library. I desperately need that job. It would be so perfect. I am up because I can’t sleep and I have a massive headache. >_<

I just finished watching a Bollywood movie right now called Main Prem Ki Diwani Hoon. I haven’t watched a Bollywood movie since I was in junior high. Anyway, I like it because these movies are so dramatic. lol The characters are so passionate, ok sometimes a little cheesy. But in my opinion its the cute adorable cheesy. I mean who hasn’t wanted to break into song and dance before? I know I have. Anyway Its really late and I haven’t gone to sleep yet. Or its really early, depending how you look at it.

But before I thought about going to bed I decided to take random pictures of my room at around 6:30 in the morning. So here is what I shot with my sisters rebel something camera. Freaking awesome camera if you ask me. Just rather heavy.

Me and the camera.

My lantern ball and night stand.

My necklace.

My window.

Well that wasn’t exactly artistic. I was just bored. Speaking of not being artistic, I have already starting drawing on my Munny as you can see from my dailybooth photo. I don’t like it so far, but I am determined to like it once its finished. I’m thinking of trying some paint on it.

Ok I better get some sleep seeing as it is 7:30 am. Alright night night.

Part One: After throwing a lot of stuff from my closet away I found my old CD/tape player. I got it for Christmas years ago, but I remember how excited I was when I did. Every time I bought a CD I would hurry to play it. After I got my ipod mini and a dock for it, I sadly put this in my closet and never thought of it again. Until now. It was sort of breaking before I got the dock but it was faithful in its youth. I didn’t have the heart to throw it away then an I still don’t have the heart to throw it away now. Its funny how things are important. And I mean if you look at the price of cd players now compared to how much they used to be. Its weird. Is that going to happen to mp3 players? I mean Apple keeps bringing out new and better ones but will their price go down that low when their time is up? Thats something to think about.

Part Two: Kat and I are currently spending spring break at my sister’s apartment. And she took us to Borders! I know its dangerous to take me to a book store especially when I still haven’t cracked Dooms Day. -_- I hope I won’t be doomed on Monday. Anyway I didn’t want to buy a book book so instead I bought Neil Gaiman’s graphic novel The Last Temptation. Have I mention that I love him? Anyway, Mija is the one who took it off the shelf when I immediately recognized it. However, I didn’t realize that Alice Cooper contributed to the story. Its based on his record release, The Last Temptation. I should have known it just screams Cooper. Of course I’m not really savvy on his music. The art work is exquisite its done by Michael Zulli if I’m not mistaken. And it is amazing. The showman’s appearance is based on the best showman, Alice Cooper himself. It resembles him from head to toe. I also finally bought the movie Mirror Mask, story also by Neil Gaiman. I really do love him. Well besides buying books and dvds and hearing that someone tried and failed at stealing a magazine I also hurt a complete strangers feelings. But on my behalf I didn’t mean to and I completely understand his current state. And I didn’t mean what I said to sound the way it came out. I am not going to repeat it here because I am trying to make myself feel better. I know I am a horrible person. Now typing is getting hard because my sister’s cat Tomo is in my lap being extremely adorable and I can no longer ignore him. lol

“I’ve learned that good-byes will always hurt, pictures will never replace having been there, memories good and bad will bring tears, and words can never replace feelings.”

I had a bunch of stuff written. But my internet was being wonky and wouldn’t work causing me to lose the “Stuff” that was typed here before. So now I am extremely annoyed because I don’t quite remember how I worded things. Tsk. But I know I liked it. Sigh-_- So know that from this point on I am annoyed. Ok on with the annoyed post. … continue reading this entry.

“Creativity is not the finding of a thing, but the making something out of it after it is found.” – James Russell Lowell

Part one: All because of a quote, this is what happens when I stay up all hours of the night thinking and have little sleep. Oh my poor brain.

I have come to the conclusion that I have lost something. Its not a for sure feeling. Just an odd one. The something in question is:

Creativity.

How does one acquire creativity? I mean can it be learned/taught? Or is it something you either have or don’t have? Can it be found or lost? I seem to have lost track of mine. I love to paint, draw, write, make videos and sew. I love to create things. Things that are apart of me in some way or another. Except something is different about me. I mean I realize people change all the time its not earth shattering. I haven’t painted anything in a long time. I miss it. I know I can paint anytime I want to. I write anytime I want to. I can sew and make a video at any time. (Well not any time but you know what I mean) But just today I have realized that when I paint or draw something I need something to look at when I draw it. Meaning it doesn’t come out of my head but out someone else’s. I mean I know that is how you learn somethings by looking at it being done and then proceeding to imitate it. I DEMAND MY CREATIVITY BACK.

Who has taken it? I’m not sure, probably the other not so creative side of me. (What a bitch) How am I supposed to get it back or can I even retrieve it?

Part two: Ok sane again. Well for the most part.

I just watched a movie called Phoebe in Wonderland. It stars Elle Fanning, Dakota Fanning’s younger sister. She is a 9 year old girl with a vivid imagination who also has turrets and obsessive control disorder. Both her parents are writers and her mother has chosen Alice in Wonderland to be the inspiration for her dissertation. Phoebe(Elle) becomes obsessed with that world. I rather liked this movie. It made me want to draw my own version of Alice in Wonderland. I mean I know that the story was written by someone who must have been on a permanent high, but I think thats what made it such an enticing story. I mean come on who hasn’t wanted to escape reality to retreat to a world with no boundaries? Good movie you should watch it if you get the chance. Ok well I better get some sleep. tsk.

“Be what you would seem to be — or, if you’d like it put more simply — Never imagine yourself not to be otherwise than what it might appear to others that what you were or might have been was not otherwise than what you had been would have appeared to them to be otherwise.” -Alice in Wonderland

First off I’d like to say thanks to Mija for my new blog layout! THANK YOU MIJA!!!!

Ok. Well I went to see Coraline( it was absolutely adorable, Neil Gaiman is a mastermind!) with my Valentine, and sisters. Missy thanks for spending Valentine’s Day with me. You know most single people see Valentine’s day as S.A.D. (Single Awareness Day) Now its not like I haven’t been single before, its just I haven’t been single in over a year. Now this time last year I spent my time looking for the perfect card for my significant other. But this year? I went all out. lol Which is funny because I went all out for my friend and not for my boyfriend (when I had one). hehehe I was like hey just because I don’t have a boyfriend that doesn’t mean I can’t celebrate Valentine’s Day. Ok so its a day for lovers to announce once again just how much they care for each other. But I see it as a day for people, single or taken to let anyone they love know just that. My friend Missy had totally surprised me with chocolates and a love bug plushie along with a pink rose. I felt so special. So I made her a love jar (which contained a few reasons why I love her, not all but a few) and chocolate covered strawberries.(which were good) I hope you enjoyed them Missy.

I am tired. I haven’t been sleeping right at all. I know I am the only one who can solve this problem. Tuesday I have a math test and I’m not quite sure which part of my research essay is due this week. Damnit. (My leg hurts >_<) I love the show United States of Tara. It is so cute. You should definitely watch it. Oh and I watched the show Doll House as well. Its made by the same creators as Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Angel. The first episode was pretty good so I’m gonna keep watching it, unless it gets stupid. But so far so good. Cate I can’t get over how adorable your new video was. It was amazing! Speaking of videos, I am so annoyed with Youtube right now. They keep muting my videos. So far in the past couple of months they have pointed out two of my videos that were in violation with the music. Ok and today I had to delete a video that I made over a year ago. How am I supposed to get a famous bands permission to use their songs? I mean come on really? Cyber stalking is annoying and so junior high. I also wanted to talk about this article. It says that a 12 year old boy from London impregnated his 14 year old girlfriend. Are you serious? What 14 year old girl dates a 12 year old boy? I mean really? Ok they haven’t taken a paternity test to prove that the now 13 yr, boy is in fact the father. I mean wow. Does a 12 year old boy even know how to impregnate a girl? I mean isn’t he still going through puberty? I doubt that he is the father. Another article says, that the girl had slept with two other guys so I’m guessing either one of those dumb asses are likely the father of this naive girls newborn baby girl. I think its just weird for a 13 year old boy to have a baby. I mean when a 15 yr old girl has a baby its mostly because their stupid “older” boyfriend can’t either: A. Date someone his own age. B. Keep it in his pants. C. Is way too lazy to purchase a condom and use said condom. I mean really? I know young teens are stupid and impressionable but parents really need to explain to their dumb underage daughters and their horny overage sons (and vice versa) the seriousness of having sex. I mean I don’t want to sound like an after school special, but come on parents of the world. TALK TO YOUR DUMB KIDS. I find it strange that an older girl slept with a 12 year old boy. So I am assuming it was her doing that initiated the sexual relationship with this kid named Alfie. Of course I’m not saying she deserves all the blame. I find them along with their parents at fault for allowing their children to spend the night together. That’s right, they allowed Alfie to spend the night at his girlfriend’s house, where I’m guessing the fornicating took place. How sad. sigh.

I read this short story called Criminal Act by Harry Harrison. Where people are only allowed to have two children if you were to have a any more than that then you would have to die so your child could live. The main character of this story however fights back. They hire an assassin to kill the “offender” and if he fails then he takes the place as the one less mouth to feed. Of course (sorry if I ruin it) in the end the main character kills the assassin and thinks everything will be fine. He can live with his wife and three kids. His wife is pregnant with twins. And thats how it ends. Creepy right? Another short story called Problems with Creativeness by Thomas M. Disch. In this story, only smart people are allowed to have children. If you were not considered smart then you were not allowed to reproduce. The water supply had a contraceptive in it so thats how they stopped people from reproducing. These two stories were written in the 50’s and 60’s. Interesting reads.

They are called Condoms! You know, in case you haven’t heard of them.

“I lost some time once. It’s always in the last place you look for it.” – Neil Gaiman

This weekend kicked ass. There are exactly no words to describe how awesome this weekend was. So I guess I can only tell you exactly what happened. Ok. … continue reading this entry.

Don’t get hung up on a snag in the stream, my dear. Snags alone are not so dangerous—it’s the debris that clings to them that makes the trouble. Pull yourself loose and go on. – Anne Shannon Monroe

PART ONE: I don’t miss him, I miss who I thought he was. *You might want to skip all of part one its just me thinking.* … continue reading this entry.

2009!

Another year went by. Weird right? Its strange because when I was little I used to think I wonder how it will be when I am in high school? And I am already starting my second semester of college on the 12th. Its so weird (not to be cliché or anything) how time just flew by. I mean we have calendars and watches to keep track of time. Yet it always zooms by without anyone actually realizing it. I watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button last week. Which might explain this entry. Anyway in my opinion it was OK. I was curious (no pun intended) about it. There are just a lot of things that they should never have put in the movie. So yeah. My mom and sister Mija hated it and thought it was a waste of time and money. I mean I am glad I saw it. I was curious remember. Damn trailers.

 I am in love with my sewing machine. I was afraid that I wasn’t going to be able to learn how to use it, but I have. I taught myself how to sew on a zipper, which wasn’t easy. My first attempt was ok, but my third was perfect. I made my mom a coin purse. But the best part about it is that I made it with Beatles fabric. Its a revelation so I’m told. lol. I found it at Walmart. I was so excited and had to buy it. Isn’t it awesome? I really like these pictures of them too.

 I was going to spend this coming week with Mija, but due to school related stuff I am unable to go. I will also miss meeting Charlaine Harris. She is the author of the Sookie Stackhouse mystery novels which is what the HBO show True Blood was based on. She was having an autograph session near my sisters apartment. I was going to meet her but now I can’t. It sucks. I was looking forward to it. Hopefully I will get another chance to meet her. T_T Anyway that really put a damper on my last week off. I was going to have an awesome week with my sister. But that’s ok I might get to hang out with my Korean brother Hyun. He is coming home tomorrow. Plus I might hang out with Cate or Missy as well. I haven’t spent anytime with my friends and I miss them. I hope classes go smoothly, and cause as little stress as possible. But…and not to sound negative here, I have a feeling I’m going to be extremely stressed out this semester.

Just not with classes. Sigh. >_< I hope I’m wrong.

www.charlaineharris.com/biography.html

“Just because it is 1in the morning, that shouldn’t mean that TV networks must be incapable of showing different or at least decent movies during this time.” -Me

I do not have classes on Friday. So I like to stay up late. But who am I kidding I sleep late on school nights too. But Thursday nights I can relax without worrying about home work that’s due or something. Well I like staying up and watching TV. Once in awhile they show a good movie. The channels in particular is tbs and USA. Now I can’t remember how many times or when it first started but they have been showing the same exact movie like every night it seems. Or at least every Friday morning. Now I wouldn’t be bothered by it if it was a movie I at least liked. The movie in question is…. Screwed.

I am annoyed by this movie, sorry to the people who actually like this movie. But enough is enough. Why must they keep showing this movie? There is like a million other movies they could show. I mean I know there are people who can’t sleep, or who are like me and are just accustomed to sleeping late. But I mean come on. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, SHOW A DIFFERENT MOVIE! At least for my sanity.

But this is where I turn off the TV and read a good book. I have so many books I want to buy at the moment. I am currently reading three books at the same time because I couldn’t decided which one to read first. I know I’m terrible. So far its going ok I am keeping up with them. My book wishlist just keeps growing and growing. sigh. There are way too many books and I read way too slow. >_<

I just wanted to share this with you Mija and Kat. Because I know you both can appreciate and understand where I am coming from. Plus you can justify that this isn’t just crazy talk.

I’m not crazy. Right?