Second Chances
I don’t believe in second chances. Once you screw up that’s it. I’m not the type of girl who forgives easily. I mean I take the situation into consideration. You lost the pen you borrowed…that’s fine, you ate the last doughnut? Forget it. You’re screwed. >o<
In all seriousness, when it comes to relationships I have to set boundaries. I know it may sound harsh but it’s just how I am. It’s been about a month since my relationship ended. I was really angry and frustrated with him for how he chose to handle things. But I’m tired of holding on to that anger and I can say that I’m not as bitter as I once was. He contacted me the other day and told me how much he misses me and that he loved me. The pissed off side of me couldn’t help but feel happy about that. I wanted to rub it in his face and tell him, “Of course you miss me. I could have told you that you would. I’m fucking awesome!!” XD But I was more interested in keeping my cool. I had the chance to say everything I wanted to say to him that night and now I just want to move on with my life. Before our relationship ended I tried my best to show him that I was there for him but he just wasn’t able to see that. The way he handled the situation was wrong but I hope the next relationship he has he knows it’s ok to rely on someone. As cheesy as I may sound at the moment, I am very serious. I couldn’t take everything he said as the truth but again I’ve decided to just rise above it. You can’t change the past, and even though I hated how the relationship ended I am going to move forward and be happy. I hope he does the same.
It’s nice being able to sort out my feelings and I’m glad that this entry can end on a happy note. Thanks for reading. :3
I spent some extra time thinking which song I wanted to share. I finally decided on Thank You by Mozella. Enjoy. [audio:http://numb.honey-vanity.net/wp-content/uploads/2012/06/ThankyouMozellalyricsYouTube.mp3|titles=ThankyouMozella]
Mija Said:
on June 24, 2012 at 1:03 am
<3 My hero <3
Kim Said:
on June 24, 2012 at 11:07 am
@Mija,Learned from the best. <3
Kristen Said:
on June 24, 2012 at 10:11 am
Good for you!!
PS: How much nerve he must have to completely ignore you, let you break up with him, and then (a month later) say he loves and misses you. What the heck is that?? But whatev. Again, you handled the situation with total maturity and grace. I admire you a great deal, girl.
Kim Said:
on June 24, 2012 at 11:14 am
@Kristen, Thanks, yeah it was difficult, I think I did ok with letting go of my anger. The entry I had planned on writing, before, was really angry. I had planned on sharing the actual conversation and then proceed by ripping it apart word for word. But there was no need for that. Thanks for commenting Kristen. 🙂
Robin Said:
on June 24, 2012 at 11:04 am
Good for you for not giving in to him. 🙂 I don’t think his treatment of you demonstrated love, judging from what I read.
Kim Said:
on June 24, 2012 at 11:17 am
@Robin, My thoughts exactly. I wanted to show him that he has to live his mistakes and hopefully learn something for his next relationship. Thanks for commenting. 🙂
Liza Said:
on June 25, 2012 at 5:05 pm
He sounds so similar to my ex-boyfriend who did this thing twice. The first time I didn’t give in, but the second time I did… I need to learn to be stronger. >.>
kim Said:
on June 25, 2012 at 6:05 pm
@Liza, Well it is hard to be strong when they say such sweet words. But too little too late. I was able to say no because I kept in mind how horrible he made me feel during our last week together. I never want to feel that way again. And for me, any feelings I had for him were crushed by how cold he was to me. With all those feelings in mind, I didn’t want to say yes.
You are already strong you just don’t see it yet.
Thanks for reading and commenting. :3
Ashley Said:
on July 4, 2012 at 8:03 am
You’re my hero. Seriously, I wouldn’t be able to rise above that but that’s just me being pathetic. You’re awesome! Go you!
kim Said:
on July 4, 2012 at 12:52 pm
@Ashley, Thanks for saying that. I wish I could say I still felt this way. Sadly, I’m back to being bitter after finding something out. It’s in my newest post.
If you are from 20sb the password is on my profile page under (From my blog section) and you can get to it by clicking on the sewing machine.
Thanks for reading and commenting.
Kristine Said:
on July 4, 2012 at 8:19 am
It is good you were able to stay strong and let go of your anger. It is completely understandable why you would be holding on it. I am definitely like you, I kept that inside for a long time, there are no 2nd chances and you better not come near me with an apology. But in relationships, sometimes we want to give in. Being at a place where you want to move on with your life is a great spot to be in. Being angry isn’t going to help and it won’t make your life pleasant.
kim Said:
on July 4, 2012 at 12:56 pm
@Kristine, Oh as I was replying to Ashley’s comment above. I’m back to being pissed. I found out something I knew all along and I just can’t be ok about it. I talk about in my newest post. It has a password on it, but if you’re from 20sb, it’s on my profile page. I’m sure with some time I can let go of this anger again…hopefully.
Thanks for reading and commenting. 🙂
Jenn Said:
on November 3, 2012 at 2:40 am
Awesomeness. I think you did the right thing!!
On to the Next!!
Cheers, Jenn
Inside Kimmy's Mind » Time Machine Said:
on February 12, 2013 at 2:58 am
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