Mother of Mouth Muck!
Don’t get hung up on a snag in the stream, my dear. Snags alone are not so dangerous—it’s the debris that clings to them that makes the trouble. Pull yourself loose and go on. – Anne Shannon Monroe
PART ONE: I don’t miss him, I miss who I thought he was. *You might want to skip all of part one its just me thinking.*I know I said I wouldn’t mention it anymore yet here I am mentioning it again. For the 100th time. And I think this is part of me getting over it. But its strange because its not that I want to get back together with him. I mean not after all that has happened. And the more I think about what happened between us makes me angry. So would I rather be angry compared to sad? I’m not quite sure. I mean the more I think about why I was dumped, just makes me furious. I was too comfortable for him, he wanted to date other people. In other words he was just tired of me. I mean he compared dating to trying on shoes. I mean yes people date lots of different people. And dating isn’t a slutty thing to do. But he sounded like a typical guy. Wanting more than one girl. Like one isn’t enough. Like, I was too comfortable of a shoe for him. (since he compared dating to shoes) So I am a nice pair of classic chucks: durable, comfortable. (BUT NOT APPROPRIATE IN WET WEATHER.) So is he constantly in a rainy place? What does he want stilettos? Pretty, yet uncomfortable…..more like complicated does he think they are more suitable in his rainy weather of a life? I mean is that what he wants a complicated girlfriend? I mean I wouldn’t date someone just because they were comfortable. I would be with someone because I love him. Because he makes the butterflies appear in my stomach and makes my heart leap. Plus doesn’t it mean when you are truly comfortable with someone thats when your relationship reaches the perfect place? Like I was happy with him up to a point. I guess on some level I felt him pulling away. I guess it was just pinching at him. I mean I was happy. I just wanted to see him more. I barely saw him. He just made things worse by saying we should “try” on different shoes. I mean come on really? Couldn’t you have the balls to tell me that? Sigh. How annoying. I trusted him. With everything. And he let everything fall to pieces. And now I am stuck with all the sweet memories that I can’t forget. And its sort of unfair. I know I said I wouldn’t regret dating him, but I sometimes do, but only if it means all the things that are hurting me now would vanish. I know thats bad to say. It’s just annoying. If only he could have been real with me. Because I was me with him.
PART TWO: MOVIES AND SUCH.
I just recently purchased the movie The Dark Crystal. Now ever since I was a child I have been in love with this movie and the main character Jen. Yes I knew he was a puppet. But that didn’t stop me. >_< Yes I was a sad child. Anyway I forgot how much I love that movie. Jim Henson does the voice for the Gelfling Jen. He was awesome with voices. Jim Henson also produced the movie Mirror Mask, I think? The movie was based on the book by Neil Gaiman. The cool thing is that Neil Gaiman also wrote the screen play for the movie. The movie was fucking brilliant. I really want to read the book now. I’m reading another book by Gaiman called Neverwhere. It’s for my Sicfi class. But now I wish I could read Mirror mask instead. I’m still going to read it though. And ask if I could sub. it for one of the other books. This totally inspired me. The movie was so beautiful. Neil Gaiman also wrote the book Stardust. Which was also made into a movie. That had a nice story line as well. This Neil sure is creative. I think I found a new hero author. I mean there are practically no words for how much I loved this movie. I mean I’m assuming the book is 10 times better than the movie. Well I’m hoping it is. On another note, not having a myspace is weird yet oddly refreshing. I’m glad I deleted it. And I don’t intend to ever get one again.
We often confuse what we wish for with what is.- Mirror Mask
