Inside Kimmy's Mind

Week 2! This has proven to be even more difficult than I thought it would be. Not because I can’t find anyone of interest. I’ve met a few guys who have, at least at this point, come across as interesting and nice. 3 to be exact.

However, I cannot truly connect with more than one guy at a time. I’ve only been able to put my full attention on one, yet once I do…they tend to just stop talking to me.

One minute, we are connecting, we have things in common, I’m enjoying the conversations we share and have come to the conclusion that I would like to get to know this person more. Perhaps even meet them in person. Then crickets. Not exactly sure how this is supposed to work.  I knew this going in, that it wouldn’t be all romantic and magical. Taking things slow is not a terrible thing. I just thought I met someone worth getting to know and then what ever happens after that…happens. Building a relationship takes time, however it also takes communication and actually meeting the person…in person. Things can’t really move forward without these things. Clearly, I wasn’t prepared, because once I take an interest in a guy then I’m not really looking at others. Yet, that’s not really the point of the app, is it? The point is, an easier way to meet people. For me anyway. Whether it turns romantic depends on the people. And even though I’m currently working through this, I guess, one sided crush I can’t just assume he’s feeling the same way. Remember, your matches are also being matched with other people. So my crush probably has a crush of his own. Sad. However, I haven’t had a crush in a long time and that part does feel nice. The over thinking and worrying part, not so much. But you have to take both the good and the bad. It does bum me out a bit though. I can’t get attached to someone who is technically still a stranger….right?

We shall see what the following weeks shall bring. My crush might fizzle out and I might form new crushes…who knows? I’m also not sure how long I’ll keep this up either. But for now, I’ll just go at my normal pace and see what happens. Do you form crushes easily? Until next time…

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That moment where you rather redo a moment to prevent from hurting someone than pretend as if everything is alright. If only time travel were possible in this case. Sadly, it’s not.

I am not ready to be in a relationship…with anyone at the moment. And for some reason I keep putting myself in such difficult positions that end up hurting people I really care about. Why? Why do I do this? Does the universe find this hilarious? So what if I went through high school unscathed by the cruel ridiculous notions of teen drama. I had hope that my early adult life would go the same way, without unwanted drama. But that’s not going to happen.

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I’ve had a ton of drafts waiting to be finished and published on my blog. But other things just kept getting in the way. So prepare to be bombarded with random posts.

After thinking about my celebrity crushes it made me think about my real life crushes.  As a kid,  it didn’t take much for me to like a boy, What can I say? I was a sucker for anyone who watched Power Rangers and X-men.

So I have my favorite actors and musicians, here are the ones I have huge crushes on.

• Alexander Skarsgård: Eric from Trueblood!! I’ve had a huge crush on him since the second season of the show. How hot is he? I have a thing for the tall and broad shouldered. XD
• Joe Manganiello: Also from Trueblood, he plays Alcide. However, I only have a crush on him as this character. Whenever he doesn’t have a beard he isn’t as hot. And I never thought much about facial hair either. But it makes a difference on him. Now I’m not a fan of muscles. I’m really not, but damn…need I say more? (Notice how he’s the only one shirtless? I just couldn’t help myself. >.<)
• Joseph Gordon-Levitt: I absolutely adore him as an actor. And I love the HitRecord stuff he does, it just makes me crush on him more.

• Adrien Brody: I really do not like it when he is buff. He just looks odd. I’m more into the lanky guy who looks amazing in suspenders. Which brings me to the next crush.
• Mika: I believe he is gay, but I can’t remember if he’s ever specified. But I do not care. I love him!!! So adorable!!! >.< One of my favorite videos can be found here. *suspenders!!! Eeek!* Love it.
• Liam Neeson: He is amazing. I LOVE him. He is just so classy. I don’t care how old he gets. He just gets more attractive with age. <3

Celebrity crushes are fun. But they are just for fun. I don’t dream about dating any of them. They aren’t what I want in reality. However, Joseph is pretty close to a guy I would totally date in real life. Not just in looks but in personality. Not that I KNOW him. But from what he does outside of making movies I could totally date someone like him. Creative, inspiring and freaking adorable. How nice.  But these crushes are just fun to admire and drool over.

 Who are your celebrity crushes? Would you date them?