Inside Kimmy's Mind

My baby sister turns 18 today, I cannot believe it. She is 18 today and a high school graduate tomorrow. >.< So weird.

I still remember when she was two, I thought she was the cutest baby in the world. And before my fear of holding babies kicked in I would always want to hold her. Of course I was too small to actually hold her, so I had to make do with sitting next to her. lol But as we grew older we became inseparable. When Mija went to junior high she went through “the you are younger than me and far less cool, so don’t talk to me” phase.  So thankfully I had Kat to keep me company. Even when I went to junior high I would still come home and hang out with her. I guess I’m just a far more superior older sister than Mija. XD jk I did however become a protective big sister, and this makes me want to kick all the boys in the balls to keep them away from her.  (I have no idea where she got the boy-crazed gene from) I know she is getting older but its hard to see her that way when I just see my baby sister. But its something I’m working on. -.- It will just take some time, and until then I have the right to give any boy the death glare.

So Kat will be going to BC in the fall, and then after a semester or two she will transfer to Houston and enroll in A.I. (The Art Institute) She is going for culinary and I hope she becomes a master pastry chef.  I want her to enjoy her last summer vacation, because once you graduate high school, those just disappear. >.< I hope she has fun while in college and I hope she doesn’t have to deal with stupid stuff like I do.

Words of wisdom for Kat:

• Pace yourself, don’t let yourself get overwhelmed
• Do your best
• Try not to procrastinate- its not helpful and you’ll end up in a bind so do everything early.
• Ask for help- don’t be afraid to ask for help, I was specifically designed to help YOU. That’s what sisters are for so just ask. <3
• Remember, just because you are 18 now doesn’t mean you can do as you please. You’re just a year older, nothing else has changed. Luis and Cynthia are still your parents. Meaning they still make the rules.
  
• Don’t let anything or ANYONE get in your way. You have goals and I want you to accomplish those goals and be happy.
  

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAT!! LOVE YOU- Just tried to go shopping for the brat and nothing seemed to be right. DAMN YOU XBOX!!!

My loves for today are…

1. This owl purse, oh and these cute knee socks.

1. Breakfast cups- these look interesting             
2. Seth Green                                     
3. United States of Tara-Oh why oh why was it canceled?!

1. I love her every day but since her birthday landed on a Thursday this year why not include her in this list. Kathy!!! My little sister she is 18 today!!! Happy Birthday Kat!!!!!

Everywhere I turn couples are either getting married or expecting a child, I’m assuming because it is Spring time. And this is just the designated season to marry your significant other and to reproduce.

In the blog universe two of my favorite bloggers have also embraced the season of marriage and baby making. I have mentioned this blog before, she inspires me with every post.I hope to one day make my blog as interesting as hers is.  Her and her husband are the cutest couple, their vintage style is just so picture perfect.  I also enjoy reading this blog, I love how her and her husband collaborate on her blog. He takes such amazing pictures of her. So adorable. Its what I hope for in a relationship, working together to create something. Meeting someone that not only supports but inspires me as well.  Anyway, they are expecting their first child.

In my real world, I’ve mention my best friend having her first baby back in January, and he is still the cutest thing in the world. >.< Such a cute baby, in some pictures he definitely looks like Missy and then in others I think he resembles his dad. Its so weird and amazing all at the same time. I’ve never been a baby person and I’m still not comfortable with holding him but as soon as he is old enough to crawl I might be able to hold him. lol Continuing on, my older sister got engaged a couple of weeks ago. Its pretty exciting, no date has been decided as of yet. But I’m hoping its not too far away. It will probably be in a year or so. Usually when a family member gets married, I dread going to the wedding. I’m not a fan of them. But when its someone I truly love then I know I will enjoy myself. I’m already planning on a toast to give during the dinner. It’s my older sister so I have plenty of words to share, maybe some embarrassing stories or two as well. XD

I’m looking forward to the wedding, I hope the plans go smoothly and she doesn’t turn into a bridezilla. XD Beause she can be pretty scary when things aren’t done in the way she wants them to be done. And I’ll actually have to do what she says since its her wedding. -.- Yeah I’m looking forward to that part. But in all seriousness, she shouldn’t be too difficult. lol But I know she won’t be one of those brides that pick the most ugly bridesmaid dresses for us to wear. But I’m more excited to see her try on a lot of different wedding gowns.  So weird my sister is engaged. >.<

And here are today’s 5 things I love! <3<3<3

• New Girl- an upcoming tv series starring Zoey Deschanel, I love her

• The Goblin King Jareth from the movie Labyrinth played by The gorgeous David Bowie. He is amazing as himself, but I really love this character.

  

• Honeycomb book shelves- I find these shelves absolutely adorable and want some of my own.

• Baileyblue dress- I needed a dress for my little sisters confirmation, so I went shopping for one and and had no luck in finding anything that I would be remotely comfortable in. Finally we went to JcPenny’s and I found this dress. However mine is gray and I wore it differently compared to the model in the picture. But I love it. The only thing its missing is pockets.

• Long John donuts- :9 I WANT ONE NOW!!! The kind with the yellow custard not the white whipped cream kind.

Maybe I shouldn’t do food anymore on these things. Also I should start walking around the block from now on. Just looking at this picture can make you gain weight. >.<

So since the semester has ended, my sleep schedule as reverted back to its normal carefree pattern. Meaning sleeping late and sleeping in.  So instead of trying to sleep at a decent time I do what I normally do in this situation. Browse Netflicks for a cheesy romance movie to fall in love with. XD

I love when I find a cutesy, make your tummy jump and smile and cry all at once sort of movie. I’m aware that tummies can’t actually smile or cry. But when I watch these types of movies it feels as if mine can. Because its a jump, a smile, a cry I can feel in the pit of my stomach. 0.O Weird I know, I’m probably not making sense. But I have the snot and smile lines to prove it. So I didn’t necessarily fall in love with this movie, but it made me think about life and about the people in my life and about what I’m doing with my life. Whether or not I’m living it right tends to cross my mind quite often during a time like this. And I wonder, “Am I happy?”….However, I feel like this isn’t the right question and therefore can’t answer it. There are tons of factors to consider. Maybe if the question was, “Am I unhappy?” You might think by answering this question you get the answer to the first one but I like to think that these questions are extremely different. No I am not unhappy, I am not depressed nor suicidal.  Thankfully I’m not feeling any of these emotions. So no worries. But am I necessarily happy? Not sure. I know I’m not on the negative spectrum of emotions. But I don’t find myself on the positive side either. I think I remain in the middle.

I know its really odd how a movie can make me zone out and actually think about weird questions such as these. And normally people know whether or not they are happy with their lives. And I can say I am happy in a sense, but I know there are some things I wish I could change in some way. But who doesn’t feel that way. I know that life wouldn’t be real if there weren’t some difficulties to overcome. I also know that I won’t be really happy unless I do my best at BEING happy.  Of course knowing what is causing me to be stuck in neutral would help. But I think I just need to remind myself what makes me happy. Happiness isn’t achieved by  expecting to BE happy. There is so much good in my life and I ignore it, when I should be celebrating. So I intend to be happy.

Some of the things that make me happy..

• Reading a good book
• sewing- especially when the product comes out pretty decent
• writing- I can’t go a day without writing in something
• listening to music- the perfect way to get in a good mood is by listening to a happy song

“It is such a great day to be alive.”

So my second semester at UH has finally ended. I just finished my last final tonight. And I’m a little bit worried about it. >.<

Now all I have to finish is my story revision for creative writing and then I go home for the summer. Of course my summer isn’t going to exactly be an easy vacation. -.- I have to take summer classes. And of course I have to take none other than my arch nemesis….MATH!!!! As I’ve said countless of times, math’s sole purpose is to DESTROY me! >.<

No matter how hard I try, math will always be my enemy but after taking this math during the summer I will only have to take one more. Thank god. And then I will be done with math. The I have two sciences and a second language to worry about. -.- Great.

So besides taking classes over the summer, I intend to finally get my license! I swear this HAS to happen THIS summer. I’m tired of not having it, I’m already going to be 22 this is so pathetic. :/ Besides that I also plan on getting a job, I need one so when I come back to Houston for the fall I can have work experience. Because I have had no luck in getting  a job without any work experience. I want to work at Berripop or Smoothie King. Somewhere I really love. Borders or Barnes & Nobles would be a nice place to work as well so I need to get a job over the summer. I hope that happens. I also hope to hang out with friends this summer. I don’t really have a lot friends at UH so going home and spending time with old friends will be awesome. I want to have movie nights and just have a good time with people I love.

Summer classes don’t start until June I believe, so that means I have the rest of May to work on Mind-Speak inventory. Yup my sisters and I plan on opening an Etsy store. Hopefully it will be open by November. I have a lot of knitting and sewing to do over the summer. I mention a book I bought a month ago, and I can’t wait to get started. There is sooooooo much I want to do. But I need to pace myself otherwise I will just get overwhelmed.

So yeah this is where I am at the moment.  I know not extremely exciting. :/