It Ruins Lives
I am deleting my myspace by the end of the week, I think it will solve a lot of my problems.
So…school. There are about a million things wrong with it. My ex is in my history class. Now I knew I might run into him in the hallways. But, its a nice size campus so I thought it would be big enough for the both of us. But a classroom? Not so much. I could have sworn I told him when I had classes, so if he got the same class as me on purpose that pretty much sucks. He saw me before I saw him, and he avoided me. Which nah duh that is understandable. But that somehow made it hurt much more. How am I supposed to get over him if I see him during that class. Now granted, I don’t have to look at him or speak to him or have anything to do with him. But he is there. He broke up with me before we did class schedules together. Yet here we are in the same history class every Monday and Wednesday at 2:15. To me it feels like he is purposefully doing this so it is impossible for me to move on. Now I don’t know why I am thinking of it that way. Because he wasn’t this kind of person while we were dating. He was nice and a good boyfriend. Maybe subconsciously I think making him out to be the villain will make things easier for me. But I guess that isn’t really my subconscious. I know he is hurting too even though it was him who wanted to date other people. But I am standing my ground and not changing my schedule. My science fiction/fantasy class seems like it will be fun. The teacher is really cool and I love writing and reading so it should be ok. But there are a lot of books I have to read and in a short amount of time but I believe I can do it. Tomorrow I have English at 12:30 and then math at 5. I’m not exactly looking forward to that but hey I have no choice. I promise I will try to update with a less boring entry next time.
School should take my mind off things not keep it on them sigh.
