Inside Kimmy's Mind

I remain creatively stumped. I have no idea what to paint on my Munny, I want to go on a book overload, and I need to make a vlog as well using what I filmed at Domy Books. But in the mean time here are some pictures of the store that I have yet to share.

I don’t want to talk too much about this store because then I won’t leave anything for my vlog. Just know it is a kick ass store made of awesome. With the minor exception its awesomeness is fucking expensive. But oh well I still find it amazing.Ok so I spent the past two weeks with my sister Mija and I had fun. She wants me to come back for a third week. Awww I must be so awesome that she just can’t ever get tired of me. So I said why not. I changed my mind about going to classes this month. So I now have an actual summer vacation. Sigh. I’m such a bad student. I might go to classes during the Summer II semester. Anyway, I think I spoiled her by staying for the second week and now she doesn’t want to be alone at her place. lol I don’t mind staying at her place, I mean I’m not bored or anything. I’m just homesick. At least I know that when the time comes for me to actually move in with her we will be able to actually live under the same roof together. Well the other day she bought some sushi for us and we made chow mein. It was so yummy. Of course Tomo (her pet cat) was a curious weirdo and wanted to investigate the sushi. Like he would like it, he is a weird cat. Not at all like my cat Mister. He would eat anything. A regular walking, breathing, eating machine.

Speaking of noodles mom rented the movie The Ramen Girl starring Brittany Murphy the other day. And so we watched it when we came home on Saturday while eating ramen. The movie was cute, I’m just glad they took out a bunch of unnecessary scenes. It would have changed my opinion of the movie. And her love interest? Sohee Park? Is such a cutie.

I wish Kathy would update more often without me having to tell her. I might as well go and bother her right now seeing as I will be gone for another week. hehehe ^_^

I have been keeping a journal for as long as I can remember. However, before I started keeping a blog I managed to completely fill 3 journals. And for some odd reason after discussing this issue with my younger sister Kat; I have recently pulled these journals out. I have discovered that my younger self was an idiot.

These completed journals are from ages 14 to 18 I believe. Because when I turned 19 I started keeping my blog and I didn’t write in a journal as much. Updating my blog was much more entertaining for me. Of course blogs are journals that you can share with friends. Whereas a written journal isn’t available for the eyes of others. I mean I have the ability to keep the entries I would like private but what fun would that be? And when I feel like writing stuff I don’t want others to know thats when I can return to old fashion journal writing. The reason I only have three completely filled journals is because I couldn’t concentrate on writing in one journal. I was always getting new ones and I would immediately start writing in them forgetting the journal I had already began writing in. So I have tons of journals not even half filled. (Thats pretty sad) So when I turned 14 I was able to actually keep writing in a journal until it was completely filled. Of course as I reread words from my younger years I couldn’t help but mock myself. They are filled with ridiculous arguments with the friends I no longer see nor talk to. It was weird to reread pages I haven’t seen in awhile. Even though these entries were written years ago, I can read them and remember the events that took place like it was yesterday. Weird right? Well anyway, whats the point in reading about the past? You are supposed to look to the future right?

Anyway I spent money this past week. I had text book money still and I received late late graduation money. So I couldn’t resist. I bought a Keroppi wallet and clothes. I love Keroppi and he is being replaced by another fucking frog. They don’t look that much different from each other. But for some odd reason I only love Keroppi. Buying clothes is weird for me I don’t always like trying on clothes. But there are times when I actually enjoy buying new clothes and of course layer. >_< My first week with Mija went smoothly. We didn’t fight so that was good, I’m going back with her for the second week hopefully this one goes just as smoothly. The only thing is I hate that she works so late. By the time she gets home she is so tired that she goes to sleep early sometimes. Pffft And I’m not helping by distracting her. Well besides taking me to the Galleria three times last week she also took me to Domy Books. Oh it was a wonderful store (expensive) but amazing. I’m glad she took me there. I planned to spend the last of my money on a Munny for Hyun but I decided to buy the wallet. Sorry Hyun. >_<

Ok wow. A night filled with cheesy horror flicks. I love when I can laugh at movies that were supposed to scare you. And this is what I get for watching the movies on the Fearnet.com channel.

Ok one out of the three “Scary” movies I watched the other night this one actually had me on the edge of my seat. The movie If I die Before I wake. Now I don’t usually ever like watching scary movies, its only sometimes and most of those times I am with Mija. Well anyway, this movie made me anxious and nervous and pissed at the same time. I have no idea what I would do in that situation and movies like this always make me think, would I be able fend for myself? This movie was sad and scary in a “this could really happen” sort of way. I hate not having any muscle or fighting skills. Tsk. Of course when I ask these questions, I always receive the answer, “Yeah if its for your life or a life of a loved one you would be able to fight back.” Now even though I’m sure I would fight for my life or the life of a loved one I’m not so sure I could. I have no strength. Seriously when we would have piñatas at parties I would never hit it with enough force. Ok granted I was a kid, and that wasn’t for life but hey that was for candy you would think I would break it to pieces. Oh and when I was a sophomore during cpr classes the plastic dummy would push me up instead of me pushing down on it. Now thats sad. But no joke I have no body strength. Its pathetic really. I’m just going hope I’m never in a situation where fighting and strength is a must.

Moving on to the next movie is The Toxic Avenger. Now I couldn’t even finish this movie. It was beyond ridiculous, really it is. So I’m not going to really elaborate any more than that.

Next is the movie entitled Dance of The Dead. Sigh I’m not really sure what to say about this one. It was cheesy. But sometimes cheesy is nice. It was a good laugh. But movies like this always make me wonder what about their families? You know just once I would like to watch a zombie movie that wasn’t so stereotypical. I mean everyone knows to kill a zombie you shoot it in the head. And you avoid getting bitten. Sigh duh. I’m sorry but I just think zombie movies need to be planned out more. sigh. But like I said this movie made me laugh. >_<

Now to the news that I am so excited about. Next month season 2 of True Blood starts. I’m so excited, this show is so amazing. I’m still reading the novels by Charlaine Harris, I’m on All Together Dead at the moment. And then I have two more to read until I’ve read all of the ones that are published. I’m not sure how many more she has to write. She said in a Q&A once that she would keep writing as much as they want her to write to continue the series. Of course there are many differences between the novels and the tv series but I enjoy them both. All I know is that I cannot wait for the season 2 to start. I missed this show. I hate when seasons end because then you have to wait until the next season starts and if there is another season. Damn tv shows for running my life.

I wore this on Monday. I love dressing in layers. No matter what season it is. -_- I know in the summer that’s not the best idea because well…its hot. But I see layering as comfortable. I know some times its really unnecessary to have certain layers but to me I like them. Sometimes I dress like a kid and not like a 19 year old. But I mean how do 19 year girls dress? I don’t wear makeup, I’m not even sure I know how to apply the stuff. But I what you see is what you get. I don’t wear a mask to hide my imperfections. O.o I don’t know how to look mature and grownup because I still look childish. Oh well I guess I should enjoy that while I’m young right?

In other news: I just watched a commercial for a special of the show John and Kate plus 8 and I think they discuss his cheating on Kate. I still can’t believe that he would do that. He is supposed to be a family man, not a typical testosterone filled male. I mean really? His kids are going to realize what he did when they are older and just be filled with embarrassment, anger and disappointment . It makes me think why do men who cheat even get married? I mean if they are filled with some doubt then why even start a family if you are just going to cheat later on? I mean from watching the show I would get annoyed by Kate’s never ending demands and bossy attitude. But he knew how she was when he married her so he had to have known what he was getting himself into. I mean he says in the trailer that that he can’t be just John. Well sorry John you signed up for a show and this is what you get when you exploit your family. sigh. I just thought I’d like to discuss this matter.

I should really get a life huh?

The past few weeks or so….

• I volunteered last week for my college at a golf course. And I was attacked by heat and mosquitoes. Ouch. I spent time with Cate so that was awesome and I meet several other people that go to my school. I just don’t ever want to volunteer outside ever again. -_-

• I also saw RENT the musical for the second time. Except this time I was able to watch it with Anthony Rapp and Adam Pascal. ORIGINAL ROGER AND MARK!!! I have video of Anthony Rapp giving me his autograph, and I will try to make a vlog as soon as I can.

• I got to see my Korean brother Hyun the other day. It was good to see him of course he was mean to me as usual, but what brother doesn’t pick on his sisters? Well he left for Korea early Sunday morning so we only got to see him on Thursday. He looks older but at the same time he still looks the same. lol I find it so strange how long we have known each other. I met him my freshman year of high school. Hyun along with Haruka (Japanese exchange student) became apart of my family. I don’t get to talk to Haruka often but I’m so glad that he still visits and talks to me. Awww memories.

On a serious note: I wanted to mention this one time and one time only. Because pretending like it didn’t happen isn’t working. My ex called me about a week ago. He wanted to discuss “us”. Now its been about 5 months since we have been an “us” and I haven’t even talked to him, but for some reason when I heard my cell ring I had a feeling it was him. Now thanks to the invention of cell phones I haven’t memorized a phone number in like forever, so after we broke up I deleted his number so I wouldn’t try to call him. I guess subconsciously I recognized the number or something and I answered it. Sigh. He told me that he loved me and that he wanted to get back together. To make things short, he said everything I wanted to hear the night of our break up 5 months ago. (weird coincidence- He broke up with me January 6th, and called me again May 6th) Anyway, of course I still have feelings for him, he meant a lot to me. But at the same time I am a bitter bitch. And I kept thinking why now out of all the times he could have talked to me. What made today special? We had a class together he could have talked to me then. So we talked. I told him that I am still the same person I was when he dumped me. That for what ever reason he broke up with me before could happen again and that would he even be willing to put us through that again? He told me no that he finally knows what he wants and that’s me. And that he wouldn’t make the same mistake twice. Of course his words were amazing and alluring. And I was on cloud nine once again. I finally got to hear what I wanted to hear 5 months ago. So I said hypothetically- If we were going to get back together we would have to take it slow. Just to make sure things still clicked. We couldn’t just act like nothing happened.  He said he would agree to anything. No matter how bitter, or bitchy I was he didn’t care. As long as we could work on becoming “us” again. However, I’m not allowed to see him/date him. So I had to say good bye to him once again. My parents never really like him much before so having him in my life again wasn’t even an option. Saying good bye is not an easy thing to do. Whether its a good bye see you soon, or a good bye for now, or a good bye forever? It is difficult. Dylan is a very important person to me, but I thought perusing a relationship with him again would have caused more heart ache than happiness. My family would never have accepted him, and he would have been really unhappy with me. Although I felt annoyed that he reopened almost healed wounds, it was good to talk to him again. My friend Missy said its good because now we have no harsh feelings so that part is true. We talked like we were never apart so I think one day I will be able to talk to him again but as friends only. Wow depressing. Ok This will be  last time I’m talking about this.

• I’m at my sisters apartment for two weeks. I don’t start classes again until June 8th. And I’m so looking forward to that. >_< Bleh.

“So many faces in and out of my life; some will last, some will be just now and then. Life is a series of hellos and good byes, I’m afraid it’s time for goodbye again.”

Classes are over!….For now anyway.

This is what happens when I don’t have homework or classes to worry about: My sleep patterns worsens.

Well classes maybe over, but I have horrible news. I didn’t do too well in math class. I will have to retake the class in the summer. I don’t know what happened, I guess I wasn’t concentrating on it like I should have been. But I will not let this happen again. I am so disappointed in myself. I have never failed a class before. The next time I take this class I will ace it. I have always had troubled in math ever since I started school. I can’t believe time is moving so fast. I think when I was in high school it went by slower. Not sure why. Sigh. I hope I get the job in the Library. I desperately need that job. It would be so perfect. I am up because I can’t sleep and I have a massive headache. >_<

I just finished watching a Bollywood movie right now called Main Prem Ki Diwani Hoon. I haven’t watched a Bollywood movie since I was in junior high. Anyway, I like it because these movies are so dramatic. lol The characters are so passionate, ok sometimes a little cheesy. But in my opinion its the cute adorable cheesy. I mean who hasn’t wanted to break into song and dance before? I know I have. Anyway Its really late and I haven’t gone to sleep yet. Or its really early, depending how you look at it.

But before I thought about going to bed I decided to take random pictures of my room at around 6:30 in the morning. So here is what I shot with my sisters rebel something camera. Freaking awesome camera if you ask me. Just rather heavy.

Me and the camera.

My lantern ball and night stand.

My necklace.

My window.

Well that wasn’t exactly artistic. I was just bored. Speaking of not being artistic, I have already starting drawing on my Munny as you can see from my dailybooth photo. I don’t like it so far, but I am determined to like it once its finished. I’m thinking of trying some paint on it.

Ok I better get some sleep seeing as it is 7:30 am. Alright night night.

I made the mistake in procrastinating yet another assignment. I hate when I run out of time. I am in desperate need of a brain switching. And I would love to switch brains with a great math mastermind. Any takers?

Ok. I keep trying to making a vlog. But for some reason my flip video files haven’t been working properly. So its taking me longer than usual. I hate that. I don’t know why my video didn’t show up as wide screen. Its bugging me.(new thought) So I applied for a job at my college, and apparently I have to become a part of the student work program. But since I answered no to a bunch of questions I need to put my parents information down instead. However, if my parents make too much money then they won’t hire me. How unfair is that? I’m so annoyed right now. I NEED MONEY!!!!!

I got a text from a friend that I haven’t talked to in awhile. He wanted to hang out this weekend so he could introduce his girlfriend to me. I mean I didn’t think I would be in his ‘must meet my girlfriend’ category of friends. I feel special. However, I can’t hang out this weekend because I’m going to watch RENT!

WITH ORIGINAL CAST MEMBERS ANTHONY RAPP AND ADAM PASCAL!!!! I’m psyched for this.

I can’t wait. It will be two weekends in a row that we spent with Mija.

The deserts we had with Mija last weekend.

Desert at Andre’s for the second time.

Then on Sunday we got some gelato- Italian ice cream. I think it was good. Moms flavor wasn’t that good though. It’s that yellow one, I think it was mango. Mine was strawberry and some cream and caramel flavor.

I want a Munny. I’m not sure why, I just do. I’m sure it will take me a long time before I even decide what to paint on it. (I mean I started painting a Russian doll for my friends birthday in March and still haven’t finished them yet. SORRY MISSY! Eventually I will finish those.) Anyway, I want my friend Hyun to make one, I’m sure his will come out amazing. I’m tempted to just send him one. And make him paint one. I don’t mind getting a 4-inch one. But the getting a bigger one would be nice too. >_<

I should start on my SciFi Final. Its due on Monday, that way all I will have to do is study for History and then I’m done. For this semester anyway. Classes start again on June 8 for me. I only get a Month off but oh well. T_T I think I should just continue on with classes so I don’t get even lazier. Knowing me if I had more than a month off I wouldn’t want to go back to classes in the fall. So I think this is the best for me. Bleh. I need to buckle down. I HATE MATH! IT SHOULD JUST ROLL OVER AND DIE A HORRIBLE PAINFUL DEATH THAT WIPES IT FROM THE FACE OF THE EARTH. Or just from the list of classes I have to take. This is all I ask.

My horoscope the other day, said that I would come into some money. And that my plans for world domination were coming along nicely…..interesting. And I just noticed that for this entry, I put it in all of my categories, minus creative writing. Weird right?