Inside Kimmy's Mind

So Kat shared this video with me, it’s a look into how humans react to a first kiss with a stranger. I mean, granted these people are strangers and they don’t have any feelings for each other, but it was still interesting to see how they reacted to kissing. I mean a kiss is one of the most amazing/intimate things two people can share.

And they could very well just be actors, but it still made me think of how I reacted to my first kiss….to all my first kisses. I mean, it’s strange to think back on it. When I was junior high, I would watch every romantic comedy and get that warm fuzzy feeling whenever I saw the characters kiss for the first time. I mean, that’s what the movie is leading up to, I mean besides the conflict and resolution. I was obsessed with the first kiss scenes in movies. I would imagine what my first kiss would be like. (FYI-I wouldn’t find out until I turned 18, which is pretty embarrassing to admit. >.<)  Anyway, my point is that I found first kisses/ kissing in general to be magical. Since that first kiss, I’ve had a total of 6 first kisses. But only 3 were with guys that became boyfriends, but that’s a story for another entry. I mean, I know that movies have this unrealistic vision when it comes to romance, but sometimes reality can let in moments that are so perfect that you feel as though you’re watching them on a screen.

 In a relationship a first kiss can be nerve wracking, you’re embarrassed yet eager to kiss this person you’re beginning to like. Kissing them for the first time is scary, you don’t know where hands should go or the rhythm of that person yet. You want them to want to kiss you again, but you don’t feel the need to show off in a first kiss. These strangers were only going to make out once…I mean for this video anyway. So of course they wanted the other person to walk away thinking, damn that person can really kiss. In the film above, I feel as though the goal was to impress not only the person they were kissing but also whoever ended up watching the video.

That’s all I wanted to share in this entry. Oh, and I’m sure if you’ve seen this video then you’ve probably seen a parody or two that follows it. Some made me laugh, some were a little too much. But what’s your opinion of the video, or first kisses in general? Until next time…

Thanks for reading and commenting.

So I should start of this review and mention how there might be spoilers, I mean they just might slip out as I share my opinion of this film. So this is me warning you, if you dislike spoilers…DO NOT read on. Here’s the trailer of Her, in case you missed it.

This film is set sometime in the future, not too far from our own. The protagonist, Theodore, played by Phoenix is a lonely man- not a hermit or an introvert that prefers staying locked away. He’s heartbroken due to his not exactly recent separation from his wife. So his introvert attitude is something he acquired after his separation. Which makes sense, you don’t necessarily want to be around other people when you’re feeling sad. People handle pain differently, and he pulled away from others. In one of the comedic/ awkward sex scenes, Theo enters a chat room where he is connected to a woman of his choice. They begin a sex phone session, after flirting a bit. I say it is awkward because of the moaning and groaning that happens. But a point that is brought up more than once is the fact that he wanted attention yet turned to a less physical form of it. Which is why I think he turns to his OS later on in the movie. Theodore works for a company called Beautifully Handwritten Letters. He is paid to write meaningful letters for any occasion. He deals with emotions every day yet passes them off as belonging to others. Not something I think everyone could accomplish. The technology in this movie doesn’t seem too far off from what we use. Computers, cell phones, ear pieces which everyone seems to own.  They connect to their “cell phones” along with a “Seri” type voice….that is until he upgrades to his own personal (Scarlett Johansson) OS. These are somehow personalized due to a set of questions you answer in the initializing phase. He chooses his to have a female voice, which of course he would, I mean he’s suffering from loneliness. So a female voice would be most comforting to him.

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The start of a new year has become strange now that I’m older, it seems to arrive and end a lot faster than I remember as a child. I didn’t keep track of it when I was little and I thought summer was a whole year all on its own.

I had moments back in my elementary days where I would imagine seeing an older version of myself. A version I didn’t know yet, a version I was excited to meet. I’d now like to know what elementary me would think if she were to meet the current me. I’m sure she would think, why am I not taller, and will I ever grow boobs?And I would reply with, we haven’t grown an inch since the 8th grade, so yeah. And still waiting to see about the boobs. XD Random thought I know. Anyway, New years was comfy and nice, spent the last moments of 2013 at the weirdo sibling’s new house. We watched movies and fireworks and then played a game. We couldn’t stay up too late because Kat had to work that morning and Nina had to take us back to our place. I’m now enjoying the last week before classes start on the 13th. That also means going back to work at McAlister’s. I hope this semester brings great things, first semester with no English classes, gonna have to get used to that. I only need two more English classes and the rest will be courses in Advertising. So even though I’m nervous about that, I’m also excited.

I wanted to share this anime that I recently watched on Netflix, it’s been awhile since I’ve enjoyed a nice anime. It’s only 11 episodes, not sure if it has other seasons or not, but because of the intro, I just had to watch it. It’s about a socially awkward girl who is in love with jellyfish. She lives with several other women who are even more awkward, they are an interesting bunch. She meets a very pretty girl who ends up being a dude. I just thought it was adorable. You can also read the manga here if you’re interested in that sort of thing.

I received tickets to an advanced screening of the film Her, so I’m going to see that tonight. I’ll let you know my thoughts on the film. It looks interesting.  Other recent movies I’ve seen are Saving Mr. Banks ,The Secret Life of Walter Mitty and The Hobbit: Desolation of Smaug. Need to write posts on my thoughts of those films as well.  But for now, I sleep.

Movies!!– “I was such an asshole five years ago.” –Happythankyoumoreplease

The quote above is from the movie that I linked. It was really good by the way…just saying.

I guess if a person were to say this it would mean he/she considers themselves an asshole. Anyone can be an asshole, it could be by accident or on purpose. Whether it was an evil look you gave someone, a rude comment you said loud enough for someone to hear, or maybe it was the heart you broke due to lies and poor excuses.  Asshole does not just describe a specific gender or race. It can refer to anyone. This isn’t really about the movie itself, I just liked the scene this quote appeared in and it inspired this random thought. What do you think makes someone an asshole?

Parallel Parking sucks!!! So I had my road test scheduled for last Friday but it didn’t happen. I thought everything was in order but a mistake was made and they wouldn’t let me take my test so I had to reschedule. I know I should be happy about the reschedule because I was able to practice on my parallel parking. I can’t believe I was planning on taking the test without practicing. I now take my road test on August 24th. The worry continues. -.-  Books!!- The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky. I’ve been looking for this book for awhile and they finally got it at Hastings. The only copy!!!! Sadly I had to walk away without buying it. -.- I will read it eventually, speaking of my to read list I have a guest post over here. If you’re interested in writing a guest post then check out Joslin’s blog. Instax Mini- So my case for my instax came in. Mija says it looks like some type of bondage mask. She’s a weird one. XD I like it, and it keeps my camera safe. However, there is one thing that sucks about it. The whole point of this case was that I can take pictures with the camera in it. But in door pictures either come come out completely black or cloudy. I think the case blogs the flash a bit. -.- It’s a shame but I just have to adjust. I wanted something to hold my camera and keep it safe, plus it’s nice because I can wear it like a purse and won’t have the added weight of the camera in my actual purse. It can just hang above it. So all in all I’m still happy with it.

More SMASH*- So I created a board on Pinterest for SMASH book ideas and inspiration. I’m really loving this way of scrapbooking. I’m out of film but this is also the perfect place to put all of my Polaroid pictures. I almost done with my second page. I started in the beginning thinking that’s how books are supposed to be, but then realized I don’t have to smash that way. (If I were to say that to someone who had no idea what SMASH books were, they would probably imagine something gross. I guess I’m gross for thinking this in the first place. XD) Getting back on topic here, I figured why not start another page towards the end of the book? So now I’m starting my third page, I’ll show you once it’s finished. My first page is about my pets. They were the first to be photographed once I got my instax. The second page (not complete yet) next to that one features my backyard. It is so gorgeous in the summer. I don’t like going outside because it’s so hot but it doesn’t mean I don’t/can’t admire it. I intend to add more pictures of the trees. They get huge during this time and the flowers that bloom on them are just amazing. I might even film an outfit of the day, if I can get Kat to help me out. It just gets unbearable in this heat to be outside, add mosquitoes and I give up. Got some more SMASH goodies. I’m excited to finish up my third page. It’s a hobbies page, I think I will have the most fun SMASHing this page. I have a lot of hobbies so I’m using two pages for this theme. I don’t know why I find something as simple as this exciting. XD

I’m curious, what is something that honestly makes you happy?

Thanks for reading.

So I watched this great short film a couple years ago. Let’s call it film A.

I lost it and every time I tried to find it again I had no luck. I finally located it and liked it right away, so I could find it if I needed to. I’m also posting about it so there is no way I can lose track of it again. While I tried to find this particular film, I found one similar only now I can’t seem to find that film. (I’ll call that one film B) -.- I need to really keep track of things I like like, thank god Pinterest exists now and days. Maybe while I search for film B, I’ll discover another film to boast about. I should be doing my homework but I thought I’d share this great short with the rest of the blogging world. Also check out the rest of the films on this channel, they are all pretty great. Film A, Beyond Words, is just so beautiful. I’m glad I was able to find it again. I think the makers and actors did an excellent job on making it believable.  Not exactly sure how I will find film B though, I really need to start remember the names of these films. Oh well I’m sure I will find it someday.

I was looking around at all the papers I printed out for class, and then I notice the sea of discarded candy wrappers. I can’t help eating a bunch of those Werther’s Original caramel candies. I know most candy does that. But what candy can you not resist?

So on Lazy Explorers, Chloe gave out blog Valentine’s and I just fell in love with the whole idea. So I decided to do the same.

My post for last Valentine’s was a bit…well cynical. So I thought I would be a bit more loving this year. I also made a button that you can put on your side bar for the duration of the month. If you click the one on my sidebar it will take you to Chloe’s entry.

Another entry!!!!

So today was my second class of math and I still feel the same about math. I HATE IT!!!! I will probably have to go to tutoring every now and then. But I will do whatever it takes to pass this stupid class. Anyway so I fully intended to vlog today, but I just didn’t have a lot to say…well now I do and I could have very well filmed a vlog but we went to Hastings today and I bought two books. Everlasting by Alyson Noël is the finale to the The Immortal series and One Day by David Nicholls. Which brings me to the next thing I want to mention.

MOVIES!!!

One Day was also made into a movie, it should be coming out some time this summer. I’m soooo excited for it. But until I get to watch it, I will read the book and then be able to compare and contrast. Another movie that I want to watch is  The Art of Getting By, it comes out next week. But sadly my small town wont have any showings. They never show any sundance films!!! WHY THE HELL NOT?! I love indie films, those are usually the best.  But I can’t wait to see these movies.  Now on to a movie I watched the other night. An Invisible Sign, it was soooooo freaking cute. These are the types of movies I love. And I’m always left with such a happy feeling after watching them. Now this movie involves math, which is the  pain of my existence. However, I couldn’t help but fall in love with the main character. I’ve never  actually been a fan of Jessica Alba but she was so adorable in this movie. So if you enjoy cute artsy movies, then I recommend this one.

And of course I’m gonna be vain real quick and add a picture of myself. XD

Song of the day is Sunny Day by Joy Williams, I heard this song during the credits of An Invisible Sign and just fell in love with it.

What if you had a device that told you the exact day and time you would meet the one…YOUR ONE?

I watched this movie, where a device like this existed. Its called TiMER and in this movie people can get timers attached to their arm to pin point the exact moment their true love enters their life. The moment you lock eyes on this person the timers go off at the same time. It is completely your choice whether or not you get a timer. But you only get once chance, if you remove the timer you cannot get it again.

I enjoyed this movie because I really like the idea of being able to know when you will meet the one you will grow old with. I mean isn’t that what everyone wants? To meet their true love? But then it got me thinking, in the movie people didn’t fall in love the “old fashion” way anymore. Couples were brought together by a device. The new wave of match making sites. The protagonist became obsessed with finding her match that it wasn’t even about love anymore. And then I changed my mind and saw it a horrible idea. I mean again it would be a choice. But what if I did choose to get one? I think I would rather fall in love when I least expect it. Just let it surprise me, even though I don’t really like surprises. Well I don’t like certain surprises. But the whole cliche lovey-dovey romance bit, I think that’s a surprise I want to experience. Just let it happen one day. Of course, besides wanting to know who that person is already; I think people hope their surprise is  one you would find in a movie. Yup a magic movie moment, something that could only happen in a cheesy romance flick. Those happen in reality too. To lucky people anyway. -.- This movie also made me think about the creative writing class I took in high school. I could have sworn that one of my peers wrote a short story like this about timers and true loves. Maybe its just me getting confused with something else.

So another movie I want to bring up is Going the Distance. So freaking cute  I loved it. Justin Long and Drew Barrymore have such great chemistry. It was so hilarious, I was constantly laughing. I recommend watching this movie if you love cutesy, pervy movies.

Song is called Fancy Footwork by Chromeo. I heard it on an episode of My life as Liz. I loved that show. Liz is so adorable.

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So yeah one more thing, I’m still adjusting to being in a new city/home/school. Oh and I’m able to chew a bit better. It doesn’t hurt like it did the first two weeks. I still can’t bite into a sandwich. -.- I have to tear my food apart which isn’t so bad. I get the bottom braces in October. Yay sooooo looking forward to hurting again. -.- Oh and one more thing I turn 21 this Saturday. Weird. O.o  Of course I have class from 1 to 3. But I might just leave before the second half of class. I mean its my birthday after all. And I shouldn’t spend it in a boring classroom. I’m heading home after class to spend my birthday with my family. YAY!

I feel like I am stuck. Yet time just keeps moving on. It’s going by incredibly too fast for me to even catch up.Why has time changed?

Movie Spoilers

I watched the movie Veronika Decides to Die, (**based on the novel by Paul Coelho)and it made me think of happiness and sorrow and then death. The character Veronika is played by Sarah Michelle Gellar and she is unhappy with her life. So she tries to commit suicide. She wakes up in a mental institution, and is told that she has weakened her heart and that there is no surgery or treatment that can save her. They aren’t able to pinpoint her death exactly, but its likely that it she has only a matter of weeks. She is immediately angered by the fact that she has succeeded in killing herself only she must wait to actually die. She questions the shrinks, asking them why not just kill her now? They will have no part in aiding in her death. She remains stubborn throughout her stay at the institute. Determined to die on her own terms. She fails at bringing her life to an earlier grave. She as no will to live. Yet she has no interest in making the best of the time she has left.

If I was told I would die in a matter of weeks, what would I feel? What would I do? Would I give up? I see myself as a weak person at times. And part of me thinks I would just wallow in self pity imagining all the things I have yet to accomplish or fail at. Imagining instead of actually doing those things. Death is a scary thought to me. I know death is inevitable for us all. But its more dying too soon that I worry about. Dying before I have actually had a chance to live. I’ve already been alive for 20 years. That’s two decades of being on this planet and I have yet to experience life.

“These days most people have replaced almost all their emotions with fear, and everyone has dreams but only a few realize them – makes cowards of the rest of us.”-Coelho

Gellar’s character lost the will to live, as so many of us do. But she finds it. Along with romance. I think when you are in love, you feel like you matter. I mean of course you matter to your friends and family. But the romantic love you’ll share with one other person is completely different. And once she found this feeling, she doesn’t want to let it go. A line from the movie trailer,” It wasn’t until she decided to die, that Veronika found a reason to live.” To actually live life to its fullest. Of course after she finally finds that one thing that made her want to continue living which turned out to be a person, the fact that she only has limited time to spend with her new found happiness makes you sad yet happy she even found it to begin with. (I ruin movie endings so stop reading if you don’t want to know the ending.)

But this movie ends on a happy note. It ends with the doctor writing in his journal explaining that if Veronika never visits another doctor, who would tell her that she is completely healthy. She would continue living her life and cherishing each moment she has. I think everyone should live their life like that though. And not because time is running out. But because its how life should be enjoyed. Not waiting in fear for the inevitable.

** Paul Coelho vlogs and blogs. How freaking amazing is that? I love it when I find an author whose work inspires me. I love books. And I actually liked this film adaption of the novel, but I haven’t read the novel yet so I might think differently once I do read it.

Song for today- Amy Kuney: Simple Things

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One last thing the collaboration art blog that I’m starting with my sisters is up. Mija made the layout I absolutely love it. We haven’t updated with anything yet. But I’m so excited to start this project with my sisters. Ok well I think its time I go to sleep.

Goodnight/Morning

For as long as I can remember I have never really taken a risk. I mean I have always been the weird kid that never ran with scissors. But if you think about it why would you run with scissors? I mean children are dumb, but would they really be running with scissors in their hands? I mean I guess it happens in kindergarten. But most children don’t really use scissors on a daily basis. They start using scissors  with the lesson on cutting along straight lines but if you really think about it…

Kimberly Focus! Back to the point,  as I got older I grew more afraid of actually living. I wouldn’t do anything that could end up with me in the emergency room. Like reckless sports. :p But I also didn’t participate in sports because I am horrible at them. I mean I have no hand eye coordination and playing softball with the boys P.E. class in the sixth grade was extremely humiliating. Especially when your junior high crush sees you as nothing more than a threat to him winning  a stupid P.E. game of softball. Its softball! And P.E. class! Not a national tournament. When it was my turn up to bat I heard him say, “Please hit the ball. Just this once hit it.” Yeah that crush didn’t last long. It was that important to him, of course I could care less and didn’t hit one ball. I guess I could have made the effort but I just didn’t feel the need to. Of course batting was much better than being in the field where you had to wear a glove. Only there wasn’t enough gloves for each team to have their own; so we would switch by leaving the gloves on the ground and you would just pick one up. And wouldn’t you know the one I just happened to pick up was for a left handed person. That didn’t do me any good seeing as I am right handed. And I was yelled at for just standing and not grabbing the correct glove. Wow what was my point again. Damn I hate when I get off subject.

Back to the main issue here. After watching the recent episode of Being Erica  it made me think of taking risks. Not huge risks but the semi ones. I mean I feel like I have always just made the safe choices. With certain situations I felt like the wet blanket that ruins the fun for everyone else. Which is why I have no social life.  I mean I’m not saying I haven’t made dumb choices. I have regrets like every other person out there. I just feel like on the not so serious decisions , I just made the safe choice so I wouldn’t have to experience yet another embarrassing moment. You know the non life threating decisions? Like getting the courage to ask someone out, or speaking up in class when I am lost? Situations like these that aren’t really earth shattering. But in all situations I make the safe choice. Thats just how I am programed. I think of nothing but the negative side of things. That isn’t exactly the  best way to view things.  I am working on it.  I mean when something embarrassing happens why can’t I just laugh at it? Its not the end of the world. I turn a shade of red and then it passes. No harm no foul right? Of course some humiliating moments stay with you long after they have passed and you try and try to forget it. But alas, to no avail. You are stuck with that moment in time where you would love to have crawled under the nearest rock and stay there permanently. But again it passes until you are to suffer yet another embarrassing moment. A vicious cycle that is known to repeat until you have trained yourself to be immune to embarrassment. Fat chance of that ever happening to me. -_-

Movies: I saw Where the Wild things are the other day. I thought it was cute. Some parts where a bit odd. But I still thought it was cute. The ending sort of bugs me but there really isn’t anything I can do about the ending of a movie. But if you are into the whole cute family movie  where the child learns an important lesson in a dream? Then you should see this movie. Plus I thought they did a good job on making the wild things look real.  I’m not sure how many stars I would give this movie. I guess four?

I have jury duty on Monday. I cannot miss anymore days of Government after Monday. I need to stop being lazy this is serious stuff man. See the choices I make? Tsk. I am such a lazy student. >_<