My Ever Present Past
“Searching for the time that has gone so fast- The time I thought would last.”- Paul McCartney
Usually I love finding things from my past. Like when I re read my old journals and relive each entry like it was yesterday. But in this case I’d rather not relive these memories. These memories that I have laid to rest in a box under my bed. Memories that I don’t want to necessarily forget, but just file under “Ignore for now” in my file cabinet of memories. Anyway, I found my old cell phone from my junior year and the beginning of my senior year in high school. And being the reminiscing chump that I am, I assumed it would be amazing memories. My junior year was amazing, I made friends with all the exchange students that year. Anyway I still have the charger so I plug it in turn it on and the sense of regret suddenly consumes me after it finally powers on. There set as my wallpaper is a picture of Him(ex) and Me, my screen saver? Him. My front wallpaper? His drums. I forgot about these pictures. On a less depressing note- There were tons of pictures of my friends. Of Missy,Nuey, Hiromi, Icz, Cate, even Hyun and few others. Its weird because I’m not sure what made me think of my old cell phone. I just did. I mean its no big deal really. I just found it weird. I wish I could get these pictures off of it. I think I did right after I got my new cell. But I can’t remember. And since I have a new laptop and a new external that would mean these pictures would be on my old seagate if I did. Weird. I don’t notice how every aged, these pictures are old, and everyone looks so young in them. Strange. I have only had three cell phones so far. And I got my first one my sophomore year which is the first one, and the middle one is the one that shocked me. And of course the green one is my current one. Its gonna be sad when I get a new one in another year or so. I didn’t delete any of the pictures, just turned off the cell and put it back at the bottom of my junk drawer (we all have one) were it belongs. I just made a mental note to not bother it again. For a very long time. Sigh.
Anyway, I have a Bridal shower to help plan soon. I need to start getting some ideas to contribute. Missy you can count on me. <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
