Inside Kimmy's Mind

Part One: I hate that once I find something that is extremely cute in a store. I am bombarded by the fear that it will not be there when I return to that store. Sigh. I mean it takes me a long time to decided to buy something. I never have money. Therefore, when I do have money I like to make sure that I use whatever it is that I buy. Or if its a book I will read it. The other day I went to the Galleria with my sisters and we went into the Sanrio store aka Hello Kitty store. Now I wasn’t planning on buying anything from this store, because they are ridiculously over priced. -_- Kat had already decided on purchasing a bento draw string bag and a bento spoon and chopstick set. Freakin cute man. Now I didn’t see anything that I desperately wanted so after Kat bought her items we continued on to the next store. Gadzooks. Now I’m not normally a clothing shopper. I attempted to try on clothes with the idea that I would buy it if I liked it. I just didn’t want anything from that store either. So I was planning on returning to the Sanrio store and purchasing a bento box and fork and spoon set with a bento drawstring bag. (different from Kats of course) Sigh Why am I such an indecisive person? Anyway, I believe I made the comment that went like this, “What do I need a bento for? I don’t have a lunch time.” My sister than replied to me saying, “During the summer you don’t plan on working? You might not have enough time to walk home for lunch.”

DING DING DING DING! – This is true. I plan on having a job. And I might have to pack a lunch.

So at this point I kept pacing back and forth, walking up and down stairs not being able to make up mind. We were heading in the direction to the Disney store (our second favorite store) thinking we might find something there and if not I would return to buy the bento/accessories that went with it. Tsk. I know what a waste of time. Of course the Disney store was moved to another side of the mall and we weren’t exactly sure where. So we headed in the direction we assumed was the right one. During this time I kept going over whether or not I should buy the bento box or not. (Yes I over analyze everything) My sisters said we could always go back because I feared the only bento box of the character that I wanted would not be there upon returning. So I decided on the Sanrio store and I purchased the first things I thought of buying. tsk I know I am crazy. Forgive me. Its a curse. But I finally made up my mind don’t I get points for that? Now I know you might find this sort of thing very childish but I could not help it. It was so fucking cute. I am defenseless with stuff like this. So yeah.

Part Two: I have to finish the Dooms Day Book by Monday. It has 36 chapters. So if I read six chapters a day I will have it finish. I started Tuesday I am on chapter 13 as of now. Now you would think six chapters a day that’s no problem. But let me tell you, it is if you are not interested in the book at all. Now I have tried getting into it, but I just can’t. It just hasn’t hooked me like the books I’d rather be reading at the moment. While I was reading my chapters I had someone who kept distracting me. I cannot ignore the cuteness that is my sister’s cat Tomo. I swear.The story seems like it would be a good one, but for some odd reason I just dislike the way Connie Willis writes. No offense to Connie Willis. I just hope I can finish it in time. I am only on chapter 13 and I’m not sure I can continue. Is spark notes an option? >_<

Part One: After throwing a lot of stuff from my closet away I found my old CD/tape player. I got it for Christmas years ago, but I remember how excited I was when I did. Every time I bought a CD I would hurry to play it. After I got my ipod mini and a dock for it, I sadly put this in my closet and never thought of it again. Until now. It was sort of breaking before I got the dock but it was faithful in its youth. I didn’t have the heart to throw it away then an I still don’t have the heart to throw it away now. Its funny how things are important. And I mean if you look at the price of cd players now compared to how much they used to be. Its weird. Is that going to happen to mp3 players? I mean Apple keeps bringing out new and better ones but will their price go down that low when their time is up? Thats something to think about.

Part Two: Kat and I are currently spending spring break at my sister’s apartment. And she took us to Borders! I know its dangerous to take me to a book store especially when I still haven’t cracked Dooms Day. -_- I hope I won’t be doomed on Monday. Anyway I didn’t want to buy a book book so instead I bought Neil Gaiman’s graphic novel The Last Temptation. Have I mention that I love him? Anyway, Mija is the one who took it off the shelf when I immediately recognized it. However, I didn’t realize that Alice Cooper contributed to the story. Its based on his record release, The Last Temptation. I should have known it just screams Cooper. Of course I’m not really savvy on his music. The art work is exquisite its done by Michael Zulli if I’m not mistaken. And it is amazing. The showman’s appearance is based on the best showman, Alice Cooper himself. It resembles him from head to toe. I also finally bought the movie Mirror Mask, story also by Neil Gaiman. I really do love him. Well besides buying books and dvds and hearing that someone tried and failed at stealing a magazine I also hurt a complete strangers feelings. But on my behalf I didn’t mean to and I completely understand his current state. And I didn’t mean what I said to sound the way it came out. I am not going to repeat it here because I am trying to make myself feel better. I know I am a horrible person. Now typing is getting hard because my sister’s cat Tomo is in my lap being extremely adorable and I can no longer ignore him. lol

I have a problem.

And I guess the first step is admitting it. So here I am… admitting it. >_<

I am an online shopaholic. -_-

Now a normal shopaholic buys anything. I on the other hand buy things I need (want). I mostly buy books. I mean it could be a bigger problem? I could be buying useless things. The only problem with me being a book shopaholic is…that my to read list never gets smaller. It is a never ending list. Which isn’t really a bad thing, except for when I get a new book I immediately want to read it. Meaning I ignore whatever book I am already reading. I am currently reading Five books. Four by choice. The fifth one is for my SciFi class and I don’t like it. Dooms Day Book. I just can’t get into and its due in a couple of weeks. Sigh. How am I suppose to read a 578 page book, if I can’t even get past the front cover? (ok that’s a little over the top) But its sort of true. Besides that book, I need to read the short stories for that class as well. Sigh. I want to read what I want to read, not because I have to for a class. Bleh!

Its an interesting addiction no? Being addicted to buying books? lol I just got a book in the mail and I am already ready to buy another one. But I haven’t. So I do have some self control. Now only if I can keep up this control for awhile. I can’t even eat chocolate! T_T I gave it up for lent unintentionally. How? Well dad caught me off guard . Meaning I was half awake? Half asleep? And he conveniently asked me when he was driving me to class. I just said what came to mind- Chocolate? Sigh. Its my fault. Now I can’t eat anything with chocolate until Easter. Woe is me.

Oh if you have a web cam immediately go (here) and make an account and follow me Kimmyduh. You know you want to. I find sites, similar to this one very entertaining. It sort of reminds me of Twitterin away. But only a bit.Well I better sleep. Or I will sleep away tomorrow yet again. So sad.

“I’ve learned that good-byes will always hurt, pictures will never replace having been there, memories good and bad will bring tears, and words can never replace feelings.”

I had a bunch of stuff written. But my internet was being wonky and wouldn’t work causing me to lose the “Stuff” that was typed here before. So now I am extremely annoyed because I don’t quite remember how I worded things. Tsk. But I know I liked it. Sigh-_- So know that from this point on I am annoyed. Ok on with the annoyed post. … continue reading this entry.

First off I’d like to say thanks to Mija for my new blog layout! THANK YOU MIJA!!!!

Ok. Well I went to see Coraline( it was absolutely adorable, Neil Gaiman is a mastermind!) with my Valentine, and sisters. Missy thanks for spending Valentine’s Day with me. You know most single people see Valentine’s day as S.A.D. (Single Awareness Day) Now its not like I haven’t been single before, its just I haven’t been single in over a year. Now this time last year I spent my time looking for the perfect card for my significant other. But this year? I went all out. lol Which is funny because I went all out for my friend and not for my boyfriend (when I had one). hehehe I was like hey just because I don’t have a boyfriend that doesn’t mean I can’t celebrate Valentine’s Day. Ok so its a day for lovers to announce once again just how much they care for each other. But I see it as a day for people, single or taken to let anyone they love know just that. My friend Missy had totally surprised me with chocolates and a love bug plushie along with a pink rose. I felt so special. So I made her a love jar (which contained a few reasons why I love her, not all but a few) and chocolate covered strawberries.(which were good) I hope you enjoyed them Missy.

I am tired. I haven’t been sleeping right at all. I know I am the only one who can solve this problem. Tuesday I have a math test and I’m not quite sure which part of my research essay is due this week. Damnit. (My leg hurts >_<) I love the show United States of Tara. It is so cute. You should definitely watch it. Oh and I watched the show Doll House as well. Its made by the same creators as Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Angel. The first episode was pretty good so I’m gonna keep watching it, unless it gets stupid. But so far so good. Cate I can’t get over how adorable your new video was. It was amazing! Speaking of videos, I am so annoyed with Youtube right now. They keep muting my videos. So far in the past couple of months they have pointed out two of my videos that were in violation with the music. Ok and today I had to delete a video that I made over a year ago. How am I supposed to get a famous bands permission to use their songs? I mean come on really? Cyber stalking is annoying and so junior high. I also wanted to talk about this article. It says that a 12 year old boy from London impregnated his 14 year old girlfriend. Are you serious? What 14 year old girl dates a 12 year old boy? I mean really? Ok they haven’t taken a paternity test to prove that the now 13 yr, boy is in fact the father. I mean wow. Does a 12 year old boy even know how to impregnate a girl? I mean isn’t he still going through puberty? I doubt that he is the father. Another article says, that the girl had slept with two other guys so I’m guessing either one of those dumb asses are likely the father of this naive girls newborn baby girl. I think its just weird for a 13 year old boy to have a baby. I mean when a 15 yr old girl has a baby its mostly because their stupid “older” boyfriend can’t either: A. Date someone his own age. B. Keep it in his pants. C. Is way too lazy to purchase a condom and use said condom. I mean really? I know young teens are stupid and impressionable but parents really need to explain to their dumb underage daughters and their horny overage sons (and vice versa) the seriousness of having sex. I mean I don’t want to sound like an after school special, but come on parents of the world. TALK TO YOUR DUMB KIDS. I find it strange that an older girl slept with a 12 year old boy. So I am assuming it was her doing that initiated the sexual relationship with this kid named Alfie. Of course I’m not saying she deserves all the blame. I find them along with their parents at fault for allowing their children to spend the night together. That’s right, they allowed Alfie to spend the night at his girlfriend’s house, where I’m guessing the fornicating took place. How sad. sigh.

I read this short story called Criminal Act by Harry Harrison. Where people are only allowed to have two children if you were to have a any more than that then you would have to die so your child could live. The main character of this story however fights back. They hire an assassin to kill the “offender” and if he fails then he takes the place as the one less mouth to feed. Of course (sorry if I ruin it) in the end the main character kills the assassin and thinks everything will be fine. He can live with his wife and three kids. His wife is pregnant with twins. And thats how it ends. Creepy right? Another short story called Problems with Creativeness by Thomas M. Disch. In this story, only smart people are allowed to have children. If you were not considered smart then you were not allowed to reproduce. The water supply had a contraceptive in it so thats how they stopped people from reproducing. These two stories were written in the 50’s and 60’s. Interesting reads.

They are called Condoms! You know, in case you haven’t heard of them.

“You get ideas from daydreaming. You get ideas from being bored. You get ideas all the time. The only difference between writers and other people is we notice when we’re doing it.”- Neil Gaiman

A very interesting thing happened today. Something that is even more rare then pigs flying and blue moons. Dun dun dun….my cats slept next to each other. *GASP* Tis an unusual sight. But then I missed it up when I went outside to get a better picture and Kozi got up and left Mr. alone with the leaves. Poor Mr.

After dad finished eating dinner he let Misto inside and held him and proceeded to tell us for the 100th time that it looks like Misto is wearing chaps. Lmao! Oh how silly. Well this weekend was completely uneventful. I did absolutely nothing on Saturday. Sunday I went to bed at 4:30 in the morning, and woke up at 6:30am to go to church with dad. I washed my clothes and then took a nap and didn’t wake up til like 4 something. I’m just messing around on the internet. Sigh wow boring blog. I need to finish reading NEVERWHERE by next week. But I’m also watching the television show that aired in 1996 on BBC Two. Neil Gaiman is so fucking awesome. I need to straighten my hair. I now hear Mr. fighting with another cat or something. I swear he makes the strangest noises. Oh you should look up songs by Melanie Horsnell. Her songs are used in a lot of commericals. My favorite one is this McDonald’s one. So cute. So yeah recap, I did nothing and now I am updating my blog with pictures of my cats and fast food commercials. How pathetic am I? Well this week on Wednesday I don’t have any classes. Hurray! So I can film my KimCateKat video. And put it up on the 6th. Hopefully. Well I’m going to straighten my hair and watch/read NEVERWHERE. YAY.

Life — and I don’t suppose I’m the first to make this comparison — is a disease: sexually transmitted, and invariably fatal.- Neil Gaiman (I thought this one was hilarious)

“Whenever you’re in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude.” William James

I had just my history class today. I didn’t really pay attention though. I was thinking about tons of different things. It was weird, I dreaded going to class today because of…him. But when I got into class, my mind just started thinking about other things. Mainly about things I want to do. And things I need/have to do. I already took care of my history quizzes for the week. But during history I took notes as usual, but when she started talking about things off the notes I started doodling like I normally do, yet it was different. I usually just doodle a star in the corner trying to get it exactly even on all five points. (They are never perfect.) But this time I went a little over board. I mean I took notes…I just sort of ignored all the other talking. Now I doodle names and what not, I was deeply inspired by Neil Gaiman. And as you can see. (Notice that his name is written extremely huge.) So yeah that was history class.

I planned on making a skirt today and painting something as well but I got distracted by the movie Nick and Norah’s infinite playlist. Oh and my mom bought the movie REPO! The Genetic Opera. I need to do so many things. I need to write the first page for my six page essay for tomorrow, I need to read my book. And I want to read about a million other books too. Oh and the other night I watched The United States of Tara. It is a really good show. I immediately loved it after the first few minutes of the first episode. I found a new show to take the spot of True Blood. Until the second season starts of course. YAY! I am sleepy. I wish I had more hours in the day to do things. I still need to straighten my hair right now and do the dishes. I’m hungry too. And my feet hurt. lol Bitch Bitch Bitch. Right? I need to stop wasting time and do the things I have to do. I should write a To do list. Here it is. Stuff I need to do followed by stuff I want to do.

1. Write the biography page on Charlaine Harris
2. Straighten my hair.
3. dishes.
4. read Birds of America
5. read Neverwhere
6. read three stories from my Oxford book
7. do the last two times of Quiz 18 even though I made a 90 on it .

1. read Sunshine
2. read Definitely Dead
3. read All together dead
4. paint lots of pictures thanks to Neil Gaiman and Dave Mckean
5. make a video
6. make I don’t know how many skirts

I know it may not seem like a lot of things, but it feels like it. Could you imagine if I had a job? Wow that would suck. I mean I have a lot of things to think about which I guess is good because it takes my mind of things that really suck. Tomorrow is the 22nd of the month. A day that I would normally forget but then remember. It is now a day in the month that I couldn’t forget. It “was” my anniversary. lol I know pathetic to bring it up. It would have been 16 months tomorrow. Gosh how annoying. It is now just a day in every month. Except for December 22nd, which is in fact my cats birthday. But other than that just day. Sigh well there was the lame part of the blog. An entry that began with random notions which lead to my bitching, followed by a little bit of feeling sorry for myself. Sigh Yeah happy reading.

“When you hold resentment toward another, you are bound to that person or condition by an emotional link that is stronger than steel. Forgiveness is the only way to dissolve that link and get free.” – Catherine Ponder

(This quote really describes how I felt today. But it sucks because I have no control over it. I can’t get rid of this feeling. Sigh Fuck ass.) ~_~

2009!

Another year went by. Weird right? Its strange because when I was little I used to think I wonder how it will be when I am in high school? And I am already starting my second semester of college on the 12th. Its so weird (not to be cliché or anything) how time just flew by. I mean we have calendars and watches to keep track of time. Yet it always zooms by without anyone actually realizing it. I watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button last week. Which might explain this entry. Anyway in my opinion it was OK. I was curious (no pun intended) about it. There are just a lot of things that they should never have put in the movie. So yeah. My mom and sister Mija hated it and thought it was a waste of time and money. I mean I am glad I saw it. I was curious remember. Damn trailers.

 I am in love with my sewing machine. I was afraid that I wasn’t going to be able to learn how to use it, but I have. I taught myself how to sew on a zipper, which wasn’t easy. My first attempt was ok, but my third was perfect. I made my mom a coin purse. But the best part about it is that I made it with Beatles fabric. Its a revelation so I’m told. lol. I found it at Walmart. I was so excited and had to buy it. Isn’t it awesome? I really like these pictures of them too.

 I was going to spend this coming week with Mija, but due to school related stuff I am unable to go. I will also miss meeting Charlaine Harris. She is the author of the Sookie Stackhouse mystery novels which is what the HBO show True Blood was based on. She was having an autograph session near my sisters apartment. I was going to meet her but now I can’t. It sucks. I was looking forward to it. Hopefully I will get another chance to meet her. T_T Anyway that really put a damper on my last week off. I was going to have an awesome week with my sister. But that’s ok I might get to hang out with my Korean brother Hyun. He is coming home tomorrow. Plus I might hang out with Cate or Missy as well. I haven’t spent anytime with my friends and I miss them. I hope classes go smoothly, and cause as little stress as possible. But…and not to sound negative here, I have a feeling I’m going to be extremely stressed out this semester.

Just not with classes. Sigh. >_< I hope I’m wrong.

www.charlaineharris.com/biography.html

Tale as old as time
True as it can be
Barely even friends
Then somebody bends
Unexpectedly

Mom surprised me with this Beauty and the Beast ornament. Of course I’m not hanging it on the tree. It goes with all the rest of my Belle merchandise. I’m obsessed with Disney’s Beauty and the Beast. I mean I just love the story. I love when mom buys me stuff like this. This ornament is so adorable. Its a music box as well as an ornament. Belle and her Beast (which I always wondered what his name actually was. I named him Charles lol) spin around to their song. Tale as Old as Time. It just makes me smile every time I look at it, I love my mommy.

So some more good news. I finally got that book I ordered online. Starcrossed. It took a month for it to be delivered. How ridiculous is that? Extremely ridiculous. Tsk. But I got it now so lets move on.

Next, I should start studying for exams and finishing my last essay for English. But I am so lazy! I keep putting things off. I find other things to do. For example I should be sleeping right now but I was up so now I am in charge of waking up Mija. But I have a feeling once I click publish for this blog I’m going to go straight to sleep. *Sorry Mija*>_< I have been reading books like nobody’s business. I have finished Club Dead in one day. From the Sookie Stackhouse Novels by Charlaine Harris. True Blood is based on these books. I only have the first three, so I’m reading the 4th one online which I can of hate doing. I want the next two books now. I am so bad when it comes to reading books. Sometimes when I start reading a book to hold me off until I get the book I really really want to read. Once I get the book I really really want I sort of stop reading the filler book. I get carried away when it comes to books.

I have found Dylan the perfect Christmas present. I am so proud of myself. He always gives me wonderful presents, and I always thought I did ok with my gifts to him. But this with out do, anything I have ever given him. I’m excited to give it to him, of course I suck at keeping things a surprise. So wish me luck at keeping it a secret. Mums the word and what not. :p

 Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme
Bitter sweet and strange
Finding you can change
Learning you were wrong

PART 1: I couldn’t help but think this was cute. This is the theme for my gmail, the little fox is always in a different place. lol It changes from day to night. lol Cute right? Earlier he was sitting at the outside table. I know I am weird. But I love it. lol

PART 2: I am really angry with the mail and borders market. I ordered a book at the beginning of the month and the book still hasn’t came. So I sent them an email saying exactly that. They said they refunded me, but I still want the book. Tsk. I hate the mail sometimes. sigh. On another note I am reading Dead until Dark and I’m almost on the second one. So far I like it but I hate to say it but I like the show way more. I’m not gonna anything other than that. I still recommend it though. lol

PART 3: Kitty sitting tomorrow until Wednesday. Finished essay, need to start last one. I need to do my history quizzes. Then get ready for exams and take them and pass them and then……get ready for the next semester. Phew!!