Inside Kimmy's Mind

I am not gonna write about school, and the stress that I am feeling because of it. (Minus this first sentence that is.) So this entry is going to be part Dave McKean, Linger, and cats.

So I just finished reading Linger, the Sequel to Shiver. And again I am left with that empty feeling I get when I finish a book. And I don’t have a book to immediately start reading to fill this void. But not only do I have this empty feeling, I’m also sad because the 3rd book of this trilogy entitled Forever will not be out until July of next year. O.o WHAT? How am I supposed to wait until July? I hate having this feeling. This is the only bad thing about a book series. Its like waiting for the new season of a favorite show to return. T-T But I just remembered that the 5th book of the Immortal series is coming out on November 16th. So that makes me a bit happy. Of course I still don’t have a book to read at the moment and that annoys me. -.-

Ok next topic. Dave McKean. I have mentioned him before in my blogs, because he goes hand to hand with the great Neil Gaiman. I adore them both so much. They are my heroes, so inspiring, so absolutely amazing. They are just…amazing.  Anyway so I was at some of Dave McKean’s artwork and I really really want his tarot Cards. They are so pretty. Anyway, so I found some videos that he made and I really love this short video McKean made for Shakespeare’s Sonnet 138. It of course made me think of Mirror Mask. But this is obviously McKean’s style of art. His artwork is so magical. I really want to watch the new movie Luna. But I have no idea when it will come out because there really isn’t any information about it. Come on Dave, I really want to watch it. This movie poster sort of reminded me of the movie Pan’s Labyrinth. If you haven’t seen that movie along with Mirror Mask I highly recommend it. So go watch it…NOW. :3

So after watching McKean’s vids on youtube and being let down when I couldn’t find anything on Luna. I noticed this vid called The Cat with Hands. Neil talked about this creepy short film on his blog after someone suggested it to him. If you dislike cats in anyway then this will only make you hate them more. And maybe even fear them.  I however still love cats. :3

Words of advice, never trust a cat with hands.

Woo hoo! I have already posted 100 entries on my blog. This will be the 101 entry. I can’t believe I have that many entires. But for some reason it feels like I should have more. -_-

So Thanksgiving is this week. I am so ready for pumpkin pie. :9 Pumpkin pie makes me think of my friend Andrea. She was in my cce class during senior year. And one Wednesday we talked about craving pumpkin pie and popcorn. >_< Odd combination now that I think about it. If I remember correctly it was after any holiday that would require a pumpkin pie present. We were just reminiscing  aww but I miss her. After I deleted my myspace, I lost track with her.

Wow I just got my Future me email today. I think its funny because I remember typing it out and how I felt during that time. It was in April so it wasn’t too long ago. But still I have already changed so much since then.

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I just finished reading Blue Moon by Alyson Noël. And I am left with the feeling of wanting more.

WARNING! A hint of book spoilers!

The book ended with an annoying cliff hanger. Making me angry that it was over and I just kept thinking it couldn’t end like this. What happened to happy endings? And good triumphing over evil. Throughout the entire book the protagonist was fighting to save her true love and now? She can’t even cry on his shoulder? I am deeply annoyed by Ever. But I can’t help but love this book. Of course this is the second character in a book that I have read within a few months of each other, where the main character did not know who The Beatles were. How in the hell is that possible?

Quick note: Speaking of The Beatles. Have you seen the new trailer for The Beatles Rock Band? If you haven’t then luckily you read my blog and now can. And if you haven’t seen the animated promo for it then its below as well. And it is amazing. I cannot wait for this game. It comes out two days before my birthday and well make an awesome birthday present. lol Which is what I told my mom and dad. My dad’s reply to that is,”My birthday is coming up.” Mine is on the 11th while his is a week later on the 17th. He just ignores my rather unsubtle hint and changes the subject to him. lol

Anyway back to Blue Moon. I am now in an impatient need to get my hands on the next book which is called Shadowland. At the end of Blue Moon they give you a sneak peek of Shadowland like some books do, and I must say it just put me in more of an unsatisfied mood. But there is some good news. I thought I would have to wait until February to get the next book. But I don’t. Just until November 24th. Of course it is coming out in hardback first. I hate when they do that. I am one of those people that when they read a series, that all the books within that series have to match. I can’t help it. I am just programed this way. It is a habit…a fault? That I cannot quit/correct. But in this case its a matter of paper/hard back books. The first two books are in paper back. The third coming out in November will be in hardback. Seeing how impatient I am, I might have to just buy the hard back to fill the void until the book is available in hard back. I know I make things so difficult.

I didn’t really explain the two books. But I will elaborate later on possibly. But for now, take my advice and read them. Especially if you are into reincarnation,auras, mind reading and never ending love made to over come time itself.

Ok. I live in a small town so small that you have to go the next slightly larger town to go to the mall/movies.

So the other day my mom and sisters and I where going to watch Transformers but sadly all showings were sold out. Then mom suggests going to Pearland to see if they aren’t sold out there.(aka another slightly larger town 52 minutes away) Now we never really explore the neighboring towns where I live. And I’ve lived in this area for my entire 19 years of living. We just don’t like exploring things we aren’t used to. If its unfamiliar in anyway I’d rather not explore it. Thats just the sort of person I am. But in this case, I have been wanting to go to this town just to see the stores it has. Instead of even checking the movie showings we just decided to explore the town. I mean we drive by it all the time when we visit Mija but thats what Pearland was to us. Just something to look at from afar. lol. So we ate at T.G.I. Friday’s and then we went to Halfprice Books. I found Neil Gaiman’s M is for Magic in hard back for $6. 68 and in amazing condition. But I decided not to ask mom for it. I regret it now. >_< Then we went to Old Navy, and they had the mannequins from the commercials. They look sort of creepy when they are standing in front of you. There really wasn’t anything I wanted to buy there. I think Old Navy’s winter collection is nicer than its summer. But their purses and bags were nice. lol Then we went home. Mom had had enough of Pearland to last her a life time. Because before we decided to eat there. We kept getting confused by the traffic lights and we weren’t used to the lanes and such. We are lame. I know.

My mom bought the Wii Tennis racket attachments today and it came with the SEGA SUPERSTARS Tennis game. Its cool. I should play Wii after eating tons of Puppy Chow my cousin made me. I love Puppy Chow. So good. But its dangerous if you eat too much. It can cause your tummy to hate you. But so far I’m limiting myself pretty good which is weird for me. lol.

The part where I talk more about books. I am still reading Shrimp at the moment. After that I will read Cupcake and after that I will mope for awhile because that series was only three books. But its ok because then I want to read Sloppy Firsts by Megan McCafferty. That series is 5 books long, I believe. That will really keep me busy. ^_^ I’m such a bookaholic. But I still have Sunshine by Robin McKinley to read. And then The Graveyard Book by Neil Fucking Gaiman. I still find his relationship with Amanda Palmer weird but I mean they seem happy so who am I to judge?

I hope its ok to mention it here…MY BEST FRIEND IS GETTING MARRIED! As in being a wife. I can’t contain how happy I am for her. She asked me to be her maid of honor. I feel so special. I love her and she only deserves the best. So this guy better treat her like the Queen that she is.

In the words of Mija,”Why can I never love anything?” She is over dramatic at times and she exaggerates. Unlike me

What I want to discuss is the book Shrimp by Rachel Cohn. I ordered it off the Borders website and I was hoping to get the cover that I clicked on but apparently that doesn’t matter. I am really annoyed by this. I thought that if I were to click on the green cover that, that would be the cover I would receive in the mail. But thats not how things work I guess. And now I have the completed series but the second one as you can see from the picture below does not match the first and second one. This bugs me so much.I know this might not seem like such a big deal. Oh but it is. And not something one would get angry over, but I am not a sane person. I have problems. Matching problems. I have this issue when it comes to things matching. Like for my books if I am reading and buying a series and the first one is paper back and a certain cover than the rest of the books in that series must be the same. Otherwise I will not purchase the book. Of course if you have read my previous entries then you are aware of the fact that I wasn’t able to find the green cover of Shrimp in any book store. They were all out of stock. But if I ever see the green cover in a store I will buy it to make the series actually complete. Again I have issues.

Today is also Fathers day and I just want to say that I am so thankful for my dad. He is truly one of a kind, and no matter how annoying he can be he is also amazing. I couldn’t ask for a better father. After church, I wanted a supreme croissant, and even though he didn’t feel like eating Jack in the Box he still went there for me and my sisters. Awww my Dad. I took a picture with him when we got home for my Dailybooth. Of course he doesn’t know that.

I read a the manga Koukou Debut (High School Debut) the other day. Its the sort of love story that makes you feel so many different emotions all at once. The kind of love story you wish would never end. And then I started thinking of this feeling I got while reading this story, or with any story whether its a movie or novel. And I wrote a poem, that hopefully explains what I’m talking about.

You know that feeling when you are incandescently happy? When he speaks your name and you can barely keep yourself from floating off the ground? You can sometimes catch a glimpse of that feeling, from a movie, song or story. Tales of hopeless romantics that are “destined” to meet, and for some reason make your heart flutter and agonize how you wish you were them. Just for a moment. Just to remember what it was like. You beam with delight when the girl finally gets the right guy. No harm can be done now, because she has him. Your heart leaps and you cannot help but feel that joy, that flutter and blush. The excitement of wanting that consumes you. You want to experience this cloud nine feeling. You want your thoughts to be consumed by him, and him alone. You want to experience the love that can only happen in a story.Just for a moment. Just to remember what it was like.

Sorry my sleeping pattern is screwed beyond mending. I hope I can get back on a regular sleeping schedule instead of being this vampire like thing that sleeps during the day.

REALITY!

Well my first job interview was the other day. And I’m not exactly sure how it went. I can’t remember the exact questions I was asked. And at the end of it, she was verifying my number and all I remember is answering yes. I don’t even remember if it was in fact my number. What the hell is wrong with me? It will be my down fall if the only reason I don’t get the job is because I wasn’t listening to the lady recite my number. I mean its my number. I know my number. But why can’t I remember if what she recited was my number? For the love of chocolate I wish I had a rewind button! I mean am I the only one who starts thinking rambles when a person is asking something of importance; and all you end up hearing is your own dumb thoughts dancing around in your head? Sigh. If I don’t hear back from them by Thursday then I know I didn’t get the job. Sigh. She said the HR person would call me to schedule a second interview with the manager and what not. And the manager is supposed to be here on Thursday. So if they don’t call me to schedule a second interview, my mind will be left to think that either A) she didn’t have my number, and that is all my fault for having goo for brains. Or B) They are not interested in hiring me. -_- How depressing. tsk. So I just have to apply for more jobs. I think I applied for most of the online applications. Now its time to start the embarrassing, “Hi are you by any chance hiring?” Sucks.

MOVIES!

Ok you know how in romantic comedies, the main roles most of the time experience downright embarrassing moments. Just like in our lives (reality) we experience day to day humiliating experiences too. Am I right? Yet in the movies these moments are created by a play write. I mean they could very well be based on truth, but I’m assuming they were created for the enjoyment of an audience. Anyway I recently just watched the romantic comedy Its a Boy/Girl Thing. I watched it on Youtube. It was pretty hilarious. And not the, “Oh my gosh this is so stupid” kind of way. But the,”This is actually a pretty good movie” kind of way. Its sort of a twist on Freaky Friday. But instead of family members its enemies (that are of the opposite sex) that fall in love. I mean the saying , “opposites attract” actually applies here. And it has nothing to do with science.  Magic maybe? Anyway, back to the embarrassing moments, I wish life could be a romantic comedy where these moments could be forgotten just like that. I mean of course in reality these moments are forgotten with time and what not. But sometimes they follow us for all eternity. lol Ok maybe not that dramatic. But again I wouldn’t mind my life having its movie moments. You know those scenes that can only happen in a movie? A romantic encounter that wouldn’t be logical let alone possible in my reality. Bleh  >_< There. You see what movies do to you me? They end up putting all of these thoughts into my head. Sucks.  Back to movies. I watched  Table for Three. Hot Brandon Routh stars in it. He played Superman in Superman Returns. In this movie I would have gotten so tired of those roommates. I doubt I will even be able to have roommates in the future. I mean you don’t know who comes to roommate ads. They could be psycho killers, or crazy couples as you see in this movie.  Is this movie worth it? It was funny, and it was an ok to watch. But not a life changing. Brandon is a hottie so thats why I watched it. >_< Watch the trailer and judge for yourself.

Books!

I order the book Shrimp by Rachel Cohn. Its the second book in the series and I couldn’t find this book at any book store. Seriously it was out of stock everywhere. I kid you not. The other two were at the store, so why wouldn’t this one be as well? It makes me think, “This one must be the best one out of the three. I must find and read this book.” And then I turn into this crazy book person. Where I don’t want to read any other book until I read this one.  And I’m really hoping its the cover I want. I get pissed if its the wrong cover. I have the new cover of the first and last one so the second one has to match as well. Its says it should arrive by the 23rd. But I’m hoping it comes sooner than that. Again I am incredibly impatient. I hate not being able to concentrate. And this just adds to my screwed up sleeping patterns.

NEW SEASON OF TRUE BLOOD IS FUCKING AWESOME! Just saying. I cannot wait for the second episode on Sunday!

“I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naive or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman.”- Anais Nin

After watching the mini series Lost in Austen. I just had to watch Pride and Prejudice. First the 1995 version which took awhile( it’s five hours long plus extras-I have the three disc edition) then the 2005 remake. I have decided that I like them both. Of course Colin Firth is a much better Darcy I think. But for some reason I find him more attractive older than when he was younger. Just like David Bowie-hotter with age. >_< Moving on, while watching these movies it made me think of the differences between the men in the 1800’s and the men in the present. Dating without a chaperon was out of the question and displays of affection were simply frowned upon. I’m sure even hand holding was scandalous. The men of of the 1800’s aren’t really better than the men of our time, because of course back then women were merely objects. Put on this earth to make a man look good, and to carry on his name. Pfffft! I cannot and will not agree with that. At least today, the male sex realize that there are women out there that are smarter and stronger than they are. They might not want to admit it but, in the corner of their minds they are fully aware of this fact. Even though we do things the past might find horrific, the past is not without its own shocking ways. Not only were women objects, but women were sold as wives at the young age of 15. Maybe even younger depending on the parents. Ok so in our time girls younger than that are having babies. -_-;

I find Jane Austen’s time romantic, of course that might just be her novels. I shouldn’t confuse reality with fiction correct? Although it may have its charms, I wouldn’t leave my own time to live a life there. Not even in my dreams. I am way too spoiled with my life the way it is. However, it would be nice to be wooed and courted and doted upon with sweet words by a man that is mature and knows exactly what to say. Sigh. That would be nice. Instead in 2009 we have men who shout at us from afar and then mock our appearance as a way of flirting.

How romantic indeed.

Ok wow. A night filled with cheesy horror flicks. I love when I can laugh at movies that were supposed to scare you. And this is what I get for watching the movies on the Fearnet.com channel.

Ok one out of the three “Scary” movies I watched the other night this one actually had me on the edge of my seat. The movie If I die Before I wake. Now I don’t usually ever like watching scary movies, its only sometimes and most of those times I am with Mija. Well anyway, this movie made me anxious and nervous and pissed at the same time. I have no idea what I would do in that situation and movies like this always make me think, would I be able fend for myself? This movie was sad and scary in a “this could really happen” sort of way. I hate not having any muscle or fighting skills. Tsk. Of course when I ask these questions, I always receive the answer, “Yeah if its for your life or a life of a loved one you would be able to fight back.” Now even though I’m sure I would fight for my life or the life of a loved one I’m not so sure I could. I have no strength. Seriously when we would have piñatas at parties I would never hit it with enough force. Ok granted I was a kid, and that wasn’t for life but hey that was for candy you would think I would break it to pieces. Oh and when I was a sophomore during cpr classes the plastic dummy would push me up instead of me pushing down on it. Now thats sad. But no joke I have no body strength. Its pathetic really. I’m just going hope I’m never in a situation where fighting and strength is a must.

Moving on to the next movie is The Toxic Avenger. Now I couldn’t even finish this movie. It was beyond ridiculous, really it is. So I’m not going to really elaborate any more than that.

Next is the movie entitled Dance of The Dead. Sigh I’m not really sure what to say about this one. It was cheesy. But sometimes cheesy is nice. It was a good laugh. But movies like this always make me wonder what about their families? You know just once I would like to watch a zombie movie that wasn’t so stereotypical. I mean everyone knows to kill a zombie you shoot it in the head. And you avoid getting bitten. Sigh duh. I’m sorry but I just think zombie movies need to be planned out more. sigh. But like I said this movie made me laugh. >_<

Now to the news that I am so excited about. Next month season 2 of True Blood starts. I’m so excited, this show is so amazing. I’m still reading the novels by Charlaine Harris, I’m on All Together Dead at the moment. And then I have two more to read until I’ve read all of the ones that are published. I’m not sure how many more she has to write. She said in a Q&A once that she would keep writing as much as they want her to write to continue the series. Of course there are many differences between the novels and the tv series but I enjoy them both. All I know is that I cannot wait for the season 2 to start. I missed this show. I hate when seasons end because then you have to wait until the next season starts and if there is another season. Damn tv shows for running my life.

So Thursday, Mija took Kat and I to a Japaneses restaurant called Blue Fish, if I’m not mistaken. I have eaten sushi and chicken teriyaki before but not like this. It was delicious. I don’t usually like eating food that is uncooked like in sushi. But this avocado crap roll was ok. If you have eaten sushi before and you are not used to it, you know that its texture is…interesting. I’m not quite used to it. But I ate two and it was good. Kat only ate one she did not like it. lol. She made a face after putting it into her mouth and everything. You could tell she wasn’t too happy that she had to swallow it as well. But she did and I am proud that she didn’t spit it into her napkin.  Its strange because Mija hates seafood. She hates a lot of things. And I would never have thought she would be the one introducing us to different foods to broaden our food pallet. lol. But yeah she did. I also ate chicken teriyaki. It was so good. I pretty much love chicken any way you can prepare it. Kat had the pork teriyaki and Mija had beef. I wasn’t too keen on the pork  but the beef was good. It seemed like such a small portion but it filled us up. I hadn’t eaten any lunch only a few muffins so I was extremely hungry. But after chicken and sushi I was satisfied and didn’t anything after that.

I am behind a day in my chapters for Dooms Day Book but I don’t care. I will read as much as I can, and just bullshit it if I have to on Monday. Its really boring to me.  -_-