Inside Kimmy's Mind

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIJA!!!! Today my older sister turns 25! She is so old. hahah 😛

Ok so I’ve learned that not all counselors are there to help you. I am transferring and I have a lot of questions that I need answered before I register for classes. And I’m not even allowed to register for classes anyway because I have this TSI hold.

STUPID MATH YOU RUIN MY LIFE!

-.- (ahem) So I decided to email the head adviser at the Uscholars center. I replaced important information with blah blah.

Hello,
My name is Kim Vera and I am transferring to UH in Aug. But I have been having trouble with registering for classes, and the advisers I have been dealing with have not answered my questions. I realize that U of H is a large university and with all incoming freshmen and transfer students it must be difficult to handle each students problems. But the semester is drawing near and I still have yet to register for classes. I am fully aware that I have a TSI hold. During ART I met with blah blah (a counselor) and she had said that she didn’t have my THEA scores. I was confused as to why this information wasn’t included in the transcripts I sent over. But these scores were too low anyway and didn’t help me in anyway. But still she said that she needed these scores and to fax them over as soon as possible. I explained to her that I am currently taking math 0408 but this class doesn’t end until August 18th and classes start the 23rd. This doesn’t give me enough time to enroll a week before classes start. I then went to talk to my Counselors at Brazosport Community College and they showed me my official transcript with the THEA scores listed. So I faxed my scores last week and I still couldn’t register. I was under the impression that once I faxed those scores the hold would be lifted. I tried calling blah blah at her office since she hasn’t replied to my last email. But she wasn’t there so I called the Uscholar center. I am then told information that I directly told blah blah  during ART, that my THEA scores weren’t high enough. I was then told that I would have to meet with an adviser and they would help me with this situation. But I am confused because if that is all I needed to do then why wasn’t this addressed during ART? I explained my scores weren’t high enough and that I was taking a math class yet still the hold wasn’t lifted. I don’t mean to sound rude, but I am just concerned that the classes I have selected will close and I will not have a schedule for the upcoming fall semester. If you could call me at blah blah  I would like to discuss this further or if you can meet with me I would really appreciate it.

Hope to hear from you soon,
Kim Vera

She replied quickly saying that the counselor I was emailing was no longer part of the Uscholars program and that is why I didn’t hear back from her. -.- How difficult is it to send me an email telling me that? Is it difficult to give me another adviser to work with? I’m so frustrated. Anyway she said that she has their records specialist working on a solution. And that she will reply to me soon. I really hope they get back to me as soon as possible. I’m just worried, what if they don’t find a solution? >.< That scares me.

Anyway so enough about frustrating things. For the past two weekends Mija and Jody(sis’s boyfriend) came and stayed with us. He bought this game Munchkin and now we play all the time. We are so nerdy I love it.  And I have fun playing the game. Its how I bonded with my future brother-in-law. During this game we were in a dungeon where you were switched to the opposite sex and have to change your name. If any player called you by your real name they lost a level.  lol  Mija was the one who said our names the most. Also my best friend Missy just had her first ultra sound. She sent me a picture and I was like oh wow. This is so surreal. She is going to have a baby! XD And I feel so special that she keeps me updated. I love her so much. I keep calling her baby sea monkey. I probably shouldn’t call her/him that anymore. Especially when it does have a sex.

Sea Monkey!!!!

I updated Mind-Speaks.

I feel like I have a ton of things to get done. Pass math, get my license, and not to mention my ortho appointments. Because yup I’m getting braces.

Great so now I’ll have both glasses and braces. -.- I actually really love my glasses. I’ve worn them for eleven years and they are practically imprinted on my face. The only downside is that I look so weird without glasses. I never noticed how small my eyes were until I went to get my ID. They made me take my glasses off. Its horrible looking. I think of them as part of my face and hate taking them off. Now braces, scare me. I have a very low tolerance for pain. I freak out getting eye drops and that doesn’t even hurt. I have always had horrible teeth. and I had it in my head that I had the worse teeth on the planet. But guess what? They aren’t as bad as I thought. And the appointment I was even pumped up to get them. The thought of having straight teeth makes me want to cry. (happy tears of course) I just wish I could be pass the whole waiting process. And just get them already. But we have two more meetings before I can get the braces. My next appointment is July 26th at 8…A.M.! O.o A.M.? Damn.

So on my third week  of math class. So far so good I have exam 1 on Monday. But in the morning I will be in Houston talking to counselors and registering. Classes start August 23rd and my math class at B.C. end on the 18th. So no break. May was my summer vacation. -.- A month. That was it. sigh. I miss sleeping all day! But you know I am excited to be transferring. Its weird that its finally happening. I mean when I graduated I knew I wouldn’t be moving right away. But Mija and I would talk about moving in together all the time. And now its in the process of happening. I will have to make trips taking some of my stuff so I’m not moving all of my stuff  a week before classes start. I’m nervous because now I’m starting over with a new school, new people, new teachers. I hope I get good teachers that are nice. I don’t  like mean teachers. -.- And then I will be away from home. I love my home. Its going to be weird not coming home after a day of classes. A love my small town. So Kat has been in Houston for this entire week. She is planning on going to A.I. for culinary. And so my parents let her take this week long camp thingy. I haven’t talked to her really, but she updates (teases) me with pics of the dishes she has made. I also notice the video clip of me thats looping? Its a robo.to which is sort of like dailybooth but with video. I know so many sites to update. But I really like sites like this.

So I watched The Runaways. I really liked it and I always thought Joan Jett was amazing after I saw her short cameo on REPO. Also updated Mind-Speaks.

Despite having a huge headache and a sore neck from sleeping weird. I AM EXTREMELY HAPPY! An exclamation mark just isn’t enough to get the happiness across.

Why am I so happy? I just found out who my math teacher is for my summer semester. I had him before, for another math class. And I was so upset when I didn’t get him again. But now I have him as my teacher and I will for sure pass my math class. God I am in such a good mood. But all this happiness is making me hungry. I really need to stop snacking. I snack way too much and I don’t exercise at all. Walking up and downstairs doesn’t necessarily count seeing as I avoid it as much as possible by bringing snacks to my room. Bad idea. Damn I’m bringing down my happy high. Enough about snacks and  exercise because I AM HAPPY!

So last Friday my sister and I took care of our neighbors 5 yr old for a few hours. His name is Kyle and he is really adorable. However the time I spent watching him has not changed my mind about children. And I still find them annoying and can’t see myself having any. Unless you can guarantee that they will come out as well behaved children.

Kyle started off shy and quiet then progressed to talking a mile a min. He then showed off his pet turtle and explained how his older brother Nick was really mean to him. I then reassured him and said that is just how older siblings are. And before I knew it, Kyle was no longer shy and quickly became hyper. Watching Kyle wasn’t difficult, it was just really exhausting. I kept wondering if he was a little girl would it have been easier? I imagined she would have wanted to play dress up and tea party or give me make over. Of course I’m sure picking out a dvd for her to watch would have kept her quiet and happy. With little boys however, they have no attention span. They have to be doing something and get bored so easily. I have no problem playing games and pretending to get hit by pretend bullets and Kat and I played dead on cue yet he had no mercy and thought it was necessary to hit us with his taped up plastic gun. What is it with little boys and hitting? Do they not understand that if you hit someone with a toy gun it does hurt?  -.- After killing us he picked a dvd to watch, which I thought would keep him distracted for awhile. I was wrong. He was quickly distracted by his toys and kept taking out different toy cars to show us and expected us to admire them. We oohed and awed to keep him happy but then that wasn’t enough. So he thought jumping on my back was fun, it wasn’t like he weighed a ton. But I’d really rather not have a monkey child jumping on my back. I played it off and would swing back and forth to make him laugh then i started tickling him. He started laughing uncontrollably and then said that if I continued to tickle him he would start crying. -.- I told him that if he did that again I would tickle again. He stopped. Another thing he did to pass the time was taking items that weren’t his, such as Kat’s cell phone, glasses and her right sock. He would run off with it and we would run after him, I think the trick is to appear uninterested and he will return it. But we didn’t want to risk the chances of him hiding Kat’s things. He locked himself in his parents room for a few seconds and finally I threatened to call his mom. We went back to his room to catch the ending of the movie. I had hope the movie would have done a better job at entertaining him. But it didn’t. After the movie was over he took out racing tracks for his cars, and set them up in the living room. I was up first. I pushed the little green button that would push my car, and he won. Children love winning. Why is that? I mean I know winning is a nice feeling. But why does that matter at such a young age? He continued to win.

I continued to seem disappointed at my lost yet happy for his wins. All of a sudden his boxer Jeda (not sure on spelling) thought my lap looked comfortable and laid on top of me. What is it with large dogs thinking they are small lap dogs? I’m not a fan of large dogs nor small yippy yappy ones either but Jeda was a sweetie. So I let her lay on me while Kat started racing Kyle. Kat would win a race. Kyle would ask to trade cars. She would say no however Kyle took that as a yes and would do it anyway. With children you usually just let them get away with things because they don’t know any better. Kat didn’t like that Kyle thought it was ok to cheat. I told Kat don’t worry about it. Its just a game. And this just left Kat annoyed with Kyle. That made me laugh. They continued racing and Kat would go and get a new car. If she won he would switch their cars. I was up again and this time he put other cars and an alien figure on my track to prevent my car from winning. Clever little booger no? Finally Kyle got bored and we started another movie. He went to get milk and I told Kat to help him. He then turned and went back to his room, Kat asked him what was wrong and he answered with,”You’re gonna bring  it to me.” I just started laughing. 5 years old and already used to women waiting on him. Of course he is a child so he has a good excuse. What excuses do grown men use?  Kat just got more annoyed. But brought him the milk like I asked. She told him not to spill it. He said of course. Kat and I were so ready to go home. I don’t know how women can take care of children. But the women that raise little boys, are heroes in my book. I wish you good luck on raising a little boy Missy. But I have faith in you, because you are gonna make an amazing mother.

Today’s song is Woman by Wolfmother. I love playing this song on guitar hero.[audio:http://numb.honey-vanity.net/wp-content/uploads/2010/06/woman2.mp3]

Since I have been admitted to UofH my family and I went on a campus tour on Saturday. The campus is huge, I just know I am gonna get lost.

I am gonna have to get a bus pass. But I have a feeling I am either gonna be late for class, or I might take the wrong bus and end up on the other side of Houston. I really hope that doesn’t happen. I don’t wanna be lost somewhere. But other than worrying about getting lost and being late for class. I am excited still. Of course I am gonna miss my home. But I have to move on. Growing up is normal and I’m already behind on the growing up part of life. I need to start learning how to take care of myself. Once I get settled in my home away from home, I need to find a job which should be easy since there are soooo many stores on campus. UofH has their own ice cream parlor, nail salon, bowling alley and a Chili’s too. So getting a job on campus might be easy. If not Mija lives near a Barnes & Noble so I can apply for a job there. And I will have my license before I move so I will be able to prove I am 20. YES! I can’t wait for that. I want to start class there, I want to start the next part of my life and attempt to make new friends. Of course I am horrible at making friends. Speaking of friends, my best friend Missy is…PREGNANT! And I couldn’t be happier. She has been my best friend since the 9th grade, my first friend to get married and now my first friend to be pregnant. :3 She is going to be a great mom.  I still can’t believe it. I couldn’t believe it when she was getting married but now she is expecting her first child. And I’m so glad that we are still close. She is really the only friend I still talk to from high school. We didn’t move away right after graduation so maybe that has something to do with it, but I think even if we did we still would have talked. Cause we can go without talking and then meet up and its like we were never apart. She lives 12 hrs away from me yet when she comes to visit she still makes time to come visit me. Plus we have the notebook that we mail each other back and forth. I love writing in that notebook. Because even though we can email and txt each other, its just something I enjoy doing. Plus I love mailing things.

Gosh things are changing. Time just keeps speeding up. Why is it like that now? Anyway, so now I have to sign up for a meeting with a counselor at UofH and then talk about how much my tuition will be, which classes I’ll be taking and at what time. I still have the summer semester at BC to pass math. Stupid math. I HATE YOU! -.- I hope I pass it this time.  Why must it cause me so much heartache? After that I might take a class during the summer two semester it just depends. If not I will end up moving a lot sooner. When we went to visit the campus we stopped by my soon to be home to feed Tomo my sister’s cat. She is spending the weekend with her boyfriend at a lake house. Poor Tomo all alone, I bet he left presents for her to clean up when she gets back home. Its a sign that he missed her. lol And she just happened to leave his litter box in my soon to be room. Thanks Mija. -.- My room better not smell when I get there. Cause I am not sharing a room with Tomo.

I found these bottle charms at Hobby Lobby. I’ve been looking for these since someone put them on Cut out + Keep. I bought the potion shape bottle charms though. They also had the regular jar and test tube bottles there as well. I wasn’t sure what to put in the bottle since it was so tiny. But I decided to write a quote on a slip of paper with a panda on it. Its for motivation. I’m gonna need all the motivation I can get once I start my math class. They come in a pack of two so I gave the second one to Kat and she just wanted a flower in it. I have some tiny purple flowers that I bought to make hair clips. So I just used that. Hey Missy which bottle shape would you prefer. Oh and what would you put in yours? I plan to buy you one the next time I go to Hobby Lobby.

Today’s song is a cover of Dream a little Dream. Sung by the Glee Cast. I love this show. And this song.[audio:http://numb.honey-vanity.net/wp-content/uploads/2010/05/DreamALittleDreamGleeCastVersio.mp3]

5-18-10: I’m not really sure what to blog about. May is almost over and I haven’t updated at all this entire month. I also haven’t vlogged in awhile as well. I’ve just been so lazy. Its raining and I just want to continue laying in bed. I only have two more weeks until I start summer semester. I just have one class, math. -_- It just won’t go away!

Today

Its official. I have been accepted at UH. So I will moving into my sister’s apartment in August maybe even July. The first thing I will take to my sister’s will probably be my art bin. Since I don’t have an art class anymore I can take all  my art supplies to her place. I might not have much time for art if I don’t take an art class but I can always try making time to paint on my own time. Hopefully. I’m not bringing my full size bed with me, (T-T) because it has a huge headboard that will just be extremely annoying to move. Besides clothes and a few things I hold dear such as books and my sewing machine. Thats pretty much everything I’ll be bringing with me. I don’t want to take too many things I don’t need, plus I want my room to still feel like my room. Am I ready to leave the nest? I feel ready, but that doesn’t necessarily mean I am ready.  I can’t live with my parents forever, and I’m already 20 yrs old I feel like I should have left a while back. Oh I’m also gonna be signed up for drivers ed. -.- I’m excited to get my license, yet another thing I should have done a long time ago. A real long time ago. sigh. So I’ll get my license before moving, but driving in Houston will be a challenge. I’m scared. But I just have to get used to it, like Mija did. But she moved out at 17 and started driving at 18. I’ll either take the bus or have Mija drop me off if she can. She says she would let me use her car sometimes when I’m comfortable driving. >.<

Tomorrow dad is having a craw fish boil. I can’t wait I love craw fish. Of course it will take 3 hours to cook. So I plan to wake up right when they are done so I can just eat. No I’m kidding I’m probably get up to film the process. Maybe. It will make an interesting vlog.

Today’s song is by Meaghan Smith called Heartbroken. I love her style.

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I feel like I am stuck. Yet time just keeps moving on. It’s going by incredibly too fast for me to even catch up.Why has time changed?

Movie Spoilers

I watched the movie Veronika Decides to Die, (**based on the novel by Paul Coelho)and it made me think of happiness and sorrow and then death. The character Veronika is played by Sarah Michelle Gellar and she is unhappy with her life. So she tries to commit suicide. She wakes up in a mental institution, and is told that she has weakened her heart and that there is no surgery or treatment that can save her. They aren’t able to pinpoint her death exactly, but its likely that it she has only a matter of weeks. She is immediately angered by the fact that she has succeeded in killing herself only she must wait to actually die. She questions the shrinks, asking them why not just kill her now? They will have no part in aiding in her death. She remains stubborn throughout her stay at the institute. Determined to die on her own terms. She fails at bringing her life to an earlier grave. She as no will to live. Yet she has no interest in making the best of the time she has left.

If I was told I would die in a matter of weeks, what would I feel? What would I do? Would I give up? I see myself as a weak person at times. And part of me thinks I would just wallow in self pity imagining all the things I have yet to accomplish or fail at. Imagining instead of actually doing those things. Death is a scary thought to me. I know death is inevitable for us all. But its more dying too soon that I worry about. Dying before I have actually had a chance to live. I’ve already been alive for 20 years. That’s two decades of being on this planet and I have yet to experience life.

“These days most people have replaced almost all their emotions with fear, and everyone has dreams but only a few realize them – makes cowards of the rest of us.”-Coelho

Gellar’s character lost the will to live, as so many of us do. But she finds it. Along with romance. I think when you are in love, you feel like you matter. I mean of course you matter to your friends and family. But the romantic love you’ll share with one other person is completely different. And once she found this feeling, she doesn’t want to let it go. A line from the movie trailer,” It wasn’t until she decided to die, that Veronika found a reason to live.” To actually live life to its fullest. Of course after she finally finds that one thing that made her want to continue living which turned out to be a person, the fact that she only has limited time to spend with her new found happiness makes you sad yet happy she even found it to begin with. (I ruin movie endings so stop reading if you don’t want to know the ending.)

But this movie ends on a happy note. It ends with the doctor writing in his journal explaining that if Veronika never visits another doctor, who would tell her that she is completely healthy. She would continue living her life and cherishing each moment she has. I think everyone should live their life like that though. And not because time is running out. But because its how life should be enjoyed. Not waiting in fear for the inevitable.

** Paul Coelho vlogs and blogs. How freaking amazing is that? I love it when I find an author whose work inspires me. I love books. And I actually liked this film adaption of the novel, but I haven’t read the novel yet so I might think differently once I do read it.

Song for today- Amy Kuney: Simple Things

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One last thing the collaboration art blog that I’m starting with my sisters is up. Mija made the layout I absolutely love it. We haven’t updated with anything yet. But I’m so excited to start this project with my sisters. Ok well I think its time I go to sleep.

Goodnight/Morning

TUESDAY!

I got to spend the entire day with Missy. She went with me to the student show, and then we went out to eat with my mom. She is so wonderful. Then Missy, Kat and I went to watch Kick-Ass. Such a good movie, Hit Girl was so freaking awesome. She should have been the main role because she made the movie amazing. Anyway, so hanging out with Missy was wonderful as always.

On Thursday my art class went to an art museum. I wasn’t allowed to take any pictures and I didn’t even take any outside or anything. Man I’m lazy. Oh and Missy met up with my class at the museum with her parents. I was so happy I thought I wasn’t going to see her because I made plans with my sister to pick me up after the museum. She had to go back to work so I went with her and then afterward she took me to Aka. It was sooooooo delicious. We ate California roll and black peppered beef cut sashimi style. And then we ate gyoza but I totally forgot to take a picture of that. And then we ordered a plate of teriyaki beef.  The portions were small but the perfect size. We also ordered a bowl of white rice which was perfect because if its your first time trying raw beef you want to eat it with rice so it can act as a shield when its in your mouth. Does that make sense? But it also compliments the beef. I can’t get over how good it was. I love sushi. After sushi we went back to her apartment and I fell asleep. Then she so kindly woke me up, even though I was extremely tired, to go over Jody’s house to play Left 4 Dead 2. Then they showed me Little Big Planet. So fucking cute. I am totally going to make my own little sack person. I just need to find the right fabric.

Bulletproof by La Roux (I find her oddly attractive)

And the next song is from a Little Big Planet level. My Patch by Jim Noir (Such a cute song) 

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SUCCESS! I finally got the ipod clone to work again on my R4. Man I am such a loser.

Random thought

I am sitting on my bed staring at the pile of clean laundry I have yet to put away. I usually put it away right after its washed. I mean its only been a day but still…why haven’t I put them away. My room is incredibly cluttered. I hide my clutter in cabinets and drawers. And don’t even get me started on the monster under my bed. (Fred) And I just put it out of my mind. I should really do some spring cleaning.

(stopped typing to put away laundry. >.< )

So I got my R4 for my DS last week. And I am addicted. I haven’t even finished playing a game yet, I think I’m just high on downloading apps for it.

I downloaded the ipod clone for it and it worked fine last week, but now it doesn’t. I must have deleted a file on the R4 that I needed. Not exactly sure what happened, but I will figure it out..eventually. I mean its frustrating when it doesn’t work but as long as the games work I am happy. I just need to organize it. -.- God I am such a nerd, playing with my DS instead of hanging out with friends. Speaking of friends, Missy is home! I get to see her on Monday. I’ve missed her so much and I am in desperate need for some Missy time. Hear that Missy? Tell everyone else to back the fuck off. jk But no seriously. -.-

So the other day Mija brought her boyfriend home to meet our parents. I was only awake for the dinner portion. After eating I went up stairs and fell asleep playing DS. I vaguely remember Mija coming into my room and talking/messing with me. I think I answered back not really sure. I do remember her telling me that dad was playing medal of honor with Jody. God that is funny. This is the first time my sister has brought home a serious boyfriend, so it was different. But we joked and laughed with him so in my opinion things went well. And I think my parents liked him, I mean I like the guy ok. He owns a ps3 now which earns him some definite like points. So yeah I slept the entire day away the other day from 3:30 to 2:30 am. (oh sorry for not saying good bye Mija) Not good. But I’ve been up since then so I’m sure I will go to sleep early tonight. Probably. -.-  Yeah who am I kidding, I’ll be up late as usual. Awww damn I have a math test tomorrow. Sucks. Need to do those 1o point flash cards. I should do them now since I am up. Right. Anyway, I also need to start on my next painting project. I think this is the last one for the semester. Makes me sad. I must paint some form of literature. Meaning a song, poem, book. What to do? I’ve already painted a song so its between the other two. I have no idea what to paint. sigh.

So Mija wants to start a collab art blog with Kat and myself. Basically it will be a place where we post the things we create (nothing about our personal lives.) Mija with her graphics, Kat with things she bakes, me? I make a bunch of different things paintings and stuff I sew. So yeah I’m looking forward to starting this. Oh yeah, Mija showed me Dr. Horrible’s sing along blog. I love Neil Patrick Harris, he is so adorable so is Felicia Day. And after watching that, I watched The Guild. I don’t even play role playing games like WOW and I still find this web series funny.