In art, our assignment is to recreate a Greek myth in our own way. I immediately thought about Persephone.

Part one: Art and Myths

Ever since I read about it in the 9th grade I’ve never forgotten it. Persephone, daughter of Demeter(Goddess of Harvest), was abducted by Hades because of her beauty.He dragged her to hell to be his queen which angered and devastated Demeter. The earth became dead, and so Zeus demanded Hades to return Persephone to her mother, but it was already too late Hades had given her a number of pomegranate seeds. This traps Persephone in the underworld. During the fall and winter Persephone remains with Hades as the Queen of The Underworld. During spring and summer she returns to her mother. This was said to be the reasons of the seasons. I don’t know why why I liked this myth it was just the first one to pop into my mind when we were given this assignment. But after watching the new episode of Bones I’ve found a new myth that I might like to work on. Its Plato’s theory on soul mates. According to him, humans were actually beings with four legs, four arms and a head with two faces. “Zeus felt threatened by their power and split them in two, condemning them to spend their lives searching for the other half to complete them.”After this project our next one is to paint our favorite book. This one will be a tough one for me, since I love so many different books.Today’s song is a cover by The Bird and The Bee-Into Something Good

I’ll try to update more during this month. I haven’t been updating as much as I usually do and its time to put a stop to that. I hope my sister Mija is having a wonderful time in New Orleans. Be safe.

It is impossible for me to “live a little.” I mean what does that even mean really? I am living.

Ok so I’m not exactly living an exciting life. Let me rephrase that. I am not exactly living an exciting SOCIAL life. But life in general is pretty awesome. So I don’t party on the weekends with a bunch of friends. I mean since graduating, I have only a few friends that I still talk to on a day to day basis. I mean excluding my sisters, because well it would be sad if they didn’t talk to me. (Speaking of sisters: Mija hasn’t talked to me in like a week? -.- If I’m not mistaken. Much love. )

PEOPLE I TALK TO THE MOST

1. Missy-Because she is my amazing wife.
2. Jayson- I love getting txts and calls from him. His voice mails make me laugh.

There are a few others that I talk to every now and then. But its not as much as these three. But anyway, just cause I don’t ever do anything out of my comfort zone doesn’t mean I’m unhappy with my life. I mean once in awhile I wish I could just be spontaneous and just go with the flow. Not worry about the consequences and just live in the moment. But I’ve lived my life a certain way, the same way for the past 20 yrs. How can you change something you’ve done for your whole life? And we are talking about me so that’s even harder to do than for a normal person. Because lets face it, I am not normal. I wish I could do what I wanted. I want to go on a road trip with friends. I want to move out of my parents house. I want to just feel like I’m moving forward and not settling or staying stuck. I want to live a life not just coast on by.

Nataly Dawn-Cover OK GO:Do what you want

I love Nataly Dawn, she is so talented. I love the versions of songs she does compared to the originals. She is also in Pomplamoose a duo with Zack Conte. I love them both they just make me smile. And their editing skills are just so amazing along with their musical skills. Damn I love their videos.

Some self loving is in order. I visited my sister during spring break, and she took us to Buffalo Exchange and Taxi Taxi. (I love those stores) Anyway I bought the blue shirt I’m wearing in this picture below. I love it! See I like how I look sometimes. And I think I dress nice, even if I have a lot of unnecessary layers. But oh well its a security thing. I also got the most amazing bag by Fred Perry. I love these bags, I think they are so cute. Mija said they were ugly but I don’t.

I need to blog more, its sad that I have been neglecting you blog. Oh but I posted a vlog last week.

Things change. Life moves on, the earth doesn’t stop spinning because something out of the ordinary happens.

I have absolutely no idea what started this entry. It was a draft from the 27th of last month. Which reminds me I didn’t update nearly as much as I usually do. What is wrong with me? I haven’t even made a vlog in an even a longer time. Gahhh >.< I don’t know why I haven’t updated things? I spend ALLLLL of my time on my laptop and the internet; you would think I could squeeze in some blogging and vlogging in between my busy schedule of doing absolutely nothing. -.-

SPRING BREAK

May the sleeping commence.

I just took my third Psychology test. I really need to come up with a better study schedule, because this cramming before a test is just not cutting it anymore. -.- If you are a person that has horrible studying habits then online classes are NOT for you! And for my online class no notes are allowed when you take a test. So cramming is a very stupid thing to do. Yet I continue to do it. sigh.  When I transfer I’m not gonna be able to just cram and be lazy like I am now. I hope I’ll be able to snap out of my laziness.

I still can’t believe that I haven’t updated my blog in awhile this must come to an end.

Now I know Valentines is the day couples celebrate their relationship and express their love for one another. A horrible time for those of us without a significant other. WRONG! Not this year. Gala Darling

It is completely and 100% OK that I am not in a romantic relationship at this time. I’m not a typical girl so even if I was in a relationship, simple from the heart gestures are whats best. A home made card for instance, is just one of the best gifts. That or a notebook of some sort, because I can never have too many journals.  Anyway, here are bits of the assignments Gala assigned. I only put some of the questions on here the rest are in my bible. But you know what is driving me crazy? The fact that whenever I tweet about Radical self love using the hashtag #radicalselflove I do NOT show up in the #radicalselflove tweet page. Its rather frustrating. I’m not sure why my account isn’t working and the twitter people aren’t exactly helping me with the problem. >_< I wish they would just fix it. Be calm. And just let it go Kim. :3 On to some of the questions.

RADICAL SELF-LOVE Q’S

What does RADICAL SELF LOVE mean to you? I think that its an opportunity for me to see myself differently. Not just be so consumed with worrying about the negative side of things. I have tons of things to be positive about, and I should focus on those things more often. I spend too much time focusing on the things that I dislike about myself. RADICAL SELF-LOVE is just a positive project that I look forward to doing, even after the month is over.

Which qualities or attributes would you like to bring into your own life via the application of RADICAL SELF LOVE? I want to be more positive. I want to wake up and feel like I can do anything and everything. I’m not saying I don’t have anything to look forward to, because I do. I just want to be able to wake up and not pin point all my faults. I want to be able to look on the brighter side of things after something terrible happens. Angry out bursts don’t exactly solve my problems so why not just see the silver lining? I want to be able to do that. I am incredibly lucky, I love being me on the inside and I have great friends and a terrific family. I just want to be able to keep that in mind.

What beliefs do you currently hold that are stifling your regular expression of RADICAL SELF LOVE? Self doubt. I doubt myself way too much.  Which leads to the next question.

Are the people & activities in your life HELPING or HINDERING you in your quest for RADICAL SELF LOVE? Would you be better off without them? The only person hindering me from RADICAL SELF LOVE  is myself. I am surrounded by people that are just so caring and supportive. When someone compliments me I really have no idea what to say. I mean of course I say thank you. But if they keep on complimenting I feel like I need to express my opinion. Which is exactly the opposite of what they are telling me. It’s that I want to just keep hearing their kind words as if I were fishing for compliments. I just don’t see myself as they do.

Which brings me to the essay question. Wow this question transitions into the next one as well.

Essay Question: Why do you treat your best friend better than you treat yourself? I can see all the things my BF can’t see about herself. She is truly one of the most beautiful and amazing people I have ever met. I think its sort of like wearing a blind fold when it comes to ourselves. We can’t see the things that make us great, but when it comes to others the blind fold slips and we can see perfectly. We find, what our friends see as flaws as just something else to love about them. If only we could see ourselves in the same light.

In what ways can you behave more like you’re your own best friend? I would never be able to be as amazing and selfless as she is. But the best way for me to be more like her is to be more understanding and less judgmental. She never judges me. She accepts me and loves me for who I am as a person. And she sees me the same way I see her. A wonderful person.  I’m so glad that I have her as a best friend she makes my day brighter.

Everyone has their issues with themselves, whether is appearance or personality wise.

The point is that instead of focusing on what makes us unique and amazing we spend our time wishing we could change what we dislike about ourselves. Well I am no different. I complain and put myself down all the time. But I should look at what I like about myself some times. Because I am happy being me, I just need to…work on a few things.

GalaDarling has declared this Radical Self-Love month. And I will attempt in following through with the project as well. I’ve already completed the first two assignments, one was to find a note book of some sort to jot down ideas and future assignments. And I’ve found a totem to remind me of this project throughout my day. It was supposed to be something I see often, so I’ve chosen the phone strap given to me by my friend Cate. Its in the shape of a heart and I stare at it all the time so it seemed fitting. I also have this necklace that I wear all the time to replace one that I no longer wear. So this one will also be a reminder of the project since I wear it all the time.

Mantra: I will attempt to see myself in a brighter light. There is no reason to hate myself because I contain flaws. I will not focus on my flaws for the rest of the month and hope it carries on even after this project ends. So may the self-love project commence.

So yeah this probably what I will put on the first page of of my note book.

My main totem.

Sneezing.Stuffy nose. Sore throat.

These are my symptoms. No fever. But when I get too cold and decide to turn the fan off I get too hot. So if its the chills then I guess I have that as well. I constantly need a tissue in my hand, and let me tell you without being too graphic. Its not pretty. I stayed up late painting my next art project. I’m sort of happy with it, but I’m also sort of stuck. For this project we are supposed to paint a portrait of someone we either extremely love or hate beyond reason. I couldn’t choose between Neil Gaiman and Dave Mckean. So I’ve decided to paint both. I watched the movie Mirror Mask for inspiration. One of my favorite movies.

My cat was just attacked by two dogs. I’m like freaking out. What if he is bleeding to death? Dying alone? I can’t handle that. He was supposed to die of old age, he is my first cat. I can’t go out and look for him no matter how much I want to. He will come right? I know I shouldn’t hate the dogs that attacked him, my anger should be directed at the dumb ass pet owners that don’t know how to keep their stupid fucking demon monster dogs locked him. Sigh. Just please let my cat be ok. Kozi wasn’t attacked he bolted over the fence so fast I hope he is ok.

I’m no longer in the mood to blog.

I finally got my new cell last Monday and I love it. An added plus, I didn’t have to change my number. thank bob because I finally memorized it. This is sad because I’ve already had this number for 2 years. >_<

I am so so so happy that I finally have my new cell. I can now have nice ring tones and have a phone strap on it and get a pretty case for it. Which I found one by the way, it makes me smile when I see it. And ebay sellers annoy the hell out of me. -_- sigh. I’m an Ebay junkie.  Anyway, so I made my 4th vlog on Vimeo. Its tricky for me to upload my vlogs on this site because I don’t have a plus account so my videos don’t get uploaded fast. This is the only con for Vimeo on the Youtube vs. Vimeo list. Other than that is awesome.

Classes started again on Monday and so far so good. I’m excited for Painting II this semester, my class is Painting I and II combined this semester. Our first project is called the Schizo/Object/Self/Thing/Picture.

Lightly sketch in an under drawing (of a picture or object) then divide it into as many quadrants as you choose. The quadrants can be irregular, geometric or any shape you choose. Each quadrant should deal with color mixing, variations of brush strokes.

I’m thinking of sketching all the electronics I can’t live without. Laptop, Cell, camera, ipod, DS ect. My teacher said that each quadrants should be a different you or some how apart of you. A you, you wish you were. I already have an idea how I want mine to look. But that doesn’t mean that it will work out. Here’s hoping. >_< I think math will be ok, I hope. (stupid math) Gov. will be ok, and I’m hoping my online Psychology class goes well. (I must keep up with the assignments.)

I cannot believe that a whole week went by and I didn’t update. Damn. But in my defense I have like 3 drafts of entries that I started but never finished. I’m planning on saving those topics for some other time. :3 Ok off to slumber land I go. Speaking sleeping, the night I had a dream that I got an ugly ass tattoo. I’m afraid of needles therefore I wouldn’t never be able to get one IRL. It was weird. So I went to google to see what some sites had to say about tattoos in dreams. A few I found….

1. Tattoo: Tattoos may represent those things in our lives that seem only “skin deep” but may be interesting and fun. They could represent our thinking, our playful ways, and our seemingly unimportant habits. As time progresses, we may realize that our passing fads have become permanent. Thus, a tattoo may be symbolic of something that we inflict on ourselves, is permanent if not deep, and generally carries with it some negativity.
2. Tattoo – If you dream you are the one being tattooed you will become the target for a stranger’s jealousy. (0.O)
3. Tattoo: To dream that you have tattoos, represents individuality and the desire to stand out in a crowd. You want to unique and different from everybody else, particularly if you do not have any tattoos in real life. Consider also what the tattoo is. Alternatively, to dream that you have a tattoo, suggests that a waking situation is having a much longer lasting effect that you had expected.

Well that’s interesting. -_-  Ok now I’m off to slumber land.  Good night/morning.

A new year. Its weird after graduating from high school time seems to go by in a different way.

Fast sometimes and slow others. So I got up early and cleaned house a bit, I still have a ton to do which I will finish tomorrow. Hopefully >_<, it always seems like the laundry never gets done. (I HATE FOLDING WHITES!) Anyway I found out that I lost my two months with Missy. It is now two weeks a total of 18 days to be exact. Which I will hopefully spend 6 of those days with her. I hate that she lives 12 hours away.Kat and I finally received our DS cases in the mail today. We ordered clear cases while mom and Mija got ones with designs on the them. Mom’s has butterflies and Mija’s has Jack Skellington on it. Hers is the best, not only because of Jack but because it doesn’t have hinges. Her case was made much better than ours. >_< I knew I should have just gotten the Stitch one. But I wanted mine to be green. My favorite color has become a curse. Nah I kid.

I love having my things green. Its a force of habit but I don’t mind. At least I know that no one else will have my DS case because I can change it to whatever I want. Currently its is this pretty green patterned paper that I bought at hobby lobby a long time ago. So I’m happy with the finished product even though it took forever for the person to ship it. I ordered it on the 15th of December and I got it on January 4th. Now granted I know it was the Christmas holiday so I’m sure it was difficult to send it during the holidays. But I had emailed the seller like 4 times asking why he hadn’t shipped my items yet and he didn’t reply. He could have replied to me at least once explaining himself. Instead he ignores my emails, and when he does finally ship them he doesn’t even let me know until I check my ebay account. Normally a (good) seller would email me to let me know that my items had been shipped. And if they are a wonderful seller they include a tracking number. But whats the use in complaining when I have the items, right?

Things to look forward to:

• Missy time.
• Cate’s 18th birthday party.
• Get my new cell phone on Monday!!!!!!!!!!! ….oh and classes start but I’d rather sleep in.   >_<

Oh yeah Andrea emailed me back! She is one of the coolest people I know. The only good thing from actually doing my Confirmation a year later than I was supposed to. Like I’ve said many times before, I find making friends complicated and difficult. So it takes me awhile to make friends that last. Currently the only friends I talk to since graduating is of course Missy, Cate and Hyun(if he counts?) That’s it. Then I made friends with Ana and I talk to Constance every now and then and Isamar sometimes. Now Andrea!

-Andrea-

:3 If you read this, I hope we get a chance to hang out.

I don’t know about you but I had a wonderful Christmas holiday.

I got to see Missy last week! She came down for the holidays. Oh and we both cried as soon as we saw each other. I missed her a lot and seeing her just made me so happy. So we talked and talked about anything and everything. We stayed downstairs in the dinning room because Kat had over a friend. A guy friend that annoys the hell out of me. (Sorry Kat, but he is annoying!) Anyway, we stayed downstairs and kept an eye on him the little punk. She should be here for a whole month. I’m so glad!

This year I was more excited for my parents to open their presents then I was to open mine. You see when you’re younger your parents try to make sure you are filled with the anticipation of Christmas morning. And they hope to Bob that you fall asleep while waiting for Santa. My parents always went above and beyond to get us the things we asked for. And would surprise us with more than we asked for at times. But before Christmas was always about us. Mom never really expected anything under the tree for her. So this year we made sure that there were presents for both mom and dad from us. And I couldn’t wait until they opened their gifts. It was like I was waiting to open my own. We wanted to wait until Dad came home from work. They had called him in for over time on Christmas eve and he didn’t get home until 5 am. But that’s a normal time for us to be awake.

So finally we were able to open presents when he got home. So mom and dad opened their gifts from each other. Mom bought dad a TomTom. Dad bought mom the shape up shoes shes been wanting. Then they opened their gifts from us. We bought my dad…get this, we bought him a wii zapper and Call of duty. lol I think its so cool that my parents play video games. We bought my mom NDSL as an early present. Then for her to open on Christmas we bought her a decorative rooster tray. She loves roosters for some reason. lol Then I made my mom a DS pouch, it came out so pretty. I’ll post pictures of it later. Then I made my dad a TomTom case. But I kept messing up on it so it sort of resembled a beer coozie. But he uses it so I’m happy.

So since Christmas I slept late and in and practically laid in front of the fireplace playing with my Ds. I’ve done absolutely nothing since I finished the semester. I’M SO LAZY! Right now I’m at my sister’s apartment spending the week with her. Oh and I will be getting my new cell phone soon! I cannot believe I waited this long? I actually made it? Its surprising. But my prehistoric stand in cells did help a little. Having a cell is better than having no cell at all and its not like I make or receive a lot of calls/texts. But still once you have something in your life its hard to get rid of it. I guess that applies to a lot of things in life.

I’m going to play a bit of Kingdom Hearts before attempting to go to sleep. I will post pictures of things when I get a chance.

I’m finally done with finals. I finished Wednesday. A glorious day.

I was ready for this semester to be over with. I mean not as much as I wanted spring semester to be over with but a close second. I mean the only thing that sucks about this semester be over with is that I probably won’t see my crush. But thats ok because it has morphed into a school girl crush that will absolutely go nowhere. Of course I’m the lazy type that doesn’t mind that it will go nowhere. Sad really. But its cool because I made an awesome friend. He is a really interesting type of person. That I wish I could be more like. He has a nice personality. Wow that sounds cheesy. >_< But its true. In my opinion.

But besides that I’m extremely happy that this semester is over and done with. I can now relax until the next stressful semester. I just need to make sure that I have the correct math because low and behold I passed math this semester! Holy fuck I know. Its crazy. I thought I would be lucky if I made a low c. But nope I ended up with a “B”. So this semester I have an A, and two B’s. Now I’m just waiting for my government grade. I hope I passed that class. -_- Back off negativity. I need a negativity shield because I’m a downer. >_<

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