Inside Kimmy's Mind

I had my first torn decision between my tumblr blog and my main blog.

I didn’t think I would have to choose between them because I have always known which blog I would use to update depending on the event. I would update my tumblr with small tidbits and my main blog with the larger events that can make me go on forever. So I had a little dilemma, which I’m sure to you might not seem like that much of a dilemma. But I am insane so naturally this makes sense to me. But because I felt this way, I solved my own dilemma without really doing anything but updating my blog. Well as you can see I chose my main blog. Meaning this involved something more than a quick description and a photo.

Mija bought me a NDS game to call my very own. Until now I have been playing whatever games Kat had. Which reminds me I missed a BrainAge today. Damn And I was doing so well too. I was keeping up with it and because I got so distracted by my new toy I forgot about it. -_- My new game is a classic. Are you familiar with Bust-A-Move? AKA Puzzle Bobble. Well the one I played growing up was Bust-A-Move ‘99 on Nintendo 64.

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Ok I hope this doesn’t make me a hypocrite but I must say it. I don’t mean to offend people. But when people start off with that, it usually means they are being offensive.

Outrageous: I have been browsing other people’s blogs on Globe of Blogs. I have submitted my blog to be listed there I’m not sure how long it will take for it to show up or even if it will. But I submitted it nonetheless. Like I was saying I have been browsing other blogs. And I must say I am nothing but disappointed. I know not everyone can purchase a domain, thats why there are free blog accounts like blogger and wordpress. (My sister pays for mine so I’m one to talk) And I realize not everyone is a master web designer. But what shocks me is the bloggers that do use free blogging accounts and say that they are a web designer but use the free layouts that most Blogger users use. Where is their sense of individualism? Bloggers are supposed to be different. (Ok so again I’m one to talk- my sister created my layout. But I am learning HTML coding and going to try to make my next layout) But in my defense I’m not a web designer nor a graphic designer. But I have a sister who is and she has paved the path for me to enjoy my blog. If your blog isn’t in a sense you, you aren’t going to feel like updating it very often. Which brings me to my next point, after finding displeasing layouts I also found out of date blogs and not found urls. … continue reading this entry.

It was crazy. This was the first time I was up for Black Friday sales. We went to Walmart because of mom’s discount. And because Walmart has better prices.

Day One 11-27-09 : So we bought a mixer, a printer, and mom got us each a DS lite. I really wanted the green one. But hell I was happy. Plus the green one wasn’t on sale like the others because it was a bundle pack. And I can just buy a green case. I think I only have like two more weeks of classes. Then I’m done for the semester. I’m so ready for that.

Day Two-12-6-09:Right now I’m watching SyFy’s Alice. I love watching these types of movies. Plus hello Alice in Wonderland is one of those stories that you can never get tired of. Its been told over and over in many different ways but with similarities. I’m liking Alice so far. Can’t wait to watch it Monday night. Today is Hyun’s birthday! He is 21. So a happy birthday to the little booger.

Day Three-12-7-09: Typed out that first bit the other day. Now it is Monday. Just finished watching Alice. It was so good. I loved it. Hatter and Alice ended up together. Oops sorry gave away the ending didn’t I? My bad.

Spaced out.

Day Four-12-8-09: It is now 5:24 a.m. I kept getting distracted from finishing this entry. -_- First it was Alice then washing clothes followed by showering and then lastly what took me forever to finish…straightening my hair. It has gotten so long that it takes longer to straighten. I want to cut it short. Just above my shoulders short. I’ve had it that short before but that’s when I didn’t have bangs. I think having it short with bangs would look odd on me. Oh and how unfair is the weather right now. It is now just icky and rainy outside. So unfair. Damn I’m not going to be able to publish this entry quite yet. I’m not done. But I have to get some sleep before its light out. >_<; My poor corrupted sleeping pattern.

Remembering John Lennon.  Not many people in my generation like classic rock. So there are a number of people that have no idea who The Fab Four were/still are. I have often heard people referring to The Beatles as, “old people music.” But they will never get old for me or my sisters. Twenty-nine yrs ago today John Lennon was murdered. He was taken away for no reason at all. John was such an amazing musician. And although I didn’t know him personally many generations know him through his music. He will always be remembered.

John Lennon-Imagine

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Day Five- 12-9-09: It is 12:52 am. Holy crap. Look how long it is taking me to write out this blog entry. I kept adding to this post but instead of publishing it I just kept saving it until I finished it. Why do things keep getting in the way? lol Ok well I need to be strong this weekend and study big time for my math, web design and government finals next week. And after Wednesday next week I will be officially done for the semester. I cannot wait for January. I get my new cell phone. Gaaaaaaaaah I’m such a tech brat. Thankfully my NDS has done its job well and has kept me distracted. However, it is also a distraction from the things I need to finish. And that is not good. Like prepping for finals. -_- I hate the week of finals because it sometimes feels like there is never enough time. And I lack sleep. I really need the Christmas break to rejuvenate. (I know a 20 yr old has no right to say that) I finally learned how to make my Vimeo videos into wmv format using Adobe Premiere. Yay! I already uploaded a video this week but I didn’t know what I know now (that sounds confusing) so I must wait until next week to upload another video. But I think I’ll wait until finals are over. Good thinking right?:P

Good night/morning world.

Woo hoo! I have already posted 100 entries on my blog. This will be the 101 entry. I can’t believe I have that many entires. But for some reason it feels like I should have more. -_-

So Thanksgiving is this week. I am so ready for pumpkin pie. :9 Pumpkin pie makes me think of my friend Andrea. She was in my cce class during senior year. And one Wednesday we talked about craving pumpkin pie and popcorn. >_< Odd combination now that I think about it. If I remember correctly it was after any holiday that would require a pumpkin pie present. We were just reminiscing  aww but I miss her. After I deleted my myspace, I lost track with her.

Wow I just got my Future me email today. I think its funny because I remember typing it out and how I felt during that time. It was in April so it wasn’t too long ago. But still I have already changed so much since then.

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My cell finally kicked the can. Actually there was no kicking involved, just the loud yelling of profanity.

It happened so fast. My whole world flashed before my eyes as the screen went blank. Ok I’m being over dramatic here but I can’t believe my cell is dead. I feel so awkward without it. And to top it all off right before it broke I had just gotten a text message from my crush but I wasn’t able to reply to it. How unfair is that? I mean it just had to break at that particular moment. Is this karma? Am I being punished for wanted a new cell phone? T-T Which I can’t get until January. I can’t wait month to get a new cell. … continue reading this entry.

I got a tumblr blog. Which is unnecessary. I am aware of that, but for some odd reason I got one. I just tried to add a small entry. And failed miserably.

I can’t really make small entries, (I consider this entry a small entry) because one thing makes me go off on another ect. This causes me to continue typing out more words then I originally planned on. So maybe tumblr isn’t something I should have signed up for. Maybe if it had a layout that was more me I would warm up to it. Plus I need to come up with a much more fitting url name than comingupblank. If you can’t guess I was coming up blank when thinking for names. >_< Where did my creativity go? I need to finish my painting but I have no idea what to paint.

That was at 3:46 early today. It is now 10:18, and I now have an idea of what I want to paint. Well sort of. Its only an idea so it could either disappear or not work out. But hey, I should be optimistic about this correct? So I’m hoping my creative abilities show themselves and work for me tonight. Because it would suck if they decided to just up and leave me. I mean I just got a $225 scholarship for art. So I have to show him what I’m made of, or else he’ll think he made the wrong decision in giving me this money. And its money that I can use for anything. It doesn’t have to be for school. Of course I’ll use it for school. Or maybe Christmas presents for the family. I never have money, let alone a lot of it. And yes $225 is a lot of money to me. Some with a steady income might think otherwise. >_< I need a job that is steady. I mean I like being lazy and have my weekends free. But lets face it, I need money still. And I need to open a savings account. I plan to next week to put that $225 in a safe place. Maybe mom will let me use it to buy a new cell phone. Which sounds very conceited and spoiled of me. I know. -_-

Now it is already Saturday. Damn I put off posting this entry. Its now 4:37 a.m. I didn’t really paint much between then and now. I just gessoed over an inappropriate blue penis, that a classmate of mine decided to paint on my canvas. Of course it was after I said that I was going to paint over what I already had. I know that if I hadn’t mentioned that I was starting over, he wouldn’t have drawn on my canvas. Well I’m almost sure he wouldn’t have. Anyway, I am going to be forced to wake up in a couple of hours soon to get ready to go Houston. My sister wants to go to the Art Institute open house. She is thinking of majoring in Culinary. And so she wants to ask a few questions. She is a junior in high school and she is freaking out about college. Of course I tell her everything will work itself out. I’m not exactly sure what I’m doing. I just know that it involves writing. I’m hoping to get into publishing if that is possible. But all I have to do is try right? Of course I’m horrible at editing writing. I know I have tons of typos and grammar errors in every single one of my blog entries. But I’m usually too lazy to look over them until after I have posted them. Gosh I’m lazy. -_- Ok well I plan to record tomorrow since it will be all five( meaning the whole family) of us together for more than a few moments. Kat and I usually hide in our rooms, while mom watches her dramas in the living room. And dad is either outside or in his “office” aka the garage. Mija (when she is home) is either in my room or in the living room (depending where she left her lappy plugged in) with mom.

See what did I tell you? I started with one topic to only end with a completely different one. Yup.

So I went to Oni-con this past weekend. And got to see the Jrock band Born, and the solo artist Satsuki. Their performances were the only ones I was awake for. The two other opening acts were really unnecessary.

Which sucks because Tomo from echostream is adorable and an excellent guitarist. He should be in a band with other hot talented Japanese men. Not weird Americans minus the female singer. I think she is Japanese. Anyway, I didn’t like their songs at all. So I sat to the side of the mob of people and slept. Yes slept. How does one sleep during a concert? Well since you asked. For me it was quite easy. … continue reading this entry.

At this exact moment I am watching the show Lie to Me and I can’t help but wish I was able to tell when others were lying by hand movements and facial expressions. That would be nice.

I am in a little predicament. I have a test later today in Web Design. I haven’t studied. At all. I also have a painting due tomorrow before my test. And now what am I doing at the moment? Well Lie to Me just finished, and I am updating my blog now stopping every now and then to straighten my hair. -_- I really do need to learn how to use my time wisely. Because if I don’t I will keep getting myself into these situations with my classes. Bleh I mean I already stay up half the night reading so its not like I would get more sleep if I did use my time wisely. >_< But I felt like I should take time to update my blog right now because I haven’t updated a lot this month and I felt like something was missing because of it. So here I am updating about procrastinating. Among the other things I keep putting off are sending my best friend her care package. Sorry about that Missy. I keep putting it off because truth be told I haven’t quite finished stuffing it with enough things to make you smile. I mean I know I can send multiple packages at different times but I want the first package to be epically awesome. ^_^ So just know it will get to you as soon as I deem it worthy. … continue reading this entry.

So I had my first Jury Duty experience. And I must say I understand why it is something most adults desperately try to wiggle themselves out of having to sit through.

Yes I receive ten dollars for taking time out of my schedule to partake in. And then an additional $40 until the case is settled. But that is only if you are selected as a juror for the case. Anyway, I went int at 8:15 am and then was told to come back at 1. When I came back to the court house the judge called roll and then dismissed us explaining that all his cases were canceled. So we have fulfilled our jury duty summons. Yay! Of course I was sort of hoping to have it extended and get chosen so I could get 40 dollars. Money is the only reason I wanted to do this in the first place. (I know greedy me.) Ok I also did it because it was something new to experience. :p And although it was annoying it was interesting in some ways. Minus the part when my stomach made loud unflattering noises. Stupid nervousness. >_< Anyway, after I was fnished with Jury Duty my mom picked me up and we drove by a fabric store. I love buying new fabrics. … continue reading this entry.

For as long as I can remember I have never really taken a risk. I mean I have always been the weird kid that never ran with scissors. But if you think about it why would you run with scissors? I mean children are dumb, but would they really be running with scissors in their hands? I mean I guess it happens in kindergarten. But most children don’t really use scissors on a daily basis. They start using scissors  with the lesson on cutting along straight lines but if you really think about it…

Kimberly Focus! Back to the point,  as I got older I grew more afraid of actually living. I wouldn’t do anything that could end up with me in the emergency room. Like reckless sports. :p But I also didn’t participate in sports because I am horrible at them. I mean I have no hand eye coordination and playing softball with the boys P.E. class in the sixth grade was extremely humiliating. Especially when your junior high crush sees you as nothing more than a threat to him winning  a stupid P.E. game of softball. Its softball! And P.E. class! Not a national tournament. When it was my turn up to bat I heard him say, “Please hit the ball. Just this once hit it.” Yeah that crush didn’t last long. It was that important to him, of course I could care less and didn’t hit one ball. I guess I could have made the effort but I just didn’t feel the need to. Of course batting was much better than being in the field where you had to wear a glove. Only there wasn’t enough gloves for each team to have their own; so we would switch by leaving the gloves on the ground and you would just pick one up. And wouldn’t you know the one I just happened to pick up was for a left handed person. That didn’t do me any good seeing as I am right handed. And I was yelled at for just standing and not grabbing the correct glove. Wow what was my point again. Damn I hate when I get off subject.

Back to the main issue here. After watching the recent episode of Being Erica  it made me think of taking risks. Not huge risks but the semi ones. I mean I feel like I have always just made the safe choices. With certain situations I felt like the wet blanket that ruins the fun for everyone else. Which is why I have no social life.  I mean I’m not saying I haven’t made dumb choices. I have regrets like every other person out there. I just feel like on the not so serious decisions , I just made the safe choice so I wouldn’t have to experience yet another embarrassing moment. You know the non life threating decisions? Like getting the courage to ask someone out, or speaking up in class when I am lost? Situations like these that aren’t really earth shattering. But in all situations I make the safe choice. Thats just how I am programed. I think of nothing but the negative side of things. That isn’t exactly the  best way to view things.  I am working on it.  I mean when something embarrassing happens why can’t I just laugh at it? Its not the end of the world. I turn a shade of red and then it passes. No harm no foul right? Of course some humiliating moments stay with you long after they have passed and you try and try to forget it. But alas, to no avail. You are stuck with that moment in time where you would love to have crawled under the nearest rock and stay there permanently. But again it passes until you are to suffer yet another embarrassing moment. A vicious cycle that is known to repeat until you have trained yourself to be immune to embarrassment. Fat chance of that ever happening to me. -_-

Movies: I saw Where the Wild things are the other day. I thought it was cute. Some parts where a bit odd. But I still thought it was cute. The ending sort of bugs me but there really isn’t anything I can do about the ending of a movie. But if you are into the whole cute family movie  where the child learns an important lesson in a dream? Then you should see this movie. Plus I thought they did a good job on making the wild things look real.  I’m not sure how many stars I would give this movie. I guess four?

I have jury duty on Monday. I cannot miss anymore days of Government after Monday. I need to stop being lazy this is serious stuff man. See the choices I make? Tsk. I am such a lazy student. >_<