Inside Kimmy's Mind

The day lovers spends tons of money on saying I LOVE YOU in some big expensive way. Also known as Singles awareness day. Where the single people in the world feel like shit because they don’t have someone to spend that day with.

I am one of the few people that has never actually hated Valentine’s day whether I was single or in a relationship. Even though I am currently single, I have tons of people to say I love you to. Ok so I don’t have a romantic I love you to send, but why must Valentine’s be only for romance? It is a day to just remind friends and family that you love them.Even when I was in a relationship, I didn’t expect an extravagant display of affection from my boyfriend. A homemade card and spending the day with that person was more than enough. And that will always be enough. Its the cute and cheesy stuff I look forward to. And this is just how I am, because I’m not exactly great at showing affection. Which is odd because my parents showed me a lot of affection, I have the most lovable family in the world. And I have no problem showing them affection but when it comes to guys, saying I love you is something that needs to be earned. I’m a tough nut to crack and I feel sorry for the guy that wants to win my affection because it won’t be easy.  But anyway, why must being single on this day be such a negative thing? So you are single. BIG FUCKING DEAL. This does not mean you will be single for the rest of your life. Singles should enjoy this day just as much as lovers do. So singles out there could spend this day doing either of the following…..

For single Girls

1. Watch your favorite cheesy romance movies. (My favorites include Pretty in Pink, A room with a view, Going the distance, 500 days of summer, TiMER,)
2. Screw watching your weight and PIG OUT. I just ate a ton of chocolate covered strawberries and puppy chow. XD
3. Make a yummy treat. :9 ie chocolate covered strawberries or puppy chow. (basically anything chocolate is great. Or if salty is your thing make some nachos or some type of dip.) Making it is tons of fun.
4. Make belated Valentine’s for friends. If you are anything like me you wait until the last minute to do things. >.< its a curse. But it will give you something to do.
5. Play LEFT 4 DEAD!!!! KILL SOME ZOMBIES! Or any game you prefer.
6. If you prefer to go out, hang out with your other single friends and go to the movies or go out dancing.

For Single guys

1. I really have no idea what a single guy would do on this day. I would say watch your favorite porno, but I’m sure you do that often enough as it is. But we’ll just call that your favorite movie.
2. PLAY VIDEO GAMES. Kick some zombie or Templar ass! You should be happy you are single cause chances are if you don’t have a nerdy girlfriend that enjoys playing video games as much as you do, you would probably be stuck with a high maintenance chick who would be expecting a whole lot of something that your bank account just doesn’t have at the moment.  So be happy.
3. Pig out and burp and scratch your balls. Be a man and watch football. (I don’t know I’m just using a stereotype, cause I have no idea what else to put.)
4. Hang out with your other single friends.

What NOT to do.

• DO NOT HAVE A ONE NIGHT STAND! I REPEAT.
• DO NOT SLEEP WITH SOMEONE YOU MET AT A CLUB JUST BECAUSE YOU FEEL LONELY.
• You will wake up feeling like shit and hoping that, that rubber on the floor was actually used in this ridiculous attempt to make you feel loved. For what lasted… what 4 minutes?…ok 8. Does that make you feel better?

Ok maybe I over stepped some boundaries. But seriously. You shouldn’t feel ashamed for being single. You should be enjoying life and having fun. But in a safe healthy way. Because we all know club guys have all kinds of stds.(sorry if you are a club guy) And we all know that club chicks are all a bunch of coke whores with daddy issues. (There are those boundaries again. Sorry I guess I should say not all club goers are this way, and I apologize.) So spend this Valentine’s having fun with either some single friends or family members so you don’t wake up with some unknown guy/girl in your bed that you have to kick out in the morning. Cause lets face it, we all known whatever lie you think up to tell them is the biggest BULLSHIT.

Song for today is by Neon Trees: Animal

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So have fun. Eat a bunch of sugary goodness and Happy Valentines Day. <3<3<3

So far I’m liking my teachers, and my classes are ok. I’m worried about my drawing class though.

I can’t draw. >.< I’m more of a painter, watercolor to be precise. I feel much more comfortable with a paint brush in my hand rather than a pencil or pen or….charcoal. >.< Charcoal is my weakness. I just suck at it. Every time I would draw something in art, I would immediately want to paint over it or add some color to it. Watercolor is just my forte this is actually similar to my Creative Writing class. Fiction and Non-fiction writing is my forte, but poetry? I like to read poetry, but not write it. So I hope I can go outside my creative comfort zone and create good portfolios this semester. I mean I shouldn’t sit in a box when it comes to my hobbies. Being creative means going outside the box right? So I should try my best.

So I’m already on week 2 of the new semester, and let me tell you having a three hour class on Wednesdays is tough. But its better than having a three hour class on Saturdays. o.O This class is History to Cinema and it only meets on Wednesday nights from 7 to 10…PM. So exhausting. I have a full day of classes on that day, it starts off with Sociology from 12 to 1 then art from 2 to 5 then the class that takes FOREVER to end. Don’t get me wrong it is actually pretty interesting. But I just don’t like being in a class room for 3 hours. My back starts to hurt and then I get hungry and sleepy all at the same time. It can get pretty uncomfortable. But I’m meeting some people this semester. No solid outside of the classroom friendships yet. But some nice classroom buddies that lead to some pretty interesting conversations. I’m not giving up hope yet, because I intend to make at least one friend that I can occasionally make plans with outside of school. What is it that friends do again?…Oh yeah stuff like have lunch, go watch a movie, or wonder around the mall window shopping which is actually pretty depressing. Especially when you see something you want. But I digress.

Exciting News!!!! My best friend had her baby on Tuesday. >.< He is sooooooooooo adorable. Babies sometimes make me uncomfortable. I don’t really like children. Especially when they are at the age where it is nothing but question after question. And I am aware of the fact that, that is how humans grow and learn. But when I am being asked questions that I can’t answer because either A: I have no clue what the answer is or B: it’s inappropriate for their age group and should be answered by their parents. -.- But anyway, my point is I don’t gush over babies. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t hate babies, I am just a bit uncomfortable around them. But since this is my best friend’s child I can’t help but think differently about him, he is just so freaking cute. And I couldn’t be happier for her and her husband. This bundle of joy is named Jaxson Wayne. I can’t wait to meet the sea-monkey, which is what I started calling him when he was the size of a sea-monkey. And I’ll probably keep calling him that, and he will probably find it very annoying. But tough love sea-monkey.

So going back to school. My creative writing class, is a mixture of poetry, nonfiction, and fiction writing. And like I said, I don’t like writing poetry. Unless it is completely free verse. (Drunk neighbors outside my window are really annoying -.-) And like many English classes, you are required to write journal entries. Which normally I have no problem doing. Last semester my teacher was awesome and made you post your entries on a blog every Sunday night. CONVENIENT. However, not every English professor sees the good in doing things that way. So I have to write a journal entry every other day and print it out. Ok I know what you are saying, “Big deal.” But actually it is a big deal especially on Wednesday nights cause I get home extremely late and all I want to do is sleep. And I don’t have a printer, so that means I have to make sure to get to school earlier enough and go to the library to print out my entries. Bleh. But luckily my wonderful mom has just bought me a printer for my room. So now I have the luxury of printing and scanning things…in the convert of my own room. ^.^ This excites me.

Ok I abused my Thursday, and instead of vlogging like I said I would I fell asleep on the couch…..AGAIN. -.- These couches are just so damn comfortable I couldn’t help but fall asleep. And it is very cold in the apartment so I usually snuggle next to one of the cats for warmth. I slept for at least 2 or 3 hours but I don’t even remember falling asleep. >.< This is already a long enough blog entry, I will update again soon. (unlike Kat who waits a whole year before she updates. -.-)

Like I’ve said before in this entry and in this vlog, I have had crooked teeth for a long time. So things like this just make me so happy. I’ll post some pictures of my improved smile as soon as I can get my hands on Mija’s good camera. My camera doesn’t do well with zooming. Anyway, I’ve been in such a good mood today even though my jaw has been hurting. (no gross jokes please, that means you Mija) I’m not sure why it hurts last weekend I was eating some crackers and then all of a sudden the left side of my jaw started hurting. It doesn’t always hurt, only when I try to open wide. -.- (again no gross jokes please) Sometimes eating and brushing the back teeth hurt. But I’m really hoping its just like a neck crick and will just go away with time. -.-

SHOW AND TELL

So last weekend I went back to Houston to visit my grandmother.(An entry about that later) Mija took us to FIT, I love this store so freaking awesome. It sells things from Japan, and for Christmas Mija surprised me with a bento. And then last weekend I bought a notebook and these cute stamps. This store is pretty cheap, items are usually 2 bucks.  The stamps I bought are so freaking adorable, I just had to get them. One is of a sewing machine and the other is a ball of yarn and it says handmade. I couldn’t resist. >.<

So the other day I was reading, Elsie’s blog and this entry really peeked my interest, because of course FREE STUFF.  I really like the bags on this site. Especially the teal bag, too bad that wasn’t the one offered in the giveaway. But anyway, I just really like these bags. I like the colors, the size, its so freaking cute. However, I’m not too crazy about the price. 89$ >.< bleh. So the chance of getting that bag is pretty slim. That is a lot of money to spend on a bag.  But to make matters better, I went to Target today, and you know what I found? A teal bag for 22 bucks. It isn’t the same one on Jo Totes but I like it nonetheless. It has a bunch of pockets and its a great size too. So even though I can’t get the rose teal bag, the one I bought today is pretty awesome. I’m not usually a fancy bag person, but this bag was just adorable. And I was worried that if I didn’t buy it, I would never see it again!!!! lol Ok I know pretty dramatic for a bag. But what can I say?

So I update MS about the fingerless mittens I learned how to make.  As you can see, lately I’ve been obsessed with the color teal and with yarn. So I decided to combine those two things and makes something. I only know how to make the fingerless mittens and scarves, but I plan to learn how to make hats as well. I tried making a 3d heart, but it kept slipping off the needle and pissed me off. >.< So I decided to try again some other time. lol So my break is coming to an end, and that means going back to Houston. I’m not looking forward to waking up at a certain time and doing homework and catching metro. But I am a little excited to go back to school. I plan to make friends this semester… well attempt to anyway. -.-

Eliza Doolittle- Missing

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2011.. A another year has passed and now another year begins.

Lets see… I turned 21, I moved in with Mija and Jody, I have a potential brother-in-law, I started University, I ride the bus to school , I taught myself to knit, I have braces and I almost sort of kinda have my license. (Not really) Oh and my best friend is pregnant with her first child. -.- But other than that not much happened in 2010. I am still me, I still have the same fears (well I used to be afraid of metro, but that has changed..a bit) along with some new ones. For example, hobos. I never really was afraid of them until I had to stand near them. There really isn’t a reason to be afraid of the homeless. I just feel awkward standing next to one while he is sleeping on the bus stop bench. I just feel like they might think I’m bragging  about having a roof over my head and food in my stomach; while also having the luxury of listening to an ipod and texting people on a cell phone. >.< I feel bad for them, but at the same time I feel like if they just tried instead of giving up then they could better their lives. But anyway, they sort of scare me and I try my best not to make eye contact.

Going back to the year that has passed, well its in the past and I guess that is that. Now on to the new year. I hope I can make some new friends this year. I don’t really have any friends at school and I really want that to change. And I am aware that I need to put myself out there and just dive in. But really its not that easy. Not for me anyway, I tried being more outgoing and I wind up with a classmate that just disappears and a stalker that got bored stalking me. (not complaining about that). So if you know the secret to making friends please let me know because I’ve tried and failed. And I would rather succeed.

On to more exciting things…HERE are some exciting art like projects. They each cost 25$ but they seem interesting and fun. But since I don’t have the money to do these I decided to just use this as inspiration to make up my own project. I’ve decided to use the themes from the photo and fiction projects and just be creative with it. By taking a picture to go with a different theme every month or by writing and drawing a story using one of the themes in a journal. And then of course posting it either here or here. Just something to do for fun and to start off the new year on the creative side. Plus this will help me out with the updating my blog more often.

So this months photo theme is From here to there, and for the whole month of January I will take pictures that I think symbolize or deal with this theme. Wish me luck. I’m also thinking of changing my blog layout. I just need to think of how I want it to look. I’m really fond of my current layout but I think its time for a new one.

So Kat and I went on an adventure the other day. Just the two of us. I even woke up early which was weird, regular lazy Kim would’ve just wanted to stay in bed. But again as I said in the last post, the bug man was coming to spray.

Dad said it would take 2 hours but it didn’t seem to take that long. But I still had fun with Kat, a vlog will be up later to show what we did. I just have to convert the video files. :/ My new handycam is amazing. It just has a video codex that premiere hates. -.- But luckily the files work ok in movie maker. So I edit a bit there and then publish them on mm and then drag those files into to premiere to do some final editing. And hopefully the playback quality isn’t compressed or choppy. Anyway, so Kat and I decided to try out the mini metro here. And we went to The Local for lunch, it was great I had a lot of fun. Then we just walked around town for a bit. And then Kat got tired. -.- So we walked to the park and she took an hour nap. She said she felt like a hobo sleeping in the grass like that. XD Silly Kathy. While she slept I just played ds until the battery died anyway. Then after she woke up we took some more pictures and then walked to the orthodontist for Kat’s appointment. And that was the end of the adventure, it was a lot of fun and I’m glad we did it.

Thursday Cate came over and we played Just Dance again. I love hanging out with Cate she is one of the few friends from High School that I still see and talk to. She is moving to Galveston and transferring to UTMB so I won’t get to see her every time I visit home. But we plan to Skype every now and then.

MERRY CHRISTMAS! Another Christmas has gone by and it was wonderful. As usual.:D

I don’t have a job, so no money to buy gifts so I usually make my family gifts. But making something for my parents that they will actually want/use is pretty difficult. I couldn’t think of anything to make them either so I just offered suggestions on what to get them. :/ I only made gifts for Mija, Jody and Kat. For Mija I made her a ds case, for Jody I knitted him a scarf, (I just learned how to knit and word of advice-make sure you count stitches.>.< ) And for Kat I made her a cute apron, but its not quite finished yet. I still have to sew on the pockets and make sure it fits her right. When we were younger Christmas was mainly for us. Our parents didn’t really get presents, so now that we are older we can actually get them presents. I’m glad that Christmas can also be for my parents and not just about us.

Kathy got an Xbox and even dad is playing it. I can’t even play it unless I wake up early enough and that is not going to happen. But watching him play is pretty funny, he gets this  look on his face that means,” I am in the zone, do NOT mess with me. ” Pretty funny.  Well I got a new video camera and I’m about to take it out and go on an adventure. There is this mini metro here in my town that will take us to Lake Jackson. So being without a car and all this is actually pretty useful. We have the bug man coming to spray our house so we don’t get bugs, he comes every year and so today he is coming and we need to be out of the house for 2 hours so we are gonna take the transit and go to the Local or maybe the park depending on how cold it is. It looks rainy outside so I’m thinking the Local. lol We are gonna have lunch and then explore downtown Lake Jackson. XD Which won’t take long. lol I just think it is funny that it is called downtown. And then at 3:45 we will go to Kat’s Ortho. and then dad will pick us up and take Kat to work. And that is the plan for today. Hopefully everything works out.

So I was just browsing through some blogs on bloglovin‘ and this blog just happened to have a really interesting post.

The Girls With Glasses Show

They are so adorable, I love their videos. Plus they wear glasses, I’ve been wearing since the 4th grade. I thought glasses were the coolest things in the world. I would even pretend I wore glasses before I had to. My cousin had some old glasses that she has popped the lenses out and I would wear them all the time. I thought glasses just magically made you smarter. I remember when my dad took me to get my eyes checked for the first time, and on the way I said, “I hope I get glasses.” I was an excited 9 year old. My dad then yelled at me saying that I shouldn’t wish to have poor eye sight. He was the kid with tape between his glasses. Except after he got into high school he stopped wearing glasses.

Every time I had an eye exam (I hate getting my eyes checked) I was always asked about contact lenses, and I would immediately just tell them no thank you. I rather like my glasses, and I would probably poke an eye out trying to get the contact in. >.< I have nervous eyes.  Anyway, I love wearing glasses and since I’ve been wearing them for 12 years already they have molded to my face and I look ridiculous without them. -.- So when I have to pose for my driver’s license and they insist/force me to remove my eyes when taking the picture, that is when my nervous eye habit really kicks in.  It takes like 40 mins for me to take a picture without blinking.  So there are some Kimmy facts you just had to know. -.-;

Back to the reason I’m making this post. I just wanted to share this with you.

The cutest theme song and video if you ask me.

I’ve already had my blog for two and half years and I have only posted 140 times in those two years.

To tell you the truth, I thought it would’ve been more. I feel like I’ve had this blog for more than two years. But I’ve notice I have been neglecting this blog. I didn’t update nearly as much as I did in 2009. I used to update 4 sometimes 5 times a month, now its barely even 2 entries. November was the worse because I had to backtrack that month. >.< I make an effort to never miss a month but this one time I did. Which is why I had to back track and post the drafts I should have posted during that month. So I am making a promise to update more in 2011. No backtracking and at least post 4 times a month. I can do that.

I’m not exactly sure why I have a blog. Well I guess it is because I love to write down what I am thinking. I’ve kept journals. There is just something about a journal that just gives me this feeling, I can’t really describe it. I just like the feeling of recording my life. Before my blog, I would write in my journal every day, sadly I don’t really keep a written journal anymore. I will write in one every now and then when I have that feeling of writing and keeping it to myself. Most of the time it is more poems rather than an entry on the happenings of my day. I still love the feeling of pen and paper and also completing a journal is the best feeling. Because then you can flip through the pages and its like you get to open the filing cabinet that holds all of your memories. Because lets face it we can’t always remember the tiny details. Plus I like to think that when I am older and have kids of my own I can show them a me they won’t get to meet. That is especially true with my vlogs. I started making vlogs in 2007, I don’t make them often and I had to delete a few due to copyright laws and others because I wanted to forget about them. (I should update youtube now and then with plain vlogs) Anyway, now I use vimeo to post my vlogs because they are just so much nicer plus I try not to use music in my vlogs anymore just in case they get mad. :/ **RANT- I don’t understand why we can’t use any type of music, that is how you spread the word of a band. You hear it somewhere and then you look them up. BAM! That band/musician just got more fans. Its just like a commercial using their song…I know its all about money. I get it.  ** Rant over.

Anyway, so I hope vimeo is on the internet for a long while, because then I am passing something down to show my future family. I always got excited when I found pictures of my mom when she was a kid. Even more excited when I found pictures of her in high school. But my mom grew up in the 70?s and 80?s so she doesn’t have a ton of pictures. That’s why we are lucky to have all of this technology to record our lives. I don’t vlog or blog so I can get followers. Yes it would be nice to form friendships with people all over the world that share the same hobbies as me. But I don’t do this expecting to get followers or subscribers. I do this for myself and because I enjoy it. I hear a lot of people mocking those of us that keep blogs/vlogs. They describe us as vain, and that no one cares what we have to say. But newsflash, no blogger is saying that the world should care what we write. Bloggers are just regular people who want to share something with the world. Its a way to express yourself, just like painting or playing an instrument. And I admire anyone who is willing to do that.  Because you are never truly yourself with someone, but by yourself you are more likely to be yourself. Because not all of us can just walk up to a complete stranger and immediately start up a friendship. We can’t all be brave like that.

Anyway the deep inner feelings part of the entry is over. Now to conclude this entry, I want to say I am really liking this bloglovin site. I have found a lot of interesting blogs.

Again I am making a promise to myself that I will update this blog more. I can’t always vlog so the least I can do is keep up with my blog.

I said I would vlog more. -.- But being lazy is just so much more fun.

My sleep schedule is naturally screwed up because I went to sleep really late the other day. >.< I was finishing my English final, I finished it around 6 Monday Morning. But now I can relax at home for 3 whole weeks. ^^ It is a bit weird being home after waking up in a different place for 3 months. I love being home, but I also really love my home away from home. It is really comfortable there, and plus I really enjoy having my own bathroom and having the laundry room right outside my bedroom. lol

In depressing news, Mai from Kra (my favorite jrock band) might be leaving the band. T-T I cannot believe it, I’m not sure what the reason is or if it is a sure thing. It might be for health reasons or something else. I do hope he isn’t sick, but I’m just really sad that he is leaving. I first was introduced to this band when I was a freshman in high school. And after watching the pv to Kuu I just fell in love. This was when they were barely starting as a band, they’ve grown so much since that pv.  I grew to love all of the members. It wouldn’t be Kra without either of them. And it wouldn’t be the same if they replaced Mai.  >.< This makes me so sad! I just want them to continue making music together.

Lighten the mood with a less depressing topic- So I am trying to find a tutorial or a patter to make a lace slip dress for our New Years party. But so far no luck, too bad we didn’t go to Buffalo Exchange, I’m sure I could have found a starting point and then just reconstructed or added something to it. I haven’t given up yet, once I figure out what it is I’m making I can buy some fabric. Speaking of fabric I really hope Walmart brings back their fabric section. I was so disappointed when they took it away. But thank goodness there is Hobby Lobby. And there are fabric stores in my town but the fabric there is really expensive. :/ But I like how fabric stores look. Small crafts or antique shops are always so cute, I love knowing that shops like that are near my home. Now if only we had a cute bakery or desert shop, that would be just perfect. And that could be next to a small book store. Like halfprice books for instance or something similar.

Anyway I was reading this blog and in one of her entries she mentions this. I totally want it. I’ve always found polaroid cameras wonderful, I just love the vintage feel it gives pictures. It is expensive, but what camera isn’t? One day maybe. sigh.  I also noticed this blog had this on its sidebar, and if you read a lot of blogs or own a blog then you should get an account. It is a great site that keeps you updated, plus it might help give you traffic on your blog. If you look on my sidebar I already put an icon that will lead you to my blog on bloglovin.

I totally want this. >.<

I haven’t had a song of the day in any of my recent posts. So today’s song is by Eliza Doolittle, I just happened to find  her on Youtube and liked her voice and her music is adorable.

Well I’m gonna lay down and probably fall asleep -.- I hope I can fix my sleep schedule after today. I know I won’t be up during the day. *sigh*

I want my baby sister back. YOU CAN’T HAVE HER JC PENNY’S.

A couple weeks ago Kat started working at JC Penny’s. This is her first job so she is really excited about getting a paycheck. I was happy for her, but that was before I realized I would barely get to see her. She didn’t even have Thanksgiving dinner with us. -.- And now that I’m done with school I want her to come and spend a week with me and Kris at our new place. (Which I love by the way) I keep meaning to make a vlog, but the cold just makes me want to crawl into bed. But now that I am on winter break I will make an effort to vlog more. I know same old tune, I say this every time I “plan” to vlog. But I mean it, I will vlog more. :/ Anyway getting back to Kat, so she no longer has free time and it just makes me sad. I don’t ever get to see her, and when I come home for the weekend she is never home because she is working. Another thing, it makes me wish I had a job but no one will hire me. Having no work experience really kills any chance at getting a job. So I envy Kat for working and also going to school. She is the only Vera girl to have a job while being in high school.  So I am proud of her, even though I really miss her. And I still really really want her to come and stay with us for a week before she goes back to school. But since she is working , I doubt that will happen. I just want her to enjoy my home away from home as much as I do. I also want her to ride the bus with me, maybe show her UH and then take her to B&N by our old place. That’s the best thing about Houston I can get around without a car. 🙂 I still want a car though, metro certainly won’t take the need for a car away. But anyway, I just wish I had my little schedule free sister back. But I know she likes her job so I shouldn’t complain. (even though I doubt she will read this, since she just ignores our blogs, INCLUDING HER OWN!!!!!!!!)  And as long as she is doing well in school and she is having fun then that is all that matters.

I hope I get to see more of her during the winter break.:P