Inside Kimmy's Mind

Moments like this call for a smile. I can’t help it, no self discipline.

I came across something that I just  had to mention. There are these instructional videos that my school offers to students for studying purposes. Different math teachers take turns in being in them. But while I was watching one on Quadratic expressions, I noticed something…. a spelling error! *GASP* I was taken aback. lol No not really I was just amused. Anyway, I would write down what I heard from the video but when I went back to actually watch what the teacher was writing, thats when I noticed that she had used the wrong principle. She had written principal instead. lol I love when math teachers mess up. Heck I love when any teacher messes up. lol I mean its not life threatening so I can laugh about it. Right?

As you can see, I have written the correct one in my notes. I am so smart. I know this isn’t worth a blog entry. But I’m avoiding another boring book. T_T

Ever since my sisters and I were young, we have loved matching. We basically try to match as much as possible. Of course we didn’t get this way on our own. I think it started with our mom. She used to dress us in matching outfits when we were kids. Then it somehow was programed into Mija’s mind that matching was necessary. Now that we are older it hasn’t changed a bit. I think its gotten stronger.

We like to match each other. Because we like most of the same things so its not hard to match. One of the most recent items we are currently matching is bentos. Mija just got hers in the mail Monday and we just had to take pictures of them all together. We now each have an actual bento and silverware to go with it. YAY! I know you are probably thinking wow you three are weird. Although that part is true, I think we are awesome. >_< When we match stuff we usually match by our favorite colors. Mija is blue, Kat is red, and I am green. We intend to match according to colors and personality. I don’t see matching as a bad thing. I like that we like similar things. It makes us brings us closer as sisters. Well anyway Kat made our lunches for today, I usually just eat whatever we have. But today I actually had something waiting for me. I felt so special today. … continue reading this entry.

This car was parked near my school. I thought it was cool, so I took a picture of it on my way home yesterday. I’m not too sure why it was parked there. It was still there today. And I still don’t know why. lol Anyway, I am really sleepy. I know know you are probably thinking, “You are always sleepy.” This is true, however I’m also always hungry as well. My stomach kept growling today in English. But I was too tired to care if my monster of a stomach interrupted class. I am hungry still my tummy keeps yelling at me.

(FOOD BREAK) Mommy made banana pudding its so yummy. ^_^

Ok now that my stomach is somewhat full (it never really ever is) I can now have coherent thoughts. Math today was interesting and not because of math. I can’t wait to hang out with Missy tomorrow! She is going to pick me up from class tomorrow and we are going out to lunch. I can’t wait. I miss hanging out with her. That is probably the only thing I miss about high school. Friends. I miss seeing friends in between classes and just talking. Ok well I am debating whether or not I should bring my laptop to history later today. I have a case but now I sort of want just a sleeve for it so I can put it in my purse. But I think my bag will be too heavy so I’m going to have to carry it its case anyway. I really wish I had a car. Anyway I find taking my laptop to class interesting. I took it to my SciFi class on Monday but I didn’t really use it in that class. I might use it more in History but I can’t use the power point for some reason. I have power point on my new laptop. So I don’t know whats the deal. But it might be annoying for me to carry my laptop while I walk to my first class. I could always just not pack my plug to make the case less heavy. I mean my lappy is smaller than my last computer but its still pretty heavy. I’m not sure what to do. I’m so bad when it comes to deciding between things. Well I will see how I feel when I get up tomorrow.

I better go to sleep now. I have a headache. Bye

A brand new Toshiba laptop!

Part one: My old TOSHIBA laptop finally kicked the bucket. I’m not exactly sure why it died, I guess it was age. Its going on 4 years already. And computers don’t last very long. A sad truth. I am excited and happy and any number of words with the same meaning. I am so excited that I can’t describe how excited I am. My mom bought me a new TOSHIBA laptop! And its an inch smaller than my first laptop. So if I am daring enough I can take it to school and use it there. It comes with a webcam. Besides that I like the switch between windows option. I find this option amazing. I know I am weird. I can’t wait to get the new photoshop so I can make myself a new wallpaper. Not that there is anything wrong with the wallpaper I currently have. Its just I want to make one. I got this one from this site. But its just until I can make my own. Plus with the web cam I can make videos in a different way which I will experiment with later. lol. I am just so happy with it. … continue reading this entry.

So Thursday, Mija took Kat and I to a Japaneses restaurant called Blue Fish, if I’m not mistaken. I have eaten sushi and chicken teriyaki before but not like this. It was delicious. I don’t usually like eating food that is uncooked like in sushi. But this avocado crap roll was ok. If you have eaten sushi before and you are not used to it, you know that its texture is…interesting. I’m not quite used to it. But I ate two and it was good. Kat only ate one she did not like it. lol. She made a face after putting it into her mouth and everything. You could tell she wasn’t too happy that she had to swallow it as well. But she did and I am proud that she didn’t spit it into her napkin.  Its strange because Mija hates seafood. She hates a lot of things. And I would never have thought she would be the one introducing us to different foods to broaden our food pallet. lol. But yeah she did. I also ate chicken teriyaki. It was so good. I pretty much love chicken any way you can prepare it. Kat had the pork teriyaki and Mija had beef. I wasn’t too keen on the pork  but the beef was good. It seemed like such a small portion but it filled us up. I hadn’t eaten any lunch only a few muffins so I was extremely hungry. But after chicken and sushi I was satisfied and didn’t anything after that.

I am behind a day in my chapters for Dooms Day Book but I don’t care. I will read as much as I can, and just bullshit it if I have to on Monday. Its really boring to me.  -_-

Part One: I hate that once I find something that is extremely cute in a store. I am bombarded by the fear that it will not be there when I return to that store. Sigh. I mean it takes me a long time to decided to buy something. I never have money. Therefore, when I do have money I like to make sure that I use whatever it is that I buy. Or if its a book I will read it. The other day I went to the Galleria with my sisters and we went into the Sanrio store aka Hello Kitty store. Now I wasn’t planning on buying anything from this store, because they are ridiculously over priced. -_- Kat had already decided on purchasing a bento draw string bag and a bento spoon and chopstick set. Freakin cute man. Now I didn’t see anything that I desperately wanted so after Kat bought her items we continued on to the next store. Gadzooks. Now I’m not normally a clothing shopper. I attempted to try on clothes with the idea that I would buy it if I liked it. I just didn’t want anything from that store either. So I was planning on returning to the Sanrio store and purchasing a bento box and fork and spoon set with a bento drawstring bag. (different from Kats of course) Sigh Why am I such an indecisive person? Anyway, I believe I made the comment that went like this, “What do I need a bento for? I don’t have a lunch time.” My sister than replied to me saying, “During the summer you don’t plan on working? You might not have enough time to walk home for lunch.”

DING DING DING DING! – This is true. I plan on having a job. And I might have to pack a lunch.

So at this point I kept pacing back and forth, walking up and down stairs not being able to make up mind. We were heading in the direction to the Disney store (our second favorite store) thinking we might find something there and if not I would return to buy the bento/accessories that went with it. Tsk. I know what a waste of time. Of course the Disney store was moved to another side of the mall and we weren’t exactly sure where. So we headed in the direction we assumed was the right one. During this time I kept going over whether or not I should buy the bento box or not. (Yes I over analyze everything) My sisters said we could always go back because I feared the only bento box of the character that I wanted would not be there upon returning. So I decided on the Sanrio store and I purchased the first things I thought of buying. tsk I know I am crazy. Forgive me. Its a curse. But I finally made up my mind don’t I get points for that? Now I know you might find this sort of thing very childish but I could not help it. It was so fucking cute. I am defenseless with stuff like this. So yeah.

Part Two: I have to finish the Dooms Day Book by Monday. It has 36 chapters. So if I read six chapters a day I will have it finish. I started Tuesday I am on chapter 13 as of now. Now you would think six chapters a day that’s no problem. But let me tell you, it is if you are not interested in the book at all. Now I have tried getting into it, but I just can’t. It just hasn’t hooked me like the books I’d rather be reading at the moment. While I was reading my chapters I had someone who kept distracting me. I cannot ignore the cuteness that is my sister’s cat Tomo. I swear.The story seems like it would be a good one, but for some odd reason I just dislike the way Connie Willis writes. No offense to Connie Willis. I just hope I can finish it in time. I am only on chapter 13 and I’m not sure I can continue. Is spark notes an option? >_<

I have a problem.

And I guess the first step is admitting it. So here I am… admitting it. >_<

I am an online shopaholic. -_-

Now a normal shopaholic buys anything. I on the other hand buy things I need (want). I mostly buy books. I mean it could be a bigger problem? I could be buying useless things. The only problem with me being a book shopaholic is…that my to read list never gets smaller. It is a never ending list. Which isn’t really a bad thing, except for when I get a new book I immediately want to read it. Meaning I ignore whatever book I am already reading. I am currently reading Five books. Four by choice. The fifth one is for my SciFi class and I don’t like it. Dooms Day Book. I just can’t get into and its due in a couple of weeks. Sigh. How am I suppose to read a 578 page book, if I can’t even get past the front cover? (ok that’s a little over the top) But its sort of true. Besides that book, I need to read the short stories for that class as well. Sigh. I want to read what I want to read, not because I have to for a class. Bleh!

Its an interesting addiction no? Being addicted to buying books? lol I just got a book in the mail and I am already ready to buy another one. But I haven’t. So I do have some self control. Now only if I can keep up this control for awhile. I can’t even eat chocolate! T_T I gave it up for lent unintentionally. How? Well dad caught me off guard . Meaning I was half awake? Half asleep? And he conveniently asked me when he was driving me to class. I just said what came to mind- Chocolate? Sigh. Its my fault. Now I can’t eat anything with chocolate until Easter. Woe is me.

Oh if you have a web cam immediately go (here) and make an account and follow me Kimmyduh. You know you want to. I find sites, similar to this one very entertaining. It sort of reminds me of Twitterin away. But only a bit.Well I better sleep. Or I will sleep away tomorrow yet again. So sad.

“Whenever you’re in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude.” William James

I had just my history class today. I didn’t really pay attention though. I was thinking about tons of different things. It was weird, I dreaded going to class today because of…him. But when I got into class, my mind just started thinking about other things. Mainly about things I want to do. And things I need/have to do. I already took care of my history quizzes for the week. But during history I took notes as usual, but when she started talking about things off the notes I started doodling like I normally do, yet it was different. I usually just doodle a star in the corner trying to get it exactly even on all five points. (They are never perfect.) But this time I went a little over board. I mean I took notes…I just sort of ignored all the other talking. Now I doodle names and what not, I was deeply inspired by Neil Gaiman. And as you can see. (Notice that his name is written extremely huge.) So yeah that was history class.

I planned on making a skirt today and painting something as well but I got distracted by the movie Nick and Norah’s infinite playlist. Oh and my mom bought the movie REPO! The Genetic Opera. I need to do so many things. I need to write the first page for my six page essay for tomorrow, I need to read my book. And I want to read about a million other books too. Oh and the other night I watched The United States of Tara. It is a really good show. I immediately loved it after the first few minutes of the first episode. I found a new show to take the spot of True Blood. Until the second season starts of course. YAY! I am sleepy. I wish I had more hours in the day to do things. I still need to straighten my hair right now and do the dishes. I’m hungry too. And my feet hurt. lol Bitch Bitch Bitch. Right? I need to stop wasting time and do the things I have to do. I should write a To do list. Here it is. Stuff I need to do followed by stuff I want to do.

1. Write the biography page on Charlaine Harris
2. Straighten my hair.
3. dishes.
4. read Birds of America
5. read Neverwhere
6. read three stories from my Oxford book
7. do the last two times of Quiz 18 even though I made a 90 on it .

1. read Sunshine
2. read Definitely Dead
3. read All together dead
4. paint lots of pictures thanks to Neil Gaiman and Dave Mckean
5. make a video
6. make I don’t know how many skirts

I know it may not seem like a lot of things, but it feels like it. Could you imagine if I had a job? Wow that would suck. I mean I have a lot of things to think about which I guess is good because it takes my mind of things that really suck. Tomorrow is the 22nd of the month. A day that I would normally forget but then remember. It is now a day in the month that I couldn’t forget. It “was” my anniversary. lol I know pathetic to bring it up. It would have been 16 months tomorrow. Gosh how annoying. It is now just a day in every month. Except for December 22nd, which is in fact my cats birthday. But other than that just day. Sigh well there was the lame part of the blog. An entry that began with random notions which lead to my bitching, followed by a little bit of feeling sorry for myself. Sigh Yeah happy reading.

“When you hold resentment toward another, you are bound to that person or condition by an emotional link that is stronger than steel. Forgiveness is the only way to dissolve that link and get free.” – Catherine Ponder

(This quote really describes how I felt today. But it sucks because I have no control over it. I can’t get rid of this feeling. Sigh Fuck ass.) ~_~

Today was weird.

I was able to concentrate in History class today. Even though he is in there. That means it is getting easier for me. I was offered a ride home by different people.

My ex’s dad. Yeah like I am gonna want to drive home with my ex boyfriend who avoids me like the plague. I started walking home by this time because my sweet mom was taking forever. But I do live close so its ok. My second cousin? Ethan offered. It was creepy because a car drove on the side of the road, but then I saw that it was him. He is so nice. I said no because I was almost home anyway.lol I wish I had a car. >_<

I don’t get hit on a lot, but now that it is ok to look at other guys I still feel like I’m not supposed to. I forget that I am now single and its ok to look. It will take me awhile but I think I will get the hang of flirting and dating again. lol Aren’t they cute? They have sour candy in them. I totally want one. But I went to Hastings to buy books for school. I could only find two that I needed. Four more to go, I think I can find them at the school store and hopefully at a cheaper price. My days are getting normal again, I’m not exactly my normal happy self but hey I’m a negative person to begin with. I must think positive. You know I still find the oddest things remind me of him. It sucks. Because I can’t forget them. Yeah I know better to love and lost than to have never love at all. Is that how the saying goes? I heard another saying somewhere, how does it go? “Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.” Yeah. I mean if I remember all the sweet times we had together, he does too right? I mean he was never great at speaking his mind and expressing himself. But he could always say I love you. And I thats something I don’t want to forget. No matter how sad and hard it is.

The me that is doing good is always around. Compare to the me that is reminiscing.

I am deleting my myspace by the end of the week, I think it will solve a lot of my problems.

So…school. There are about a million things wrong with it. My ex is in my history class. Now I knew I might run into him in the hallways. But, its a nice size campus so I thought it would be big enough for the both of us. But a classroom? Not so much. I could have sworn I told him when I had classes, so if he got the same class as me on purpose that pretty much sucks. He saw me before I saw him, and he avoided me. Which nah duh that is understandable. But that somehow made it hurt much more. How am I supposed to get over him if I see him during that class. Now granted, I don’t have to look at him or speak to him or have anything to do with him. But he is there. He broke up with me before we did class schedules together. Yet here we are in the same history class every Monday and Wednesday at 2:15. To me it feels like he is purposefully doing this so it is impossible for me to move on. Now I don’t know why I am thinking of it that way. Because he wasn’t this kind of person while we were dating. He was nice and a good boyfriend. Maybe subconsciously I think making him out to be the villain will make things easier for me. But I guess that isn’t really my subconscious. I know he is hurting too even though it was him who wanted to date other people. But I am standing my ground and not changing my schedule. My science fiction/fantasy class seems like it will be fun. The teacher is really cool and I love writing and reading so it should be ok. But there are a lot of books I have to read and in a short amount of time but I believe I can do it. Tomorrow I have English at 12:30 and then math at 5. I’m not exactly looking forward to that but hey I have no choice. I promise I will try to update with a less boring entry next time.

School should take my mind off things not keep it on them sigh.