Inside Kimmy's Mind

Spring break is over. >.< I really don’t want it to end!!!!

So we went home this weekend to drop off the brat…I mean my loving sister Kat. So when we arrived Saturday afternoon, we saw the presents mom had bought us. She bought each of us a suitcase and overnight bag. So freaking adorable, I can’t get over how cute it is. So we went back to JcPenny and she bought herself one as well to match us. Hers has a pink floral print on it and both Kat and I have dots in our favorite colors while Mija’s is blue with wavy lines. I always thought Mija was the matching freak, but she had to get it from someone. Which is totally not a bad thing, I like when things match as well. And when you have two sisters that enjoy most of the same things as you do; buying things in 3?s becomes habit. But of course they have to be different in some way, like color or pattern. lol

I’ve never actually owned luggage before now, and I’ve been wanting an overnight bag for the longest time. I love the shape of it and its similar to the Paperchase ones I’m so in love with. So I’ve been enjoying my time at home, so much so that I wish this up coming week was my spring break so I could stay home for a week. >.<

Already back in Houston and I miss my parents and Kat. Having Kat here for a week was really fun, it ended up feeling normal.. plus she would cook things for us and that is always great. I’m glad I get to come again this weekend. Of course that means going through a week of classes first. -.- Sigh suck it up I know.

It is Thursday morning. And my spring break is almost over.  I hate the feeling when something you like comes to an end.

I know I should make the most of things and enjoy it while it lasts but it is sort of hard to enjoy something when I know it is almost over. Its the same feeling I get when I’m on the last page of a really good book. I try to read really slowly just so I can have another day with it. I knew this week would go by in the blink of an eye, so this isn’t a surprise. Kat is here with us this week. We went to the Galleria on Saturday and Kat bought some outfits. She also bought me this great journal which I’m sure I’ve mentioned in a previous post. Its from the paperchase brand that I love so much. And the funny thing about it is that Mija noticed a flaw on the bottom right typewriter. A graphic screw up and now it bothers her. It makes me laugh, because I’m curious to know how this screw up occurred. They basically cut and copied a bit of the space bar and scooted it up to replace a missing key or something. But why the space bar? They could have just cut around another key and then used black as a shadow to cover around it or something. She also bought herself a small notebook from the same brand. Its so cute and it really suits her.  On Tuesday I took her on a small tour of my campus and then we had lunch with Mija and Jody at NRP. She really wanted to have the metro experience. We went on 4 buses that day which is the normal total of buses I take on a normal school day. She said it was fun, and it is fun when you have someone to ride it with you. But if you are going by yourself then its not so much as fun as …annoying. Especially when your bus decides to be late that day. But anyway, so after lunch Jody drove us to Berripop and Kat bought us some frozen yogurt. I am so addicted to this stuff and now so is Kat. Its been awhile since I’ve had a chance to enjoy some so that was a nice treat. Kat got watermelon with granola and kiwi and I chose strawberry yogurt with strawberries and cheesecake bits. :9 So yummy I’m craving it again.

So far the rest of the week we haven’t done anything besides sleep late and in. I have a 5 page essay I should be writing right now but I just want to lay down and be lazy. I wanted to go to F.I.T but I don’t think we will have time to go this week. -.- sucks. Also Saturday morning my dad is in a jeep show, he gets to show off Midnight to the community. I don’t remember the make I just know it is an older jeep that he bought and fixed up. Its his pride and joy, he has put a lot of time and money into fixing it up.  Ok so now I should start doing my homework or I’m gonna end up doing it last minute and its due on Tuesday.

So far I’m liking my teachers, and my classes are ok. I’m worried about my drawing class though.

I can’t draw. >.< I’m more of a painter, watercolor to be precise. I feel much more comfortable with a paint brush in my hand rather than a pencil or pen or….charcoal. >.< Charcoal is my weakness. I just suck at it. Every time I would draw something in art, I would immediately want to paint over it or add some color to it. Watercolor is just my forte this is actually similar to my Creative Writing class. Fiction and Non-fiction writing is my forte, but poetry? I like to read poetry, but not write it. So I hope I can go outside my creative comfort zone and create good portfolios this semester. I mean I shouldn’t sit in a box when it comes to my hobbies. Being creative means going outside the box right? So I should try my best.

So I’m already on week 2 of the new semester, and let me tell you having a three hour class on Wednesdays is tough. But its better than having a three hour class on Saturdays. o.O This class is History to Cinema and it only meets on Wednesday nights from 7 to 10…PM. So exhausting. I have a full day of classes on that day, it starts off with Sociology from 12 to 1 then art from 2 to 5 then the class that takes FOREVER to end. Don’t get me wrong it is actually pretty interesting. But I just don’t like being in a class room for 3 hours. My back starts to hurt and then I get hungry and sleepy all at the same time. It can get pretty uncomfortable. But I’m meeting some people this semester. No solid outside of the classroom friendships yet. But some nice classroom buddies that lead to some pretty interesting conversations. I’m not giving up hope yet, because I intend to make at least one friend that I can occasionally make plans with outside of school. What is it that friends do again?…Oh yeah stuff like have lunch, go watch a movie, or wonder around the mall window shopping which is actually pretty depressing. Especially when you see something you want. But I digress.

Exciting News!!!! My best friend had her baby on Tuesday. >.< He is sooooooooooo adorable. Babies sometimes make me uncomfortable. I don’t really like children. Especially when they are at the age where it is nothing but question after question. And I am aware of the fact that, that is how humans grow and learn. But when I am being asked questions that I can’t answer because either A: I have no clue what the answer is or B: it’s inappropriate for their age group and should be answered by their parents. -.- But anyway, my point is I don’t gush over babies. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t hate babies, I am just a bit uncomfortable around them. But since this is my best friend’s child I can’t help but think differently about him, he is just so freaking cute. And I couldn’t be happier for her and her husband. This bundle of joy is named Jaxson Wayne. I can’t wait to meet the sea-monkey, which is what I started calling him when he was the size of a sea-monkey. And I’ll probably keep calling him that, and he will probably find it very annoying. But tough love sea-monkey.

So going back to school. My creative writing class, is a mixture of poetry, nonfiction, and fiction writing. And like I said, I don’t like writing poetry. Unless it is completely free verse. (Drunk neighbors outside my window are really annoying -.-) And like many English classes, you are required to write journal entries. Which normally I have no problem doing. Last semester my teacher was awesome and made you post your entries on a blog every Sunday night. CONVENIENT. However, not every English professor sees the good in doing things that way. So I have to write a journal entry every other day and print it out. Ok I know what you are saying, “Big deal.” But actually it is a big deal especially on Wednesday nights cause I get home extremely late and all I want to do is sleep. And I don’t have a printer, so that means I have to make sure to get to school earlier enough and go to the library to print out my entries. Bleh. But luckily my wonderful mom has just bought me a printer for my room. So now I have the luxury of printing and scanning things…in the convert of my own room. ^.^ This excites me.

Ok I abused my Thursday, and instead of vlogging like I said I would I fell asleep on the couch…..AGAIN. -.- These couches are just so damn comfortable I couldn’t help but fall asleep. And it is very cold in the apartment so I usually snuggle next to one of the cats for warmth. I slept for at least 2 or 3 hours but I don’t even remember falling asleep. >.< This is already a long enough blog entry, I will update again soon. (unlike Kat who waits a whole year before she updates. -.-)

2011.. A another year has passed and now another year begins.

Lets see… I turned 21, I moved in with Mija and Jody, I have a potential brother-in-law, I started University, I ride the bus to school , I taught myself to knit, I have braces and I almost sort of kinda have my license. (Not really) Oh and my best friend is pregnant with her first child. -.- But other than that not much happened in 2010. I am still me, I still have the same fears (well I used to be afraid of metro, but that has changed..a bit) along with some new ones. For example, hobos. I never really was afraid of them until I had to stand near them. There really isn’t a reason to be afraid of the homeless. I just feel awkward standing next to one while he is sleeping on the bus stop bench. I just feel like they might think I’m bragging  about having a roof over my head and food in my stomach; while also having the luxury of listening to an ipod and texting people on a cell phone. >.< I feel bad for them, but at the same time I feel like if they just tried instead of giving up then they could better their lives. But anyway, they sort of scare me and I try my best not to make eye contact.

Going back to the year that has passed, well its in the past and I guess that is that. Now on to the new year. I hope I can make some new friends this year. I don’t really have any friends at school and I really want that to change. And I am aware that I need to put myself out there and just dive in. But really its not that easy. Not for me anyway, I tried being more outgoing and I wind up with a classmate that just disappears and a stalker that got bored stalking me. (not complaining about that). So if you know the secret to making friends please let me know because I’ve tried and failed. And I would rather succeed.

On to more exciting things…HERE are some exciting art like projects. They each cost 25$ but they seem interesting and fun. But since I don’t have the money to do these I decided to just use this as inspiration to make up my own project. I’ve decided to use the themes from the photo and fiction projects and just be creative with it. By taking a picture to go with a different theme every month or by writing and drawing a story using one of the themes in a journal. And then of course posting it either here or here. Just something to do for fun and to start off the new year on the creative side. Plus this will help me out with the updating my blog more often.

So this months photo theme is From here to there, and for the whole month of January I will take pictures that I think symbolize or deal with this theme. Wish me luck. I’m also thinking of changing my blog layout. I just need to think of how I want it to look. I’m really fond of my current layout but I think its time for a new one.

So Kat and I went on an adventure the other day. Just the two of us. I even woke up early which was weird, regular lazy Kim would’ve just wanted to stay in bed. But again as I said in the last post, the bug man was coming to spray.

Dad said it would take 2 hours but it didn’t seem to take that long. But I still had fun with Kat, a vlog will be up later to show what we did. I just have to convert the video files. :/ My new handycam is amazing. It just has a video codex that premiere hates. -.- But luckily the files work ok in movie maker. So I edit a bit there and then publish them on mm and then drag those files into to premiere to do some final editing. And hopefully the playback quality isn’t compressed or choppy. Anyway, so Kat and I decided to try out the mini metro here. And we went to The Local for lunch, it was great I had a lot of fun. Then we just walked around town for a bit. And then Kat got tired. -.- So we walked to the park and she took an hour nap. She said she felt like a hobo sleeping in the grass like that. XD Silly Kathy. While she slept I just played ds until the battery died anyway. Then after she woke up we took some more pictures and then walked to the orthodontist for Kat’s appointment. And that was the end of the adventure, it was a lot of fun and I’m glad we did it.

Thursday Cate came over and we played Just Dance again. I love hanging out with Cate she is one of the few friends from High School that I still see and talk to. She is moving to Galveston and transferring to UTMB so I won’t get to see her every time I visit home. But we plan to Skype every now and then.

I want my baby sister back. YOU CAN’T HAVE HER JC PENNY’S.

A couple weeks ago Kat started working at JC Penny’s. This is her first job so she is really excited about getting a paycheck. I was happy for her, but that was before I realized I would barely get to see her. She didn’t even have Thanksgiving dinner with us. -.- And now that I’m done with school I want her to come and spend a week with me and Kris at our new place. (Which I love by the way) I keep meaning to make a vlog, but the cold just makes me want to crawl into bed. But now that I am on winter break I will make an effort to vlog more. I know same old tune, I say this every time I “plan” to vlog. But I mean it, I will vlog more. :/ Anyway getting back to Kat, so she no longer has free time and it just makes me sad. I don’t ever get to see her, and when I come home for the weekend she is never home because she is working. Another thing, it makes me wish I had a job but no one will hire me. Having no work experience really kills any chance at getting a job. So I envy Kat for working and also going to school. She is the only Vera girl to have a job while being in high school.  So I am proud of her, even though I really miss her. And I still really really want her to come and stay with us for a week before she goes back to school. But since she is working , I doubt that will happen. I just want her to enjoy my home away from home as much as I do. I also want her to ride the bus with me, maybe show her UH and then take her to B&N by our old place. That’s the best thing about Houston I can get around without a car. 🙂 I still want a car though, metro certainly won’t take the need for a car away. But anyway, I just wish I had my little schedule free sister back. But I know she likes her job so I shouldn’t complain. (even though I doubt she will read this, since she just ignores our blogs, INCLUDING HER OWN!!!!!!!!)  And as long as she is doing well in school and she is having fun then that is all that matters.

I hope I get to see more of her during the winter break.:P

So I moved into a townhouse yesterday. The place is great it just sucks that there is nothing within walking distance. I’m thinking I should get a bike. Any of these things would make a great Christmas present.   Either a video camera like this or this or…… a cute bike.

The area I used to live at had a Barnes & Noble, Gamestop, Starbucks, Randall’s, Chick-fi-A, and….Smoothie King all within walking distance. So I will miss being near those stores. Especially Smoothie King and B&N. But having my own bathroom and a washer and dryer make up for it. I’m loving the new place I just hate the moving process. (i.e. packing and unpacking)

So I’m sitting in my new room, and I am extremely happy. I have a huge walk in closet and my own bathroom and the washer and dryer is right outside my door. I LOVE IT!!! I still have a few boxes to get and there is still the kitchen table and living room stuff that we need to get. But it should be done in no time. I just wish I could have it all magically done with the snap of my fingers or by blinking my eyes. -.- I’m so lazy. I’m so amazed that Jody managed to get our mattresses here. He drives an HHR so there really is no place to put a full size and Queen size mattress. He just tied one on top and put one inside and ta da.

I really really LOVE the new place. We have all this extra space and its just so comfortable. I love having my own bathroom too. I plan to make a vlog of the place as soon as we get everything moved in and in its place. So today is Thanksgiving but we aren’t having dinner until Friday. Jody’s family is joining us this year so we are going to LJ tomorrow for dinner. So that is going to be an adventure.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING! And I’ll update again soon.

So for Halloween weekend we went to Oni-Con. And we got to see and interview the J-rock band GAKIDO. The concert was awesome, I was in front and got hit a lot by the bass player Rito. GAKIDO was really nice and funny during the interview. Even their manager was nice, he gave us water. :3 Shutaro is my favorite member and he was so freaking hilarious. The entire band was really energetic on stage the live was exciting and the band kept the fans pumped up I had a lot of fun. And for Halloween we just spent the night at home and watched The Walking Dead. Its a good show, of course I hate Rick’s wife. How can she just start sleeping with her husbands best friend? I mean you are in the middle of an apocalypse shouldn’t she just be concentrating on surviving? And oh yeah mourning your supposedly dead husband?! I know its to add dramatic effect, I just really hope someone tells him that his wife slept with his best friend. Just saying.

What Mija and I wore for Halloween.

So September 11th was my 21st Birthday. And everyone kept asking,” which bar are going to?” My reply was, “oh I’m just going home to celebrate with my family.”

It seemed as if they were disappointed by my answer. As if I wasn’t celebrating correctly. -.- Its not like I’m never going to drink, I just don’t care that now I can legally drink alcohol. Its just not that big a deal to me. Sorry if that is odd.

Like every year, I always have a great birthday. Ok besides the time I had to evacuate and the other time terrorists destroyed the World Trade Center. This year I got a netbook for my birthday, its a 10” Toshiba and its is the perfect size to carry around campus. Also, its nice to take to Barnes & Noble on my way home from school. So I am really happy with it. Plus its so freaking cute oh and the battery life on it is wonderful. It doesn’t have a ton of memory but that is why I’m glad I  have a seagate hard drive. I got mail today from Missy. She sent me a card and a Belle charm oh and the notebook of course. I love and miss you Missy!!!!!!! Thanks again. Her anniversary was the 12th so Happy Anniversary Missy. I hope I get to see you next weekend.

So last Friday, Mija and Jody took me to Aka for a Birthday dinner. We ate the same thing we ate last time. But Jody ordered stuff that he wanted as well. Like seaweed salad.(pic above) But yeah dinner was great. Eating is getting easier, but I still can’t bite into my food. I have to use a fork and cut whatever I’m eating into small pieces. I miss eating candy. I’ve been craving peanut m&ms so bad. On campus there are vending machines practically everywhere I look. And the m&ms are calling to me. I kid you not. But I can’t eat peanuts or any type of hard candy or chewy. I don’t want to risk breaking my braces, so I fight the urge to eat the candy. I do however eat chips but I am extra careful. They taste different though not as good as they used to be.-.-

On my actual Birthday I went home, and mom made enchiladas for dinner. So good. Kat also made me a birthday cake and mini cheesecakes. I love cheesecake. <3 Thanks again Kat. Speaking of the odd ball, she got four teeth pulled today. I hope she is feeling ok.  I will see her tomorrow after class, we are going home to celebrate dads birthday. But I have an exam tomorrow so I should get back to studying. -.- I hate studying. It just makes me sleepy, and bored. And when I’m bored I crave food…junk food. sigh. Ok back to being bored. Hopefully I actually remember the stuff I’m studying. -.-

Song by Morning Wood-Body 21

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Spent the weekend at Mija’s. We fixed up my room so now there is a bed in there. Its comfy.

I’m still going to miss my own bed back at home though. Its perfectly molded to my body and its just perfect. But I have a huge headboard so bringing it to the apartment would be a huge hassle. I now find headboards such a waste of space and beds would be better off without them. Especially when you are moving into an apartment. So I have a new roommate. She is my cat in-law and her name is Missy Ella de la Flaca. So freaking adorable. She is a calico cat and I had no idea that calico cats are always female. There are no male calico cats. O.o Crazy. I have always been the owner of male cats. Spicy was the only female cat I would spend any time with. But other than her that was it. So its interesting to see how different a female cat is compared to a male cat. Her and Tomo don’t actually get along…yet. But I’m hoping they will get used to each other soon enough. They both hiss at each other every now and then and when she comes in to the living room Tomo will hide and keep his distance. But once we move in to our new town home there will be enough room for the both of them.

So tomorrow I’m going to UH to find out what books I need. And to find out exactly where my classes are. That way I’m not lost during the first day. I looked online and my classes are relatively in the same area. They aren’t too far from each other. So I shouldn’t get lost. -.- Doesn’t mean I wont.  But lets hope I don’t. There are maps all over campus so I should be able to find my way even if I do get lost. I only have 6 more class meetings and only 3 more weeks until I actually start living in Houston. How am I supposed to get my license in three weeks? There is no way. -.- This freaking sucks I always take too long to do things. And this should have been done a long time ago. I am in no way read to drive around in Houston. I still haven’t driven around my small town how am I supposed to drive in Houston?

BREATHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I must not panic. But panicking seems like the easiest thing to do among the many things on my to do list. >.< I wish I had gotten my license last year. But did I? NO. Why did I think I could do everything within months? Its impossible. And I realize I am feeling sorry for myself and complaining when I should just try to make the best of things. But its pretty damn stressful. And I just wanna lay in bed all day and forget all about the things I have/need to do. Can I do that? This makes me think about worry dolls. In the 3rd grade my teacher had us make worry dolls so we wouldn’t stay up worrying about TASS. Your doll would worry for you and you would be able to sleep through the night worry free. I worry all the time but its only now that I remember the story about worry dolls. Strange what the mind suddenly remembers.