Inside Kimmy's Mind

Ok so I’ve been over doing it on the picture front. But can you blame me? The only time I like a picture of myself is when I get to instruct the photographer (aka Kat) on how I want her to take it. Plus I can delete any embarrassing pictures she might see. And another added bonus I get to mess with it in Photoshop.

Of course the only thing I’m guilty of is changing the brightness and changing a few colors…but only because that is all Ireally know how to do. I do also enjoy taking pictures though, Kat is extremely photogenic so taking pictures of her is not hard. Her camera skills involve point and shoot. And that is it, for instance her ability to time the camera just right for jump pictures is microscopic…actually she lacks the ability completely. XD But I still love her because she spends time in the heat just to take pictures of me for daily outfit. But let me assure you that this isn’t just an issue of vanity…its to document my day as well. >.< But lets be honest I felt pretty and wanted a picture.

Oh exciting news, I learned the waterfall braid technique the other night (thanks to this) and tried it on myself but since its difficult for me to see the back of my head it didn’t come out exactly like the tutorial. But it still came out well enough for the first try. I really want to do this style for Mija, I just think it would look really pretty on her.You can’t really see the hair style in this picture but this is what I wore today. >.< I’m really loving this belt. Yes I’m wearing shorts underneath my shirt. I hate when girls wear leggings with long shirts. Yest they are long…but not long enough to cover your ass!!! -.- ahem. In my opinion if it covers your ass then its not too bad. But I’m talking COVER not ride up every now and then while you are walking.  At least have something over your leggings, (layer junkie) this is a pet peeve of mine along with wearing uggs and shorts. -.-;….Why?  Ok so now on to the next thing I want to share, OWL PURSE!!!  I bought a zoo pack a couple months ago before coming home for the summer and I finally converted what was originally a child back pack into a purse! I know it may seem childish to you, but I just couldn’t resist. Its just so freaking adorable, and I love it. I thought I wouldn’t be able to figure out how to add the rings for the strap but I did. And its pretty secure. I also was afraid that it wouldn’t fit in my sewing machine but I managed. And I am extremely happy with the results. I told Kat that if she wanted one, I’d convert hers for her as well. I’m sure the next time I do it, it will be even better. They just came out with a new animal too, its a fox still not sure why they don’t have a cat yet. If they had a cat it would be just too perfect for Kat. Either that or a rabbit?… They have a freaking bumble bee!!! They should have a cat and or bunny already. >.< (ahem keep it cool Kim) I mean I hope they bring out a cat or bunny version soon.

Did you notice the fancy word wrap? Well color me impressed.

So Kat and I took  pictures today. I can’t help it, when I feel good about myself I like to document it. And what better way than to take pictures. (vain I know) But anyway I wanted Kat to take some jumping pics. Which is harder than you think. Well for me anyway. XD

My camera isn’t the best. (still love it though) And Kat kept making me laugh which made jumping pretty difficult. So Kat ended up taking a bunch of pics of me landing after the jump. >.< And some really weird ones as well, but it was really fun. It is super how outside though so when you add jumping to that its not exactly comfortable. But I was determined to get at least one midair picture. And Kat managed to do that, after she finished taking my pictures I took some of her. She always has a big smile on her face and managed to get a good one. She is so photogenic. Anyway so here are some pictures I deemed acceptable for my blog. XD

The outfit pose.

She makes me smile.

The fix your belt from riding down pose.

The Kat being Kat pose. <3

But yeah that was today. I love spending time with Kat, now if only she would update her blog as well. :/ But anyway I’m editing a vlog I made with her last week. I’m just doing it rather slowly because I hate using movie maker. I miss using premiere. >.< But I hope to have that up soon and post it here.  So I cannot wait for Sunday, season 4 of True Blood premieres that night. And I’m sooooo excited, I cannot wait! >.<

Today’s song is Could Be Anything by The Eames Era.

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Do you ever get that feeling that something is missing, that you are forgetting something important? Lately I’ve been feeling like that. :/

Today’s prompt was…

What is your heart full of?  What are the things that are consuming your heart these days.  This could be things that are hurting your heart, breaking your heart, or making your heart so full of love.

I know I’ve told myself not to worry as much, but that is easier said than done. Lately I feel like I’m not doing something something. My heart is broken because of this worry. Its not broken due to the end of a relationship. Its just, I feel like I’m wasting my life and not living it to the fullest. I hope I learn what it is that I’m doing wrong. Because I hate worrying about things. Luckily its just parts of life that I feel like I’m living incorrectly, I have a wonderful family and awesome friends. All who love me a great deal so its not as if I’m saying my life sucks. Because it doesn’t. I just wish I could find out what is making me feel this way. I want to Carpe diem the fuck out of life. But sadly I can’t. :/

Sorry for being on the negative side of things…I’ll try to be more positive tomorrow with prompt 12.

Another entry!!!!

So today was my second class of math and I still feel the same about math. I HATE IT!!!! I will probably have to go to tutoring every now and then. But I will do whatever it takes to pass this stupid class. Anyway so I fully intended to vlog today, but I just didn’t have a lot to say…well now I do and I could have very well filmed a vlog but we went to Hastings today and I bought two books. Everlasting by Alyson Noël is the finale to the The Immortal series and One Day by David Nicholls. Which brings me to the next thing I want to mention.

MOVIES!!!

One Day was also made into a movie, it should be coming out some time this summer. I’m soooo excited for it. But until I get to watch it, I will read the book and then be able to compare and contrast. Another movie that I want to watch is  The Art of Getting By, it comes out next week. But sadly my small town wont have any showings. They never show any sundance films!!! WHY THE HELL NOT?! I love indie films, those are usually the best.  But I can’t wait to see these movies.  Now on to a movie I watched the other night. An Invisible Sign, it was soooooo freaking cute. These are the types of movies I love. And I’m always left with such a happy feeling after watching them. Now this movie involves math, which is the  pain of my existence. However, I couldn’t help but fall in love with the main character. I’ve never  actually been a fan of Jessica Alba but she was so adorable in this movie. So if you enjoy cute artsy movies, then I recommend this one.

And of course I’m gonna be vain real quick and add a picture of myself. XD

Song of the day is Sunny Day by Joy Williams, I heard this song during the credits of An Invisible Sign and just fell in love with it.

So Kat and I had another adventure last Thursday. We met up at The Local and had lunch with our best friends.

Before we met up with our friends Kat and I decided to wait for the bus, so we took  tons of pictures while we waited. She took a lot of odd pictures of me, catching me off guard and whatnot.  I just really wanted to show off this dress. Its sooooo cute.  >.< So I was vain for a day. And where else can I be vain if not on MY blog?! XD I took pictures of her as well, but she didn’t like too many of them. So I’ll only share the ones she has allowed me to upload. -.- But first…. ME!!!!

Making fun of Mija’s coworker pose

Twirl pose >.<

A decent normal pose.

I felt like the bus was never going to show up, so Miss texted me asking if we needed a ride. THANK GOD!!! So she picked us up early and we went to The Local where Kat’s friend Julia met up with us later. Of course I didn’t take pictures at the restaurant, except of Jaxson, but those didn’t come out as well as I’d hope they would. >.< I’m not sure why I didn’t take any pictures of us with our friends. -.- This makes me mad, but I think the reason was because I was just so excited to see Missy and Jaxson that I just forgot. And I ended up filming and photographing Jaxson. He is sooooooo cute!!!!

Now the pictures Kat has OK…

She was fixing her hair…so I took  a picture.

She actually found this one funny.

She is so cute. <3

Well I start class on Tuesday…-.- great. I have a teacher from like Romania or something, I can barely understand it when an American tries to teach me. How an the hell am I gonna learn with someone from another country. >.< PLEASE LET ME PASS IT.

My baby sister turns 18 today, I cannot believe it. She is 18 today and a high school graduate tomorrow. >.< So weird.

I still remember when she was two, I thought she was the cutest baby in the world. And before my fear of holding babies kicked in I would always want to hold her. Of course I was too small to actually hold her, so I had to make do with sitting next to her. lol But as we grew older we became inseparable. When Mija went to junior high she went through “the you are younger than me and far less cool, so don’t talk to me” phase.  So thankfully I had Kat to keep me company. Even when I went to junior high I would still come home and hang out with her. I guess I’m just a far more superior older sister than Mija. XD jk I did however become a protective big sister, and this makes me want to kick all the boys in the balls to keep them away from her.  (I have no idea where she got the boy-crazed gene from) I know she is getting older but its hard to see her that way when I just see my baby sister. But its something I’m working on. -.- It will just take some time, and until then I have the right to give any boy the death glare.

So Kat will be going to BC in the fall, and then after a semester or two she will transfer to Houston and enroll in A.I. (The Art Institute) She is going for culinary and I hope she becomes a master pastry chef.  I want her to enjoy her last summer vacation, because once you graduate high school, those just disappear. >.< I hope she has fun while in college and I hope she doesn’t have to deal with stupid stuff like I do.

Words of wisdom for Kat:

• Pace yourself, don’t let yourself get overwhelmed
• Do your best
• Try not to procrastinate- its not helpful and you’ll end up in a bind so do everything early.
• Ask for help- don’t be afraid to ask for help, I was specifically designed to help YOU. That’s what sisters are for so just ask. <3
• Remember, just because you are 18 now doesn’t mean you can do as you please. You’re just a year older, nothing else has changed. Luis and Cynthia are still your parents. Meaning they still make the rules.
  
• Don’t let anything or ANYONE get in your way. You have goals and I want you to accomplish those goals and be happy.
  

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAT!! LOVE YOU- Just tried to go shopping for the brat and nothing seemed to be right. DAMN YOU XBOX!!!

Everywhere I turn couples are either getting married or expecting a child, I’m assuming because it is Spring time. And this is just the designated season to marry your significant other and to reproduce.

In the blog universe two of my favorite bloggers have also embraced the season of marriage and baby making. I have mentioned this blog before, she inspires me with every post.I hope to one day make my blog as interesting as hers is.  Her and her husband are the cutest couple, their vintage style is just so picture perfect.  I also enjoy reading this blog, I love how her and her husband collaborate on her blog. He takes such amazing pictures of her. So adorable. Its what I hope for in a relationship, working together to create something. Meeting someone that not only supports but inspires me as well.  Anyway, they are expecting their first child.

In my real world, I’ve mention my best friend having her first baby back in January, and he is still the cutest thing in the world. >.< Such a cute baby, in some pictures he definitely looks like Missy and then in others I think he resembles his dad. Its so weird and amazing all at the same time. I’ve never been a baby person and I’m still not comfortable with holding him but as soon as he is old enough to crawl I might be able to hold him. lol Continuing on, my older sister got engaged a couple of weeks ago. Its pretty exciting, no date has been decided as of yet. But I’m hoping its not too far away. It will probably be in a year or so. Usually when a family member gets married, I dread going to the wedding. I’m not a fan of them. But when its someone I truly love then I know I will enjoy myself. I’m already planning on a toast to give during the dinner. It’s my older sister so I have plenty of words to share, maybe some embarrassing stories or two as well. XD

I’m looking forward to the wedding, I hope the plans go smoothly and she doesn’t turn into a bridezilla. XD Beause she can be pretty scary when things aren’t done in the way she wants them to be done. And I’ll actually have to do what she says since its her wedding. -.- Yeah I’m looking forward to that part. But in all seriousness, she shouldn’t be too difficult. lol But I know she won’t be one of those brides that pick the most ugly bridesmaid dresses for us to wear. But I’m more excited to see her try on a lot of different wedding gowns.  So weird my sister is engaged. >.<

So since the semester has ended, my sleep schedule as reverted back to its normal carefree pattern. Meaning sleeping late and sleeping in.  So instead of trying to sleep at a decent time I do what I normally do in this situation. Browse Netflicks for a cheesy romance movie to fall in love with. XD

I love when I find a cutesy, make your tummy jump and smile and cry all at once sort of movie. I’m aware that tummies can’t actually smile or cry. But when I watch these types of movies it feels as if mine can. Because its a jump, a smile, a cry I can feel in the pit of my stomach. 0.O Weird I know, I’m probably not making sense. But I have the snot and smile lines to prove it. So I didn’t necessarily fall in love with this movie, but it made me think about life and about the people in my life and about what I’m doing with my life. Whether or not I’m living it right tends to cross my mind quite often during a time like this. And I wonder, “Am I happy?”….However, I feel like this isn’t the right question and therefore can’t answer it. There are tons of factors to consider. Maybe if the question was, “Am I unhappy?” You might think by answering this question you get the answer to the first one but I like to think that these questions are extremely different. No I am not unhappy, I am not depressed nor suicidal.  Thankfully I’m not feeling any of these emotions. So no worries. But am I necessarily happy? Not sure. I know I’m not on the negative spectrum of emotions. But I don’t find myself on the positive side either. I think I remain in the middle.

I know its really odd how a movie can make me zone out and actually think about weird questions such as these. And normally people know whether or not they are happy with their lives. And I can say I am happy in a sense, but I know there are some things I wish I could change in some way. But who doesn’t feel that way. I know that life wouldn’t be real if there weren’t some difficulties to overcome. I also know that I won’t be really happy unless I do my best at BEING happy.  Of course knowing what is causing me to be stuck in neutral would help. But I think I just need to remind myself what makes me happy. Happiness isn’t achieved by  expecting to BE happy. There is so much good in my life and I ignore it, when I should be celebrating. So I intend to be happy.

Some of the things that make me happy..

• Reading a good book
• sewing- especially when the product comes out pretty decent
• writing- I can’t go a day without writing in something
• listening to music- the perfect way to get in a good mood is by listening to a happy song

“It is such a great day to be alive.”

So my second semester at UH has finally ended. I just finished my last final tonight. And I’m a little bit worried about it. >.<

Now all I have to finish is my story revision for creative writing and then I go home for the summer. Of course my summer isn’t going to exactly be an easy vacation. -.- I have to take summer classes. And of course I have to take none other than my arch nemesis….MATH!!!! As I’ve said countless of times, math’s sole purpose is to DESTROY me! >.<

No matter how hard I try, math will always be my enemy but after taking this math during the summer I will only have to take one more. Thank god. And then I will be done with math. The I have two sciences and a second language to worry about. -.- Great.

So besides taking classes over the summer, I intend to finally get my license! I swear this HAS to happen THIS summer. I’m tired of not having it, I’m already going to be 22 this is so pathetic. :/ Besides that I also plan on getting a job, I need one so when I come back to Houston for the fall I can have work experience. Because I have had no luck in getting  a job without any work experience. I want to work at Berripop or Smoothie King. Somewhere I really love. Borders or Barnes & Nobles would be a nice place to work as well so I need to get a job over the summer. I hope that happens. I also hope to hang out with friends this summer. I don’t really have a lot friends at UH so going home and spending time with old friends will be awesome. I want to have movie nights and just have a good time with people I love.

Summer classes don’t start until June I believe, so that means I have the rest of May to work on Mind-Speak inventory. Yup my sisters and I plan on opening an Etsy store. Hopefully it will be open by November. I have a lot of knitting and sewing to do over the summer. I mention a book I bought a month ago, and I can’t wait to get started. There is sooooooo much I want to do. But I need to pace myself otherwise I will just get overwhelmed.

So yeah this is where I am at the moment.  I know not extremely exciting. :/

So I’ve been inspired to start updating my blog at least once every week. Starting with Things I love Thursdays. Many of the bloggers I admire, take part in this and I just think it is a wonderful way to update my blog more often.

1. Speaking of bloglovin’ I love it!!! Because of it I’ve found so many bloggers that inspire me every day. I get excited when my favorite bloggers have updated.

   

2. ~Adrien Brody <3<3 so adorable!!!

• Triplus Markers- They are my favorite writing utensils.

• Nail Stickers- I bought some lace ones and I fell in love with them, they are so easy to apply and they stay on for days. Next time I plan to get some color ones, they are so fun.

• Gulf Coast Literary Journal– I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS JOURNAL!  I plan to apply next fall for a job there, and I hope I get it. >.<

So there we have it,  5 things I Love. I plan do this every week, and the number of things might change. I just decided on 5 items this time because I didn’t put much thought into it. :/