Inside Kimmy's Mind

Last week was just absolutely disastrous. One thing on top of another and I just hate that I had to have an emotional breakdown instead of just moving pass it while in the moment.

I was typing out a long blog entry and then I noticed that rehashing what happened word for word did more harm than good. I had started this post on Friday but wasn’t in a blogging mood so I didn’t finish it. I said I would always blog both the good and bad things that might happen in my life but I think paraphrasing might be better in this case.

-career fair was a bust, spent so much energy on being bummed about that, that I wasn’t focused on anything else
-Forgot I had a test on Friday after work, couldn’t concentrate on work which lead to wrong orders and tea over flowing
-Bombed said test, only to find out later that I could have rescheduled it during the next exam and actually make time to prepare for it.

So that’s the gist of my dark week, and all while that was happening I also hadn’t seen the bf in two weeks. -.- I don’t see myself as a high maintenance girl, but not seeing him made me uneasy. We’ve both been busy and any time we did talk it was just me complaining about jobs and school. I’m sure that was starting to get annoying. Even I was getting annoyed by my negative and whiny rants. Sometimes ranting is good, other times it can be too much if that’s all that’s said.  I don’t know if it was because everything seemed to be extremely shitty that I let my worrying carry over to other aspects of my life, but I knew I didn’t want to continue feeling like this. I finally decided to tell him about it, and who would have thought…communicating actually helps. -.- Guys are so good at causing us girls to over analyze things. They’re also really good at making those doubts disappear, but only when they know something is bothering you. He was so comforting, I should have known better than to let my insane thoughts get the better of me. Both with school and my relationship. I should give him more credit, even though there are times we misunderstand each other there are also more moments when he knows exactly what to do. He says the perfect things to ease my worries.

Anyway, I’m gonna try to be more optimistic. When you have a negative mindset then of course it will ruin your day from start to finish. It’s hard, especially when things seem overwhelming but I can’t undo what has happened, I can only learn from it and hope to god it doesn’t happen again.  Oh, I want to thank Melissa from Cloudy Chase for coming to have lunch with me last Thursday during my break. It totally made my day, also I still have your birthday present so we must get to get together soon. <3<3

I also got to spend time with the weirdos on Saturday, it was the bro’s birthday as well. We went to Choo Choo Sushi for lunch, then we went to Rustika to pick up his birthday cake and shared a tres leches parfait. We also spent some time with Kat during her break and had some berripop frozen yogurt. Good times.

Here’s to being optimistic. :3 Thanks for reading and commenting.

So we moved into our apartment and I couldn’t be happier, I’ve also have been working at the restaurant on campus for the past month. I’m pretty exhausted and sore after work, which is why I haven’t been updating at all. Every time I sat down to type an entry out, homework or sleep keep getting in the way.  I’m gonna try to get back to my normal updating again.

So living in my own apartment has been wonderful, thanks to my mom, Kat and I have managed to decorate it to our liking and it has started feeling like a home. I’ll post a video tour sometime soon, that requires good lightening and time.  All of which is scarce during the week.  I want to get a book shelf for the living room, this desk, and a dresser for our bedroom that have at least 4 drawers so Kat and I each get two drawers, but three would be ok as well. Probably paint the dresser and shelf yellow. Our colors are teal and yellow, our mom bought us this cabinet to put our tv on top of and that was what decided our color scheme. Love it. We put our dvds and Xbox games inside of it.  Again, I’ll post a video tour of it soon. >.<

So my birthday was this month, and I turned 24 on the 11th. All of my co workers, who are younger than me, seem to find it bizarre. They all share this look of utter amazement when I share my age with them and they all say how they thought I was 18 and just out of high school. A compliment I guess, but not right after my 22 year old co worker says how she feels SO old. -.- I wasn’t aware that 22 was old, hate to think what that makes 24. Well, I had some gifts to ease the pain of being old. 😛 My parents bought me a record player and it is just adorable! I had a few vinyl albums, but never thought about owning my own record player. Bro in law had one and seeing as how I lived with my sister and him for the past three years, I never needed my own. Now, yes, how very hipster of me. But I’ll have you know that I always found vinyl interesting back before today’s hipsters existed.  My sister started a vinyl collection when she got into high school. She’s a music trivia know-it-all, but now I can actually build my own collection she bought me my favorite Fleetwood Mac album when I turned 18, so now I can actually listen to it. Which I might over do it. This year she bought me a more practical gift. A heavy duty umbrella, no picture, but it’s green and black. I was in desperate need of an umbrella that worked, so thankful to have it. I was also given a bike.

I haven’t rode a bike since I was in junior high? I thought maybe I wouldn’t remember how to, but good thing for muscle memory. I’m excited to get more confident at riding it though, I plan on using it on campus, and to Rice Village. I forgot how much fun riding a bike was and it was so nostalgic to ride one again. Plus I also want to add rear baskets like this to the back of it so I can carry my stuff with me on campus. How cool are they, they fold in when you aren’t using them. Had to adjust the seat all the way down in order to ride it though, my legs are just really short and this bike is huge. >.< But I love it.

Here’s an instagram video of me using the record player for the first time. If you don’t recognize the song, it’s You make Loving Fun by Fleetwood Mac.

 

Until next time…thanks for reading and Commenting.

 

Summer Twins- I Will Love you

Heard this song on a Modcloth video and just had to post about it. I’ve been avoiding things this weekend, things such as studying for my Statistics final. I’m very worried. The final is comprehensive and I can’t remember the beginning sections of this semester. >.< My brain can’t handle this type of information. It despises math with all of its being and…

Ok enough with the excuses!

Time to do my best and study my ass off until Tuesday. I have so many things to be excited about that I’m not going to let this stand in my way of that happiness/excitement. I’m moving soon! Into my own apartment mind you. This is huge, this is just amazing. They called to let us know that our move in date had been moved from the 20th to the 22nd. It annoyed me a bit, but I’m just thankful that it is still before classes start. And what’s two days, this gives us more time to pack and clean up my room at my parent’s house and my room at my sister’s place. So many rooms. >.< This past week, I went to a job fair on my campus in  hopes of discovering campus jobs to apply to. I also decided to apply to several restaurants on campus as well. I have a job interview on the 20th at 9 am. The last time I had a job interview was when I was 19 and made it to the call backs at Sears. I did not get that job. -.- So if you have any tips to give, I’d greatly appreciate them…no matter how obvious please share. 🙂

The fall semester starts on the 26th. I’m a bit nervous, but I’m ready, let’s do this!

So I worked on making some R2D2 shoes this summer. I love how they came out but I’m a bit worried that they won’t last for very long. I wore them out once and they already started to peel. I just went over them again with some mod podge paint but it smeared the lines a bit. >.< I used some of the spray, but I guess I didn’t coat them as good as I thought I did. I don’t plan on wearing them to school though, my feet would be dying if I did. >.< Special nerdy occasions only. I know it sort of defeats the purpose of them, but it was still pretty fun making them. Next time I won’t use such hard canvas shoes, the van look alikes they sell at Walmart might be better to use.

Ok, now it’s time to shower and get to studying. Wish me luck. I’m going to need a lot of good vibes for this final. >.<

Thanks for reading and commenting.

I was going to  rant about class credits and minors, but something else happened the other day that I have to vent. Sorry, but this is a ranting post but I think you might want to hear about it, especially seeing as all of my readers are pretty much female. So in my literary studies class we are reading Death of a Salesman. I arrived not expecting the discussion to take the turn that it did, and I had no intention of speaking up. I’ll try to keep this short.

So my professor opened up the discussion about whether or not growing up without a father does any damage to a person. The character in the play Willy grows up without one and whatnot. So my class contains only women. Several of which grew up with their dad not being present in their lives…they spoke up so I’m not speculating. I want to discuss what two particular classmates of mine said during our discussions. Let’s call them Girl A and Girl B. So both A and B grew up with out their dads. I had said, that I felt it depends on how a person handles certain things in life that determines whether or not having a dad or not will hurt or better them. I know there are probably studies that show children do better with both parents, but there are also kids from a single parent house hold that accomplish a lot because of how they were raised. Girl A starts to spout about how she didn’t need her dad and that it does depend on the person. I digress, on to the real rant…so my professor leads the discussion to the job of a husband and wife in a house hold. For every dollar a man makes a woman makes 77 cents. I’ve always known that men have been paid more than women. Girl A starts to speak up again, she looks at the difference and says, “It’s so sad.” My teacher begins to question her and asks why. She then starts saying how it’s a pill women have to swallow and how horrible it is. But to just swallow it. O.o huh? I couldn’t believe my ears.

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Kellie over at Give a Girl a Blog started a really cute Currently segment over at her blog. So naturally, I decided to take part in it as well. 😀 She is one of my favorite scrapbookers. I’m always in the mood to create after visiting her blog and her current post totally inspired me. So here I am reporting what I’m currently working on…or attempting to work on. >.< … continue reading this entry.

Another Christmas has come and gone and no matter how old I get, I still anticipate the opening of gifts. I see no point in waiting until midnight, seeing as no one in my family expects an actual visit from Santa.

 I can’t remember the exact age I stopped believing in Santa. It had to be around 4th or 5th grade, my younger sister and I would wait up until around 5 in the morning because that was the earliest my parents would allow us to open gifts. My older sister stayed up to assist with the wrapping and the consuming of Santa’s cookies. She was also there to make sure we were in our rooms and “sleeping”.  I always tried to actually sleep on Christmas eve so Christmas would hurry up and arrive. But try as I might, that never happened. Now we open presents pretty early, it took a bit of persuading but my mom finally caved. What? Just because I am 23 doesn’t mean I can’t enjoy the holiday and act a bit childish. We waited until after dinner to open gifts on Monday. The Weirdos were in New Orleans for the holiday so they opened gifts on Friday and we got to open our gifts from them. Our parents were given a record player. We went to different record stores to find them both albums. My favorite record store in Houston is Allrecords the owner Fred is just wonderful. He knows practically everything about music so he is always helpful. His store is down the street from Mija’s office so Kat and I went to visit her and made a trip to his store last week. If you haven’t got the time be careful because Fred the music man will talk your ear off. Anyway, back to the gift opening. I have basically everything I could ever want/need. So when my mom asked me what I wanted this year I just said whatever is fine. I was totally surprised to receive the gifts I did. My parents bought both Kat and me a new laptop. Windows 8 is completely different from Windows 7 and Vista. It will take some getting used to but I love it.  Now if only they made cool cases for it like they did for macs. -.-  Along with the new pc, I got a few ds games, I already finished playing Resident Evil Revelations. The damn zombies would fall from the ceilings and scare the heck out of me. But still the game was pretty fun to play, of course I nick named a bunch of the zombies after genitalia. i.e. penis tongue and vagina cockroach. Lovely images no? XD

She & Him- Christmas Day- I don’t like too many holiday songs after being in choir for four years. So I thought I’d share one that isn’t a classic. [audio:http://numb.honey-vanity.net/wp-content/uploads/2012/12/SheHim-ChristmasDay.mp3]

It’s weird updating my blog on another laptop. I spent most of the day logging in to all of my social networks, and let me tell you remembering certain passwords was tricky. I usually add my age to the end of a special word and use that as a password. The dumb thing about this is the fact that I do age. So that number changes. -.- So I sat there typing that word and ages 18 to 23 hoping it was one of them. I’m an idiot. It was brilliant at the time, now I it just leaves me feeling frustrating. I managed to figure out all of my passwords minus my Skype one. So I had to update that one with a new password…I already can’t remember what I used. -.- So bad. The best thing about this new laptop is no more alien sounds! My past two laptops both made alien noises whenever I used Skype. So I’m excited to know that those sounds are gone. Now I may Skype in peace.  Christmas was fantastic, dinner was great and spending time with my family has been so much fun. I’ve done nothing but sleep late oh and read…for fun! I had to read so much over the semester that now I can actually read for fun and not worry about a quiz. So nice. Oh and I just found out my grades for the semester…not all good news. Two B’s and D…plus. :/ I knew passing that class would be impossible. Good thing is my GPA is still in good standing. I’m upset that I didn’t pass this stupid class. The most annoying part is, is that I just needed about 5 more points for a 73. That would mean passing. This Spring I need to really study more. There is always one class that I let fall on the back burner. I can’t allow that to happen anymore.

Classes for the Spring:

• Literary Studies- Mon. 4-5:30
• Cr. Writing…the one I somehow managed to skip-Tues and Thurs. 11:30-1:00
• Contemporary Novel – Tues and Thurs. 2:30-4:00
• Gulf Coast …not a class but I’m interning again, this time on Wed. 1:00-3:00

And that is my schedule, Monday’s I can sleep in and I don’t have a class on Wednesday’s aside from interning so that leaves plenty of room for reading/writing and studying. I need to hurry up and graduate already. :/ pffft Anyway, I hope your holiday was splendid and may your new year be just as awesome.

Thanks for reading.

I have spent the last few weeks finishing up with finals. I haven’t updated a real entry since before Thanksgiving and I’m really annoyed about this.

Yes I still have unfinished entries waiting to be typed and published but I have been so busy with school and Christmas shopping/knitting that I haven’t had the time to sit down and write. And every time I do, I get distracted with a million other things or I fall asleep playing Pokemon. Yes Pokemon. A friend gave me a ditto so I’ve been breeding Pokemon like crazy. I can’t believe that I managed to study with everything that seems to distract me. But I did it and I took my final and who would have guessed that studying actually helps. XD I should do that more often when it comes to tests and exams. In all seriousness though, I think I did pretty good on the test. Here’s hoping.

Anyway, so Christmas is near but the weather is being fickle and refuses to remain the proper winter temperature. It is rather upsetting, especially when I’ve been knitting and hoping to use the items I’ve knitted. Anyway, a couple of weeks ago the weirdos and I attended a gathering of awesomeness…aka Gaymers handhelds. A meetup where like minded nerds meet up and play video/board games. The majority of its members just happen to be gay men. And it was wonderful. I met several lovely dudes and am in love with each of them. They were so friendly and welcoming I had a blast. One of my new friends even traded me a Ditto!!! Now if you haven’t played Pokemon then this won’t interest you but if you have, then you know that this means you can breed other Pokemon. And the good thing about this means you can trade with other people. I’m on a mission to collect Pokemon that I’m actually familiar with.  Yeah I’m a nerd.  Anyway, so after making a ton of new friends I saw this video that was just absolutely perfect in every way.

This is what I’ve been missing all along. A gay boyfriend. XD I even had a knitted date with one of my new “boyfriends”.  And then I found out I was nominated for Best Female Gaymer, I’m flattered but I hope I don’t win. Me being straight might offend the female gaymers who are in fact gay. So I’m hoping one of them win. I’m not too sure exactly how many members are lesbian but I’ve only ever been to handhelds so there might be more than I think there are. But it still makes me happy that I made an impression on whoever nominated me. :3 Makes me feel special.

Being done with finals is so refreshing. I plan on updating more and maybe in vlogging here and there. I cannot wait for Christmas. I’m excited to give my parents their gifts. Ok, so I just noticed the time, Kat and I have a big day planned for tomorrow…well later today. So I should just end this entry and get some sleep. >.< I got distracted with movies. Also, you should watch this mini series. You will love it.

Thanks for reading. 🙂

So this past week was pretty busy. A perfect week to end a perfect Birthmonth. That’s right, I pretty much celebrated my birthday all month. XD

Last Monday, I went with a friend and had the chance to hear Junot Diaz read from his newest book, This is How You Lose Her. A collection of breakup stories. He was wonderful, I never thought much about an authors ability to speak in front of an audience. It totally makes you want to read their writing more if they are great speakers. And I never thought about even getting a chance to meet an author. But that is one of the good things about living in Houston. I’ve had the chance to meet several different authors since moving here and it has been amazing. My friend and I stood in line for about 2 hours to get Diaz to sign our books. He was just so friendly and adorable, a lot shorter than I thought too.  I really wish I was able to buy his new book but that will have to wait. My too read list is much too long at the moment and have absolutely no time to read what I want to read. Moving along to Wednesday, Mija took me to see Beauty and The Beast the musical. It was so amazing! Like I’ve mentioned before, this is my favorite Disney movie and it was such a huge part of my childhood. To be able to see it as an adult it was just a wonderful experience and I can’t thank my sister enough for doing this for me.

Instagram Pics

1. Glitter Chucks: These are my bridesmaid shoes. Yes, they are freaking awesome.
2. Junot Diaz autograph
3. Beauty and The Beast Playbill and ticket. Totally framed it. >.<

Continuing on with the rest of the week, Thursday night I went to Poison Girl for the end of the month Poison Pen (reading series) and had a blast with friends. I always have such a great time at this bar and had just the one drink this time. ;P  Friday, I spent the day with my sisters and bro. We walked around the Galleria and played an exciting game of, I Spy the quinceañera dress. Let’s just say it wasn’t very hard to spot them. -.-  Saturday, we met up with some friends at the bowling alley and then went out for pizza. It was a great night filled with a lot of laughing and nerd talk. I love hanging out with people who are just as nerdy as I am. :3

So I was doing my daily blog browsing and discovered this. This is Willie Nelson. I wrote a short story about him over at Joy’s blog and she totally illustrated it. How freaking adorable is that? I love her blog. :3 You should totally go and leave a character description or story for her to illustrate. She is super talented. Thanks again Joy.

Today’s song,  Right as Rain by Adele. This is the only song of hers that I really like listening to.  Ok, I’m off to finish reading about orgies and Mexicans before going to bed. (Hence the title)[audio:http://numb.honey-vanity.net/wp-content/uploads/2012/10/RightAsRain-Onesongfavs.mp3|titles=RightAsRain-Onesongfavs]

Thanks for reading. 

As always, my birthday was a blast. I didn’t think there was any way to out do last year’s Star Wars exhibit. But boy was I wrong. I was born on September 11, 1989 at 3:something p.m. XD

My family completely surprised me this past weekend and came to Houston to take me out to dinner. They bought me balloons, donuts and peanut M&M’s. I wasn’t expecting anything and they just went above and beyond. I had no idea. One of the bigger surprises was the gift Jody and Mija bought me. Not only is Mija taking me to see the musical Beauty and the Beast but they bought us each a 3DS. I’m obsessed with my DSlite and never even thought of upgrading to the 3Ds, not until it became obsolete anyway. So this completely blew my mind. Jody got the new 3DSxl, and the screen is HUGE! My sister’s and I each got the first edition and I’m already obsessed with it.  We only have Mario Kart 7 but it is so freaking cool. I’m actually not a fan of the 3D feature, which I know defeats the main purpose of the upgrade. But that’s not the only cool new upgrade. I love the streetpass feature. I take it with me when I go to school and I usually pass someone with one on campus. I’ve only had four people, but that is pretty awesome. Of course now every time I pass someone I think to myself, I wonder who has a 3DS? I’m determined to get those puzzle pieces!! XD This month has just been amazing, so much has happened and is happening and I’m just loving every minute of every day. So this is what I wore, I actually really love this outfit and I’ve worn so many different variations of this outfit but I never get tired of it. I always feel confident when I wear it, so I thought this would be the perfect outfit to wear on my birthday. When I got home I ended my birthday with Mija and Jody. They bought me Potbelly and a cake and sang happy birthday to me. This year’s birthday was just surprise after surprise. It reminded me how lucky I am to have my family. They are just the best!

Tomorrow, (later today I mean) I’m going to a reading that is being held on campus. ZZ Packer will be one of the authors giving a reading. Apparently she is teaching on campus this semester. Had no idea. So I thought since I’m going through creative writing withdrawals I should attend as many reading events as I can. And this one is on campus and I’ll be there anyway so why not? It’s starts at 5:30 and my class ends at 5:15 so I should be able to go.  And then Thursday I’m having dinner with my friend Liz, I’m excited I haven’t seen her since May.

Well I hope everyone is having a great week. 😀

Thanks so much for reading.
 

 

First I want to share another giveaway!!! Again hosted by the wonderful Kellie Winnell. She is just so awesome.

Good luck to everyone who enters. But I’m really hoping to win this for Mija. XD

Ok now on to the update. So school has been going well so far. I’ve managed to stay caught up on all of my reading assignments. Hopefully I can keep it up. The books I’ve been reading for my lit classes have been pretty interesting. But that means that I have to put any other books that I’ve been wanting to read on hold until I find some time to read for fun. Also my birthday is this Tuesday (yes I was born on 9-11. If you have any annoying jokes about that then please keep them to yourself.) and I’m 23! I don’t have plans on the day but I have a bunch of other things planned for the rest of this month. There’s a reading on Wednesday at 5:30 (the 12th) that I might attend. It’s on campus so I thought since I’m there might as well check it out. The only problem with that is going home too late. I hate taking the bus when it’s dark but it might be ok. We shall see. Then I have the Junot Diaz reading on the 24th to attend, I cannot wait for that I’m excited to get my book signed by him. Then on the 26th I have my Birthday present, Mija is taking me to see Beauty and The Beast on Broadway. >.< So excited!!! Beauty and The Beast is my favorite Disney movie/fairy tale story so seeing it on stage is just beyond amazing.  And then maybe going to Poison Girl for a reading the day after that…not sure about that. I cannot wait until it starts getting colder. I’m tired of sweating buckets before I even get to the bus stop. I guess if I didn’t dress in so many layers I wouldn’t be having this problem. But I can’t help it. I like layers. The cutest outfits are in layers. Speaking of outfits I really need to start documenting my outfits again so I know which combination I’ve worn and on what day. Need to alternate. XD Sadly, there probably won’t be any cold weather until January. I’m totally not kidding. Ok maybe a little bit. But it usually takes forever for it to get cold. You would think after living in Texas for 23 years I would have accepted the weather by now. But no. I haven’t. I’ve been dying to wear my new blazer that Kat got me for my birthday.  I had no idea that she had gotten me a gift. She’s horrible at keeping things a surprise but then again I’m no better. >.<

Have any awesome plans this month or this year? :3 Also Mija’s wedding is next month! Can’t believe how fast time has gone by. >.< This wedding is going to be amazing. Song of the day Hold On by MoZella. I love it! [audio:http://numb.honey-vanity.net/wp-content/uploads/2012/09/HoldOn-MoZella.mp3|titles=HoldOn-MoZella]

 

Thanks for reading.