Inside Kimmy's Mind

Life so far sucks. It does.

I’m about to break emotionally. If something else bad happens I’m not sure if I can take it. To start off this year my relationship ended. Yeah. I am apparently too comfortable of a “shoe.” And he wanted to date other people. He isn’t a horrible person, he is just horrible at expressing himself, and can’t word things right. But I guess there is no right way of breaking up with someone. And there is no way to avoid the heartache and tears. But hey hearts mend right? Anyway I get a call from BC. Um Yeah I updated a bulletin about this already but I have to mention it here too. The watercolor class I was looking forward to and was so excited about was CANCELED. Yes canceled. Not enough people. I hate my life. I mean I’m not suicidal or anything so don’t freak out. I’m just in a rut of depression at the moment. I’m hoping something will make it suck less. Heres hoping. So instead of the watercolor class I desperately wanted/needed. I have some Lit. class. It meets only on Mondays at 6pm to 9. Sigh Fuck ass!

My friends have been awesome. Hear that friends? You’re FUCKING AWESOME! Missy you rock! You have no idea what a relief you have been for me. Thank you so much for helping me with things and I love you! Mija thanks for getting CH’s autograph you are the best. I’m hanging out with Cate tomorrow. Yay! Then Friday I’m hanging out with Hyun and visiting Mrs. Middleton. We have been trying to do that all week. So hopefully Friday we can. Then Saturday is my mom’s birthday so we are gonna go to the movies maybe. Then next week classes start. tsk. Which sucks.

Sorry for the emo entry. I am just not a happy person at the moment. I’m sure I will bounce back. Just need to get over things.

2009!

Another year went by. Weird right? Its strange because when I was little I used to think I wonder how it will be when I am in high school? And I am already starting my second semester of college on the 12th. Its so weird (not to be cliché or anything) how time just flew by. I mean we have calendars and watches to keep track of time. Yet it always zooms by without anyone actually realizing it. I watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button last week. Which might explain this entry. Anyway in my opinion it was OK. I was curious (no pun intended) about it. There are just a lot of things that they should never have put in the movie. So yeah. My mom and sister Mija hated it and thought it was a waste of time and money. I mean I am glad I saw it. I was curious remember. Damn trailers.

 I am in love with my sewing machine. I was afraid that I wasn’t going to be able to learn how to use it, but I have. I taught myself how to sew on a zipper, which wasn’t easy. My first attempt was ok, but my third was perfect. I made my mom a coin purse. But the best part about it is that I made it with Beatles fabric. Its a revelation so I’m told. lol. I found it at Walmart. I was so excited and had to buy it. Isn’t it awesome? I really like these pictures of them too.

 I was going to spend this coming week with Mija, but due to school related stuff I am unable to go. I will also miss meeting Charlaine Harris. She is the author of the Sookie Stackhouse mystery novels which is what the HBO show True Blood was based on. She was having an autograph session near my sisters apartment. I was going to meet her but now I can’t. It sucks. I was looking forward to it. Hopefully I will get another chance to meet her. T_T Anyway that really put a damper on my last week off. I was going to have an awesome week with my sister. But that’s ok I might get to hang out with my Korean brother Hyun. He is coming home tomorrow. Plus I might hang out with Cate or Missy as well. I haven’t spent anytime with my friends and I miss them. I hope classes go smoothly, and cause as little stress as possible. But…and not to sound negative here, I have a feeling I’m going to be extremely stressed out this semester.

Just not with classes. Sigh. >_< I hope I’m wrong.

www.charlaineharris.com/biography.html

Too much green?

I LOVE the color green. I have a green cell, flip camera, ipod, and NOW a green Seagate (Christmas gift). Due to a camera switch with my mom. I now have a green digital camera. I love Christmas. Not just because I get amazing gifts. But because this year I manage to give a gift to each of my family members. I bought my mom a rooster timer (that’s her theme), I bought Mija a purse and movie, I bought Kathy a book that she has been wanting, and I gave dad a laptop bag for his new laptop he got from mom. So I was excited that my parents had something to open for Christmas as well.They always make Christmas unforgettable for me so its the least I can do.

Mija bought me a green alarm clock/radio. Yet another green electronic. So sue me. I love green! It is so cute, it has green embellishes of vines and butterflies on the sides of it. And the numbers on it are green too instead of being red like my last alarm clock. Which was Tweety Bird. Time for a change no? lol The biggest thing I got this Christmas was a Sewing Machine. I couldn’t believe it. My mom and dad actually bought me a sewing machine. It is cute too. I never thought of sewing machines as cute until now. I hope I will be able to get the hang of it. I wish I could fast forward that process. lol >_< But I’m excited to use it already, I just need material. My first project will be to make a Seagate cozy for Mija and myself. And then a camera cozy. They will both be green. Surprise surprise right? lol 😛  All in all it was another fantastic Christmas. My sisters and I will always be grateful for what we received. I’m so happy. I hope my friends had just a wonderful Christmas as I had. And soon a Happy New Year.

Again no bragging intended. And HAPPY HOLIDAYS! And Lots of Love! <3<3<3<3

My mom and sisters and I went to Oni-Con to see Dio and SUGAR. It was so much fun, I am glad I got to see both bands even though we were kinda of late for SUGAR’s performance. I bought more SUGAR merchandise than Dio because they had more than Dio. Dio’s new cd didn’t come out because it was shipped to the wrong address. I saw SUGAR up close more than Dio because I didn’t have anything else to get signed of Dio. But then I wouldn’t have gotten the chance to see SUGAR again. … continue reading this entry.

Tale as old as time
True as it can be
Barely even friends
Then somebody bends
Unexpectedly

Mom surprised me with this Beauty and the Beast ornament. Of course I’m not hanging it on the tree. It goes with all the rest of my Belle merchandise. I’m obsessed with Disney’s Beauty and the Beast. I mean I just love the story. I love when mom buys me stuff like this. This ornament is so adorable. Its a music box as well as an ornament. Belle and her Beast (which I always wondered what his name actually was. I named him Charles lol) spin around to their song. Tale as Old as Time. It just makes me smile every time I look at it, I love my mommy.

So some more good news. I finally got that book I ordered online. Starcrossed. It took a month for it to be delivered. How ridiculous is that? Extremely ridiculous. Tsk. But I got it now so lets move on.

Next, I should start studying for exams and finishing my last essay for English. But I am so lazy! I keep putting things off. I find other things to do. For example I should be sleeping right now but I was up so now I am in charge of waking up Mija. But I have a feeling once I click publish for this blog I’m going to go straight to sleep. *Sorry Mija*>_< I have been reading books like nobody’s business. I have finished Club Dead in one day. From the Sookie Stackhouse Novels by Charlaine Harris. True Blood is based on these books. I only have the first three, so I’m reading the 4th one online which I can of hate doing. I want the next two books now. I am so bad when it comes to reading books. Sometimes when I start reading a book to hold me off until I get the book I really really want to read. Once I get the book I really really want I sort of stop reading the filler book. I get carried away when it comes to books.

I have found Dylan the perfect Christmas present. I am so proud of myself. He always gives me wonderful presents, and I always thought I did ok with my gifts to him. But this with out do, anything I have ever given him. I’m excited to give it to him, of course I suck at keeping things a surprise. So wish me luck at keeping it a secret. Mums the word and what not. :p

 Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme
Bitter sweet and strange
Finding you can change
Learning you were wrong

PART 1: I couldn’t help but think this was cute. This is the theme for my gmail, the little fox is always in a different place. lol It changes from day to night. lol Cute right? Earlier he was sitting at the outside table. I know I am weird. But I love it. lol

PART 2: I am really angry with the mail and borders market. I ordered a book at the beginning of the month and the book still hasn’t came. So I sent them an email saying exactly that. They said they refunded me, but I still want the book. Tsk. I hate the mail sometimes. sigh. On another note I am reading Dead until Dark and I’m almost on the second one. So far I like it but I hate to say it but I like the show way more. I’m not gonna anything other than that. I still recommend it though. lol

PART 3: Kitty sitting tomorrow until Wednesday. Finished essay, need to start last one. I need to do my history quizzes. Then get ready for exams and take them and pass them and then……get ready for the next semester. Phew!!

I have never had bangs or a fringe before, so this is new for me.

The Tower
The Tower represents sudden and unexpected change. It signifies the destruction of something that was not built on a solid foundation. With this change comes a time of disorder and chaos, but from this comes great improvement and newfound strength. This is an opportunity for you to start over and right your wrongs.

I guess I just have to get used to it. I’m not sure what to think of them really. I just hope I don’t look stupid with them. I mean my forehead is no longer naked, And my antennas are more at the sides now. But as yo noticed in the picture above I still have them. lol. You know I hate and love getting my hair cut. 1. I hate deciding and choosing how to cut my hair. I have really thick, temperamental, annoying hair, so deciding to cut it takes awhile. 2. You want to try something different out but your afraid of how it will look because you don’t know how it will look. Tsk. Fear always gets the better of me. 3. You usually stay with one hair style because you either like it or it is comfortable to you. Sigh. I mean I have had my share of bad hair cuts, which I just found a way to mask. I’m not really sure if this falls under the bad or the good list of hair cuts. Maybe its a new category, because some angles I love it then some I don’t so again maybe it just takes some getting used to. I have never had bangs so maybe thats why its different compared to every other hair cut I have had. 4TH In the hate column, I hate when it when after they finish cutting it its all frizzy. I usually straighten my hair so usually after cutting it I like to hurry home to straighten it asap. The good side of getting a hair cut is its nice when you cut off all the dead ends. My hair had tons of dead ends. Well I am way too sleepy to list the rest of the goody sides but I will later today.

AND I AM PISSED MY BOOK STILL ISN’T HERE! SLOW MAIL!

Good Night.

“My imaginary green elf?”

Ok I went shopping for some new pants this weekend. I successfully found pants that fit me perfectly. I bought two pairs of Jolt skinny jeans, one black and the other dark brown. I never even considered wearing skinny jeans because I thought you had to be extremely skinny to wear them. But behold I actually think I look ok in them. They actually show off my non existent ass. *50 points for Kim*

Now I’m oblivious when it comes to brown and black no no’s. I think its retarded the rules I mean. I will never understand the right way and wrong way to wear black and brown. But guess what?

I DON’T GIVE A SHIT!

I’m going to wear my dark brown pants the way I want to wear to them. And I could care less what annoying people think. Pffffft Shit what about jackets? lol I don’t want to look stupid. sigh. >_< points deducted right?

I don’t want to clash, I want to look nice. Is that so wrong?

I’m also looking forward to seeing Dio in concert. Hopefully they are coming! o^_^o

“Just because it is 1in the morning, that shouldn’t mean that TV networks must be incapable of showing different or at least decent movies during this time.” -Me

I do not have classes on Friday. So I like to stay up late. But who am I kidding I sleep late on school nights too. But Thursday nights I can relax without worrying about home work that’s due or something. Well I like staying up and watching TV. Once in awhile they show a good movie. The channels in particular is tbs and USA. Now I can’t remember how many times or when it first started but they have been showing the same exact movie like every night it seems. Or at least every Friday morning. Now I wouldn’t be bothered by it if it was a movie I at least liked. The movie in question is…. Screwed.

I am annoyed by this movie, sorry to the people who actually like this movie. But enough is enough. Why must they keep showing this movie? There is like a million other movies they could show. I mean I know there are people who can’t sleep, or who are like me and are just accustomed to sleeping late. But I mean come on. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, SHOW A DIFFERENT MOVIE! At least for my sanity.

But this is where I turn off the TV and read a good book. I have so many books I want to buy at the moment. I am currently reading three books at the same time because I couldn’t decided which one to read first. I know I’m terrible. So far its going ok I am keeping up with them. My book wishlist just keeps growing and growing. sigh. There are way too many books and I read way too slow. >_<

I just wanted to share this with you Mija and Kat. Because I know you both can appreciate and understand where I am coming from. Plus you can justify that this isn’t just crazy talk.

I’m not crazy. Right?

“Like, I will probably never get struck by lightning, or win a Nobel Prize, or become the dictator of a small nation in the Pacific Islands, or contract terminal ear cancer, or spontaneously combust. But if you consider all the unlikely things together, at least one of them will probably happen to each of us.” – Paper Towns, John Green

I just purchased Paper Towns. I wanted sad Margo cover, but Borders didn’t have it. And I really wanted to buy it so I had no choice but to take happy Margo. Which there is absolutely nothing wrong with Happy Margo cover, I just like sad Margo…more. I can always buy sad Margo when it comes out on paper back. Which I really wish they brought books on paper back first. But I know they make more money in hard back. Plus the book will last much longer. But I hate it when it has a dust jacket. I wanted the cover to be on the book itself. I am extremely picky when it comes to books. I want to read 13 Little Blue Envelopes but I had to pick one. Sigh. I know I should have just waited on Paper Towns, so I could have bought the cover I wanted but what I can I say I am impatient along with indecisive. sigh. Along with Paper Towns I got Undine in the mail the day before. I love getting things in the mail. lol Because I bought it used it is from like a library or something so its hard back but with the protective paper they put on library books. I wish I could put that on my Paper Towns book. Anyway focus Kim. So yeah I have three books I want to read, but I am such a slow reader. I like to take my time and soak it all in. Because books are awesome! I still have to finish Katherines but I’m actually considering reading all three at the same time. lol Dumb idea? >_<

I have History home work to do. I should go to sleep its 4 in the morning. I’m visiting my sister at the moment. I had to put her cat in the bathroom he is annoying. lol But cute too. Ok well good night.

I was feeling a little glum but PAPER TOWNS TOTALLY CHANGED THAT!

“DFTBA! -Don’t forget to be awesome!” – John and Hank Green