Inside Kimmy's Mind

“I guess I’m not as good at masking my pain as you are.”-words from Kim

I am in pain. (I was in pain. I’m better now.)

Basically this whole paragraph is old news. I just didn’t post this right away. >_<
I woke up Sunday morning with a crick in my neck.My neck hurts so much. Then again not as bad as it did the night before. It was horrible, I laid down on my back while using a neck pillow (which didn’t help and I ripped it)>_< Sad really. I couldn’t turn over after that, I finally got back to my side. I probably looked ridiculous. So anyway its getting better. I just need another day or so, to be completely back to normal. This is practically how my neck and back is every time I am on the computer. More than a bad habit right? I read that cricks are caused by muscle spasms, or chill or cool air hitting the area that has the crick, and poor sleeping posture. I never thought I had poor sleeping posture. I sleep normal I thought. lol Head on pillow, sometimes on my side or back. How could that be poor?

I can’t decide which cover to buy. But I really want it. I doubt I can get it right away (and I doubt I can get both covers), because I just bought AAoK, and Undine. Here’s hoping *crosses fingers* I love John Green’s style of writing. At first I wasn’t sure if I would but I love it. I found another favorite author and that’s surprising. I usually don’t make an author a fav. until I finish their book. He is hilarious. You should read his books too! I hope I can buy it. If not I will complete the note in cover step. watch youtube link to understand that.

““All else being equal, past officeholders ought to have an advantage, but all things are rarely equal.” – John Green

Ok.

I am pissed off at Hastings.

Why, you ask? Ok. Well I love books. I love reading books. (That’s a given) Well I looked up books on the Borders website because I was going to buy a book online but I am so indecisive when it comes to things like this. So my wishlist grew within minutes of browsing the lists of books. Authors from Robin McKinley to Maryrose Wood. I found so many books I really want to read. Now the one I went to Hastings in search of was Undine by Penni Russon. I really wanted this book.I went to Hastings to find said book.

And all I got was NOT CURRENTLY IN STOCK. Pffft! I hate it. Why is it that when I know the title and the author of the book I want and I’m not just browsing they never have the book I want. Or they say they have the book but its not where it says it should be. Now I am aware that it must be difficult to keep books where they are supposed to be, especially when customers move things around. (Déjà vu) Anyway so I looked and looked for a book to buy. And discovered that John Green’s books were on display. It is John and Hank Green’s Youtube channel aka The Vlogbrother’s channel. So I have recently purchased, “An Abundance of Katherines.” By John Green. Thanks to the FiveAwesomeGirls who have gave John Green’s books wonderful reviews; which is what made me buy this book. I do wish I could have this book with this cover. But I have a different cover. Because I have bought this I have subscribed to his youtube videos which I wonder why I never did that to begin with. Well anyway so yeah I haven’t started reading yet but I am looking forward to it. But….I came home and bought Undine online anyway. lol Which should arrive October 23rd if all goes well. o^_^o

 

“A dream you dream alone is only a dream. A dream you dream together is reality.”- Paul McCartney

I was looking for some water color paint brushes and then I found these. KIMBERLY brand name water color pencils. I’m such a loser, that I got really excited and bought them. It was my dad’s birthday and I painted him a picture of his Jeep. Thats why I needed some more brushes but then I found the pencils. I thought he would put the picture in his garage. Mom bought a frame, of course instead of being in the garage its now in our living room. (sigh so embarrassing.) I painted it for him because he really loves his jeep. He calls it Midnight/Old Betsy (strange right? eh) I told him that Midnight sounds like a name for a male horse and Old Betsy sounds like a cow name. So I told dad that I it makes his jeep sound like a transvestite. But whatever. Which made me think. Why do men give their boats,cars, motorcycles, instruments (in my dads case his jeep and Bar-B-Q) names? I mean I don’t name anything…. well I did name my stuffed animals. -_- So maybe this is a mans version of a stuffed animal. (I am so weird) Well anyway because of Hurricane Ike dad has to work in Houston. He is working on getting peoples lights back on. He stays at his brothers house in Sugar Land because its too long of a drive from home to Houston. He would be too tired to do that. My poor hard working dad.

School starts again Monday for me. So hopefully things will be getting back to normal. The Mall still hasn’t reopened.Ok well I along with my cool water color pencils I also got Sims life stories. I love Sims. I have always wanted Life stories since it came out, and I finally got it. YAY! Because I was busy evacuating on my birthday I couldn’t really celebrate turning 19. So I went out to eat with my mom and sisters. And then we went to Best Buy where mom and Mija bought me KODOCHA season 2! Kodocha is my favorite manga and they made an anime of it. I love it! On the way home from Best Buy it was so dark. Street lights and traffic lights still don’t work in some parts. Well I’m gonna gonna watch Kodocha now.

“Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans.”- John Lennon

We got home Saturday? I think. I can’t even remember. Well we left my Uncle’s and went to my sister’s apartment to check if it was alright. And the trees in the court yards were destroyed. An inch closer and they would be on top of her apartment. Thank god they didn’t land on anyones apartment. She didn’t have any electricity or water. We waited for my dad to call us, he went home to get our lights put back on. So we waited and decided to drive home. We got home passing him on the way (funny right?) we still didn’t have electricity. Luck again was on our side our house was fine, my cats were fine. A broken fence and a messed up yard that was it. Thank god. It was already going to be 8, but we were hungry so My sisters went driving around to see if any stores were open. They came back empty handed and were also stopped by a cop. They were told no stores were open and that there was a curfew here. 7am to 7pm. No cars drive by. Only cops no and then. Its creepy. Our lights came back on and we were able to sleep comfortably. Of course we still had no food. I didn’t have school Monday, and Tuesday and Wednesday it is still closed. I’m not sure if I have class Thursday. I think my younger sister goes back to school Wednesday but I’m not sure of that either. More of my neighbors are back home, but it still has an eerie feel here. Like the first night back it didn’t feel like my home. It felt strange. I still haven’t celebrated my birthday, but thats alright its passed. Wednesday is my dad’s birthday so I should be thinking of that. I haven’t seen him since Friday. He is busy getting peoples lights back on. I really hope the rest of my town gets their lights back on. I want everything to go back to the way it was. Its been awhile since I heard anything from my friends I hope they are alright.

Well on to a more less depressing topic. I have became obsessed with a new series on HBO. Thanks to my sister Mija who told me about it. I love it. However I could do without the scenes with the brother and friend but that just my opinion. I like the main characters Sookie and Bill. Hell even Sam is a good character. If you have no idea what I’m talking about you should google True Blood. But if you do NOT like Vampire stories then you should not watch it. Its not too bad on the gruesome factor but its still a good story line. Its based on books. So when Hastings or Walden’s opens thats the next book series I’m looking for.

I’m getting sleepy now so yeah. Again I hope everyone is doing ok.

“All that we see or seem, is but a dream within a dream”– Edgar Allan Poe

I took care of my neighbors cat, Spicy this past week. I finished up Wednesday, before the hurricane evacuations were being issued. Thursday I evacuated from my home, which was also my 19th birthday. Nice way to spend ones day of birth right? I spent the majority of that day crying my eyes out. The thought of not coming home to a home kept itself planted in my mind. As we started putting things upstairs; I took pictures of my house. I couldn’t help but cry. I had to leave my two cats behind because dad said they would be alright. But I think he made us leave them so we wouldn’t have to deal with their litter boxes. I still wish we brought them with us to my Uncle’s house. I wish I brought a lot of things I left behind. Sigh. School closed Wednesday and Thursday and I wont have class until Monday. So I want Monday to come fast. But I have a feeling that this weekend is going to go by really slow. I mean there isn’t anything wrong with my Uncle Ray’s house, and my cousins have all been really nice. I just want to go home as soon as possible. T_T I really hope my cats are ok. I’m afraid, and the negative side of things seem to surface, I tend to ignore the silver lining. I hope the lights don’t go out. (Knocks on wood) I really wish I could just sleep this whole weekend away and pretend its just a really bad dream and that nothing bad is happening to my home and everything will be fine Monday. I will wake up in my room and this will all have been a horrible nightmare that I will forget. I’m starting to get hungry. Another Birthday that I hope to forget. I didn’t get a chance to celebrate it. YAY I’m 19! There its the best I can do at the moment. The lights just went off for a second. Sigh I hope they stay on. The weather sucks.

I really hope everyone is safe and can go back to their homes.

“Expectation is the root of all heartache.” -William Shakespeare

So I wore this to school Thursday. And my first class was English and it started at 2:15, and as I was walking to class with my boyfriend Dylan. There were people in the lounge area of the College looking at me and laughing. Now I could just be paranoid, or vain (thinking they were looking at me) not exactly sure. I mean they could have been laughing at Dylan but I doubt that. I mean I thought my outfit looked cute. It took me forever to pick out a shirt to wear. I changed like 5 times before class started. Anyway I thought that once I was in college I wouldn’t have to worry about the sort of people who judge you for being you. Regardless of how you dress or wear your hair ect. I mean when do people start acting like adults?

Well today my mom and I went to buy some felt so I can fix this jacket I ruined with paint. And as I was looking for the felt I decided to just gander at the art supplies. My art stuff is packed into a blue tub with all my college stuff piled on top of it. Its so depressing I miss taking art-Correction I miss taking art with my high school art teacher. T_T She made me love art. She is indeed the right person to be an art teacher. I also miss creative writing but there is always next semester right? Anyway I was looking at water color tablets trying to find the best one that wasn’t too expensive. As I was looking this guy was looking at the art stuff too. And then dun dun dun… I was hit on. lol

The entire time I’m thinking what does this guy want I’m trying to pick out some water color paper lol. Some one called him and he left; so I just grabbed one and left too before he could come back. lol I didn’t want to be rude or anything. lol >_< So I found my mom and we went to get the felt. Now I have never been hit on before. I mean only by my boyfriend when I first met him. Oh and by my stalker but I don’t wish to discuss that one. But it was at school. This was at a store. I have never been hit on at a store. I don’t even look like a college student. But it was nine in the morning so he knew I was in college. Or he assumed I was. lol Anyway I was just weired out by the whole thing. lol Funny right? NOW I’m going to paint something. Or try to anyway. Then of course start on my English paper. Sigh.

“I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity.” – Edgar Allan Poe

First day of Hell. OK I must admit college is 100 times better than high school. I mean I basically wasted time during those four years of misery. But then I wouldn’t be as happy as I am now. I wouldn’t have the friends that I have. *which I miss seeing.* I haven’t seen certain friends since the beginning of summer. Damn look at the time. I was making a vlog as too. So that’s why I’m up so late. Stupid shit. >_<

I have to get up and make dads lunch and do the dishes because I ignored them the other night. oops. I really wish dishes would wash themselves. I wonder if in the future life will be as easy as pushing a button. Like not having to clean anything because the house would clean itself. And people wouldn’t have to worry about being dumb or anything because you could program the knowledge of your choice into your brain without a worry. No side effects to worry about either. Another thing we as human beings wouldn’t be so damn fragile. I’m not saying we would out live time and such. But no disease or sickness. You know? We wouldn’t have to worry about germs and such. I shouldn’t complain right? I know. *sigh*

Well for English, here is the article I chose. I have to write an essay showing three reasons why you should read this without giving you a summary. Wish me luck.

 

You know how the last sentence you said, like echoes in your brain? And it just keeps sounding stupider and you have to say something else just to make it stop. – Claire Danes

I have been watching this show that came out in 1994 I believe, starring Claire Danes. It’s really good. I love how the main character thinks. Like some of the things, I feel like was picked out from my head. It’s funny because to me Claire Danes doesn’t look 15 in the show. I mean her character is but that doesn’t always mean she is. lol During this year I believe plaid was really in. I mean like the whole entire cast wears plaid or has more than one outfit containing plaid. I mean I for one don’t personally hate plaid. I am merely stating an observation.

Wilson Cruz- He plays Angela’s bi friend as Rickie Vasquez. He is my favorite character. He makes me smile.

But back to the main character. I like how she sees things that only certain people would notice. I mean she deals with both of her parents the annoying and the good parts. she deals with her weird but amazing friends. And the bitter once upon a time friends. And the heart throb that maybe might notice her but then turns out he just wanted sex or something of that matter. And the nerdy boy who is madly in love with her but she just sees him as the next door neighbor. And then a teacher who just makes you want to learn. I mean it really sums up high school life no?

This life has been a test. If it had been an actual life, you would have received actual instructions on where to go and what to do.”

“In ordinary life we hardly realize that we receive a great deal more than we give, and that it is only with gratitude that life becomes rich.” – Dietrich Bonhoeffer

I received a 1000 dollar scholarship, for being in the top 50% of my graduating class. In order to have the scholarship I must maintain a 3.0 grade point average and be a full time student. For college students, full time is 12 credit hours. I have 13 due to brain failure. (I’m so kidding) Well My brain sucks when it comes to math. It basically shut down all four years of high school. So now I have to re learn every thing dealing with math over again. But in my defense the test I took that determined my math class, I did not study for…much. If I had more time to study for it I think I would have been acceptable. SIGH. Depressing right? Well anyway maintain grade point average and be a full time student. And write a letter of appreciation to the people who donated the money. Yay! In other news, today was my little sisters first day of school as a sophomore. Since I graduated, she now has to go to high school without me. T_T

I know she will do fine in school though. lol I miss you too Kat.

My Virgo Horoscope: It’s okay to ask probing questions as long as you know where to draw the line. There are many demands that will be laid on you today but you should be up for the challenge. Be willing to refuse new projects if they are unfairly imposed upon you. Instead of worrying about the troubles coming your way, stand up and face them head on.

I hope this line isn’t drawn where I think it is? T_T

“So long as I’m no trouble to anyone, I have the right to do as I like.” – Cecil Vyse

I just recently watched a brand new adaptation of E.M. Foster’s A Room with a View. And I am currently watching the 1985 version starring Helena Bonham Carter, as Lucy Honeychurch. (I love names from the 1900’s) Is it me or does she always have interesting hair styles? I love watching movies like these, it makes me want to read the novels thinking they would be much more exciting. Don’t get me wrong, movies are wonderful I do love the 1985 version much more than the newer version. The most interesting character in my opinion is Eleanor Lavish. She was a novelist who wrote down the passionate kiss between Mr. Emerson and Lucy in her novel. (Thanks to stupid Charlotte who told her). Now during this time gossip was their entertainment. Like we have television, they have gossip. Now of course in the 21st century, we have our share of entertaining gossip and drama. But in the 2oth century it was much more widespread.

It another part I’d like to point out from the movie, which made me laugh was when Cecil kissed Lucy for the first time after they were engaged, and she was expecting something more knee weakening then what was given. lol Don’t we all expect our own George Emerson’s to sweep us off our feet with passion and lust that leads to a romance we hope was caused by fate. No? Helpless romantics eat crap like this up. Sadly I am one of them. A trait no doubt handed to me due to the fact that I am a girl or so I am told. And I am in no way saying men can’t be romantics in their own way. No sexist beings here, I might add.

“Now thats a conversation starter, come and have a bathe?”