Inside Kimmy's Mind

I just finished reading Blue Moon by Alyson Noël. And I am left with the feeling of wanting more.

WARNING! A hint of book spoilers!

The book ended with an annoying cliff hanger. Making me angry that it was over and I just kept thinking it couldn’t end like this. What happened to happy endings? And good triumphing over evil. Throughout the entire book the protagonist was fighting to save her true love and now? She can’t even cry on his shoulder? I am deeply annoyed by Ever. But I can’t help but love this book. Of course this is the second character in a book that I have read within a few months of each other, where the main character did not know who The Beatles were. How in the hell is that possible?

Quick note: Speaking of The Beatles. Have you seen the new trailer for The Beatles Rock Band? If you haven’t then luckily you read my blog and now can. And if you haven’t seen the animated promo for it then its below as well. And it is amazing. I cannot wait for this game. It comes out two days before my birthday and well make an awesome birthday present. lol Which is what I told my mom and dad. My dad’s reply to that is,”My birthday is coming up.” Mine is on the 11th while his is a week later on the 17th. He just ignores my rather unsubtle hint and changes the subject to him. lol

Anyway back to Blue Moon. I am now in an impatient need to get my hands on the next book which is called Shadowland. At the end of Blue Moon they give you a sneak peek of Shadowland like some books do, and I must say it just put me in more of an unsatisfied mood. But there is some good news. I thought I would have to wait until February to get the next book. But I don’t. Just until November 24th. Of course it is coming out in hardback first. I hate when they do that. I am one of those people that when they read a series, that all the books within that series have to match. I can’t help it. I am just programed this way. It is a habit…a fault? That I cannot quit/correct. But in this case its a matter of paper/hard back books. The first two books are in paper back. The third coming out in November will be in hardback. Seeing how impatient I am, I might have to just buy the hard back to fill the void until the book is available in hard back. I know I make things so difficult.

I didn’t really explain the two books. But I will elaborate later on possibly. But for now, take my advice and read them. Especially if you are into reincarnation,auras, mind reading and never ending love made to over come time itself.

Have you ever loved someone so much that you were willing to do anything? I mean anything?

Movie spoilers!

You were warned.

I just watched the French movie Jeux d’enfants aka Love Me if You Dare. I found this movie rather interesting. I love out of reality/day dreaming/foreign/romantic movies. Of course I do think the lovers should have grown up and stopped being so stubborn. I mean their dares kept getting more dangerous as they got older. The ending has them die for their love. They were buried alive in cement. But I’d rather see it as they grew old together and lived out their eternal love. Its one of those movies where its sort of confusing and it leaves you to pick your own ending in a way. So I pick that they lived happily ever after. Fin.

But does love like that exist? Where you would do anything the person who holds your affection tells you to do? I mean anything? Whether is humiliating, illegal, life threatening for you or others? I mean these people saw life as a game. As children it was fine yet they should have stopped it when they reached adulthood. I mean why use love to for selfish reasons? I mean why not entertain themselves by being together? But still I recommend this movie for others. It leaves you thinking. Which is why I am here blogging now. Of course I’m sorry I give away endings to movies so this entry might leave you not wanting to watch this movie. If so? I still think you should give it a try. I cried a little during this movie and then I laughed. Because it does have its humorous parts as well. So watch it…if you dare? HAHAHAHHA That was cheesy, but I couldn’t resist. hehe

Of course this movie sort of leaves me wanting to play a game. But the sort of game like in the French movie Amélie. Like leave a note for a stranger to find like in a book, or in the computer lab at school? But I doubt I could pull it off. And the chances of finding someone that was game or not? Pretty slim. Where are all the creative fun people?

Women are high strung emotional creatures that talk too much and expect too much from their significant others. Correct? Men are fucking bastards that cannot for the love of chocolate (or insert something you love here) know what the hell they want, except for the fact that one woman just isn’t enough. Right?

WRONG!!!!!

I’m tired of hearing these sometimes true misconceptions. And I am aware that being female that makes me biased. But what the hell. I mean if you honestly think about all the things men say about women and vice versa. Its all bullshit. I mean all the stories we are told, are from other people. I mean yeah some people have the luxury to experience the same situations. But I mean really why blame the assholes that cheat on us or the pathetic losers that just date us so they are no longer lonely? You dated them. During a break up, you are either the dumpee, or the person that is doing the most damage. And of course you go through your blue period where you are completely heart broken and feel like your whole world is gone. And that you will never be able to love another human being for as long as you live. LIES. You do love again. And sometimes the same thing happens to you more than once. … continue reading this entry.

Woah. I hate being confused. So in order to not be confused I ask tons of annoying questions over and over until I am no longer confused. Which sometimes takes a while in order for that to happen. What can I say? I like to make sure I heard everything correct so there are no misunderstandings.

I am really dense. If you don’t say exactly what you mean then I probably won’t understand. Which makes me confused and irritated. I like understanding things from other peoples point of views. But if you don’t spell it out for me then I will forever be in the dark and misunderstand you. I might even create my own version of what you’re trying to say. Which is most likely far from the actual truth. Is that what you want? I think not.

But anyway, I have a cousin that is starting a new relationship. My cousin and I are completely different. And we each do things differently. So we don’t always agree with each others advice. Anyway the guy she is now seeing is completely different from the guys she normally dates. And she is being extremely impatient. He is what you call a gentleman. You know the kind? They respect their date by not immediately attacking her when the lights go out in the movie theater. Especially on a first date. She is my cousin, so I don’t mean to judge her. But her logic is WRONG! And she needs to keep her urges in her pants. Which is exactly what I told her. I mean I don’t have tons of experience so its not like I should be giving relationship advice. But this is what I see as common sense. Why rush things? The whole beginning of a relationship is one of the best parts in my opinion. The timid dates and the flirting, along with the sweet compliments that seem to never end. I mean its beautiful…O.o…What is this? Some type of Hallmark card? That was so cheesy. But I think you see my point. If not? Then…go watch an 80’s teen movie. They are nothing but cheesy. And I love them.

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Liking someone. Is it just something that happens without us realizing it? Is there a particular reason that makes you find a person irresistible? I mean does it start off as so insignificant that it slowly turns into something important to you? All of these rhetorical questions just bury themselves in my thoughts as they overlap and I over analyze something that was just hypothetical to begin with. This is one of my problems. I over think every little word that is said and I forget if the actual words that I am trying to see were even said to begin with. Does this make sense? If not? My bad. Sigh.

Ok Japan has a ton of cute things that I wish we had here. One of the things I wish we had here is Purikura photo booths. Now we have photo booths here. But lets face it.They suck. And lately I haven’t seen any photo booths around to tell you the truth. There is no longer an arcade in my towns mall. And the photo booths they used to have are now gone. I think. Tomorrow…I mean later today I am on a quest to find a sticker photo booth. I’m sure I won’t be able to find one in my town because there isn’t any. But it could be that I haven’t actually had a need for one. But anyway going back to Purikura and its awesomeness. I know I can always find brushes for it on photoshop but I have always wanted to print out stickers and such. I found this site that lets you make purikura and order sticker sets like you get in Japan. Just click on the picture of Kat and me. It will take you to the site. Or click here if you are the type to skim and only click on highlighted things that appear to be links.

The other day I went to a store called Calico Cats Sewing Center. I didn’t get a good look around because they were closing. But I now I know where I can buy nice fabric. Of course its like 8 bucks a yard so thats annoying. But this is a family owned business it looks like. This is a picture from the net. But I intend to take pictures of my own later today. From what little I saw I am already in love with the store. Mom also took us to Hastings where I got the sequel to Evermore. Which is Blue Moon.  I love getting new books. I wish I could get a job at Hastings in the book department. Sigh. I will get a job. I am not giving up!

So I have a quest to fulfill later today. And to find the other fabric store that my sister says exist. I should go to sleep now. Night night.

“Adults are like kids…
Day and night are the same…
Friends are like lovers…
To like is also to love…
Its’s easy to say this,
but it’s never this easy in life. When I’m with you, I’ll know the answer.”- Akira Shouko

My sister and I would baby sit our neighbors cat. It started when my sister was like 12 who is now 24, and then after she left home I started taking care of Spicy with Kathy when I was 13 or so. I am now 19 and I have up til now took care of this cat when her owners go out of town. But sadly she has past away.

I know she was old, and I know all things come to an end. But I never thought it would happen. I can’t imagine how Laura must feel finding her beloved pet cat dead. Being an owner of two cats myself I know how attached one can get. They may be pets but they are still family. Spicy was the sweetest cat I knew. She would rub against my leg waiting for me to feed her. And then brush her coat when she was finished eating. Sometimes I would fall asleep there and wake up with her sleeping next to me or on me. I’m going to miss Spicy.

I already missed a day this month, and I could just go back and add an entry and just pretend it was written on that day. But I have decided I wouldn’t cheat. So I will try again next month, and during that time I will be better prepared and make sure that I update my blog every day that month. Plus next month is my birthday and I will have already started classes so I should have much more to update with. But I will eventually do the whole month of blogging thing. I should try to make my blog less boring. But I have no clue on how to do that so…yeah.

… continue reading this entry.

I haven’t slept since my last blog. I am trying to make it to 5 or 6 pm until I can go to sleep. Because then I can sleep the whole night and not wake up at like 1 am or something. So I finished another bag. I had to do something to fight the sleep, and it worked seeing as I am still up right now. But as soon as it is the ok sleep zone, I will be out like a light. The sooner the better.>I had a ton written before. But for some odd reason it didn’t save and now it is all gone.Well seeing as I have to have something to update with for today. I decided to keep that for todays update.

So yeah this will remain my shortest entry.

I am trying to make a purse. But it isn’t coming out the way I want it to. I for the love of chocolate cannot draw/cut a straight line. I’m not sure why. But isn’t that something you learn in like the first grade?

The night before I made Kat a Japanese knot purse. It came out better than I thought it would. Now I am trying to make myself a sling purse. Lets just say things aren’t working out. But I will not give up. I am using Beatles fabric and I can’t just waste this fabric unless I intend to use it. So its too late to go back now. I must continue on. I know I said that would try to update every day this month, but maybe I should just try every day this week or something? lol I will still try every day this month though. TrueBlood should be coming on tonight so I’m going to watch that and hope it will get me in a more positive mood. I finished making my sling purse. I think I did a two steps wrong.  But oh well you can only learn from your mistakes right? Its reversible, unless I decide to put pockets in it.

You know that thing? What’s it called? Love?… I’m sure everyone has felt this feeling at least once in their lifetime. I mean maybe a glimmer of it? If not, then don’t worry your time will come. Of course there are different types of love. Theres the family love, and then there is the love you have for you friends. And then there is the kind everyone can’t wait to experience. Yeah the romantic kind.

I mean I know I am usually sarcastic about this stuff. But that doesn’t mean I don’t hope to experience it too. You know the whole cheesy cloud nine, you’re “The One” nonsense? Yup that too. But I do not want to be the type of girl that is incredibly depressed for being single. I mean yeah being in a relationship can be a wonderful high. But I do not need a guy to make me happy. I am happy… well at the moment I’m hungry and bored. But there is still some happiness in there somewhere. I mean I have no hate towards the lovey dovey people that are currently in romantic relationships, and I don’t pity the people that are trying to discover a way to confess their love at this very moment. And to the married couples/engaged couples, congrats on finding “The One”. … continue reading this entry.

Last Thursday my mom and sisters and I saw Phantom of the Opera on stage. It was amazing. I have seen a couple of operas, and Rent on stage but this was so much more…there are really no words to describe it. It was so fast paced and there were so many things to look at and notice. I loved every second of it.

I love Andrew Lloyd Webber’s musicals, my favorite might be Starlight Express…no maybe Cats. Who am I kidding I can’t just choose one. I like a lot of them. But Phantom of the Opera is the first one I have seen on stage. I have only seen the others on dvd and memorize the songs by heart. Sigh. Seeing this on stage was just wonderful. It was so beautiful I think my favorite part was during the Masquerade. Its so pretty. I definitely think if you aren’t sure about musicals this one would change your mind about them. So Sunday, we saw Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. I only read to the fourth book of the series so I couldn’t compare the last three movies with the books. Even though I enjoy doing that. But anyway with this movie I can’t say that it was good. I don’t know it just didn’t fit with the rest of the movies to me. But I’m not a big Harry Potter fan so I can’t really say anything about it. Oh and Mija and Kat and I made a dailybooth for our monsters. Because we are the biggest nerds in the world. But oh well. I think we might actually keep this one actually daily compared to our personal accounts.

The one time I play a cd in the car it gets stuck. T-T Why?! This happening made me in such a bad mood that I took it out on my mom. Which caused us to get into an argument, which resulted in me talking back and saying something I shouldn’t. When I get mad I blame it on others, especially when its most likely my fault to begin with. A habit I should immediately fix. So the first thing I should do when I wake up, is apologies. I mean I sort of did, but it was no where near enough. Sigh. I hate being angry and frustrated. STUPID ANGER FOR MAKING ME SPEAK BEFORE THINKING! >_<

This was the first time that I have seen a Jrock cd from a band that I actually like there. So Mija bought it for me. And then on the way home I from her apartment on Monday I wanted to listen to the cd, because I didn’t put the songs on my Ipod yet. And after the last song finished I pushed eject only to hear this horrible clicking sound instead of receiving my cd. T-T I’m so sad. I tried everything I could think of get it out, but no luck. Now I did rip it so its not like I don’t have the songs, but thats not the point. I still want the cd to be in its case and be in working condition. Like I said in a previous post I forgot how much I like buying cds. But this one is a Jrock cd so its 100 times more important. Plus Mija bought it for me. My only hope is that if mom takes it to the card dealer ship they can remove it with absolutely no damage to the cd. AAHHHHH! If Only I just put the songs on my Ipod then I this would never have happened. Pfffft >_<

The cd before its current predicament. Sigh.

I’m so annoyed right now that I can’t even update like normal. Pfffft Hopefully my next entry will be completely happy news to report.