Inside Kimmy's Mind

The past few weeks have flown by extremely quickly. Time is not its normal self, too much fun I guess. Damn time for knowing when I am having fun in order to speed up. Cheeky bastard, is what time is.

This is my third week with Mija and I have done nothing but sleep late and play around with Tomo. Oh and read. Tons of reading has taken place since I have been out of school. Since I have decided not to take classes this coming month I am able to relax and not worry about the upcoming semester. Granted I will most likely have to worry about it in July, and if not then in August when I have no choice but to take classes. Sigh. I rather like not having to worry about assignments and getting to class on time and walking to class. I know these things are difficult and I have it easy compared to others and I do not have the right to complain. But I’m sorry, bitching is one of the main things I am known for. o.O I know, and this isn’t something I am proud of. Its just something I have a hard time controlling. lol Anyway, the other day Mija took me for frozen yogurt at Berripop. It was so yummy, I had the chance to get three toppings, and I must say there was unusual choices. After picking the Acai Berry flavor I of course chose the common toppings of granola and strawberries to follow. However, choice number three was… cheesecake bits. I have never had cheesecake bits as a topping before. But it was delicious. Mija picked the Berripop original flavor which was like a vanilla sort of flavor. Followed by granola and blueberries and strawberries to top it all off. I hope the next time to get a larger cup. >_<

Mija also took me to Potbelly for dinner the day before. And I must say the sandwich that I devoured that evening was extremely delicious. I ate a chicken salad sandwich and she ate a ham and cheese. I have never enjoyed a chicken salad sandwich as much as this one before. It was so good that there is no point in even attempting to describe how good it was. Yes it was that good. Just take my word for it. After coming eating we came back to the apartment to call mom and dad. However calling isn’t enough, so we decided to video call mom. Dad was a little hyper (aka drunk) he wouldn’t sit down and have a normal conversation with us. Instead he would get extremely close to the camera or get distracted by himself in the screen. lol I love my dad. And what you are about to see as you scroll down is something I could possibly get grounded for all eternity for posting on the internet. But resistance is futile. So here are two pictures that I screened cap from the video conversation with my family back at home. Just click on it to get the full picture. I swear my dad is so funny. He is also extremely ADD but you got to love him.

I have stayed up all night and have yet gone to sleep. What have I been doing? Well if you must know I am attempting to make a layout. I hopefully will have it finished soon so Mija can code it and it will be for all to see. It is a layout for this site. And what is going to happen to it is, I am going to have all the links to all of my social networking sites all in one spot. For example: Facebook, Youtube, Dailybooth, Twitter, and of course my blog. So instead of giving people individual links I can give them the url to this page and they will be able to find everything I do on the internet with the slightest of ease. Pretty clever I think. Hopefully it will be done soon. I am also working on a layout for my live journal because it is time for a change. Along with making layouts in the dark of night, well in the early morning really I also had the chance to watch the mini series Lost in Austen. It was so funny.

I wonder what Jane Austen would have thought of it if she had the chance to watch it. Would she laugh? Or be offended by what they did to her story? In my opinion it was good. But thats just me.

I remain creatively stumped. I have no idea what to paint on my Munny, I want to go on a book overload, and I need to make a vlog as well using what I filmed at Domy Books. But in the mean time here are some pictures of the store that I have yet to share.

I don’t want to talk too much about this store because then I won’t leave anything for my vlog. Just know it is a kick ass store made of awesome. With the minor exception its awesomeness is fucking expensive. But oh well I still find it amazing.Ok so I spent the past two weeks with my sister Mija and I had fun. She wants me to come back for a third week. Awww I must be so awesome that she just can’t ever get tired of me. So I said why not. I changed my mind about going to classes this month. So I now have an actual summer vacation. Sigh. I’m such a bad student. I might go to classes during the Summer II semester. Anyway, I think I spoiled her by staying for the second week and now she doesn’t want to be alone at her place. lol I don’t mind staying at her place, I mean I’m not bored or anything. I’m just homesick. At least I know that when the time comes for me to actually move in with her we will be able to actually live under the same roof together. Well the other day she bought some sushi for us and we made chow mein. It was so yummy. Of course Tomo (her pet cat) was a curious weirdo and wanted to investigate the sushi. Like he would like it, he is a weird cat. Not at all like my cat Mister. He would eat anything. A regular walking, breathing, eating machine.

Speaking of noodles mom rented the movie The Ramen Girl starring Brittany Murphy the other day. And so we watched it when we came home on Saturday while eating ramen. The movie was cute, I’m just glad they took out a bunch of unnecessary scenes. It would have changed my opinion of the movie. And her love interest? Sohee Park? Is such a cutie.

I wish Kathy would update more often without me having to tell her. I might as well go and bother her right now seeing as I will be gone for another week. hehehe ^_^

I have been keeping a journal for as long as I can remember. However, before I started keeping a blog I managed to completely fill 3 journals. And for some odd reason after discussing this issue with my younger sister Kat; I have recently pulled these journals out. I have discovered that my younger self was an idiot.

These completed journals are from ages 14 to 18 I believe. Because when I turned 19 I started keeping my blog and I didn’t write in a journal as much. Updating my blog was much more entertaining for me. Of course blogs are journals that you can share with friends. Whereas a written journal isn’t available for the eyes of others. I mean I have the ability to keep the entries I would like private but what fun would that be? And when I feel like writing stuff I don’t want others to know thats when I can return to old fashion journal writing. The reason I only have three completely filled journals is because I couldn’t concentrate on writing in one journal. I was always getting new ones and I would immediately start writing in them forgetting the journal I had already began writing in. So I have tons of journals not even half filled. (Thats pretty sad) So when I turned 14 I was able to actually keep writing in a journal until it was completely filled. Of course as I reread words from my younger years I couldn’t help but mock myself. They are filled with ridiculous arguments with the friends I no longer see nor talk to. It was weird to reread pages I haven’t seen in awhile. Even though these entries were written years ago, I can read them and remember the events that took place like it was yesterday. Weird right? Well anyway, whats the point in reading about the past? You are supposed to look to the future right?

Anyway I spent money this past week. I had text book money still and I received late late graduation money. So I couldn’t resist. I bought a Keroppi wallet and clothes. I love Keroppi and he is being replaced by another fucking frog. They don’t look that much different from each other. But for some odd reason I only love Keroppi. Buying clothes is weird for me I don’t always like trying on clothes. But there are times when I actually enjoy buying new clothes and of course layer. >_< My first week with Mija went smoothly. We didn’t fight so that was good, I’m going back with her for the second week hopefully this one goes just as smoothly. The only thing is I hate that she works so late. By the time she gets home she is so tired that she goes to sleep early sometimes. Pffft And I’m not helping by distracting her. Well besides taking me to the Galleria three times last week she also took me to Domy Books. Oh it was a wonderful store (expensive) but amazing. I’m glad she took me there. I planned to spend the last of my money on a Munny for Hyun but I decided to buy the wallet. Sorry Hyun. >_<

I wore this on Monday. I love dressing in layers. No matter what season it is. -_- I know in the summer that’s not the best idea because well…its hot. But I see layering as comfortable. I know some times its really unnecessary to have certain layers but to me I like them. Sometimes I dress like a kid and not like a 19 year old. But I mean how do 19 year girls dress? I don’t wear makeup, I’m not even sure I know how to apply the stuff. But I what you see is what you get. I don’t wear a mask to hide my imperfections. O.o I don’t know how to look mature and grownup because I still look childish. Oh well I guess I should enjoy that while I’m young right?

In other news: I just watched a commercial for a special of the show John and Kate plus 8 and I think they discuss his cheating on Kate. I still can’t believe that he would do that. He is supposed to be a family man, not a typical testosterone filled male. I mean really? His kids are going to realize what he did when they are older and just be filled with embarrassment, anger and disappointment . It makes me think why do men who cheat even get married? I mean if they are filled with some doubt then why even start a family if you are just going to cheat later on? I mean from watching the show I would get annoyed by Kate’s never ending demands and bossy attitude. But he knew how she was when he married her so he had to have known what he was getting himself into. I mean he says in the trailer that that he can’t be just John. Well sorry John you signed up for a show and this is what you get when you exploit your family. sigh. I just thought I’d like to discuss this matter.

I should really get a life huh?

The past few weeks or so….

• I volunteered last week for my college at a golf course. And I was attacked by heat and mosquitoes. Ouch. I spent time with Cate so that was awesome and I meet several other people that go to my school. I just don’t ever want to volunteer outside ever again. -_-

• I also saw RENT the musical for the second time. Except this time I was able to watch it with Anthony Rapp and Adam Pascal. ORIGINAL ROGER AND MARK!!! I have video of Anthony Rapp giving me his autograph, and I will try to make a vlog as soon as I can.

• I got to see my Korean brother Hyun the other day. It was good to see him of course he was mean to me as usual, but what brother doesn’t pick on his sisters? Well he left for Korea early Sunday morning so we only got to see him on Thursday. He looks older but at the same time he still looks the same. lol I find it so strange how long we have known each other. I met him my freshman year of high school. Hyun along with Haruka (Japanese exchange student) became apart of my family. I don’t get to talk to Haruka often but I’m so glad that he still visits and talks to me. Awww memories.

On a serious note: I wanted to mention this one time and one time only. Because pretending like it didn’t happen isn’t working. My ex called me about a week ago. He wanted to discuss “us”. Now its been about 5 months since we have been an “us” and I haven’t even talked to him, but for some reason when I heard my cell ring I had a feeling it was him. Now thanks to the invention of cell phones I haven’t memorized a phone number in like forever, so after we broke up I deleted his number so I wouldn’t try to call him. I guess subconsciously I recognized the number or something and I answered it. Sigh. He told me that he loved me and that he wanted to get back together. To make things short, he said everything I wanted to hear the night of our break up 5 months ago. (weird coincidence- He broke up with me January 6th, and called me again May 6th) Anyway, of course I still have feelings for him, he meant a lot to me. But at the same time I am a bitter bitch. And I kept thinking why now out of all the times he could have talked to me. What made today special? We had a class together he could have talked to me then. So we talked. I told him that I am still the same person I was when he dumped me. That for what ever reason he broke up with me before could happen again and that would he even be willing to put us through that again? He told me no that he finally knows what he wants and that’s me. And that he wouldn’t make the same mistake twice. Of course his words were amazing and alluring. And I was on cloud nine once again. I finally got to hear what I wanted to hear 5 months ago. So I said hypothetically- If we were going to get back together we would have to take it slow. Just to make sure things still clicked. We couldn’t just act like nothing happened.  He said he would agree to anything. No matter how bitter, or bitchy I was he didn’t care. As long as we could work on becoming “us” again. However, I’m not allowed to see him/date him. So I had to say good bye to him once again. My parents never really like him much before so having him in my life again wasn’t even an option. Saying good bye is not an easy thing to do. Whether its a good bye see you soon, or a good bye for now, or a good bye forever? It is difficult. Dylan is a very important person to me, but I thought perusing a relationship with him again would have caused more heart ache than happiness. My family would never have accepted him, and he would have been really unhappy with me. Although I felt annoyed that he reopened almost healed wounds, it was good to talk to him again. My friend Missy said its good because now we have no harsh feelings so that part is true. We talked like we were never apart so I think one day I will be able to talk to him again but as friends only. Wow depressing. Ok This will be  last time I’m talking about this.

• I’m at my sisters apartment for two weeks. I don’t start classes again until June 8th. And I’m so looking forward to that. >_< Bleh.

“So many faces in and out of my life; some will last, some will be just now and then. Life is a series of hellos and good byes, I’m afraid it’s time for goodbye again.”

Classes are over!….For now anyway.

This is what happens when I don’t have homework or classes to worry about: My sleep patterns worsens.

Well classes maybe over, but I have horrible news. I didn’t do too well in math class. I will have to retake the class in the summer. I don’t know what happened, I guess I wasn’t concentrating on it like I should have been. But I will not let this happen again. I am so disappointed in myself. I have never failed a class before. The next time I take this class I will ace it. I have always had troubled in math ever since I started school. I can’t believe time is moving so fast. I think when I was in high school it went by slower. Not sure why. Sigh. I hope I get the job in the Library. I desperately need that job. It would be so perfect. I am up because I can’t sleep and I have a massive headache. >_<

I just finished watching a Bollywood movie right now called Main Prem Ki Diwani Hoon. I haven’t watched a Bollywood movie since I was in junior high. Anyway, I like it because these movies are so dramatic. lol The characters are so passionate, ok sometimes a little cheesy. But in my opinion its the cute adorable cheesy. I mean who hasn’t wanted to break into song and dance before? I know I have. Anyway Its really late and I haven’t gone to sleep yet. Or its really early, depending how you look at it.

But before I thought about going to bed I decided to take random pictures of my room at around 6:30 in the morning. So here is what I shot with my sisters rebel something camera. Freaking awesome camera if you ask me. Just rather heavy.

Me and the camera.

My lantern ball and night stand.

My necklace.

My window.

Well that wasn’t exactly artistic. I was just bored. Speaking of not being artistic, I have already starting drawing on my Munny as you can see from my dailybooth photo. I don’t like it so far, but I am determined to like it once its finished. I’m thinking of trying some paint on it.

Ok I better get some sleep seeing as it is 7:30 am. Alright night night.

I made the mistake in procrastinating yet another assignment. I hate when I run out of time. I am in desperate need of a brain switching. And I would love to switch brains with a great math mastermind. Any takers?

Ok. I keep trying to making a vlog. But for some reason my flip video files haven’t been working properly. So its taking me longer than usual. I hate that. I don’t know why my video didn’t show up as wide screen. Its bugging me.(new thought) So I applied for a job at my college, and apparently I have to become a part of the student work program. But since I answered no to a bunch of questions I need to put my parents information down instead. However, if my parents make too much money then they won’t hire me. How unfair is that? I’m so annoyed right now. I NEED MONEY!!!!!

I got a text from a friend that I haven’t talked to in awhile. He wanted to hang out this weekend so he could introduce his girlfriend to me. I mean I didn’t think I would be in his ‘must meet my girlfriend’ category of friends. I feel special. However, I can’t hang out this weekend because I’m going to watch RENT!

WITH ORIGINAL CAST MEMBERS ANTHONY RAPP AND ADAM PASCAL!!!! I’m psyched for this.

I can’t wait. It will be two weekends in a row that we spent with Mija.

The deserts we had with Mija last weekend.

Desert at Andre’s for the second time.

Then on Sunday we got some gelato- Italian ice cream. I think it was good. Moms flavor wasn’t that good though. It’s that yellow one, I think it was mango. Mine was strawberry and some cream and caramel flavor.

I want a Munny. I’m not sure why, I just do. I’m sure it will take me a long time before I even decide what to paint on it. (I mean I started painting a Russian doll for my friends birthday in March and still haven’t finished them yet. SORRY MISSY! Eventually I will finish those.) Anyway, I want my friend Hyun to make one, I’m sure his will come out amazing. I’m tempted to just send him one. And make him paint one. I don’t mind getting a 4-inch one. But the getting a bigger one would be nice too. >_<

I should start on my SciFi Final. Its due on Monday, that way all I will have to do is study for History and then I’m done. For this semester anyway. Classes start again on June 8 for me. I only get a Month off but oh well. T_T I think I should just continue on with classes so I don’t get even lazier. Knowing me if I had more than a month off I wouldn’t want to go back to classes in the fall. So I think this is the best for me. Bleh. I need to buckle down. I HATE MATH! IT SHOULD JUST ROLL OVER AND DIE A HORRIBLE PAINFUL DEATH THAT WIPES IT FROM THE FACE OF THE EARTH. Or just from the list of classes I have to take. This is all I ask.

My horoscope the other day, said that I would come into some money. And that my plans for world domination were coming along nicely…..interesting. And I just noticed that for this entry, I put it in all of my categories, minus creative writing. Weird right?

I have a headache, I want to be lazy and sleep, I need to write lots of things, I want to read lots of books, I want to make a video!!! I need to study! I want/need/don’t/have to do a lot of things and all at the same time!!!!!! Oh if only I could freeze time for a bit. I would do everything I needed to do before they were due. I know that would have its consequences. I have watched way too many movies.

My English class is over with, I just need to finish my last essay which I’m just about done with. Its about whats real and whats not: Sex dolls. We watched the movie Lars and the real girl. But it made me think of a documentary I watched a while back. Oh and an article I read here.

I need to finish my chapter for my SciFi class. And then I need to write an essay for my scholarship which is due next week. I keep wanting to make a vlog, I haven’t made one that wasn’t apart of the KimCateKat videos. And the last time I made one was in January. How sad is that?This weekend my family and I are going to the Japanese festival. I hope the weather is nice this weekend. I don’t want it to be too hot when we go because then I will be extremely cranky.

Anyway, math class is stressing me out so bad at the moment. I’m afraid I will fail it, I don’t want to have to repeat this class over. My final is next week and I don’t think I’m prepared for it. I mean no matter how much I study I wouldn’t be prepared/ think I can ever be prepared for it. Math isn’t just memorizing facts, and its not based on your opinion, its finding the right answer. And I can’t do that if I have no clue how to solve the problem. And there are so many rules and laws. If I forget even one step the whole problem is wrong. sigh. Its a multiple choice test which might be good. I can always guess if worse comes to worse. But I still am afraid. The final is over what I learned over the entire semester. Its not like in my History class which is just over Unit three. My English class is just an essay and my SciFi class is take home questions plus an essay. All of them I can do, except for stupid math. I hate worrying about shit like this. Because then I get in a sort of frenzy and I end up making myself sick and such. BLEH!!!!

I should finish my essays, that will get my mind off potentially becoming a failure. Well I’m off to write a story and an essay.

Moments like this call for a smile. I can’t help it, no self discipline.

I came across something that I just  had to mention. There are these instructional videos that my school offers to students for studying purposes. Different math teachers take turns in being in them. But while I was watching one on Quadratic expressions, I noticed something…. a spelling error! *GASP* I was taken aback. lol No not really I was just amused. Anyway, I would write down what I heard from the video but when I went back to actually watch what the teacher was writing, thats when I noticed that she had used the wrong principle. She had written principal instead. lol I love when math teachers mess up. Heck I love when any teacher messes up. lol I mean its not life threatening so I can laugh about it. Right?

As you can see, I have written the correct one in my notes. I am so smart. I know this isn’t worth a blog entry. But I’m avoiding another boring book. T_T

Ever since my sisters and I were young, we have loved matching. We basically try to match as much as possible. Of course we didn’t get this way on our own. I think it started with our mom. She used to dress us in matching outfits when we were kids. Then it somehow was programed into Mija’s mind that matching was necessary. Now that we are older it hasn’t changed a bit. I think its gotten stronger.

We like to match each other. Because we like most of the same things so its not hard to match. One of the most recent items we are currently matching is bentos. Mija just got hers in the mail Monday and we just had to take pictures of them all together. We now each have an actual bento and silverware to go with it. YAY! I know you are probably thinking wow you three are weird. Although that part is true, I think we are awesome. >_< When we match stuff we usually match by our favorite colors. Mija is blue, Kat is red, and I am green. We intend to match according to colors and personality. I don’t see matching as a bad thing. I like that we like similar things. It makes us brings us closer as sisters. Well anyway Kat made our lunches for today, I usually just eat whatever we have. But today I actually had something waiting for me. I felt so special today. … continue reading this entry.