Inside Kimmy's Mind

“I’ve learned that good-byes will always hurt, pictures will never replace having been there, memories good and bad will bring tears, and words can never replace feelings.”

I had a bunch of stuff written. But my internet was being wonky and wouldn’t work causing me to lose the “Stuff” that was typed here before. So now I am extremely annoyed because I don’t quite remember how I worded things. Tsk. But I know I liked it. Sigh-_- So know that from this point on I am annoyed. Ok on with the annoyed post. … continue reading this entry.

First off I’d like to say thanks to Mija for my new blog layout! THANK YOU MIJA!!!!

Ok. Well I went to see Coraline( it was absolutely adorable, Neil Gaiman is a mastermind!) with my Valentine, and sisters. Missy thanks for spending Valentine’s Day with me. You know most single people see Valentine’s day as S.A.D. (Single Awareness Day) Now its not like I haven’t been single before, its just I haven’t been single in over a year. Now this time last year I spent my time looking for the perfect card for my significant other. But this year? I went all out. lol Which is funny because I went all out for my friend and not for my boyfriend (when I had one). hehehe I was like hey just because I don’t have a boyfriend that doesn’t mean I can’t celebrate Valentine’s Day. Ok so its a day for lovers to announce once again just how much they care for each other. But I see it as a day for people, single or taken to let anyone they love know just that. My friend Missy had totally surprised me with chocolates and a love bug plushie along with a pink rose. I felt so special. So I made her a love jar (which contained a few reasons why I love her, not all but a few) and chocolate covered strawberries.(which were good) I hope you enjoyed them Missy.

I am tired. I haven’t been sleeping right at all. I know I am the only one who can solve this problem. Tuesday I have a math test and I’m not quite sure which part of my research essay is due this week. Damnit. (My leg hurts >_<) I love the show United States of Tara. It is so cute. You should definitely watch it. Oh and I watched the show Doll House as well. Its made by the same creators as Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Angel. The first episode was pretty good so I’m gonna keep watching it, unless it gets stupid. But so far so good. Cate I can’t get over how adorable your new video was. It was amazing! Speaking of videos, I am so annoyed with Youtube right now. They keep muting my videos. So far in the past couple of months they have pointed out two of my videos that were in violation with the music. Ok and today I had to delete a video that I made over a year ago. How am I supposed to get a famous bands permission to use their songs? I mean come on really? Cyber stalking is annoying and so junior high. I also wanted to talk about this article. It says that a 12 year old boy from London impregnated his 14 year old girlfriend. Are you serious? What 14 year old girl dates a 12 year old boy? I mean really? Ok they haven’t taken a paternity test to prove that the now 13 yr, boy is in fact the father. I mean wow. Does a 12 year old boy even know how to impregnate a girl? I mean isn’t he still going through puberty? I doubt that he is the father. Another article says, that the girl had slept with two other guys so I’m guessing either one of those dumb asses are likely the father of this naive girls newborn baby girl. I think its just weird for a 13 year old boy to have a baby. I mean when a 15 yr old girl has a baby its mostly because their stupid “older” boyfriend can’t either: A. Date someone his own age. B. Keep it in his pants. C. Is way too lazy to purchase a condom and use said condom. I mean really? I know young teens are stupid and impressionable but parents really need to explain to their dumb underage daughters and their horny overage sons (and vice versa) the seriousness of having sex. I mean I don’t want to sound like an after school special, but come on parents of the world. TALK TO YOUR DUMB KIDS. I find it strange that an older girl slept with a 12 year old boy. So I am assuming it was her doing that initiated the sexual relationship with this kid named Alfie. Of course I’m not saying she deserves all the blame. I find them along with their parents at fault for allowing their children to spend the night together. That’s right, they allowed Alfie to spend the night at his girlfriend’s house, where I’m guessing the fornicating took place. How sad. sigh.

I read this short story called Criminal Act by Harry Harrison. Where people are only allowed to have two children if you were to have a any more than that then you would have to die so your child could live. The main character of this story however fights back. They hire an assassin to kill the “offender” and if he fails then he takes the place as the one less mouth to feed. Of course (sorry if I ruin it) in the end the main character kills the assassin and thinks everything will be fine. He can live with his wife and three kids. His wife is pregnant with twins. And thats how it ends. Creepy right? Another short story called Problems with Creativeness by Thomas M. Disch. In this story, only smart people are allowed to have children. If you were not considered smart then you were not allowed to reproduce. The water supply had a contraceptive in it so thats how they stopped people from reproducing. These two stories were written in the 50’s and 60’s. Interesting reads.

They are called Condoms! You know, in case you haven’t heard of them.

“You get ideas from daydreaming. You get ideas from being bored. You get ideas all the time. The only difference between writers and other people is we notice when we’re doing it.”- Neil Gaiman

A very interesting thing happened today. Something that is even more rare then pigs flying and blue moons. Dun dun dun….my cats slept next to each other. *GASP* Tis an unusual sight. But then I missed it up when I went outside to get a better picture and Kozi got up and left Mr. alone with the leaves. Poor Mr.

After dad finished eating dinner he let Misto inside and held him and proceeded to tell us for the 100th time that it looks like Misto is wearing chaps. Lmao! Oh how silly. Well this weekend was completely uneventful. I did absolutely nothing on Saturday. Sunday I went to bed at 4:30 in the morning, and woke up at 6:30am to go to church with dad. I washed my clothes and then took a nap and didn’t wake up til like 4 something. I’m just messing around on the internet. Sigh wow boring blog. I need to finish reading NEVERWHERE by next week. But I’m also watching the television show that aired in 1996 on BBC Two. Neil Gaiman is so fucking awesome. I need to straighten my hair. I now hear Mr. fighting with another cat or something. I swear he makes the strangest noises. Oh you should look up songs by Melanie Horsnell. Her songs are used in a lot of commericals. My favorite one is this McDonald’s one. So cute. So yeah recap, I did nothing and now I am updating my blog with pictures of my cats and fast food commercials. How pathetic am I? Well this week on Wednesday I don’t have any classes. Hurray! So I can film my KimCateKat video. And put it up on the 6th. Hopefully. Well I’m going to straighten my hair and watch/read NEVERWHERE. YAY.

Life — and I don’t suppose I’m the first to make this comparison — is a disease: sexually transmitted, and invariably fatal.- Neil Gaiman (I thought this one was hilarious)

“Whenever you’re in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude.” William James

I had just my history class today. I didn’t really pay attention though. I was thinking about tons of different things. It was weird, I dreaded going to class today because of…him. But when I got into class, my mind just started thinking about other things. Mainly about things I want to do. And things I need/have to do. I already took care of my history quizzes for the week. But during history I took notes as usual, but when she started talking about things off the notes I started doodling like I normally do, yet it was different. I usually just doodle a star in the corner trying to get it exactly even on all five points. (They are never perfect.) But this time I went a little over board. I mean I took notes…I just sort of ignored all the other talking. Now I doodle names and what not, I was deeply inspired by Neil Gaiman. And as you can see. (Notice that his name is written extremely huge.) So yeah that was history class.

I planned on making a skirt today and painting something as well but I got distracted by the movie Nick and Norah’s infinite playlist. Oh and my mom bought the movie REPO! The Genetic Opera. I need to do so many things. I need to write the first page for my six page essay for tomorrow, I need to read my book. And I want to read about a million other books too. Oh and the other night I watched The United States of Tara. It is a really good show. I immediately loved it after the first few minutes of the first episode. I found a new show to take the spot of True Blood. Until the second season starts of course. YAY! I am sleepy. I wish I had more hours in the day to do things. I still need to straighten my hair right now and do the dishes. I’m hungry too. And my feet hurt. lol Bitch Bitch Bitch. Right? I need to stop wasting time and do the things I have to do. I should write a To do list. Here it is. Stuff I need to do followed by stuff I want to do.

1. Write the biography page on Charlaine Harris
2. Straighten my hair.
3. dishes.
4. read Birds of America
5. read Neverwhere
6. read three stories from my Oxford book
7. do the last two times of Quiz 18 even though I made a 90 on it .

1. read Sunshine
2. read Definitely Dead
3. read All together dead
4. paint lots of pictures thanks to Neil Gaiman and Dave Mckean
5. make a video
6. make I don’t know how many skirts

I know it may not seem like a lot of things, but it feels like it. Could you imagine if I had a job? Wow that would suck. I mean I have a lot of things to think about which I guess is good because it takes my mind of things that really suck. Tomorrow is the 22nd of the month. A day that I would normally forget but then remember. It is now a day in the month that I couldn’t forget. It “was” my anniversary. lol I know pathetic to bring it up. It would have been 16 months tomorrow. Gosh how annoying. It is now just a day in every month. Except for December 22nd, which is in fact my cats birthday. But other than that just day. Sigh well there was the lame part of the blog. An entry that began with random notions which lead to my bitching, followed by a little bit of feeling sorry for myself. Sigh Yeah happy reading.

“When you hold resentment toward another, you are bound to that person or condition by an emotional link that is stronger than steel. Forgiveness is the only way to dissolve that link and get free.” – Catherine Ponder

(This quote really describes how I felt today. But it sucks because I have no control over it. I can’t get rid of this feeling. Sigh Fuck ass.) ~_~

2009!

Another year went by. Weird right? Its strange because when I was little I used to think I wonder how it will be when I am in high school? And I am already starting my second semester of college on the 12th. Its so weird (not to be cliché or anything) how time just flew by. I mean we have calendars and watches to keep track of time. Yet it always zooms by without anyone actually realizing it. I watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button last week. Which might explain this entry. Anyway in my opinion it was OK. I was curious (no pun intended) about it. There are just a lot of things that they should never have put in the movie. So yeah. My mom and sister Mija hated it and thought it was a waste of time and money. I mean I am glad I saw it. I was curious remember. Damn trailers.

 I am in love with my sewing machine. I was afraid that I wasn’t going to be able to learn how to use it, but I have. I taught myself how to sew on a zipper, which wasn’t easy. My first attempt was ok, but my third was perfect. I made my mom a coin purse. But the best part about it is that I made it with Beatles fabric. Its a revelation so I’m told. lol. I found it at Walmart. I was so excited and had to buy it. Isn’t it awesome? I really like these pictures of them too.

 I was going to spend this coming week with Mija, but due to school related stuff I am unable to go. I will also miss meeting Charlaine Harris. She is the author of the Sookie Stackhouse mystery novels which is what the HBO show True Blood was based on. She was having an autograph session near my sisters apartment. I was going to meet her but now I can’t. It sucks. I was looking forward to it. Hopefully I will get another chance to meet her. T_T Anyway that really put a damper on my last week off. I was going to have an awesome week with my sister. But that’s ok I might get to hang out with my Korean brother Hyun. He is coming home tomorrow. Plus I might hang out with Cate or Missy as well. I haven’t spent anytime with my friends and I miss them. I hope classes go smoothly, and cause as little stress as possible. But…and not to sound negative here, I have a feeling I’m going to be extremely stressed out this semester.

Just not with classes. Sigh. >_< I hope I’m wrong.

www.charlaineharris.com/biography.html

Tale as old as time
True as it can be
Barely even friends
Then somebody bends
Unexpectedly

Mom surprised me with this Beauty and the Beast ornament. Of course I’m not hanging it on the tree. It goes with all the rest of my Belle merchandise. I’m obsessed with Disney’s Beauty and the Beast. I mean I just love the story. I love when mom buys me stuff like this. This ornament is so adorable. Its a music box as well as an ornament. Belle and her Beast (which I always wondered what his name actually was. I named him Charles lol) spin around to their song. Tale as Old as Time. It just makes me smile every time I look at it, I love my mommy.

So some more good news. I finally got that book I ordered online. Starcrossed. It took a month for it to be delivered. How ridiculous is that? Extremely ridiculous. Tsk. But I got it now so lets move on.

Next, I should start studying for exams and finishing my last essay for English. But I am so lazy! I keep putting things off. I find other things to do. For example I should be sleeping right now but I was up so now I am in charge of waking up Mija. But I have a feeling once I click publish for this blog I’m going to go straight to sleep. *Sorry Mija*>_< I have been reading books like nobody’s business. I have finished Club Dead in one day. From the Sookie Stackhouse Novels by Charlaine Harris. True Blood is based on these books. I only have the first three, so I’m reading the 4th one online which I can of hate doing. I want the next two books now. I am so bad when it comes to reading books. Sometimes when I start reading a book to hold me off until I get the book I really really want to read. Once I get the book I really really want I sort of stop reading the filler book. I get carried away when it comes to books.

I have found Dylan the perfect Christmas present. I am so proud of myself. He always gives me wonderful presents, and I always thought I did ok with my gifts to him. But this with out do, anything I have ever given him. I’m excited to give it to him, of course I suck at keeping things a surprise. So wish me luck at keeping it a secret. Mums the word and what not. :p

 Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme
Bitter sweet and strange
Finding you can change
Learning you were wrong

PART 1: I couldn’t help but think this was cute. This is the theme for my gmail, the little fox is always in a different place. lol It changes from day to night. lol Cute right? Earlier he was sitting at the outside table. I know I am weird. But I love it. lol

PART 2: I am really angry with the mail and borders market. I ordered a book at the beginning of the month and the book still hasn’t came. So I sent them an email saying exactly that. They said they refunded me, but I still want the book. Tsk. I hate the mail sometimes. sigh. On another note I am reading Dead until Dark and I’m almost on the second one. So far I like it but I hate to say it but I like the show way more. I’m not gonna anything other than that. I still recommend it though. lol

PART 3: Kitty sitting tomorrow until Wednesday. Finished essay, need to start last one. I need to do my history quizzes. Then get ready for exams and take them and pass them and then……get ready for the next semester. Phew!!

“Just because it is 1in the morning, that shouldn’t mean that TV networks must be incapable of showing different or at least decent movies during this time.” -Me

I do not have classes on Friday. So I like to stay up late. But who am I kidding I sleep late on school nights too. But Thursday nights I can relax without worrying about home work that’s due or something. Well I like staying up and watching TV. Once in awhile they show a good movie. The channels in particular is tbs and USA. Now I can’t remember how many times or when it first started but they have been showing the same exact movie like every night it seems. Or at least every Friday morning. Now I wouldn’t be bothered by it if it was a movie I at least liked. The movie in question is…. Screwed.

I am annoyed by this movie, sorry to the people who actually like this movie. But enough is enough. Why must they keep showing this movie? There is like a million other movies they could show. I mean I know there are people who can’t sleep, or who are like me and are just accustomed to sleeping late. But I mean come on. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, SHOW A DIFFERENT MOVIE! At least for my sanity.

But this is where I turn off the TV and read a good book. I have so many books I want to buy at the moment. I am currently reading three books at the same time because I couldn’t decided which one to read first. I know I’m terrible. So far its going ok I am keeping up with them. My book wishlist just keeps growing and growing. sigh. There are way too many books and I read way too slow. >_<

I just wanted to share this with you Mija and Kat. Because I know you both can appreciate and understand where I am coming from. Plus you can justify that this isn’t just crazy talk.

I’m not crazy. Right?

“Like, I will probably never get struck by lightning, or win a Nobel Prize, or become the dictator of a small nation in the Pacific Islands, or contract terminal ear cancer, or spontaneously combust. But if you consider all the unlikely things together, at least one of them will probably happen to each of us.” – Paper Towns, John Green

I just purchased Paper Towns. I wanted sad Margo cover, but Borders didn’t have it. And I really wanted to buy it so I had no choice but to take happy Margo. Which there is absolutely nothing wrong with Happy Margo cover, I just like sad Margo…more. I can always buy sad Margo when it comes out on paper back. Which I really wish they brought books on paper back first. But I know they make more money in hard back. Plus the book will last much longer. But I hate it when it has a dust jacket. I wanted the cover to be on the book itself. I am extremely picky when it comes to books. I want to read 13 Little Blue Envelopes but I had to pick one. Sigh. I know I should have just waited on Paper Towns, so I could have bought the cover I wanted but what I can I say I am impatient along with indecisive. sigh. Along with Paper Towns I got Undine in the mail the day before. I love getting things in the mail. lol Because I bought it used it is from like a library or something so its hard back but with the protective paper they put on library books. I wish I could put that on my Paper Towns book. Anyway focus Kim. So yeah I have three books I want to read, but I am such a slow reader. I like to take my time and soak it all in. Because books are awesome! I still have to finish Katherines but I’m actually considering reading all three at the same time. lol Dumb idea? >_<

I have History home work to do. I should go to sleep its 4 in the morning. I’m visiting my sister at the moment. I had to put her cat in the bathroom he is annoying. lol But cute too. Ok well good night.

I was feeling a little glum but PAPER TOWNS TOTALLY CHANGED THAT!

“DFTBA! -Don’t forget to be awesome!” – John and Hank Green

“I guess I’m not as good at masking my pain as you are.”-words from Kim

I am in pain. (I was in pain. I’m better now.)

Basically this whole paragraph is old news. I just didn’t post this right away. >_<
I woke up Sunday morning with a crick in my neck.My neck hurts so much. Then again not as bad as it did the night before. It was horrible, I laid down on my back while using a neck pillow (which didn’t help and I ripped it)>_< Sad really. I couldn’t turn over after that, I finally got back to my side. I probably looked ridiculous. So anyway its getting better. I just need another day or so, to be completely back to normal. This is practically how my neck and back is every time I am on the computer. More than a bad habit right? I read that cricks are caused by muscle spasms, or chill or cool air hitting the area that has the crick, and poor sleeping posture. I never thought I had poor sleeping posture. I sleep normal I thought. lol Head on pillow, sometimes on my side or back. How could that be poor?

I can’t decide which cover to buy. But I really want it. I doubt I can get it right away (and I doubt I can get both covers), because I just bought AAoK, and Undine. Here’s hoping *crosses fingers* I love John Green’s style of writing. At first I wasn’t sure if I would but I love it. I found another favorite author and that’s surprising. I usually don’t make an author a fav. until I finish their book. He is hilarious. You should read his books too! I hope I can buy it. If not I will complete the note in cover step. watch youtube link to understand that.