Inside Kimmy's Mind

I have a problem.

And I guess the first step is admitting it. So here I am… admitting it. >_<

I am an online shopaholic. -_-

Now a normal shopaholic buys anything. I on the other hand buy things I need (want). I mostly buy books. I mean it could be a bigger problem? I could be buying useless things. The only problem with me being a book shopaholic is…that my to read list never gets smaller. It is a never ending list. Which isn’t really a bad thing, except for when I get a new book I immediately want to read it. Meaning I ignore whatever book I am already reading. I am currently reading Five books. Four by choice. The fifth one is for my SciFi class and I don’t like it. Dooms Day Book. I just can’t get into and its due in a couple of weeks. Sigh. How am I suppose to read a 578 page book, if I can’t even get past the front cover? (ok that’s a little over the top) But its sort of true. Besides that book, I need to read the short stories for that class as well. Sigh. I want to read what I want to read, not because I have to for a class. Bleh!

Its an interesting addiction no? Being addicted to buying books? lol I just got a book in the mail and I am already ready to buy another one. But I haven’t. So I do have some self control. Now only if I can keep up this control for awhile. I can’t even eat chocolate! T_T I gave it up for lent unintentionally. How? Well dad caught me off guard . Meaning I was half awake? Half asleep? And he conveniently asked me when he was driving me to class. I just said what came to mind- Chocolate? Sigh. Its my fault. Now I can’t eat anything with chocolate until Easter. Woe is me.

Oh if you have a web cam immediately go (here) and make an account and follow me Kimmyduh. You know you want to. I find sites, similar to this one very entertaining. It sort of reminds me of Twitterin away. But only a bit.Well I better sleep. Or I will sleep away tomorrow yet again. So sad.

“I’ve learned that good-byes will always hurt, pictures will never replace having been there, memories good and bad will bring tears, and words can never replace feelings.”

I had a bunch of stuff written. But my internet was being wonky and wouldn’t work causing me to lose the “Stuff” that was typed here before. So now I am extremely annoyed because I don’t quite remember how I worded things. Tsk. But I know I liked it. Sigh-_- So know that from this point on I am annoyed. Ok on with the annoyed post. … continue reading this entry.

First off I’d like to say thanks to Mija for my new blog layout! THANK YOU MIJA!!!!

Ok. Well I went to see Coraline( it was absolutely adorable, Neil Gaiman is a mastermind!) with my Valentine, and sisters. Missy thanks for spending Valentine’s Day with me. You know most single people see Valentine’s day as S.A.D. (Single Awareness Day) Now its not like I haven’t been single before, its just I haven’t been single in over a year. Now this time last year I spent my time looking for the perfect card for my significant other. But this year? I went all out. lol Which is funny because I went all out for my friend and not for my boyfriend (when I had one). hehehe I was like hey just because I don’t have a boyfriend that doesn’t mean I can’t celebrate Valentine’s Day. Ok so its a day for lovers to announce once again just how much they care for each other. But I see it as a day for people, single or taken to let anyone they love know just that. My friend Missy had totally surprised me with chocolates and a love bug plushie along with a pink rose. I felt so special. So I made her a love jar (which contained a few reasons why I love her, not all but a few) and chocolate covered strawberries.(which were good) I hope you enjoyed them Missy.

I am tired. I haven’t been sleeping right at all. I know I am the only one who can solve this problem. Tuesday I have a math test and I’m not quite sure which part of my research essay is due this week. Damnit. (My leg hurts >_<) I love the show United States of Tara. It is so cute. You should definitely watch it. Oh and I watched the show Doll House as well. Its made by the same creators as Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Angel. The first episode was pretty good so I’m gonna keep watching it, unless it gets stupid. But so far so good. Cate I can’t get over how adorable your new video was. It was amazing! Speaking of videos, I am so annoyed with Youtube right now. They keep muting my videos. So far in the past couple of months they have pointed out two of my videos that were in violation with the music. Ok and today I had to delete a video that I made over a year ago. How am I supposed to get a famous bands permission to use their songs? I mean come on really? Cyber stalking is annoying and so junior high. I also wanted to talk about this article. It says that a 12 year old boy from London impregnated his 14 year old girlfriend. Are you serious? What 14 year old girl dates a 12 year old boy? I mean really? Ok they haven’t taken a paternity test to prove that the now 13 yr, boy is in fact the father. I mean wow. Does a 12 year old boy even know how to impregnate a girl? I mean isn’t he still going through puberty? I doubt that he is the father. Another article says, that the girl had slept with two other guys so I’m guessing either one of those dumb asses are likely the father of this naive girls newborn baby girl. I think its just weird for a 13 year old boy to have a baby. I mean when a 15 yr old girl has a baby its mostly because their stupid “older” boyfriend can’t either: A. Date someone his own age. B. Keep it in his pants. C. Is way too lazy to purchase a condom and use said condom. I mean really? I know young teens are stupid and impressionable but parents really need to explain to their dumb underage daughters and their horny overage sons (and vice versa) the seriousness of having sex. I mean I don’t want to sound like an after school special, but come on parents of the world. TALK TO YOUR DUMB KIDS. I find it strange that an older girl slept with a 12 year old boy. So I am assuming it was her doing that initiated the sexual relationship with this kid named Alfie. Of course I’m not saying she deserves all the blame. I find them along with their parents at fault for allowing their children to spend the night together. That’s right, they allowed Alfie to spend the night at his girlfriend’s house, where I’m guessing the fornicating took place. How sad. sigh.

I read this short story called Criminal Act by Harry Harrison. Where people are only allowed to have two children if you were to have a any more than that then you would have to die so your child could live. The main character of this story however fights back. They hire an assassin to kill the “offender” and if he fails then he takes the place as the one less mouth to feed. Of course (sorry if I ruin it) in the end the main character kills the assassin and thinks everything will be fine. He can live with his wife and three kids. His wife is pregnant with twins. And thats how it ends. Creepy right? Another short story called Problems with Creativeness by Thomas M. Disch. In this story, only smart people are allowed to have children. If you were not considered smart then you were not allowed to reproduce. The water supply had a contraceptive in it so thats how they stopped people from reproducing. These two stories were written in the 50’s and 60’s. Interesting reads.

They are called Condoms! You know, in case you haven’t heard of them.

I like reading horoscopes. Today’s reads-A surprise is coming your way this afternoon, and it’s going to push a few of your plans for the day way off track. This disruption isn’t necessarily a bad thing, though. It could be just the thing to mix up your life and infuse some exciting new energy into it! You need to learn to be less rigid about things anyway — and this is the first day of your lessons. If you can gain appreciation for the unknown and the unexpected, you will find more opportunities in life.

I need to get a job! I really hope I get the job at Library. Then I can set up a savings account which will come in handy when I move in with my sister. Sigh. Oh creepy thing happened the other day. Two girls came to the door and basically did what this article says. SO READ IT! Its creepy. (I just noticed I have a bruise on my knuckle. I know random side thought) Mom just gave Kat her laptop so now she has no excuse, she better update her blog more often and she better make her vlogs on time! Do you hear that Kat? I mean it!!!!! Anyway, my lappy is dying a slow and painful death. The battery is shot to hell. So until I have a job and save up money to buy a new laptop, (well first I would save up so I can help mom buy herself a laptop) I want to buy a new battery module until that fine day comes. sigh. My poor lappy.

Mija don’t be stressed ok? I miss you and hope to see you next weekend. Just keep thinking positive ok?

Virgo–They are generally reticent when faced with anything or anyone new. However, once they feel comfortable, they can talk up a storm. (How true is this about me? Very true. I try to warn people about that.) Virgo ascendant natives have a tendency to worry a lot, especially when confronted with new situations. They notice the tiniest details that others overlook.

“You get ideas from daydreaming. You get ideas from being bored. You get ideas all the time. The only difference between writers and other people is we notice when we’re doing it.”- Neil Gaiman

A very interesting thing happened today. Something that is even more rare then pigs flying and blue moons. Dun dun dun….my cats slept next to each other. *GASP* Tis an unusual sight. But then I missed it up when I went outside to get a better picture and Kozi got up and left Mr. alone with the leaves. Poor Mr.

After dad finished eating dinner he let Misto inside and held him and proceeded to tell us for the 100th time that it looks like Misto is wearing chaps. Lmao! Oh how silly. Well this weekend was completely uneventful. I did absolutely nothing on Saturday. Sunday I went to bed at 4:30 in the morning, and woke up at 6:30am to go to church with dad. I washed my clothes and then took a nap and didn’t wake up til like 4 something. I’m just messing around on the internet. Sigh wow boring blog. I need to finish reading NEVERWHERE by next week. But I’m also watching the television show that aired in 1996 on BBC Two. Neil Gaiman is so fucking awesome. I need to straighten my hair. I now hear Mr. fighting with another cat or something. I swear he makes the strangest noises. Oh you should look up songs by Melanie Horsnell. Her songs are used in a lot of commericals. My favorite one is this McDonald’s one. So cute. So yeah recap, I did nothing and now I am updating my blog with pictures of my cats and fast food commercials. How pathetic am I? Well this week on Wednesday I don’t have any classes. Hurray! So I can film my KimCateKat video. And put it up on the 6th. Hopefully. Well I’m going to straighten my hair and watch/read NEVERWHERE. YAY.

Life — and I don’t suppose I’m the first to make this comparison — is a disease: sexually transmitted, and invariably fatal.- Neil Gaiman (I thought this one was hilarious)

“I lost some time once. It’s always in the last place you look for it.” – Neil Gaiman

This weekend kicked ass. There are exactly no words to describe how awesome this weekend was. So I guess I can only tell you exactly what happened. Ok. … continue reading this entry.

Life so far sucks. It does.

I’m about to break emotionally. If something else bad happens I’m not sure if I can take it. To start off this year my relationship ended. Yeah. I am apparently too comfortable of a “shoe.” And he wanted to date other people. He isn’t a horrible person, he is just horrible at expressing himself, and can’t word things right. But I guess there is no right way of breaking up with someone. And there is no way to avoid the heartache and tears. But hey hearts mend right? Anyway I get a call from BC. Um Yeah I updated a bulletin about this already but I have to mention it here too. The watercolor class I was looking forward to and was so excited about was CANCELED. Yes canceled. Not enough people. I hate my life. I mean I’m not suicidal or anything so don’t freak out. I’m just in a rut of depression at the moment. I’m hoping something will make it suck less. Heres hoping. So instead of the watercolor class I desperately wanted/needed. I have some Lit. class. It meets only on Mondays at 6pm to 9. Sigh Fuck ass!

My friends have been awesome. Hear that friends? You’re FUCKING AWESOME! Missy you rock! You have no idea what a relief you have been for me. Thank you so much for helping me with things and I love you! Mija thanks for getting CH’s autograph you are the best. I’m hanging out with Cate tomorrow. Yay! Then Friday I’m hanging out with Hyun and visiting Mrs. Middleton. We have been trying to do that all week. So hopefully Friday we can. Then Saturday is my mom’s birthday so we are gonna go to the movies maybe. Then next week classes start. tsk. Which sucks.

Sorry for the emo entry. I am just not a happy person at the moment. I’m sure I will bounce back. Just need to get over things.

Too much green?

I LOVE the color green. I have a green cell, flip camera, ipod, and NOW a green Seagate (Christmas gift). Due to a camera switch with my mom. I now have a green digital camera. I love Christmas. Not just because I get amazing gifts. But because this year I manage to give a gift to each of my family members. I bought my mom a rooster timer (that’s her theme), I bought Mija a purse and movie, I bought Kathy a book that she has been wanting, and I gave dad a laptop bag for his new laptop he got from mom. So I was excited that my parents had something to open for Christmas as well.They always make Christmas unforgettable for me so its the least I can do.

Mija bought me a green alarm clock/radio. Yet another green electronic. So sue me. I love green! It is so cute, it has green embellishes of vines and butterflies on the sides of it. And the numbers on it are green too instead of being red like my last alarm clock. Which was Tweety Bird. Time for a change no? lol The biggest thing I got this Christmas was a Sewing Machine. I couldn’t believe it. My mom and dad actually bought me a sewing machine. It is cute too. I never thought of sewing machines as cute until now. I hope I will be able to get the hang of it. I wish I could fast forward that process. lol >_< But I’m excited to use it already, I just need material. My first project will be to make a Seagate cozy for Mija and myself. And then a camera cozy. They will both be green. Surprise surprise right? lol 😛  All in all it was another fantastic Christmas. My sisters and I will always be grateful for what we received. I’m so happy. I hope my friends had just a wonderful Christmas as I had. And soon a Happy New Year.

Again no bragging intended. And HAPPY HOLIDAYS! And Lots of Love! <3<3<3<3

My mom and sisters and I went to Oni-Con to see Dio and SUGAR. It was so much fun, I am glad I got to see both bands even though we were kinda of late for SUGAR’s performance. I bought more SUGAR merchandise than Dio because they had more than Dio. Dio’s new cd didn’t come out because it was shipped to the wrong address. I saw SUGAR up close more than Dio because I didn’t have anything else to get signed of Dio. But then I wouldn’t have gotten the chance to see SUGAR again. … continue reading this entry.

Tale as old as time
True as it can be
Barely even friends
Then somebody bends
Unexpectedly

Mom surprised me with this Beauty and the Beast ornament. Of course I’m not hanging it on the tree. It goes with all the rest of my Belle merchandise. I’m obsessed with Disney’s Beauty and the Beast. I mean I just love the story. I love when mom buys me stuff like this. This ornament is so adorable. Its a music box as well as an ornament. Belle and her Beast (which I always wondered what his name actually was. I named him Charles lol) spin around to their song. Tale as Old as Time. It just makes me smile every time I look at it, I love my mommy.

So some more good news. I finally got that book I ordered online. Starcrossed. It took a month for it to be delivered. How ridiculous is that? Extremely ridiculous. Tsk. But I got it now so lets move on.

Next, I should start studying for exams and finishing my last essay for English. But I am so lazy! I keep putting things off. I find other things to do. For example I should be sleeping right now but I was up so now I am in charge of waking up Mija. But I have a feeling once I click publish for this blog I’m going to go straight to sleep. *Sorry Mija*>_< I have been reading books like nobody’s business. I have finished Club Dead in one day. From the Sookie Stackhouse Novels by Charlaine Harris. True Blood is based on these books. I only have the first three, so I’m reading the 4th one online which I can of hate doing. I want the next two books now. I am so bad when it comes to reading books. Sometimes when I start reading a book to hold me off until I get the book I really really want to read. Once I get the book I really really want I sort of stop reading the filler book. I get carried away when it comes to books.

I have found Dylan the perfect Christmas present. I am so proud of myself. He always gives me wonderful presents, and I always thought I did ok with my gifts to him. But this with out do, anything I have ever given him. I’m excited to give it to him, of course I suck at keeping things a surprise. So wish me luck at keeping it a secret. Mums the word and what not. :p

 Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme
Bitter sweet and strange
Finding you can change
Learning you were wrong