Inside Kimmy's Mind

Well first off, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIJA! Congrats on turning 24, you old lady. I kid I kid. You know I love you. Duh I made Stein for you. Thats love. So I’m still waiting for Sims 3. Yup.

Anyway, has anyone seen this trailer for the new movie 500 Days of Summer? It looks so good. It comes out on the 17th I believe. I like overlapping pictures for some odd reason.  Zooey Deschanel And Joseph Gordon-Levitt are so adorable.  I’m excited and can’t wait to see this movie. I hope it has a happy ending.

Warning movie spoilers!!!!

I watched the movie Little Ashes starring Robert Pattinson and Javier Beltran. It was interesting. I’m not really sure how to describe it. As Dali, Pattinson was in many intimate scenes with Frederico aka Beltran. The characters never fully took their relationship to the stage of lovers. But they came close. Not really a disappointment with its boy on boy action. There was very limited nudity from either of the leading roles. You do see Pattinson’s pubes in two scenes but thats about it. lol And of course you see boobs, because it wouldn’t be a movie without some straight sex and nude chests. (That was sarcasm, if you couldn’t tell) Of course this movie is about Dali so it is very artistic, the romantic scene with Frederico and Dali in the ocean is shot very beautifully. Which is why while watching this movie (mainly this scene) I immediately wanted to paint something. I couldn’t resist. But all I drew was hands.

Sidetracked: To me I think that the clavicle bone is one of the most seductive bones of the human anatomy. Next to that are hands. I find hands to be equally as beautiful. No matter how they look. Hands have so many joints and muscles and parts to it that most of the time it doesn’t even occur to us how interesting hands are. Not to mention important. Then of course thinking about hands made me think about whether your right-handed or left. And then that made me think about the brain. And which side I use more. And thats basically how my brain works. I start off on one thing then end up on another entirely different topic. Sigh. So which side do you use?

Getting back to the movie, it course ends sad. Federico is kidnapped and then killed. And Dali is of course affected by his death. But remains Dali and continues on. I he died at the age of 84 in 1989. I find that so bizarre for some reason.

“Drawing is the honesty of the art. There is no possibility of cheating. It is either good or bad.” – Salvador Dali

You know that friend you had when you were a kid? In most cases its always a neighbor and a member of the opposite sex. Well for me it was anyway.

His name is Dustin. We used to play the oddest games as kids. I was weird. But according to my friend Hyun I still am. >_< Anyway, I have been talking to Dustin a lot recently, you know catching up and whatnot. The other day we met up for awhile just talking about our past and present. About why we sort of stopped talking to each other? REASON ONE: I moved to another neighborhood which defeated the carpooling purpose. lol REASON TWO: Junior high makes it complicated for boys and girls to be friends. Plus we no longer had recess so we couldn’t play Sailor Moon or Mortal Combat anymore. >_< Thats why the time before you are a teenager is much more easier. Because when you are kids it doesn’t matter if you are boy or a girl, you are just friends because its fun and you don’t know any better. jk. Now we are mature enough where it doesn’t matter again. And now that we are becoming adults we can say stuff like, “Lets do lunch.” Or , “yeah we should get together soon.” And actually mean it. Of course I’m a hermit (no license) so I don’t do anything really. But Dustin was kind enough to pick me up and we went to his house. It was so weird being back in my old neighborhood. I haven’t been there in so long. It was nice to hang out with him, since starting college I haven’t really made a lot of new friends. I mean of course I have Missy and Cate and Hyun. But when it comes to making new friends, thats just a skill I have yet to pick up. So if I can’t make new friends why not reunite with old friends? I was stupid and forgot to take pictures. T-T I’m getting old you know. But we will make plans again. ^ ^ Tuesday is Mija’s 24th birthday! (And I’m getting old?) jk So we are celebrating today because she will won’t be here. She stayed at work late the other day so currently she is past out on my bed. I decided to make her an Ipod monster for her birthday. So I had her design one. Then Kat and I stayed up til 5 in the morning making it for her. This one was tricky, but at the same time it has less flaws than the first two I made. Because I learned from my mistakes. >_< I made a few changes to it so it doesn’t look exactly like her drawing. But close enough to make her happy. This one opens at the head (to hold the ipod) , instead of as a pocket on the tummy. And it wasn’t big enough to add arms so I just left them off. And Kat made Mija a cake which we have yet to cut or sing Happy Birthday because the Oban-chan is sleeping. jk

I’m on a roll with making things (with my sewing machine), that look half decent. Again my sewing skills are as worse as my friend making skills. >_<

Ok I spent most of my time the other day making weird plushies. I was inspired by Stupid Creatures and decided to make my own. My sewing skills are in need of desperate improvement but that’s what practice is for correct? >_<

Anyway, I had Kat design her monster and she picked out the fabric and she helped ironed and cut out limbs and she sewed things on by herself. I was surprised to tell you the truth. I thought her involvement with this project would stop at drawing out her monster. But nope she helped with the long process. It took forever. Like I said before I still suck at sewing. Even with my machine I am horrible at it. Sometimes my foot cramps up and I can no longer control the speed. So what happens is I go too fast and the thread gets caught and messes up. I see that as my sewing machine’s way of telling me off. I know inanimate objects can’t talk. But if my sewing machine could it probably wouldn’t be saying nice things to me. Kat’s finished hers up by sewing on the tail and arms and I started cutting out a pattern for mine. But then dad came into the dining room eating his 5th brownie. He examined Kat’s monster and immediately said, “It should hold your ipod.” After saying that he left getting another brownie. Even though Kathy was already finished with her creature I told her that, that wasn’t a bad idea. So we decided to make the monsters hold our ipods. lol Even though we were already tired of threading needles.

Kat’s creature took forever because I wasn’t sure how to even make it. But we figured it out and “made it work”. (Project Runway fans?)But by the time we finished Kat’s for the second time I just wanted to hurry up and finish mine. I ran into a lot of different problems while working on mine. But thankfully Kathy was there to help me work through them. So the finish products are displayed in the pictures above. On Kat’s I used the zipper to double as a mouth while at the same time as an opening. So her monster consumes her ipod while mine sort of digests my ipod. It opens in the back. Mine was supposed to have arms but I was too tired to make them. And working with zippers aggravates me like nothing else. So I called it night/morning after sewing up my armless stupid creature/monster. So instead of stupid creatures, I’m calling ours Ugly (Ipod)Monsters. Clever I know. They aren’t the most impressive of things, but I’m proud of them. Because we ran into so many problems but solved them the best we could. Yay TEAM WORK! I’m lame I know. >_<

So how ’bout it Mija, did you think of a design for your monster? You know your ipod will be jealous that its not in the stomach of an ugly monster. And I already have two fabrics to use for yours and everything. Now nothing too complicated you hear me? Oh and I don’t have anymore zippers, so I’m going to have to either find a store that sells zippers or find a different way to open and close yours. Damn Walmart for getting rid of its fabric section! <3<3<3

Ok. I live in a small town so small that you have to go the next slightly larger town to go to the mall/movies.

So the other day my mom and sisters and I where going to watch Transformers but sadly all showings were sold out. Then mom suggests going to Pearland to see if they aren’t sold out there.(aka another slightly larger town 52 minutes away) Now we never really explore the neighboring towns where I live. And I’ve lived in this area for my entire 19 years of living. We just don’t like exploring things we aren’t used to. If its unfamiliar in anyway I’d rather not explore it. Thats just the sort of person I am. But in this case, I have been wanting to go to this town just to see the stores it has. Instead of even checking the movie showings we just decided to explore the town. I mean we drive by it all the time when we visit Mija but thats what Pearland was to us. Just something to look at from afar. lol. So we ate at T.G.I. Friday’s and then we went to Halfprice Books. I found Neil Gaiman’s M is for Magic in hard back for $6. 68 and in amazing condition. But I decided not to ask mom for it. I regret it now. >_< Then we went to Old Navy, and they had the mannequins from the commercials. They look sort of creepy when they are standing in front of you. There really wasn’t anything I wanted to buy there. I think Old Navy’s winter collection is nicer than its summer. But their purses and bags were nice. lol Then we went home. Mom had had enough of Pearland to last her a life time. Because before we decided to eat there. We kept getting confused by the traffic lights and we weren’t used to the lanes and such. We are lame. I know.

My mom bought the Wii Tennis racket attachments today and it came with the SEGA SUPERSTARS Tennis game. Its cool. I should play Wii after eating tons of Puppy Chow my cousin made me. I love Puppy Chow. So good. But its dangerous if you eat too much. It can cause your tummy to hate you. But so far I’m limiting myself pretty good which is weird for me. lol.

The part where I talk more about books. I am still reading Shrimp at the moment. After that I will read Cupcake and after that I will mope for awhile because that series was only three books. But its ok because then I want to read Sloppy Firsts by Megan McCafferty. That series is 5 books long, I believe. That will really keep me busy. ^_^ I’m such a bookaholic. But I still have Sunshine by Robin McKinley to read. And then The Graveyard Book by Neil Fucking Gaiman. I still find his relationship with Amanda Palmer weird but I mean they seem happy so who am I to judge?

I hope its ok to mention it here…MY BEST FRIEND IS GETTING MARRIED! As in being a wife. I can’t contain how happy I am for her. She asked me to be her maid of honor. I feel so special. I love her and she only deserves the best. So this guy better treat her like the Queen that she is.

I WANT TO PAINT ANOTHER MUNNY! lol. The next one I am going to paint will have more of a face (hopefully) maybe even a mouth this time and hair and a more detailed expression. lol -_- Of course I don’t really have faith in my art skills. So I guess we will see.

I googled other ones to see how they were painted and then I found the 1000 Journal and found the Tokidoki cover.

I love Tokidoki. My Ipod cover is from this brand so is my sister Mija’s. Their items are a bit pricey, but I saw the cute phone straps and I want them. Only if they are a set and you get all of them. If its 5 plus tax for just one of them then that’s just stupid. It has to be all of them because it doesn’t give me the option to pick the one I want and it would also be unfair for it to be a surprise.

OH WOW MICHAEL JACKSON IS DEAD!? The King of Pop? Its so weird. He was only 50. I mean I’m not a real MJ fan but I liked a few of his songs and he was a genius dancer. And Its a shame he had to die at 50, thats still so young. Even his parents out lived him. Its just weird. I watched a few of his videos on Youtube. And then it made me search The Jackson Five videos as well. He was such a cute kid. Who would have thought that, that kid would grow up and be the adult he was. Even though he fought so hard not to be an adult. Poor guy. I was also watching the news and it said he was I believe $5,000,000,000 in debt. I think…it could be more. How is that possible? He was rich off his own music and then along with The Beatles music. If he died in debt, who is left with that? His parents? His “children”? Really sad.

Life After People. Before watching this I assumed we were slowly killing the Earth. But apparently the Earth would be worse off with out us humans. They talk about Hurricane Katrina and the damage it did to New Orleans. The aquariums there cannot survive without people for more than a day. The workers were gone for three days I believe, and all the wild life that lived in the aquariums were dead. The the exception of one fish that could get oxygen. (I forgot the type of fish it was) And I didn’t know birds sing in a high frequency due to our noise pollution. Its so they can hear each other over us. So if were were gone they would return to their normal frequency. I don’t even want to imagine what life would be like. But this show paints a pretty good picture of it.

Want to take a personality test?

My results. I’m not really sure what this tells me. -_-

• distinctively expressed introvert- 67%
• moderately expressed intuitive personality-25%
• distinctively expressed feeling personality-62%
• slightly expressed judging personality-11%

In the words of Mija,”Why can I never love anything?” She is over dramatic at times and she exaggerates. Unlike me

What I want to discuss is the book Shrimp by Rachel Cohn. I ordered it off the Borders website and I was hoping to get the cover that I clicked on but apparently that doesn’t matter. I am really annoyed by this. I thought that if I were to click on the green cover that, that would be the cover I would receive in the mail. But thats not how things work I guess. And now I have the completed series but the second one as you can see from the picture below does not match the first and second one. This bugs me so much.I know this might not seem like such a big deal. Oh but it is. And not something one would get angry over, but I am not a sane person. I have problems. Matching problems. I have this issue when it comes to things matching. Like for my books if I am reading and buying a series and the first one is paper back and a certain cover than the rest of the books in that series must be the same. Otherwise I will not purchase the book. Of course if you have read my previous entries then you are aware of the fact that I wasn’t able to find the green cover of Shrimp in any book store. They were all out of stock. But if I ever see the green cover in a store I will buy it to make the series actually complete. Again I have issues.

Today is also Fathers day and I just want to say that I am so thankful for my dad. He is truly one of a kind, and no matter how annoying he can be he is also amazing. I couldn’t ask for a better father. After church, I wanted a supreme croissant, and even though he didn’t feel like eating Jack in the Box he still went there for me and my sisters. Awww my Dad. I took a picture with him when we got home for my Dailybooth. Of course he doesn’t know that.

I read a the manga Koukou Debut (High School Debut) the other day. Its the sort of love story that makes you feel so many different emotions all at once. The kind of love story you wish would never end. And then I started thinking of this feeling I got while reading this story, or with any story whether its a movie or novel. And I wrote a poem, that hopefully explains what I’m talking about.

You know that feeling when you are incandescently happy? When he speaks your name and you can barely keep yourself from floating off the ground? You can sometimes catch a glimpse of that feeling, from a movie, song or story. Tales of hopeless romantics that are “destined” to meet, and for some reason make your heart flutter and agonize how you wish you were them. Just for a moment. Just to remember what it was like. You beam with delight when the girl finally gets the right guy. No harm can be done now, because she has him. Your heart leaps and you cannot help but feel that joy, that flutter and blush. The excitement of wanting that consumes you. You want to experience this cloud nine feeling. You want your thoughts to be consumed by him, and him alone. You want to experience the love that can only happen in a story.Just for a moment. Just to remember what it was like.

Sorry my sleeping pattern is screwed beyond mending. I hope I can get back on a regular sleeping schedule instead of being this vampire like thing that sleeps during the day.

REALITY!

Well my first job interview was the other day. And I’m not exactly sure how it went. I can’t remember the exact questions I was asked. And at the end of it, she was verifying my number and all I remember is answering yes. I don’t even remember if it was in fact my number. What the hell is wrong with me? It will be my down fall if the only reason I don’t get the job is because I wasn’t listening to the lady recite my number. I mean its my number. I know my number. But why can’t I remember if what she recited was my number? For the love of chocolate I wish I had a rewind button! I mean am I the only one who starts thinking rambles when a person is asking something of importance; and all you end up hearing is your own dumb thoughts dancing around in your head? Sigh. If I don’t hear back from them by Thursday then I know I didn’t get the job. Sigh. She said the HR person would call me to schedule a second interview with the manager and what not. And the manager is supposed to be here on Thursday. So if they don’t call me to schedule a second interview, my mind will be left to think that either A) she didn’t have my number, and that is all my fault for having goo for brains. Or B) They are not interested in hiring me. -_- How depressing. tsk. So I just have to apply for more jobs. I think I applied for most of the online applications. Now its time to start the embarrassing, “Hi are you by any chance hiring?” Sucks.

MOVIES!

Ok you know how in romantic comedies, the main roles most of the time experience downright embarrassing moments. Just like in our lives (reality) we experience day to day humiliating experiences too. Am I right? Yet in the movies these moments are created by a play write. I mean they could very well be based on truth, but I’m assuming they were created for the enjoyment of an audience. Anyway I recently just watched the romantic comedy Its a Boy/Girl Thing. I watched it on Youtube. It was pretty hilarious. And not the, “Oh my gosh this is so stupid” kind of way. But the,”This is actually a pretty good movie” kind of way. Its sort of a twist on Freaky Friday. But instead of family members its enemies (that are of the opposite sex) that fall in love. I mean the saying , “opposites attract” actually applies here. And it has nothing to do with science.  Magic maybe? Anyway, back to the embarrassing moments, I wish life could be a romantic comedy where these moments could be forgotten just like that. I mean of course in reality these moments are forgotten with time and what not. But sometimes they follow us for all eternity. lol Ok maybe not that dramatic. But again I wouldn’t mind my life having its movie moments. You know those scenes that can only happen in a movie? A romantic encounter that wouldn’t be logical let alone possible in my reality. Bleh  >_< There. You see what movies do to you me? They end up putting all of these thoughts into my head. Sucks.  Back to movies. I watched  Table for Three. Hot Brandon Routh stars in it. He played Superman in Superman Returns. In this movie I would have gotten so tired of those roommates. I doubt I will even be able to have roommates in the future. I mean you don’t know who comes to roommate ads. They could be psycho killers, or crazy couples as you see in this movie.  Is this movie worth it? It was funny, and it was an ok to watch. But not a life changing. Brandon is a hottie so thats why I watched it. >_< Watch the trailer and judge for yourself.

Books!

I order the book Shrimp by Rachel Cohn. Its the second book in the series and I couldn’t find this book at any book store. Seriously it was out of stock everywhere. I kid you not. The other two were at the store, so why wouldn’t this one be as well? It makes me think, “This one must be the best one out of the three. I must find and read this book.” And then I turn into this crazy book person. Where I don’t want to read any other book until I read this one.  And I’m really hoping its the cover I want. I get pissed if its the wrong cover. I have the new cover of the first and last one so the second one has to match as well. Its says it should arrive by the 23rd. But I’m hoping it comes sooner than that. Again I am incredibly impatient. I hate not being able to concentrate. And this just adds to my screwed up sleeping patterns.

NEW SEASON OF TRUE BLOOD IS FUCKING AWESOME! Just saying. I cannot wait for the second episode on Sunday!

Thursday night I went to see Angels and Demons with my cousin Gabby. (I know shocking right?) My cousin and I haven’t always gotten along. Most of the time we just annoyed each other. But after graduating from high school we don’t see each other as often, so its nice to get together and do things. Anyway, the movie was pretty interesting. Much better than the first one I think. And Ewan McGregor is incredibly hot. >_< But anyway I recommend this movie if you find religion interesting, even if you don’t have a religion.

Anyway, I’m at Mija’s apartment again but only for the weekend. Kat spent a week with her and because Mija couldn’t make it home this weekend we had to come and pick up Kat. And dad is visiting his parents in the valley and he has been sending us pictures of my grandpa. Its been a while since I have seen him. And I miss him so much. He is so adorable.

So Saturday we went to the Galleria and then we ate at Panda Express for lunch, and then to Berrypop for some frozen yogurt.

And its taking me so long to write this entry because I have been watching the Degrassi Marathon. Sigh. Its been on all day and my sisters and I have been watching it. >_<

I mean, there is really a lot of drama in these characters lives. Death, rape,pregnancy, bullies, eating disorders, abusive parents/boyfriends. I mean its serious problems but they are repetitive, I mean there is only so many problems they can give these kids. But I have to admit its an addictive show. tsk. And now I am watching Once Upon a Forest. One of the greatest cartoons next to The Secret of N.I.M.H., Ferngully, A Troll in Central Park, and Thumbelina. I remember watching these movies when I was younger, awww memories. lol

Music to mention.I bought The Hush Sound cd, Goodbye Blues. I love it! Of course now I found out that there is a version with two bonus tracks out there. And of course my version isn’t that one. I was lucky to even find this cd at Barnes and Noble. There was only one copy there and I was able to get it. ^_^ And there aren’t many cds out there that I can listen to all the way through with the minor exception of Fleetwood Mac’s album Rumours and now this one. The Hush Sound is a great band they have been around since 2004. And I just heard of them now, but they have three albums out already. You should give them a listen.

Well it is 6 o’clock in the morning now so I should get some sleep. tsk. We are going home tomorrow and I have still have a job interview on Tuesday. I am still nervous. I hope I get the job, I really need money. But I can only do my best and hope they like me. >_<

“I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naive or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman.”- Anais Nin

After watching the mini series Lost in Austen. I just had to watch Pride and Prejudice. First the 1995 version which took awhile( it’s five hours long plus extras-I have the three disc edition) then the 2005 remake. I have decided that I like them both. Of course Colin Firth is a much better Darcy I think. But for some reason I find him more attractive older than when he was younger. Just like David Bowie-hotter with age. >_< Moving on, while watching these movies it made me think of the differences between the men in the 1800’s and the men in the present. Dating without a chaperon was out of the question and displays of affection were simply frowned upon. I’m sure even hand holding was scandalous. The men of of the 1800’s aren’t really better than the men of our time, because of course back then women were merely objects. Put on this earth to make a man look good, and to carry on his name. Pfffft! I cannot and will not agree with that. At least today, the male sex realize that there are women out there that are smarter and stronger than they are. They might not want to admit it but, in the corner of their minds they are fully aware of this fact. Even though we do things the past might find horrific, the past is not without its own shocking ways. Not only were women objects, but women were sold as wives at the young age of 15. Maybe even younger depending on the parents. Ok so in our time girls younger than that are having babies. -_-;

I find Jane Austen’s time romantic, of course that might just be her novels. I shouldn’t confuse reality with fiction correct? Although it may have its charms, I wouldn’t leave my own time to live a life there. Not even in my dreams. I am way too spoiled with my life the way it is. However, it would be nice to be wooed and courted and doted upon with sweet words by a man that is mature and knows exactly what to say. Sigh. That would be nice. Instead in 2009 we have men who shout at us from afar and then mock our appearance as a way of flirting.

How romantic indeed.