Inside Kimmy's Mind

Ok I spent most of my time the other day making weird plushies. I was inspired by Stupid Creatures and decided to make my own. My sewing skills are in need of desperate improvement but that’s what practice is for correct? >_<

Anyway, I had Kat design her monster and she picked out the fabric and she helped ironed and cut out limbs and she sewed things on by herself. I was surprised to tell you the truth. I thought her involvement with this project would stop at drawing out her monster. But nope she helped with the long process. It took forever. Like I said before I still suck at sewing. Even with my machine I am horrible at it. Sometimes my foot cramps up and I can no longer control the speed. So what happens is I go too fast and the thread gets caught and messes up. I see that as my sewing machine’s way of telling me off. I know inanimate objects can’t talk. But if my sewing machine could it probably wouldn’t be saying nice things to me. Kat’s finished hers up by sewing on the tail and arms and I started cutting out a pattern for mine. But then dad came into the dining room eating his 5th brownie. He examined Kat’s monster and immediately said, “It should hold your ipod.” After saying that he left getting another brownie. Even though Kathy was already finished with her creature I told her that, that wasn’t a bad idea. So we decided to make the monsters hold our ipods. lol Even though we were already tired of threading needles.

Kat’s creature took forever because I wasn’t sure how to even make it. But we figured it out and “made it work”. (Project Runway fans?)But by the time we finished Kat’s for the second time I just wanted to hurry up and finish mine. I ran into a lot of different problems while working on mine. But thankfully Kathy was there to help me work through them. So the finish products are displayed in the pictures above. On Kat’s I used the zipper to double as a mouth while at the same time as an opening. So her monster consumes her ipod while mine sort of digests my ipod. It opens in the back. Mine was supposed to have arms but I was too tired to make them. And working with zippers aggravates me like nothing else. So I called it night/morning after sewing up my armless stupid creature/monster. So instead of stupid creatures, I’m calling ours Ugly (Ipod)Monsters. Clever I know. They aren’t the most impressive of things, but I’m proud of them. Because we ran into so many problems but solved them the best we could. Yay TEAM WORK! I’m lame I know. >_<

So how ’bout it Mija, did you think of a design for your monster? You know your ipod will be jealous that its not in the stomach of an ugly monster. And I already have two fabrics to use for yours and everything. Now nothing too complicated you hear me? Oh and I don’t have anymore zippers, so I’m going to have to either find a store that sells zippers or find a different way to open and close yours. Damn Walmart for getting rid of its fabric section! <3<3<3

You know that annoying feeling, when you want to do something but there is nothing to do? Yeah I believe it is called boredom? I hate being bored. And its not that I have nothing to do its that once I do something, I immediately want to do something else. Or if I finish a project too quickly then I’m left with that deep empty feeling of sadness.

I am attempting to make a vlog. Hopefully that goes well. Ok well I tried on my MOH (maid of honor) dress. I love it. I completed Missy’s orders and made it more Kimmy. And that means layering. >_< Again I am such a weirdo. I am thinking of buying some lace leggings and maybe some black flats. But I do like how the chucks look with the dress. It all depends on what the Bride wants. lol Speaking of the Bride. I am starting to write my speech. And I already know what I want to say to Missy. Its just hard to write and not cry. I hope when I have to say it, I will be able to enunciate and not just have tears streaming down my face. Damn sentimental words. I know they will get to me. Anyway, that’s something I’m working on.

I had the weirdest dream the other night. You know Build-a-Bear Workshop? That store where you pick out a teddy bear and dress it up and fill it up with “love” (aka heart shaped fabric cut outs) Well anyway, my sister Kathy when she was little she always wanted one. Heck I even wanted one at one point. I love stuffed animals. But I mean this store is ridiculously priced. The better the stuffed animal is the more money it costs. Anyway I had a dream that Kathy finally got the chance to make one. But her teddy bear was an S&M one. Could you imagine what that would look like? Hahahaha! I know I have problems. Either that or I have been hanging out with Mija way too much. What about a stripper bear? hahaha. WTF IS WRONG WITH ME? I am seriously disturbed.

I just finished making my vlog. Yup it took up most of the day. Damn see what a hassle it is to make a vlog? It takes too long now because my laptop does not like video files. But anyway I was just about to upload my vlog when Youtube decides to do its site maintenance. Bleh! How annoying! Well I will post it as soon as it lets me. So look forward to that. ^_^ The other day I watched Transformers- Rise of the Fallen with my mom and sisters. It was good. It had a lot of unnecessary scenes in it. But all in all it was a good watch. The first movie was better, but isn’t that always the case?

Friday I went with Missy and her mom to buy my maid of honor dress. Its pretty. I usually don’t like trying on clothes and wearing dresses and whatnot. But Missy knows all of that. She gave me the approval to make it Kimmy. How does she put up with me? I am such a weirdo I do not like v-cut anything. I like it cut straight. And I like having my arms covered. I am weird. But the dress is really pretty so thats something she doesn’t have to worry about anymore. She picked out her dress already too. Its gorgeous. A very pretty simple white dress. I know I’m going to be balling every few minutes during her actual wedding. Especially when she walks down the isle and says I do and when I hand her the ring. Oh and she is moving to El Paso. T_T I have been friends with her for so long. She has always been there for me. And I’m going to miss her so much. I can’t imagine my life with her not in it. MISSY I LOVE YOU!

We also went to El Chico’s for lunch and after that we went to Target and she bought her bridal shower invitations and wedding invitations. As the maid of honor I was asked to come up with shower games. I have only been to one Bridal shower in my entire life. So I have no idea what to do. Thank Bob for Google right Missy? Her shower will be August 1st and her Bachelorette party is on the 15th and then the big day is August 29th. Oh wow. I still can’t believe it. >_< My Missy is going to be someones wife. We usually joke how we are each others wives. Because we are fantastic and weird. I’m not quite sure when we started that but we did. Awww memories. *I’m not gonna cry. I’m not gonna cry.* Anyway, I need to start thinking of what sort of prizes there will be for her guest to win during the shower. Like bath salts, candles I guess? Again not sure. I’m totally excited for her and I could not be happier for her. I’m just skeptical about the guy that is taking away my wife. He is in the army so thats why they will be moving to El Paso. I haven’t met him yet but I’m sure after I do my skepticism will just disappear. ^^ Plus I have to scare the fuck out of him about what will happen to him if he hurts her. I kid you not. I may be a short Mexican girl, but the wrath of The Kimmy is not to be toyed with. lol Anyway so that was Friday.

The fourth of July was spent at my Uncle Sam’s house. lol (Yup I have an Uncle Sam hahaha) He has a fish fry every fourth at his house (sort of a ranch) along with crab and sometimes craw fish. I don’t like spicy foods. And they add a lot of spices to the crab, but it was good. I don’t like staying long at my uncle’s ranch long because its hot and I’m more of an indoor person. But this time I had cramps like you would not believe. It was horrible. So I wanted to leave even more than usual. And of course my dad will never understand. >_< But I did take pictures of the new German Shepard puppy they have now. And of the horses. Rhonda is their horse and they got a second horse named Starr (the one with the white spot on her forehead) because Rhonda just couldn’t get pregnant. They have had her for a while now and she is fully grown now. But for some odd reason Rhonda kicks at her and runs her off if you don’t pay attention to her. She is a meanie and pictured in the middle. But I kept petting her and didn’t take a proper picture of her. Starr kept her distance because she didn’t want to be kicked by Rhonda. The puppy was given a different name by my dad every few seconds but I think Betsy  after Betsy Ross finally stuck. Which is weird because my dad refers to his jeep as Betsy. That or Midnight. My dad gives everything more than one name. My other names are  flaca (meaning skinny in spanish), meaner…oh and I am also called by my sister’s names as well because each of our names begins with the letter K. So our parents get mixed up when calling for one of us.

Well I’m going to read my book and then catch some Z’s. I will post a picture of my moh dress soon.

“Searching for the time that has gone so fast- The time I thought would last.”- Paul McCartney

Usually I love finding things from my past. Like when I re read my old journals and relive each entry like it was yesterday. But in this case I’d rather not relive these memories. These memories that I have laid to rest in a box under my bed. Memories that I don’t want to necessarily forget, but just file under “Ignore for now” in my file cabinet of memories. Anyway, I found my old cell phone from my junior year and the beginning of my senior year in high school. And being the reminiscing chump that I am, I assumed it would be amazing memories. My junior year was amazing, I made friends with all the exchange students that year. Anyway I still have the charger so I plug it in turn it on and the sense of regret suddenly consumes me after it finally powers on. There set as my wallpaper is a picture of Him(ex) and Me, my screen saver? Him. My front wallpaper? His drums. I forgot about these pictures. On a less depressing note- There were tons of pictures of my friends. Of Missy,Nuey, Hiromi, Icz, Cate, even Hyun and few others. Its weird because I’m not sure what made me think of my old cell phone. I just did. I mean its no big deal really. I just found it weird. I wish I could get these pictures off of it. I think I did right after I got my new cell. But I can’t remember. And since I have a new laptop and a new external that would mean these pictures would be on my old seagate if I did. Weird. I don’t notice how every aged, these pictures are old, and everyone looks so young in them. Strange. I have only had three cell phones so far. And I got my first one my sophomore year which is the first one, and the middle one is the one that shocked me. And of course the green one is my current one. Its gonna be sad when I get a new one in another year or so. I didn’t delete any of the pictures, just turned off the cell and put it back at the bottom of my junk drawer (we all have one) were it belongs. I just made a mental note to not bother it again. For a very long time. Sigh.

Anyway, I have a Bridal shower to help plan soon. I need to start getting some ideas to contribute. Missy you can count on me. <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

I WANT TO PAINT ANOTHER MUNNY! lol. The next one I am going to paint will have more of a face (hopefully) maybe even a mouth this time and hair and a more detailed expression. lol -_- Of course I don’t really have faith in my art skills. So I guess we will see.

I googled other ones to see how they were painted and then I found the 1000 Journal and found the Tokidoki cover.

I love Tokidoki. My Ipod cover is from this brand so is my sister Mija’s. Their items are a bit pricey, but I saw the cute phone straps and I want them. Only if they are a set and you get all of them. If its 5 plus tax for just one of them then that’s just stupid. It has to be all of them because it doesn’t give me the option to pick the one I want and it would also be unfair for it to be a surprise.

OH WOW MICHAEL JACKSON IS DEAD!? The King of Pop? Its so weird. He was only 50. I mean I’m not a real MJ fan but I liked a few of his songs and he was a genius dancer. And Its a shame he had to die at 50, thats still so young. Even his parents out lived him. Its just weird. I watched a few of his videos on Youtube. And then it made me search The Jackson Five videos as well. He was such a cute kid. Who would have thought that, that kid would grow up and be the adult he was. Even though he fought so hard not to be an adult. Poor guy. I was also watching the news and it said he was I believe $5,000,000,000 in debt. I think…it could be more. How is that possible? He was rich off his own music and then along with The Beatles music. If he died in debt, who is left with that? His parents? His “children”? Really sad.

Life After People. Before watching this I assumed we were slowly killing the Earth. But apparently the Earth would be worse off with out us humans. They talk about Hurricane Katrina and the damage it did to New Orleans. The aquariums there cannot survive without people for more than a day. The workers were gone for three days I believe, and all the wild life that lived in the aquariums were dead. The the exception of one fish that could get oxygen. (I forgot the type of fish it was) And I didn’t know birds sing in a high frequency due to our noise pollution. Its so they can hear each other over us. So if were were gone they would return to their normal frequency. I don’t even want to imagine what life would be like. But this show paints a pretty good picture of it.

Want to take a personality test?

My results. I’m not really sure what this tells me. -_-

• distinctively expressed introvert- 67%
• moderately expressed intuitive personality-25%
• distinctively expressed feeling personality-62%
• slightly expressed judging personality-11%

In the words of Mija,”Why can I never love anything?” She is over dramatic at times and she exaggerates. Unlike me

What I want to discuss is the book Shrimp by Rachel Cohn. I ordered it off the Borders website and I was hoping to get the cover that I clicked on but apparently that doesn’t matter. I am really annoyed by this. I thought that if I were to click on the green cover that, that would be the cover I would receive in the mail. But thats not how things work I guess. And now I have the completed series but the second one as you can see from the picture below does not match the first and second one. This bugs me so much.I know this might not seem like such a big deal. Oh but it is. And not something one would get angry over, but I am not a sane person. I have problems. Matching problems. I have this issue when it comes to things matching. Like for my books if I am reading and buying a series and the first one is paper back and a certain cover than the rest of the books in that series must be the same. Otherwise I will not purchase the book. Of course if you have read my previous entries then you are aware of the fact that I wasn’t able to find the green cover of Shrimp in any book store. They were all out of stock. But if I ever see the green cover in a store I will buy it to make the series actually complete. Again I have issues.

Today is also Fathers day and I just want to say that I am so thankful for my dad. He is truly one of a kind, and no matter how annoying he can be he is also amazing. I couldn’t ask for a better father. After church, I wanted a supreme croissant, and even though he didn’t feel like eating Jack in the Box he still went there for me and my sisters. Awww my Dad. I took a picture with him when we got home for my Dailybooth. Of course he doesn’t know that.

REALITY!

Well my first job interview was the other day. And I’m not exactly sure how it went. I can’t remember the exact questions I was asked. And at the end of it, she was verifying my number and all I remember is answering yes. I don’t even remember if it was in fact my number. What the hell is wrong with me? It will be my down fall if the only reason I don’t get the job is because I wasn’t listening to the lady recite my number. I mean its my number. I know my number. But why can’t I remember if what she recited was my number? For the love of chocolate I wish I had a rewind button! I mean am I the only one who starts thinking rambles when a person is asking something of importance; and all you end up hearing is your own dumb thoughts dancing around in your head? Sigh. If I don’t hear back from them by Thursday then I know I didn’t get the job. Sigh. She said the HR person would call me to schedule a second interview with the manager and what not. And the manager is supposed to be here on Thursday. So if they don’t call me to schedule a second interview, my mind will be left to think that either A) she didn’t have my number, and that is all my fault for having goo for brains. Or B) They are not interested in hiring me. -_- How depressing. tsk. So I just have to apply for more jobs. I think I applied for most of the online applications. Now its time to start the embarrassing, “Hi are you by any chance hiring?” Sucks.

MOVIES!

Ok you know how in romantic comedies, the main roles most of the time experience downright embarrassing moments. Just like in our lives (reality) we experience day to day humiliating experiences too. Am I right? Yet in the movies these moments are created by a play write. I mean they could very well be based on truth, but I’m assuming they were created for the enjoyment of an audience. Anyway I recently just watched the romantic comedy Its a Boy/Girl Thing. I watched it on Youtube. It was pretty hilarious. And not the, “Oh my gosh this is so stupid” kind of way. But the,”This is actually a pretty good movie” kind of way. Its sort of a twist on Freaky Friday. But instead of family members its enemies (that are of the opposite sex) that fall in love. I mean the saying , “opposites attract” actually applies here. And it has nothing to do with science.  Magic maybe? Anyway, back to the embarrassing moments, I wish life could be a romantic comedy where these moments could be forgotten just like that. I mean of course in reality these moments are forgotten with time and what not. But sometimes they follow us for all eternity. lol Ok maybe not that dramatic. But again I wouldn’t mind my life having its movie moments. You know those scenes that can only happen in a movie? A romantic encounter that wouldn’t be logical let alone possible in my reality. Bleh  >_< There. You see what movies do to you me? They end up putting all of these thoughts into my head. Sucks.  Back to movies. I watched  Table for Three. Hot Brandon Routh stars in it. He played Superman in Superman Returns. In this movie I would have gotten so tired of those roommates. I doubt I will even be able to have roommates in the future. I mean you don’t know who comes to roommate ads. They could be psycho killers, or crazy couples as you see in this movie.  Is this movie worth it? It was funny, and it was an ok to watch. But not a life changing. Brandon is a hottie so thats why I watched it. >_< Watch the trailer and judge for yourself.

Books!

I order the book Shrimp by Rachel Cohn. Its the second book in the series and I couldn’t find this book at any book store. Seriously it was out of stock everywhere. I kid you not. The other two were at the store, so why wouldn’t this one be as well? It makes me think, “This one must be the best one out of the three. I must find and read this book.” And then I turn into this crazy book person. Where I don’t want to read any other book until I read this one.  And I’m really hoping its the cover I want. I get pissed if its the wrong cover. I have the new cover of the first and last one so the second one has to match as well. Its says it should arrive by the 23rd. But I’m hoping it comes sooner than that. Again I am incredibly impatient. I hate not being able to concentrate. And this just adds to my screwed up sleeping patterns.

NEW SEASON OF TRUE BLOOD IS FUCKING AWESOME! Just saying. I cannot wait for the second episode on Sunday!

Thursday night I went to see Angels and Demons with my cousin Gabby. (I know shocking right?) My cousin and I haven’t always gotten along. Most of the time we just annoyed each other. But after graduating from high school we don’t see each other as often, so its nice to get together and do things. Anyway, the movie was pretty interesting. Much better than the first one I think. And Ewan McGregor is incredibly hot. >_< But anyway I recommend this movie if you find religion interesting, even if you don’t have a religion.

Anyway, I’m at Mija’s apartment again but only for the weekend. Kat spent a week with her and because Mija couldn’t make it home this weekend we had to come and pick up Kat. And dad is visiting his parents in the valley and he has been sending us pictures of my grandpa. Its been a while since I have seen him. And I miss him so much. He is so adorable.

So Saturday we went to the Galleria and then we ate at Panda Express for lunch, and then to Berrypop for some frozen yogurt.

And its taking me so long to write this entry because I have been watching the Degrassi Marathon. Sigh. Its been on all day and my sisters and I have been watching it. >_<

I mean, there is really a lot of drama in these characters lives. Death, rape,pregnancy, bullies, eating disorders, abusive parents/boyfriends. I mean its serious problems but they are repetitive, I mean there is only so many problems they can give these kids. But I have to admit its an addictive show. tsk. And now I am watching Once Upon a Forest. One of the greatest cartoons next to The Secret of N.I.M.H., Ferngully, A Troll in Central Park, and Thumbelina. I remember watching these movies when I was younger, awww memories. lol

Music to mention.I bought The Hush Sound cd, Goodbye Blues. I love it! Of course now I found out that there is a version with two bonus tracks out there. And of course my version isn’t that one. I was lucky to even find this cd at Barnes and Noble. There was only one copy there and I was able to get it. ^_^ And there aren’t many cds out there that I can listen to all the way through with the minor exception of Fleetwood Mac’s album Rumours and now this one. The Hush Sound is a great band they have been around since 2004. And I just heard of them now, but they have three albums out already. You should give them a listen.

Well it is 6 o’clock in the morning now so I should get some sleep. tsk. We are going home tomorrow and I have still have a job interview on Tuesday. I am still nervous. I hope I get the job, I really need money. But I can only do my best and hope they like me. >_<

“I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naive or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman.”- Anais Nin

After watching the mini series Lost in Austen. I just had to watch Pride and Prejudice. First the 1995 version which took awhile( it’s five hours long plus extras-I have the three disc edition) then the 2005 remake. I have decided that I like them both. Of course Colin Firth is a much better Darcy I think. But for some reason I find him more attractive older than when he was younger. Just like David Bowie-hotter with age. >_< Moving on, while watching these movies it made me think of the differences between the men in the 1800’s and the men in the present. Dating without a chaperon was out of the question and displays of affection were simply frowned upon. I’m sure even hand holding was scandalous. The men of of the 1800’s aren’t really better than the men of our time, because of course back then women were merely objects. Put on this earth to make a man look good, and to carry on his name. Pfffft! I cannot and will not agree with that. At least today, the male sex realize that there are women out there that are smarter and stronger than they are. They might not want to admit it but, in the corner of their minds they are fully aware of this fact. Even though we do things the past might find horrific, the past is not without its own shocking ways. Not only were women objects, but women were sold as wives at the young age of 15. Maybe even younger depending on the parents. Ok so in our time girls younger than that are having babies. -_-;

I find Jane Austen’s time romantic, of course that might just be her novels. I shouldn’t confuse reality with fiction correct? Although it may have its charms, I wouldn’t leave my own time to live a life there. Not even in my dreams. I am way too spoiled with my life the way it is. However, it would be nice to be wooed and courted and doted upon with sweet words by a man that is mature and knows exactly what to say. Sigh. That would be nice. Instead in 2009 we have men who shout at us from afar and then mock our appearance as a way of flirting.

How romantic indeed.

OK. If you are the sort of person that hates when other people ruin movies you have yet to see, then I am warning you DO NOT continue reading this entry. I am known for telling the endings of movies sometimes not on purpose. But thats just the way I am. Watching movies with me (that I have already seen) is sometimes annoying for others. My bad. >_<;

Anyway the movie that I am about to rip to shreds is…..Drag Me to Hell. I have so many words for this movie and just off the top of my head- horrible, lame, annoying, stupid, corny, mundane….yada yada yada. Anyway, I’m sorry if you liked this movie but I did not. The main character Christine Brown played by Alison Lohman (which I love her) gets so much fake shit thrown in her face and mouth. She consumes the saliva of a crazy woman, blood, eye balls of a dead crazy woman, a fly, maggots, and embalming fluid of a dead crazy woman. Yes she does.

Now the story line of someone cursing another person or family blood line has been done many times, and if done right then it could be an interesting movie idea. Now the entire movie was horrible. But there was once scene that was the most horrible. (And here is me attempting to describe the scene as best I can.) Its where the character Christine is leaving her job right after denying the crazy woman’s request for a loan extension. She gets attacked by this crazy woman and throughout the entire scene I’m thinking, “Is this seriously part of the movie?” The crazy lady’s false teeth fall out during the struggle and she then proceeds to suck the chin of Alison’s character. I kid you not. She actually puts her toothless mouth on the chin of the actress. It bothered the shit out of me for some reason. Death by saliva and gums should be one of the worse ways to go. And the lady just keeps on fighting. One of the most worse scenes in a movie. This movie seemed like a spoof that was making fun of something else. It was so predictable, I knew she was going to be (not to be cheesy) dragged to hell. Only watch this movie if you are in the mood to laugh at the train wreck that is this movie. Sigh. Sorry to ruin the hopes of those who thought this movie looked good.