Inside Kimmy's Mind

Ok. I live in a small town so small that you have to go the next slightly larger town to go to the mall/movies.

So the other day my mom and sisters and I where going to watch Transformers but sadly all showings were sold out. Then mom suggests going to Pearland to see if they aren’t sold out there.(aka another slightly larger town 52 minutes away) Now we never really explore the neighboring towns where I live. And I’ve lived in this area for my entire 19 years of living. We just don’t like exploring things we aren’t used to. If its unfamiliar in anyway I’d rather not explore it. Thats just the sort of person I am. But in this case, I have been wanting to go to this town just to see the stores it has. Instead of even checking the movie showings we just decided to explore the town. I mean we drive by it all the time when we visit Mija but thats what Pearland was to us. Just something to look at from afar. lol. So we ate at T.G.I. Friday’s and then we went to Halfprice Books. I found Neil Gaiman’s M is for Magic in hard back for $6. 68 and in amazing condition. But I decided not to ask mom for it. I regret it now. >_< Then we went to Old Navy, and they had the mannequins from the commercials. They look sort of creepy when they are standing in front of you. There really wasn’t anything I wanted to buy there. I think Old Navy’s winter collection is nicer than its summer. But their purses and bags were nice. lol Then we went home. Mom had had enough of Pearland to last her a life time. Because before we decided to eat there. We kept getting confused by the traffic lights and we weren’t used to the lanes and such. We are lame. I know.

My mom bought the Wii Tennis racket attachments today and it came with the SEGA SUPERSTARS Tennis game. Its cool. I should play Wii after eating tons of Puppy Chow my cousin made me. I love Puppy Chow. So good. But its dangerous if you eat too much. It can cause your tummy to hate you. But so far I’m limiting myself pretty good which is weird for me. lol.

The part where I talk more about books. I am still reading Shrimp at the moment. After that I will read Cupcake and after that I will mope for awhile because that series was only three books. But its ok because then I want to read Sloppy Firsts by Megan McCafferty. That series is 5 books long, I believe. That will really keep me busy. ^_^ I’m such a bookaholic. But I still have Sunshine by Robin McKinley to read. And then The Graveyard Book by Neil Fucking Gaiman. I still find his relationship with Amanda Palmer weird but I mean they seem happy so who am I to judge?

I hope its ok to mention it here…MY BEST FRIEND IS GETTING MARRIED! As in being a wife. I can’t contain how happy I am for her. She asked me to be her maid of honor. I feel so special. I love her and she only deserves the best. So this guy better treat her like the Queen that she is.

In the words of Mija,”Why can I never love anything?” She is over dramatic at times and she exaggerates. Unlike me

What I want to discuss is the book Shrimp by Rachel Cohn. I ordered it off the Borders website and I was hoping to get the cover that I clicked on but apparently that doesn’t matter. I am really annoyed by this. I thought that if I were to click on the green cover that, that would be the cover I would receive in the mail. But thats not how things work I guess. And now I have the completed series but the second one as you can see from the picture below does not match the first and second one. This bugs me so much.I know this might not seem like such a big deal. Oh but it is. And not something one would get angry over, but I am not a sane person. I have problems. Matching problems. I have this issue when it comes to things matching. Like for my books if I am reading and buying a series and the first one is paper back and a certain cover than the rest of the books in that series must be the same. Otherwise I will not purchase the book. Of course if you have read my previous entries then you are aware of the fact that I wasn’t able to find the green cover of Shrimp in any book store. They were all out of stock. But if I ever see the green cover in a store I will buy it to make the series actually complete. Again I have issues.

Today is also Fathers day and I just want to say that I am so thankful for my dad. He is truly one of a kind, and no matter how annoying he can be he is also amazing. I couldn’t ask for a better father. After church, I wanted a supreme croissant, and even though he didn’t feel like eating Jack in the Box he still went there for me and my sisters. Awww my Dad. I took a picture with him when we got home for my Dailybooth. Of course he doesn’t know that.

I read a the manga Koukou Debut (High School Debut) the other day. Its the sort of love story that makes you feel so many different emotions all at once. The kind of love story you wish would never end. And then I started thinking of this feeling I got while reading this story, or with any story whether its a movie or novel. And I wrote a poem, that hopefully explains what I’m talking about.

You know that feeling when you are incandescently happy? When he speaks your name and you can barely keep yourself from floating off the ground? You can sometimes catch a glimpse of that feeling, from a movie, song or story. Tales of hopeless romantics that are “destined” to meet, and for some reason make your heart flutter and agonize how you wish you were them. Just for a moment. Just to remember what it was like. You beam with delight when the girl finally gets the right guy. No harm can be done now, because she has him. Your heart leaps and you cannot help but feel that joy, that flutter and blush. The excitement of wanting that consumes you. You want to experience this cloud nine feeling. You want your thoughts to be consumed by him, and him alone. You want to experience the love that can only happen in a story.Just for a moment. Just to remember what it was like.

Sorry my sleeping pattern is screwed beyond mending. I hope I can get back on a regular sleeping schedule instead of being this vampire like thing that sleeps during the day.

REALITY!

Well my first job interview was the other day. And I’m not exactly sure how it went. I can’t remember the exact questions I was asked. And at the end of it, she was verifying my number and all I remember is answering yes. I don’t even remember if it was in fact my number. What the hell is wrong with me? It will be my down fall if the only reason I don’t get the job is because I wasn’t listening to the lady recite my number. I mean its my number. I know my number. But why can’t I remember if what she recited was my number? For the love of chocolate I wish I had a rewind button! I mean am I the only one who starts thinking rambles when a person is asking something of importance; and all you end up hearing is your own dumb thoughts dancing around in your head? Sigh. If I don’t hear back from them by Thursday then I know I didn’t get the job. Sigh. She said the HR person would call me to schedule a second interview with the manager and what not. And the manager is supposed to be here on Thursday. So if they don’t call me to schedule a second interview, my mind will be left to think that either A) she didn’t have my number, and that is all my fault for having goo for brains. Or B) They are not interested in hiring me. -_- How depressing. tsk. So I just have to apply for more jobs. I think I applied for most of the online applications. Now its time to start the embarrassing, “Hi are you by any chance hiring?” Sucks.

MOVIES!

Ok you know how in romantic comedies, the main roles most of the time experience downright embarrassing moments. Just like in our lives (reality) we experience day to day humiliating experiences too. Am I right? Yet in the movies these moments are created by a play write. I mean they could very well be based on truth, but I’m assuming they were created for the enjoyment of an audience. Anyway I recently just watched the romantic comedy Its a Boy/Girl Thing. I watched it on Youtube. It was pretty hilarious. And not the, “Oh my gosh this is so stupid” kind of way. But the,”This is actually a pretty good movie” kind of way. Its sort of a twist on Freaky Friday. But instead of family members its enemies (that are of the opposite sex) that fall in love. I mean the saying , “opposites attract” actually applies here. And it has nothing to do with science.  Magic maybe? Anyway, back to the embarrassing moments, I wish life could be a romantic comedy where these moments could be forgotten just like that. I mean of course in reality these moments are forgotten with time and what not. But sometimes they follow us for all eternity. lol Ok maybe not that dramatic. But again I wouldn’t mind my life having its movie moments. You know those scenes that can only happen in a movie? A romantic encounter that wouldn’t be logical let alone possible in my reality. Bleh  >_< There. You see what movies do to you me? They end up putting all of these thoughts into my head. Sucks.  Back to movies. I watched  Table for Three. Hot Brandon Routh stars in it. He played Superman in Superman Returns. In this movie I would have gotten so tired of those roommates. I doubt I will even be able to have roommates in the future. I mean you don’t know who comes to roommate ads. They could be psycho killers, or crazy couples as you see in this movie.  Is this movie worth it? It was funny, and it was an ok to watch. But not a life changing. Brandon is a hottie so thats why I watched it. >_< Watch the trailer and judge for yourself.

Books!

I order the book Shrimp by Rachel Cohn. Its the second book in the series and I couldn’t find this book at any book store. Seriously it was out of stock everywhere. I kid you not. The other two were at the store, so why wouldn’t this one be as well? It makes me think, “This one must be the best one out of the three. I must find and read this book.” And then I turn into this crazy book person. Where I don’t want to read any other book until I read this one.  And I’m really hoping its the cover I want. I get pissed if its the wrong cover. I have the new cover of the first and last one so the second one has to match as well. Its says it should arrive by the 23rd. But I’m hoping it comes sooner than that. Again I am incredibly impatient. I hate not being able to concentrate. And this just adds to my screwed up sleeping patterns.

NEW SEASON OF TRUE BLOOD IS FUCKING AWESOME! Just saying. I cannot wait for the second episode on Sunday!

“I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naive or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman.”- Anais Nin

After watching the mini series Lost in Austen. I just had to watch Pride and Prejudice. First the 1995 version which took awhile( it’s five hours long plus extras-I have the three disc edition) then the 2005 remake. I have decided that I like them both. Of course Colin Firth is a much better Darcy I think. But for some reason I find him more attractive older than when he was younger. Just like David Bowie-hotter with age. >_< Moving on, while watching these movies it made me think of the differences between the men in the 1800’s and the men in the present. Dating without a chaperon was out of the question and displays of affection were simply frowned upon. I’m sure even hand holding was scandalous. The men of of the 1800’s aren’t really better than the men of our time, because of course back then women were merely objects. Put on this earth to make a man look good, and to carry on his name. Pfffft! I cannot and will not agree with that. At least today, the male sex realize that there are women out there that are smarter and stronger than they are. They might not want to admit it but, in the corner of their minds they are fully aware of this fact. Even though we do things the past might find horrific, the past is not without its own shocking ways. Not only were women objects, but women were sold as wives at the young age of 15. Maybe even younger depending on the parents. Ok so in our time girls younger than that are having babies. -_-;

I find Jane Austen’s time romantic, of course that might just be her novels. I shouldn’t confuse reality with fiction correct? Although it may have its charms, I wouldn’t leave my own time to live a life there. Not even in my dreams. I am way too spoiled with my life the way it is. However, it would be nice to be wooed and courted and doted upon with sweet words by a man that is mature and knows exactly what to say. Sigh. That would be nice. Instead in 2009 we have men who shout at us from afar and then mock our appearance as a way of flirting.

How romantic indeed.

Ok wow. A night filled with cheesy horror flicks. I love when I can laugh at movies that were supposed to scare you. And this is what I get for watching the movies on the Fearnet.com channel.

Ok one out of the three “Scary” movies I watched the other night this one actually had me on the edge of my seat. The movie If I die Before I wake. Now I don’t usually ever like watching scary movies, its only sometimes and most of those times I am with Mija. Well anyway, this movie made me anxious and nervous and pissed at the same time. I have no idea what I would do in that situation and movies like this always make me think, would I be able fend for myself? This movie was sad and scary in a “this could really happen” sort of way. I hate not having any muscle or fighting skills. Tsk. Of course when I ask these questions, I always receive the answer, “Yeah if its for your life or a life of a loved one you would be able to fight back.” Now even though I’m sure I would fight for my life or the life of a loved one I’m not so sure I could. I have no strength. Seriously when we would have piñatas at parties I would never hit it with enough force. Ok granted I was a kid, and that wasn’t for life but hey that was for candy you would think I would break it to pieces. Oh and when I was a sophomore during cpr classes the plastic dummy would push me up instead of me pushing down on it. Now thats sad. But no joke I have no body strength. Its pathetic really. I’m just going hope I’m never in a situation where fighting and strength is a must.

Moving on to the next movie is The Toxic Avenger. Now I couldn’t even finish this movie. It was beyond ridiculous, really it is. So I’m not going to really elaborate any more than that.

Next is the movie entitled Dance of The Dead. Sigh I’m not really sure what to say about this one. It was cheesy. But sometimes cheesy is nice. It was a good laugh. But movies like this always make me wonder what about their families? You know just once I would like to watch a zombie movie that wasn’t so stereotypical. I mean everyone knows to kill a zombie you shoot it in the head. And you avoid getting bitten. Sigh duh. I’m sorry but I just think zombie movies need to be planned out more. sigh. But like I said this movie made me laugh. >_<

Now to the news that I am so excited about. Next month season 2 of True Blood starts. I’m so excited, this show is so amazing. I’m still reading the novels by Charlaine Harris, I’m on All Together Dead at the moment. And then I have two more to read until I’ve read all of the ones that are published. I’m not sure how many more she has to write. She said in a Q&A once that she would keep writing as much as they want her to write to continue the series. Of course there are many differences between the novels and the tv series but I enjoy them both. All I know is that I cannot wait for the season 2 to start. I missed this show. I hate when seasons end because then you have to wait until the next season starts and if there is another season. Damn tv shows for running my life.

So Thursday, Mija took Kat and I to a Japaneses restaurant called Blue Fish, if I’m not mistaken. I have eaten sushi and chicken teriyaki before but not like this. It was delicious. I don’t usually like eating food that is uncooked like in sushi. But this avocado crap roll was ok. If you have eaten sushi before and you are not used to it, you know that its texture is…interesting. I’m not quite used to it. But I ate two and it was good. Kat only ate one she did not like it. lol. She made a face after putting it into her mouth and everything. You could tell she wasn’t too happy that she had to swallow it as well. But she did and I am proud that she didn’t spit it into her napkin.  Its strange because Mija hates seafood. She hates a lot of things. And I would never have thought she would be the one introducing us to different foods to broaden our food pallet. lol. But yeah she did. I also ate chicken teriyaki. It was so good. I pretty much love chicken any way you can prepare it. Kat had the pork teriyaki and Mija had beef. I wasn’t too keen on the pork  but the beef was good. It seemed like such a small portion but it filled us up. I hadn’t eaten any lunch only a few muffins so I was extremely hungry. But after chicken and sushi I was satisfied and didn’t anything after that.

I am behind a day in my chapters for Dooms Day Book but I don’t care. I will read as much as I can, and just bullshit it if I have to on Monday. Its really boring to me.  -_-

Part One: I hate that once I find something that is extremely cute in a store. I am bombarded by the fear that it will not be there when I return to that store. Sigh. I mean it takes me a long time to decided to buy something. I never have money. Therefore, when I do have money I like to make sure that I use whatever it is that I buy. Or if its a book I will read it. The other day I went to the Galleria with my sisters and we went into the Sanrio store aka Hello Kitty store. Now I wasn’t planning on buying anything from this store, because they are ridiculously over priced. -_- Kat had already decided on purchasing a bento draw string bag and a bento spoon and chopstick set. Freakin cute man. Now I didn’t see anything that I desperately wanted so after Kat bought her items we continued on to the next store. Gadzooks. Now I’m not normally a clothing shopper. I attempted to try on clothes with the idea that I would buy it if I liked it. I just didn’t want anything from that store either. So I was planning on returning to the Sanrio store and purchasing a bento box and fork and spoon set with a bento drawstring bag. (different from Kats of course) Sigh Why am I such an indecisive person? Anyway, I believe I made the comment that went like this, “What do I need a bento for? I don’t have a lunch time.” My sister than replied to me saying, “During the summer you don’t plan on working? You might not have enough time to walk home for lunch.”

DING DING DING DING! – This is true. I plan on having a job. And I might have to pack a lunch.

So at this point I kept pacing back and forth, walking up and down stairs not being able to make up mind. We were heading in the direction to the Disney store (our second favorite store) thinking we might find something there and if not I would return to buy the bento/accessories that went with it. Tsk. I know what a waste of time. Of course the Disney store was moved to another side of the mall and we weren’t exactly sure where. So we headed in the direction we assumed was the right one. During this time I kept going over whether or not I should buy the bento box or not. (Yes I over analyze everything) My sisters said we could always go back because I feared the only bento box of the character that I wanted would not be there upon returning. So I decided on the Sanrio store and I purchased the first things I thought of buying. tsk I know I am crazy. Forgive me. Its a curse. But I finally made up my mind don’t I get points for that? Now I know you might find this sort of thing very childish but I could not help it. It was so fucking cute. I am defenseless with stuff like this. So yeah.

Part Two: I have to finish the Dooms Day Book by Monday. It has 36 chapters. So if I read six chapters a day I will have it finish. I started Tuesday I am on chapter 13 as of now. Now you would think six chapters a day that’s no problem. But let me tell you, it is if you are not interested in the book at all. Now I have tried getting into it, but I just can’t. It just hasn’t hooked me like the books I’d rather be reading at the moment. While I was reading my chapters I had someone who kept distracting me. I cannot ignore the cuteness that is my sister’s cat Tomo. I swear.The story seems like it would be a good one, but for some odd reason I just dislike the way Connie Willis writes. No offense to Connie Willis. I just hope I can finish it in time. I am only on chapter 13 and I’m not sure I can continue. Is spark notes an option? >_<

Part One: After throwing a lot of stuff from my closet away I found my old CD/tape player. I got it for Christmas years ago, but I remember how excited I was when I did. Every time I bought a CD I would hurry to play it. After I got my ipod mini and a dock for it, I sadly put this in my closet and never thought of it again. Until now. It was sort of breaking before I got the dock but it was faithful in its youth. I didn’t have the heart to throw it away then an I still don’t have the heart to throw it away now. Its funny how things are important. And I mean if you look at the price of cd players now compared to how much they used to be. Its weird. Is that going to happen to mp3 players? I mean Apple keeps bringing out new and better ones but will their price go down that low when their time is up? Thats something to think about.

Part Two: Kat and I are currently spending spring break at my sister’s apartment. And she took us to Borders! I know its dangerous to take me to a book store especially when I still haven’t cracked Dooms Day. -_- I hope I won’t be doomed on Monday. Anyway I didn’t want to buy a book book so instead I bought Neil Gaiman’s graphic novel The Last Temptation. Have I mention that I love him? Anyway, Mija is the one who took it off the shelf when I immediately recognized it. However, I didn’t realize that Alice Cooper contributed to the story. Its based on his record release, The Last Temptation. I should have known it just screams Cooper. Of course I’m not really savvy on his music. The art work is exquisite its done by Michael Zulli if I’m not mistaken. And it is amazing. The showman’s appearance is based on the best showman, Alice Cooper himself. It resembles him from head to toe. I also finally bought the movie Mirror Mask, story also by Neil Gaiman. I really do love him. Well besides buying books and dvds and hearing that someone tried and failed at stealing a magazine I also hurt a complete strangers feelings. But on my behalf I didn’t mean to and I completely understand his current state. And I didn’t mean what I said to sound the way it came out. I am not going to repeat it here because I am trying to make myself feel better. I know I am a horrible person. Now typing is getting hard because my sister’s cat Tomo is in my lap being extremely adorable and I can no longer ignore him. lol

I have a problem.

And I guess the first step is admitting it. So here I am… admitting it. >_<

I am an online shopaholic. -_-

Now a normal shopaholic buys anything. I on the other hand buy things I need (want). I mostly buy books. I mean it could be a bigger problem? I could be buying useless things. The only problem with me being a book shopaholic is…that my to read list never gets smaller. It is a never ending list. Which isn’t really a bad thing, except for when I get a new book I immediately want to read it. Meaning I ignore whatever book I am already reading. I am currently reading Five books. Four by choice. The fifth one is for my SciFi class and I don’t like it. Dooms Day Book. I just can’t get into and its due in a couple of weeks. Sigh. How am I suppose to read a 578 page book, if I can’t even get past the front cover? (ok that’s a little over the top) But its sort of true. Besides that book, I need to read the short stories for that class as well. Sigh. I want to read what I want to read, not because I have to for a class. Bleh!

Its an interesting addiction no? Being addicted to buying books? lol I just got a book in the mail and I am already ready to buy another one. But I haven’t. So I do have some self control. Now only if I can keep up this control for awhile. I can’t even eat chocolate! T_T I gave it up for lent unintentionally. How? Well dad caught me off guard . Meaning I was half awake? Half asleep? And he conveniently asked me when he was driving me to class. I just said what came to mind- Chocolate? Sigh. Its my fault. Now I can’t eat anything with chocolate until Easter. Woe is me.

Oh if you have a web cam immediately go (here) and make an account and follow me Kimmyduh. You know you want to. I find sites, similar to this one very entertaining. It sort of reminds me of Twitterin away. But only a bit.Well I better sleep. Or I will sleep away tomorrow yet again. So sad.