Inside Kimmy's Mind

So dating when you have no job is difficult.

I mean I’ve never had a job before so I’ve never had money to begin with. And I just recently started dating so I never actually had to worry about having cash on me. As long as I had a couple of bucks on me to put on my Q card I was good. I’m unsure how to handle the subject of money…or in my case lack of money. I know it is customary for the guy to pay for the girl, but I feel bad expecting him to pay for me all the time. I mean he has a job and works to earn his money. Now if I had a job then we could at least split the bill and I would feel better or at least take turns covering it. But I have no money. I actually had this discussion with him. His answer was, “It is absolutely 100% ok, I don’t mind paying for you.” I expressed to him my worries. He then said that if he couldn’t afford it he would let me know. I still feel bad about it, so I told him that we won’t always have to spend money to have fun I mentioned picnics in the park and bookstore scavenger hunts. In Houston there are great hidden bookstores. There is this one called Kaboom that I’ve been trying to locate. So hopefully we can visit a different bookstore on different dates. I’m a cheap date, and I always try to get the cheapest thing on the menu. So continuing on with dates. Mija and Jody wanted to get to know him so the four of us went to our Bánh mì place. He seemed to have like it. I hope he did, because I go there a lot. The sandwiches are $2.50, and that is cheap for such an amazing sandwich. They put this amazing sauce on the meat and I just love it. :9 Oh he picked me some flowers. Yes, like the ones pictured on the left, but the picture is actually of the first ones he picked for me. He sent me a  text saying for you,  I can’t help but think that was adorable. Flowers are delivered digitally now and days. XD He is so cute. He then said that he felt like an elementary kid picking flowers. The date went great, he was able to converse with my sister and bro in-law. I was worried, because Jay doesn’t play video games and that is typically how my sister and bro establish friendships. XD But they talked about movies and history and camping and seemed to have gotten along pretty well. I’m so glad because I really like him. And if my sister didn’t then it would have been a problem.  While we were eating dinner my sister snapped a picture of us. I look horrible in it but I’m sharing it because he looks cute in it. I just wish my mouth wasn’t open. >.< But oh well. I’m having a lot of fun spending time with him and getting to know him. After we had dinner we walked to this other restaurant and had some apple cobbler and listened to live music. It was nice. We then took the train back and got the car and called it a night. I said good night and we  made plans to see each other tomorrow. I’m working a table for the Indie book fest. I’m so excited. If you’re in the Houston area, you should definitely check it out…unless you are a hater of books, then do not come. Or do come and change your mind about them. XD I’m also going to meet his middle sister and her boyfriend. It will be my turn to impress an older sibling. >.< I’m so nervous. He has two other sisters and I know how sisters work. It just takes one to have a negative opinion of something and the others will follow suit. So I really need to make a good impression. Because she will be reporting to his other sisters and his mother. I can’t even think about meeting his mother yet. I know I’m gonna be 10 times more nervous when I do meet her. I told my parents about him as well. I even talked to my dad about him, and I never talk to my dad about guys. But he said on the phone that he is happy for me. It was odd talking to him about it,  but when he said,”How come I’m always the last to hear about things?” It made me feel kind of bad, so I’m going to include him from now on. I mean I’m an adult now. Why shouldn’t I be able to talk about guys with my father? Especially if I’m going to introduce him to my parents some time in the future. I hope we get to that point. Right now we are still just getting to know each other.

How does your family handle your dating life? Do you have a certain way of introducing him/her to your siblings/parents?

Oh yeah!!! I’m getting my braces off next week!!! I can’t wait!!! XD

So once again I’ve wondered into the dating world.

It always happens by accident and I don’t ever see it coming. It started with a caught glimpse. It sounds very conceited of me whenever I say this, but I really don’t mean it to. On Tuesday I went to my Fiction Forms class like normal. I sat at my desk. I said hello to my fellow classmates. It was a typical day. Soon enough class started, I was turning in a rough draft for a story I’m working on entitled, An Almost Beautiful Romance, I’m surprised I’m not bored with it yet. Anyway, so my professor started lecturing about Boldface and asked the few students who had taken part in it last year to talk about their experiences. After that he continues talking, as teachers often do, and then I look around the room at my peers. My eyes tend to wander  but more than usual that day. Suddenly I lock eyes with someone, I wasn’t sure if he was gazing at me, so I do what I normally do, I look away. I mean for me that is just habit, I lock eyes with strangers all the time. The universal move is to look away at the same time. But I noticed he didn’t look away not until after a few seconds, his gaze had lingered. So naturally I stare back at him. No blink. He finally looks down at his paper or back at the teacher and I return my focus to my teacher. I catch my peer’s gaze a few more times when finally I figured I should probably smile or something. I decided on a smile/nod thing. I was trying to relay the message, “Great lecture huh?” But since he can’t read minds I  don’t think he received that message. Well he stared in my direction a few more times throughout the remainder of class but I just pushed it out of my head. He was probably spacing out or something? So class ends, I say goodbye to my friend, and head out. As I’m walking down the hall I hear footsteps behind me. Which isn’t odd because I am in a hallway filled with students. :/ So I walk out of the English building and hold the door open for the person behind me. I continue walking when suddenly the footsteps are now next to me and the person they belong to asks me, “So how is your story going?” His name is…lets just call him Jay. Jay just so happens to be my gazing classmate. We had only spoken to each other two other times before and both were because we ended up in a group where we critiqued each others stories. I had noticed him in the beginning of the semester and during our second group time I even hinted at a group outing , aka lunch, with my two group members. I figured hanging out with him in an nonthreatening environment might be best. With writer’s you never know how they will react. They didn’t realize my subtle hints so I just dropped it. Turns out he’s actually interested in me. And has been getting up the courage to talk to me. The semester is almost over, so as you can see it has taken him some time to gather up that courage. But he finally did and it ended with me giving him my number and with a maybe date on Thursday. Which was last night. We went to Poison Girl (a bar) to listen to our teacher and two other writers read some of their work. The day started slow, and it was also pouring down rain. I direct you now to the picture of my rolled up pants and completely soaked d chucks. Those shoes are normally a lighter blue. :/ As my feet were submerged in water I just kept hoping that my maybe date wouldn’t be canceled. Luckily it wasn’t. I also made it home in time to shower and get ready. So yay! He picked me up around 7 and we went straight to the bar to grab good seats. This place gets packed pretty quickly. I met a friend of his who had already known my name. Meaning he told him about me. I forget he isn’t a typical guy I’m used to. He’s a writer, which means he likes to talk. The night was great, we talked and laughed and enjoyed awesome readings. I also talked to several other classmates. And I have a dinner planned with several of them on Monday night. I’ve finally made friends who I can hang out with outside of class and they are all writers. I’m excited to hang out with them. One girl, who is in my Shakespeare class was there with her boyfriend at the bar. I can really see myself hanging out with them. They are a nerdy couple who I would love to call friends. I’ve been in Houston already for 2 years and I’m just now fitting in and coming out of my shell. It’s a great feeling and I don’t want it to end. I was happy with the outcome of my date and we plan on going out again. Not sure when but I will make it happen. Oh I guess I should mention this, at the bar they have a wall of pinball machines. I think its relatively new because I didn’t notice it the last time.  But how freaking awesome is it? I mean it’s Spider-Man. I didn’t have any quarters on me so I couldn’t play. Oh and I finally used my Star Wars clutch at the bar. It worked out really well and I got so many compliments throughout the night. I love being surrounded by nerds. So yeah I had a great night.

Sorry for such a long post, I just wanted to explain the whole situation. I think I’m starting to like Jay, but we’ll see what happens. How do you handle asking out someone? Do you wait for them to make the first move or do you just dive right in and hope for the best?

So I watched this great short film a couple years ago. Let’s call it film A.

I lost it and every time I tried to find it again I had no luck. I finally located it and liked it right away, so I could find it if I needed to. I’m also posting about it so there is no way I can lose track of it again. While I tried to find this particular film, I found one similar only now I can’t seem to find that film. (I’ll call that one film B) -.- I need to really keep track of things I like like, thank god Pinterest exists now and days. Maybe while I search for film B, I’ll discover another film to boast about. I should be doing my homework but I thought I’d share this great short with the rest of the blogging world. Also check out the rest of the films on this channel, they are all pretty great. Film A, Beyond Words, is just so beautiful. I’m glad I was able to find it again. I think the makers and actors did an excellent job on making it believable.  Not exactly sure how I will find film B though, I really need to start remember the names of these films. Oh well I’m sure I will find it someday.

I was looking around at all the papers I printed out for class, and then I notice the sea of discarded candy wrappers. I can’t help eating a bunch of those Werther’s Original caramel candies. I know most candy does that. But what candy can you not resist?

Happy (late) Valentine’s Day!!! Or if you feel as though this is a ridiculous holiday then I hope you had a  Happy regular Tuesday. 😀

So I feel as though this holiday should be for everyone. Why must it only be for the people in romantic relationships? I love people too. Plus I think couples, mainly women, put way too much pressure on this holiday. I mean relax, just because your significant other forgot to buy you flowers or chocolate don’t attack him. Wouldn’t you rather have him do sweet things for you just because he wanted to and not because a holiday says he’s a bad boyfriend if he doesn’t? I mean if I was in a relationship, I would be happy with just seeing that person. Thankfully though I’m not and I can just relax.I mean I’ve only been in a relationship once during Valentine’s Day and he made me a card and spent the day with me. And that for me is a perfect day. So this year I decided to dress up for Valentine’s. I even painted hearts on my nails,  I went all out. I thought, why not? Might as well have some fun, and I actually enjoyed it too. I don’t usually wear red so when I found that this red blouse in my closet I just said hey cool. And then I just added the bow tie I made for Halloween. I think it ties the outfit together, I plan on make some more bows in different colors. So I got out of class early and visited Mija at her office. After she finished with work, Jody took us out to dinner for some Banh mi. :9 Great dinner.  Oh but I did get a Valentine from my mom. She bought me a frog plushie holding a heart picture frame, which she filled with a picture of her and my dad. Its one of my favorite pictures of them. I love my mom, she is just so cute. :smile:I had plan to make some Valentine cookies but I got home way too late and just lost interest. -.-

Well anyway that was my Valentine’s, I hope yours was just as nice and hope the rest of your week is just as nice. <3<3

So on Lazy Explorers, Chloe gave out blog Valentine’s and I just fell in love with the whole idea. So I decided to do the same.

My post for last Valentine’s was a bit…well cynical. So I thought I would be a bit more loving this year. I also made a button that you can put on your side bar for the duration of the month. If you click the one on my sidebar it will take you to Chloe’s entry.

Do you ever get that feeling that something is missing, that you are forgetting something important? Lately I’ve been feeling like that. :/

Today’s prompt was…

What is your heart full of?  What are the things that are consuming your heart these days.  This could be things that are hurting your heart, breaking your heart, or making your heart so full of love.

I know I’ve told myself not to worry as much, but that is easier said than done. Lately I feel like I’m not doing something something. My heart is broken because of this worry. Its not broken due to the end of a relationship. Its just, I feel like I’m wasting my life and not living it to the fullest. I hope I learn what it is that I’m doing wrong. Because I hate worrying about things. Luckily its just parts of life that I feel like I’m living incorrectly, I have a wonderful family and awesome friends. All who love me a great deal so its not as if I’m saying my life sucks. Because it doesn’t. I just wish I could find out what is making me feel this way. I want to Carpe diem the fuck out of life. But sadly I can’t. :/

Sorry for being on the negative side of things…I’ll try to be more positive tomorrow with prompt 12.

So my second semester at UH has finally ended. I just finished my last final tonight. And I’m a little bit worried about it. >.<

Now all I have to finish is my story revision for creative writing and then I go home for the summer. Of course my summer isn’t going to exactly be an easy vacation. -.- I have to take summer classes. And of course I have to take none other than my arch nemesis….MATH!!!! As I’ve said countless of times, math’s sole purpose is to DESTROY me! >.<

No matter how hard I try, math will always be my enemy but after taking this math during the summer I will only have to take one more. Thank god. And then I will be done with math. The I have two sciences and a second language to worry about. -.- Great.

So besides taking classes over the summer, I intend to finally get my license! I swear this HAS to happen THIS summer. I’m tired of not having it, I’m already going to be 22 this is so pathetic. :/ Besides that I also plan on getting a job, I need one so when I come back to Houston for the fall I can have work experience. Because I have had no luck in getting  a job without any work experience. I want to work at Berripop or Smoothie King. Somewhere I really love. Borders or Barnes & Nobles would be a nice place to work as well so I need to get a job over the summer. I hope that happens. I also hope to hang out with friends this summer. I don’t really have a lot friends at UH so going home and spending time with old friends will be awesome. I want to have movie nights and just have a good time with people I love.

Summer classes don’t start until June I believe, so that means I have the rest of May to work on Mind-Speak inventory. Yup my sisters and I plan on opening an Etsy store. Hopefully it will be open by November. I have a lot of knitting and sewing to do over the summer. I mention a book I bought a month ago, and I can’t wait to get started. There is sooooooo much I want to do. But I need to pace myself otherwise I will just get overwhelmed.

So yeah this is where I am at the moment.  I know not extremely exciting. :/

So I’ve been inspired to start updating my blog at least once every week. Starting with Things I love Thursdays. Many of the bloggers I admire, take part in this and I just think it is a wonderful way to update my blog more often.

1. Speaking of bloglovin’ I love it!!! Because of it I’ve found so many bloggers that inspire me every day. I get excited when my favorite bloggers have updated.

   

2. ~Adrien Brody <3<3 so adorable!!!

• Triplus Markers- They are my favorite writing utensils.

• Nail Stickers- I bought some lace ones and I fell in love with them, they are so easy to apply and they stay on for days. Next time I plan to get some color ones, they are so fun.

• Gulf Coast Literary Journal– I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS JOURNAL!  I plan to apply next fall for a job there, and I hope I get it. >.<

So there we have it,  5 things I Love. I plan do this every week, and the number of things might change. I just decided on 5 items this time because I didn’t put much thought into it. :/

The day lovers spends tons of money on saying I LOVE YOU in some big expensive way. Also known as Singles awareness day. Where the single people in the world feel like shit because they don’t have someone to spend that day with.

I am one of the few people that has never actually hated Valentine’s day whether I was single or in a relationship. Even though I am currently single, I have tons of people to say I love you to. Ok so I don’t have a romantic I love you to send, but why must Valentine’s be only for romance? It is a day to just remind friends and family that you love them.Even when I was in a relationship, I didn’t expect an extravagant display of affection from my boyfriend. A homemade card and spending the day with that person was more than enough. And that will always be enough. Its the cute and cheesy stuff I look forward to. And this is just how I am, because I’m not exactly great at showing affection. Which is odd because my parents showed me a lot of affection, I have the most lovable family in the world. And I have no problem showing them affection but when it comes to guys, saying I love you is something that needs to be earned. I’m a tough nut to crack and I feel sorry for the guy that wants to win my affection because it won’t be easy.  But anyway, why must being single on this day be such a negative thing? So you are single. BIG FUCKING DEAL. This does not mean you will be single for the rest of your life. Singles should enjoy this day just as much as lovers do. So singles out there could spend this day doing either of the following…..

For single Girls

1. Watch your favorite cheesy romance movies. (My favorites include Pretty in Pink, A room with a view, Going the distance, 500 days of summer, TiMER,)
2. Screw watching your weight and PIG OUT. I just ate a ton of chocolate covered strawberries and puppy chow. XD
3. Make a yummy treat. :9 ie chocolate covered strawberries or puppy chow. (basically anything chocolate is great. Or if salty is your thing make some nachos or some type of dip.) Making it is tons of fun.
4. Make belated Valentine’s for friends. If you are anything like me you wait until the last minute to do things. >.< its a curse. But it will give you something to do.
5. Play LEFT 4 DEAD!!!! KILL SOME ZOMBIES! Or any game you prefer.
6. If you prefer to go out, hang out with your other single friends and go to the movies or go out dancing.

For Single guys

1. I really have no idea what a single guy would do on this day. I would say watch your favorite porno, but I’m sure you do that often enough as it is. But we’ll just call that your favorite movie.
2. PLAY VIDEO GAMES. Kick some zombie or Templar ass! You should be happy you are single cause chances are if you don’t have a nerdy girlfriend that enjoys playing video games as much as you do, you would probably be stuck with a high maintenance chick who would be expecting a whole lot of something that your bank account just doesn’t have at the moment.  So be happy.
3. Pig out and burp and scratch your balls. Be a man and watch football. (I don’t know I’m just using a stereotype, cause I have no idea what else to put.)
4. Hang out with your other single friends.

What NOT to do.

• DO NOT HAVE A ONE NIGHT STAND! I REPEAT.
• DO NOT SLEEP WITH SOMEONE YOU MET AT A CLUB JUST BECAUSE YOU FEEL LONELY.
• You will wake up feeling like shit and hoping that, that rubber on the floor was actually used in this ridiculous attempt to make you feel loved. For what lasted… what 4 minutes?…ok 8. Does that make you feel better?

Ok maybe I over stepped some boundaries. But seriously. You shouldn’t feel ashamed for being single. You should be enjoying life and having fun. But in a safe healthy way. Because we all know club guys have all kinds of stds.(sorry if you are a club guy) And we all know that club chicks are all a bunch of coke whores with daddy issues. (There are those boundaries again. Sorry I guess I should say not all club goers are this way, and I apologize.) So spend this Valentine’s having fun with either some single friends or family members so you don’t wake up with some unknown guy/girl in your bed that you have to kick out in the morning. Cause lets face it, we all known whatever lie you think up to tell them is the biggest BULLSHIT.

Song for today is by Neon Trees: Animal

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So have fun. Eat a bunch of sugary goodness and Happy Valentines Day. <3<3<3

So I had my first Jury Duty experience. And I must say I understand why it is something most adults desperately try to wiggle themselves out of having to sit through.

Yes I receive ten dollars for taking time out of my schedule to partake in. And then an additional $40 until the case is settled. But that is only if you are selected as a juror for the case. Anyway, I went int at 8:15 am and then was told to come back at 1. When I came back to the court house the judge called roll and then dismissed us explaining that all his cases were canceled. So we have fulfilled our jury duty summons. Yay! Of course I was sort of hoping to have it extended and get chosen so I could get 40 dollars. Money is the only reason I wanted to do this in the first place. (I know greedy me.) Ok I also did it because it was something new to experience. :p And although it was annoying it was interesting in some ways. Minus the part when my stomach made loud unflattering noises. Stupid nervousness. >_< Anyway, after I was fnished with Jury Duty my mom picked me up and we drove by a fabric store. I love buying new fabrics. … continue reading this entry.