Inside Kimmy's Mind

So on Monday, the weirdos and I went to another Gaymer’s Handheld meeting. It was so much fun, got my ass kicked in a few Pokemon battles but at least I had fun losing.

Half of the restaurant was taken over by nerds with board games and handheld gaming devices. It was amazing. Not only were the friends that I made last time there but I befriended a few new ones and even invited another friend to join in on the fun. Here we are playing a game of Mario Kart. I never made it past 5th place, damn turtle shells. Of course my alter ego, Randall, made it to first place after I handed over his ds. But seeing as he is part of me I technically won. Go me!  I gained a few new miis, which is always exciting, however I was stuck in a poison room, in the find mii game, and lost the chance to use any of them to move onward because none of them were the right color. But I did gain puzzle pieces so I should keep that in mind. That is important.

Ginger also gave my sisters and I awesome bracelets for Christmas. She is just so freaking amazing. They are similar to this and another amazing thing about it is that she made them in our favorite colors  by chance. She knows us! 😀 Do you know how hard it is to find like minded people? After you are lucky enough to find said people it’s always nice when you actually become friends with them. That’s how it was when we all met Ginger. And now we are meeting awesome gaming people thanks to these hangouts. I should take more pictures, but I always tend to forget when I’m having fun. I look forward to hanging out with everyone again. 🙂 So Thursday is my mom’s birthday. My sister’s and I are still trying to figure out what to get her. Sadly I won’t be able to see her until Sunday, if her and my dad come back from their weekend away. I’m hoping to see them both because classes start next Monday and that means I’ll be back in Houston. I’m a bit sad about this, but then I’m also a bit glad. All I’ve been doing is eating and sleeping. I’m getting tired of being lazy and I need some type of schedule to follow. -.-Bring on the stress of studying, reading and writing.

Ok. It’s later than I thought it was. Damn SVU for distracting me. >.< I’m going to lay down, knit for a bit and then get some sleep. Night.

Thanks for reading.

It is almost 2013. By the time I push publish it will be 2013…2013 how weird.

2012 was a pretty good year, minus the part where my dad fell and injured himself.  I went to Boldface for the first time and loved it, minus the heart breaking part. But I don’t even regret that part, I learned a lot about myself and what I want out of life and I don’t regret learning that. My family and I also spent the year getting ready for my sister’s wedding and it was amazingly beautiful. (glad it’s over and done with :P) Totally worth all the stress though.

You know what, I don’t really have anything else to say besides HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! I hope everyone is having a wonderful New Year so far and gets safely home after they finish drinking and partying it up. I myself spent NYE with my wonderful family playing games and eating a bunch of sweets. :9 I might regret that last part later but for now I am happy. So here are some instagram pics and stuff!!!

Song of the night is The Leave Behind by this guy. I love this song. How did you spend New Years Eve? I hope you had/ are having fun.

[audio:http://numb.honey-vanity.net/wp-content/uploads/2013/01/TheLeaveBehind-FortChristmas.mp3|titles=TheLeaveBehind-FortChristmas]Thanks for reading, and again Happy New Year!

Bloggers occasionally update with a current blog entry so since I just want an excuse to update my blog again before the new year I’ve decided to write another one. 🙂

attempting to write out interview questions for Gulf Coast. But my brain is just being lazy and avoiding it.  🙂

listening to Where the Sidewalk Ends by Shel Silverstein. My sister was given this cd when she was in junior high and I’ve been thinking about these poems recently and how the voice of Silverstein totally brings them to life. This is one of my favorites, but I have several favorites so chances are I’ll share those as well. 🙂

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loving my time at home. I’ve been pretty lazy, but it is so great to just relax and not worry about deadlines.

reading The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky. I’m just about done with it and I absolutely love it. Saw the movie as well and was pretty satisfied with it.

watching a ton of Christmas movies on TV. They aren’t the greatest but since they are practically the only thing on, and my mother loves watching them, I don’t mind watching them with her.

knitting some new hand warmers and hopefully starting a new scarf. So time consuming, but Texas weather is so fickle. By the time I finish the scarf I won’t even get to use it.

hating that my sleep schedule is so screwed up. I keep trying to get it back on track but that is easier said than done. :/

And on that note I should just end this post. I plan on updating again soon, the year is coming to an end and I want to squeeze in some last minute entries before it’s 2013. I feel like I didn’t blog enough towards the end of this year or even just this month so I want to make up for that.  I have several topics I wish to discuss so look forward to that.

And as always thanks for reading. <3
 

Another Christmas has come and gone and no matter how old I get, I still anticipate the opening of gifts. I see no point in waiting until midnight, seeing as no one in my family expects an actual visit from Santa.

 I can’t remember the exact age I stopped believing in Santa. It had to be around 4th or 5th grade, my younger sister and I would wait up until around 5 in the morning because that was the earliest my parents would allow us to open gifts. My older sister stayed up to assist with the wrapping and the consuming of Santa’s cookies. She was also there to make sure we were in our rooms and “sleeping”.  I always tried to actually sleep on Christmas eve so Christmas would hurry up and arrive. But try as I might, that never happened. Now we open presents pretty early, it took a bit of persuading but my mom finally caved. What? Just because I am 23 doesn’t mean I can’t enjoy the holiday and act a bit childish. We waited until after dinner to open gifts on Monday. The Weirdos were in New Orleans for the holiday so they opened gifts on Friday and we got to open our gifts from them. Our parents were given a record player. We went to different record stores to find them both albums. My favorite record store in Houston is Allrecords the owner Fred is just wonderful. He knows practically everything about music so he is always helpful. His store is down the street from Mija’s office so Kat and I went to visit her and made a trip to his store last week. If you haven’t got the time be careful because Fred the music man will talk your ear off. Anyway, back to the gift opening. I have basically everything I could ever want/need. So when my mom asked me what I wanted this year I just said whatever is fine. I was totally surprised to receive the gifts I did. My parents bought both Kat and me a new laptop. Windows 8 is completely different from Windows 7 and Vista. It will take some getting used to but I love it.  Now if only they made cool cases for it like they did for macs. -.-  Along with the new pc, I got a few ds games, I already finished playing Resident Evil Revelations. The damn zombies would fall from the ceilings and scare the heck out of me. But still the game was pretty fun to play, of course I nick named a bunch of the zombies after genitalia. i.e. penis tongue and vagina cockroach. Lovely images no? XD

She & Him- Christmas Day- I don’t like too many holiday songs after being in choir for four years. So I thought I’d share one that isn’t a classic. [audio:http://numb.honey-vanity.net/wp-content/uploads/2012/12/SheHim-ChristmasDay.mp3]

It’s weird updating my blog on another laptop. I spent most of the day logging in to all of my social networks, and let me tell you remembering certain passwords was tricky. I usually add my age to the end of a special word and use that as a password. The dumb thing about this is the fact that I do age. So that number changes. -.- So I sat there typing that word and ages 18 to 23 hoping it was one of them. I’m an idiot. It was brilliant at the time, now I it just leaves me feeling frustrating. I managed to figure out all of my passwords minus my Skype one. So I had to update that one with a new password…I already can’t remember what I used. -.- So bad. The best thing about this new laptop is no more alien sounds! My past two laptops both made alien noises whenever I used Skype. So I’m excited to know that those sounds are gone. Now I may Skype in peace.  Christmas was fantastic, dinner was great and spending time with my family has been so much fun. I’ve done nothing but sleep late oh and read…for fun! I had to read so much over the semester that now I can actually read for fun and not worry about a quiz. So nice. Oh and I just found out my grades for the semester…not all good news. Two B’s and D…plus. :/ I knew passing that class would be impossible. Good thing is my GPA is still in good standing. I’m upset that I didn’t pass this stupid class. The most annoying part is, is that I just needed about 5 more points for a 73. That would mean passing. This Spring I need to really study more. There is always one class that I let fall on the back burner. I can’t allow that to happen anymore.

Classes for the Spring:

• Literary Studies- Mon. 4-5:30
• Cr. Writing…the one I somehow managed to skip-Tues and Thurs. 11:30-1:00
• Contemporary Novel – Tues and Thurs. 2:30-4:00
• Gulf Coast …not a class but I’m interning again, this time on Wed. 1:00-3:00

And that is my schedule, Monday’s I can sleep in and I don’t have a class on Wednesday’s aside from interning so that leaves plenty of room for reading/writing and studying. I need to hurry up and graduate already. :/ pffft Anyway, I hope your holiday was splendid and may your new year be just as awesome.

Thanks for reading.

I have spent the last few weeks finishing up with finals. I haven’t updated a real entry since before Thanksgiving and I’m really annoyed about this.

Yes I still have unfinished entries waiting to be typed and published but I have been so busy with school and Christmas shopping/knitting that I haven’t had the time to sit down and write. And every time I do, I get distracted with a million other things or I fall asleep playing Pokemon. Yes Pokemon. A friend gave me a ditto so I’ve been breeding Pokemon like crazy. I can’t believe that I managed to study with everything that seems to distract me. But I did it and I took my final and who would have guessed that studying actually helps. XD I should do that more often when it comes to tests and exams. In all seriousness though, I think I did pretty good on the test. Here’s hoping.

Anyway, so Christmas is near but the weather is being fickle and refuses to remain the proper winter temperature. It is rather upsetting, especially when I’ve been knitting and hoping to use the items I’ve knitted. Anyway, a couple of weeks ago the weirdos and I attended a gathering of awesomeness…aka Gaymers handhelds. A meetup where like minded nerds meet up and play video/board games. The majority of its members just happen to be gay men. And it was wonderful. I met several lovely dudes and am in love with each of them. They were so friendly and welcoming I had a blast. One of my new friends even traded me a Ditto!!! Now if you haven’t played Pokemon then this won’t interest you but if you have, then you know that this means you can breed other Pokemon. And the good thing about this means you can trade with other people. I’m on a mission to collect Pokemon that I’m actually familiar with.  Yeah I’m a nerd.  Anyway, so after making a ton of new friends I saw this video that was just absolutely perfect in every way.

This is what I’ve been missing all along. A gay boyfriend. XD I even had a knitted date with one of my new “boyfriends”.  And then I found out I was nominated for Best Female Gaymer, I’m flattered but I hope I don’t win. Me being straight might offend the female gaymers who are in fact gay. So I’m hoping one of them win. I’m not too sure exactly how many members are lesbian but I’ve only ever been to handhelds so there might be more than I think there are. But it still makes me happy that I made an impression on whoever nominated me. :3 Makes me feel special.

Being done with finals is so refreshing. I plan on updating more and maybe in vlogging here and there. I cannot wait for Christmas. I’m excited to give my parents their gifts. Ok, so I just noticed the time, Kat and I have a big day planned for tomorrow…well later today. So I should just end this entry and get some sleep. >.< I got distracted with movies. Also, you should watch this mini series. You will love it.

Thanks for reading. 🙂

Holy crap, it has been far too long since I last updated. Several blog worthy events have been piling up. But when I finally get a chance to update, I get like two lines in and then have to either finish reading a book for my lit classes or I am too tired and save it for tomorrow. But “tomorrow” never seems to come. I still have to finish writing about my sister’s wedding. :/

I spent this holiday at my parent’s house, I haven’t seen them since Mija’s wedding so we definitely needed the family time. I’ve been super lazy, I didn’t do any reading like I should have. I just watched movies and ate….a lot. But I have been knitting. I’m knitting a scarf for a friend as a Christmas gift. I’m trying out a new pattern and so far it looks really good. I am pretty proud of it. XD I’ll share pictures over at Mind-Speaks…after I give it to her of course. Thanksgiving dinner was amazing and I hope everyone else had a great holiday. Both my parents worked on Thursday so we had our dinner on Friday. But we also went to Walmart for Black Friday. And people are insane. They were similar to zombies feasting on a body. I was shocked. You should have seen how crazy they were over just pillows and towels. I think some people were just grabbing crap just so someone else wouldn’t get it. They took some satisfaction in seeing a person disappointed because they didn’t get what they were aiming for. How sick is that? Other times I saw people eyeing carts, as if they planned on grabbing things out of them. O.O Why are people crazy? There was even a bit of drama while we waited in line for a TV. It involved people who let family members cut and a woman who would leave her cart in line to save her spot. As long as my mom got her TV and we weren’t injured, I didn’t care what other people were doing. My siblings waited in line for movies and video games. They managed to grab two copies of Dishonored, two of Black and White Pokemon, Dance Central 3, Skyrim and Red Dead Redemption. And then several dvds, great loot all in all.

So now that my lazy holiday is over I now need to concentrate on finals and essays. My last final is on the 14th and then I’ll be done for the semester. I have two essays to write, due next week and two tests this week. Oh joy. I wish all my essay writing for the semester was done. I have no idea what to write. I need to start planning it out seeing as they are both due next week. Pffft great. This sucks.I can’t believe it has taken me this long to post another entry. I plan on making haul video soon. After I finish writing essays and whatnot, so look forward to that. I’ll try to update soon, I still have a lot of drafts to finish.

So, what did you look forward to eating this year at Thanksgiving? Mine was pumpkin pie and green bean casserole. :9 Thanks for reading, next entry I should have pictures and music to share.

“Guilt burned like vomit in my throat.” -Leslie Feinberg, Stone Butch Blues

So I guess my friendship with bus dude isn’t going to work out. Yesterday, we had a conversation that did not end very nicely. I had misunderstood him completely and he did the same with me. I automatically filed him into the friend zone after our first dinner together. After said dinner, I let him know that I wasn’t looking to start anything up and we  agreed to be friends. We texted back and forth, but we only hung out once more, in person, after that and it just further proved that I wasn’t interested nor ready to date. I figured I didn’t have to reiterate because he never actually showed any real interest. But who am I kidding? When a guy asks for a chick’s number that is a sign he might be interested. I was in denial. He never told me he was interested in me as more than a friend and I just clung to the idea of a friendship. He then told me that he wasn’t sure if he was interested, but as he got to know me his  interest grew. He told me he was willing to wait. Willing to wait? WTF? Why do guys think this is romantic to say? Bus dude is the third guy to tell me this and frankly I find it annoying. Willing to wait? You don’t know how long you would have to wait and you don’t know who you will meet during that waiting period. Oh and I think my feelings should also be a factor in this equation. Life throws obstacles at you and you cannot guarantee that those obstacles won’t end up changing your mind. It doesn’t make you a bad person, it doesn’t mean your feelings weren’t real, it just makes you human. I told him that the longer he’d wait, the more I would end up seeing him as a friend.  He then said that time was a more pleasant alternative and lets just see what happens. I translated that into, “Shhhhh. I’m not listening to you or your feelings and I figure if I wait then you will come around sooner or later.” I cannot control who I have feelings for. Those feelings just happen.

I feel as though this should be the theme song to my blog. 

I really wish bus dude had been more upfront about his intentions and then I could have reminded him of mine. I refuse to believe that a single male and female are unable to maintain a friendship. Is that really all that impossible? Will feelings on either end always develop? I’m frustrated and I feel bad for hurting bus dude but it wasn’t as if I wasn’t honest from the beginning. Towards the end of the conversation, I told him that as long as he didn’t form any expectations then he could do as he pleased. I didn’t mean to sound cold-hearted but I didn’t want any more misunderstandings to occur. And don’t give me this crap about how nice guys are always exiled to the friend zone. They are exiled there because they, A. are either too much of a pansy to speak up about their feelings or, B. a chick just really cannot imagine being in a romantic relationship with them. Forgive me for not being able to change my feelings to match his. I’m just getting more angry as I think about this. I feel horrible how this ended but I don’t think I made a mistake. I know where my feelings are and I can’t change them. Part of me thinks my life would be much easier if I didn’t have these feelings but I’m tired of feeling guilty for still having feelings for my ex. Yes, he was a dumb ass but I can’t help that I still like him. I really want to blame him for my current situation but this is all my fault. I was the one who gave bus dude my number and I shouldn’t have assumed that he was only interested in a friendship. So now I’m out a friend and I feel like a bitch. He ended with saying I’m going to go away for a bit. I translated that to be, “We are no longer friends and I don’t want to speak to you.”

This is going to make future bus rides very awkward. -.- I guess I should just ignore the opposite sex for awhile. No friendships or relationships. Just pretend men do not exist…yes I’m being dramatic. I know.

Thanks for reading.

P.s. Is this karma for going through high school with no drama what’s so ever?

So I’ve had the song, Dog Days Are Over, stuck in my head already for 3 days straight. I’ve been playing it on repeat and now I plan to get it stuck in your head as well. Mwahahaha!!! But it’s a good song. I love the music video for it. Florence is dressed in a pretty dress and then as the song progresses she resembles a Japanese kabuki actress. My favorite parts are her arm movements in the beginning and then the chorus. I actually have no idea what it’s about, but I like it and the music video so I hope you enjoy it.

So the other day I found out that my high school boyfriend knocked up his girlfriend. That sounds weird out loud. I met him when I was 16 and we dated on and off again and then when I turned 18 it became more serious. Our relationship ended when I turned 19 and that was that. We talked a bit over the years but we were never really “friends”. Can one really be friends with an ex? Anyway, so the girl he dated after me didn’t last very long and I have no idea how long he’s been in a relationship with his current girlfriend but I’m assuming he’s happy. I’m not bothered by this I’m just really shocked. Not by his ability to impregnate just by the idea of him having a child and becoming a father. It’ s just so weird. 0.0 So much time has passed and the boy I knew is long gone. I haven’t spoken to him in ages but we aren’t on bad terms. He was my first boyfriend, the first boy I ever kissed, ect. ect. It’s weird but I’m happy that he’s happy and I wish him and his growing family all the best.

So over at Lazy Explorers, Chloe is hosting an amazing blog hop along with three other great bloggers.  Click the banner above to get to the main the entry and check it out yourself. I’ve already found a bunch of great bloggers thanks to this.

Well I’m exhausted and I have no idea what I’m still doing up. Good morning/night. :3

Thanks for reading.

So this past week was pretty busy. A perfect week to end a perfect Birthmonth. That’s right, I pretty much celebrated my birthday all month. XD

Last Monday, I went with a friend and had the chance to hear Junot Diaz read from his newest book, This is How You Lose Her. A collection of breakup stories. He was wonderful, I never thought much about an authors ability to speak in front of an audience. It totally makes you want to read their writing more if they are great speakers. And I never thought about even getting a chance to meet an author. But that is one of the good things about living in Houston. I’ve had the chance to meet several different authors since moving here and it has been amazing. My friend and I stood in line for about 2 hours to get Diaz to sign our books. He was just so friendly and adorable, a lot shorter than I thought too.  I really wish I was able to buy his new book but that will have to wait. My too read list is much too long at the moment and have absolutely no time to read what I want to read. Moving along to Wednesday, Mija took me to see Beauty and The Beast the musical. It was so amazing! Like I’ve mentioned before, this is my favorite Disney movie and it was such a huge part of my childhood. To be able to see it as an adult it was just a wonderful experience and I can’t thank my sister enough for doing this for me.

Instagram Pics

1. Glitter Chucks: These are my bridesmaid shoes. Yes, they are freaking awesome.
2. Junot Diaz autograph
3. Beauty and The Beast Playbill and ticket. Totally framed it. >.<

Continuing on with the rest of the week, Thursday night I went to Poison Girl for the end of the month Poison Pen (reading series) and had a blast with friends. I always have such a great time at this bar and had just the one drink this time. ;P  Friday, I spent the day with my sisters and bro. We walked around the Galleria and played an exciting game of, I Spy the quinceañera dress. Let’s just say it wasn’t very hard to spot them. -.-  Saturday, we met up with some friends at the bowling alley and then went out for pizza. It was a great night filled with a lot of laughing and nerd talk. I love hanging out with people who are just as nerdy as I am. :3

So I was doing my daily blog browsing and discovered this. This is Willie Nelson. I wrote a short story about him over at Joy’s blog and she totally illustrated it. How freaking adorable is that? I love her blog. :3 You should totally go and leave a character description or story for her to illustrate. She is super talented. Thanks again Joy.

Today’s song,  Right as Rain by Adele. This is the only song of hers that I really like listening to.  Ok, I’m off to finish reading about orgies and Mexicans before going to bed. (Hence the title)[audio:http://numb.honey-vanity.net/wp-content/uploads/2012/10/RightAsRain-Onesongfavs.mp3|titles=RightAsRain-Onesongfavs]

Thanks for reading. 

Kellie Winnell over at Give a Girl a Blog just updated her blog with a great post and I’ve decided to snag the idea. :3

Loving :  There a ton of things that I am loving at the moment. One thing being the people in my life. Time with friends and family is just so important to me. I mean there isn’t more I can say besides how lucky I am.

Reading : Due to my two lit classes I have a lot of required reading to get through before actually having a chance to read something I want to. Most of them I can read pretty fast, but sometimes I’m just not  in the mood to read and I’d rather just play video games. I am now starting my second book for my Mexican Lit class entitled Bless me, Ultima by Rudolfo Anaya. Only on chapter four so can’t say if I like or not.

Watching : Just finished watching the first season of Tales of the City. I had to read the book for my G&L lit class so I decided to watch the series as well. Pretty good.

Thinking about : Homework. I have two tests coming up. I have horrible test anxiety so I’m hoping things go well. And the deadline for my first paper is coming up at the start of October and I’m actually having problems with finding a topic. -.-

Looking forward to : Actually looking forward to next week. I have Junot Diaz reading on Monday and then Beauty and The Beast musical on Wednesday and possibly a Poison Pen reading on Thursday.

Not looking forward to : TESTS AND DEADLINES!!! -.-

Listening to : I’m actually listening to Fallin’ by Connie Francis. It’s featured on the new Target commercial and I just can’t get it out of my head. I’m putting this song on my sexy song list. That’s right. I have a list of songs that sound sexy to me.

 

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And since this post lacks pictures, here are several instagram photos from the past few days.

1. Sushi for dinner!!! :9
2. My free birthday scoop at B&R
3. Közi can now be outside. Bad thing is, he’s gotten used to being in doors and wants to come in more frequently than he used to.
4. My best friend had her second child on the 15th. Her name is Lexie, she’s so tiny and so freaking adorable.
5. I had lunch with another friend and she crocheted me some flowers. I’m usually on the giving side of handmade gifts so this is my first time receiving a handmade gift. All I can say is that it’s a nice feeling and I hope others feel that way when I give them something I have made.
6. Yesterday, I missed my bus so I decided to take the train instead of waiting for the next bus. I won’t be doing that very often, even though the train is so much more fun to take than the bus. >.<

Thanks for reading.